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Did BD last night and this morning. I am ovulating so I am very excited. Hopefully things are going to look good in the next couple of days. Dreading AF's visit. Maybe she will not pitch. Hope she doesn't. she always rocks up at the wrong time. Justin is fabulous. We are really getting on well at the moment. let me not speak to soon. I feel that our relationship can only get better. I love him so much. His birthday is on the 14 December and I am looking for something different to do this year. something more romantic, something that he is going to never forget.
Tyra is good as well. She is getting so big now and I just cannot wait for a new addition to the family so that she will have a mate to play with. she still asks me for a baby sister and on certain occassions a baby brother. LOL! I don't want to seem too positive, lets just wait and see.
19 November 2007
Didn't BD whole weekend :( I cannot believe this has happened. It could have been the right time for me. I know I said everything must happen naturally from now on but seriously, I feel like I lost out on a Great Opportunity. Am I psycho. Yesterday Justin and I went to visit our friends who have just given birth (a month ago) to two beautiful baby boys. They are so adorable little twins and I got sooooo unbelievably broody that i got angry and wanted to go home. We ended up staying because Justin is the boss and he makes the calls. They are TINY and I fed one and held him. My heart was sore because if my little angel I conceived in January lived, I would have giving birth round the same time. Sob...sob...
Ya so that was my weekend - nothing spectacular. Gonna BD tonight and hopefully something happens!!!

23/11/2007
So my AF is due on the 29th... I just have to say that I have picked up a couple of cm on my waistline and I am quite bulious at times... BUT this could be my mind playing tricks on me. i mean can you fall pregnant a month after miscarrying - not even a month?
I don't know. I am so tired. i am tired everyday and I know that symptom or my body could just be exhausted because of the m/c. i am NOT really giving my all to TTC but I would love to fall pregnant again and maybe this time my baby will live. I feel like my career might be taking it's toll and that I am going to have to work harder because I want to get further. Maybe having a baby isn't such a great idea. I mean I am young right? anyway... i am falling asleep here at my desk and I have not a clue as to what is happening to my body. Justin is fine and so is queen Tyra-Leigh. I love my family to bits but sometimes I just feel that I am the only one giving it all I GOT!
IT'S THE WEEKEND BABY!!!!!!
TO EVERYONE TTC - HAVE A WACKY, NAUGHTY WEEKEND WITH TONS OF BD AND HOPEFULLY IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS WE MIGHT SEE A BFP FOR SOME OF YOU!
ALL THE BEST AND LOADS OF BABYDUST!
26/11/2007
I am due for my AF on the 1st December... I hope she doesn't show... I somehow know that i should have waited a bit, but over the weekend... Actually I was sick at work on Friday. Nauseas and extremely dizzy - My mind could definately be playing tricks on me. I was ill the whole weekend with dizziness. Although feeling nauseas before all meals, I had to eat from hunger pains due to an increased appetite. I don't know what i am feeling. I am tired - extremely tired and I wonder if it could be possible that I am preggers again? I don't know. I want to be, but my body hasn't even had time to heal after the m/c. Anyway, to everyone reading my page - wish me luck and have a great week!

30/11/2007
I got my period last night at 19h30pm. I am really upset and sad and depressed.
I don't care. I have stopped Trying To conceive. I am happy with just one little girl and when it happens again, I will welcome it but if it doesn't, too bad. I am not going to revolve my life around craving for a baby! It's just the three of us until one day we get a surprise...
Today is CD 20 of a 30 day cycle. Hopefully this means good news. I have been ovulating from the 14th January to 22nd January and did baby dance everyday from the 14th. This has to be good news right. Yesterday I started experiencing tenderness in my boobs and today they feel tingly with nipple tenderness. I have no clue what that means but I am hoping. I am due for Aunt Flow on the 2 February and dreading her visit. She might not though 
So now I am playing the waiting game. I will test on the 09 February if no sign of AF.
I am not getting my hopes up because my mind plays tricks on me. It would be great to get a BFP to make my wish for a 2008 baby true... I have until April to fall pregnant then I will get a 2008 baby, but if I don't it will have to be 2009... I just cannot wait anymore!!
Congratulations to all who got BFP's recently! Good Luck to all of us TTCing... xSinds
04.02.08
Dear all. I just thought I would update you quickly. i got my period right on schedule on the 02.02.08. So definately a BFN for me. I have realised that maybe it is just not time for me to have a second baby and because of that I have STOPPED TTC for now and possibly thinking of going on a contraceptive. I honestly can't cope with all the frustration and emotion anymore. I guess I will have to find something else to close the lonely gap for my 3 year old daughter - maybe a puppy or kitten eventhough I hate pets... I want to thank everyone for their support through my time of trying to conceive.
I wish all the TTCers the best of luck with trying for a baby and everyone expecting soon all the best with the new bundles of joy. I honestly need a break to just think about what i really want out of life. Maybe my completeness that i was yearning for is not meant to be in the form of a baby, but possibly something else also exciting. Maybe it's a sign that spending more time with my 3 year old is necessary. There are lots of things I can do to close the gap and from today I will be starting. I guess this is bye from me.... To Evryone good luck and GOD BLESS!!! Love Sindi