Now about that baby of ours! We found out in August of '07 that I was nine weeks pregnant! Talk about being shocked! We are very excited and nervous to become parents at such a young age but know it is what is in store for us. I will be giving birth to a beautiful baby boy in April! Damian Scott *Daddy choose his name* will be a miracle baby! We can't wait until our bundle of joy comes in and stirs it up a bit... we are actually counting down the days! ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________

Pregnancy Journal!

January 11th 2008

So I am twenty seven weeks and five days along. Boy has alot happened. Scott and I have moved back to where family lives and we our starting our life anew. Getting prepared for our son. Since we have been back though I haven't been to a baby doctor at all..... not since Nov. 19th '07. That was like forever ago it seems like. Since then our son has grown or has snuck a ball in there with him *wink*. He has become more and more active as the days go by. I just wish I could see the little guy. There is times though I wish I could pop him out now so the backaches and unusual pains would go away... but I know in the end it will be worth it once Damian is placed into my arms. Well that is all for now... boring I know but more to come!!!!!!!!

January 12th 2008

So I am getting confused. Certain things say I am twenty eight weeks others say I am twenty seven.. I wish I knew for sure!!!! I put in the same due date yet nothing ever comes out the same. Guess I'll go with twenty eight... if not I am a day or two behind. Today has been one of the worst days of my pregnancy. Uncomfortable pains, cramps, all of a sudden my nausea came back. I didn't know what was happening. Pains I haven't felt before, strong pains the type that worry a first time mommy... I almost asked Scott to take me to the er.. but every time I go there they treat me like a retard. I hate not knowing what is going on in my tummy!!!!! Then if I say something people just go *oh wait it gets worse..* Wow thanks for the advice.. ugh!!! Well besides the uncomfy pains and just uncomfyness all together I guess there is no exciting update :(

January 14th 2008,

So I finally get to update you on baby.. bout time lol. So like I said in my last update about the sharp pains in the lower girl area and my tummy well they got worse and worse and just became unbearable. I could barely walk, or transfer from laying to sitting or the other way around. So Scott* my fiance* said it is time to call the E.R. Usually he is right about those type of things but I hate going to the hospital... I have never really been the type who was always there so it kind of scares me... ecsp. when it comes to our son. I called and the lady of the phone was all (Sweetie, not to scare you or anything but you should of been in here yesterday....)Oh whoa was all I could think.. they wanted to see why I was having signs of contractions at only twenty eight weeks. So we went in.... WOW WERE THEY SWEETHEARTS! Not only did they make me feel comfortable they made me feel as if worrying was not a crime. They put me on the monitor and I wasn't having contractions, they couldn't figure out what the pain was from so they went inside of me...I have a yeast infection, and didn't know about it. It had gotten so bad it was the reason for the contraction like pains, the headaches, and the ickyness I have been feeling. So they told me what medicine to take *which the directions scare me* and to drink cranberry juice.. guess it is good for pregnant woman. But she did say Damian is healthy as can be.. a very active baby and has an amazing heart beat.. which was amazing to hear due to the fact that we hadn't had any update since November.. only eleven more days until the next doctors appointment... that is as long as everything goes welll *fingers crossed*

January 16th

So I just realized that I am in my third trimester!How exciting is that?? I don't really have much of an update... makes me sad! But Little Damian is a kicking machine still. I was talking with my roomate last night telling her how the doctor was so excited about how active Damian was *when I thought he was being calm for once* she told me that is never a good thing. Said her brothers were active and ended up almost strangling themselves due to it.... now I am worried.......

January 27th

Wow! Talk about a long eleven days lol. Everything is going well. Had a baby doctor visit on the twenty fifth. Was very boring it was me meeting my baby doctor for the first time. So millions of questions, and basically an outcome I knew was coming. *You are behind* dur! So the next day I had to go get labs done. My glucose test which I do not have the results too yet, and my antibody screening again. I am rh- therefore I have to have rhogaine shots, so my body wont form antibodies and attack the baby... I get to find out Monday or Tuesday if II am diabetic, and if I need to go back in for a shot. If all went well and there was no call that means no baby doctor until Febuary twenty third... that is forever and forever away!!!!! My doctor didn't talk to me about ultra sounds or anything... all I got to do was hear his wonder heartbeat... OH BUT the doctor did move up the due date till the third. Says he looked at my last ultra sound *which was from december* the baby was progressing pretty fast lol.... so we will see!!!!

Febuary 5th

So I got the call back :(. I was shocked. Then again so were the doctors. Since I had gotten a Rhogam shot at nineteen weeks I should of tested positive instead I tested negative. But no worries they just gave me another shot in my side. *This one stung a bit* But then they let me go. I also found out I am anemic. Something dealing with my iron. So now I am on another pill making it four brands, seven pills a day. Talk about druggie. No never! The pills are all baby safe and doctor prescribed or reccommended. Damian though is getting bigger I can tell myself so can others. It seems like I wake up and my belly gets bigger overnite and his activity is at times active or medium but intense. You can defiantly tell I am pregnant when all of a sudden something moves from right to left clear across the tummy... It is absolutly AMAZING! Well when there is more to update I'll update ya!

Febuary 16th

Well I don't have much to update. It just has been so long :(! Although I have been having some of the worst pains in one of my bones. Mom says Damian is just stretching me down there getting ready. But at times I can barley walk, lay down, or do anything it hurts that bad. On top of this I am getting sick, ugh and when I get sick I get whiney because I rarley get sick so it sucks! But on better note I am staying with my mom finally! WOHOO! I hated living with the in-laws to be and finally Scott and I had enough. So he gets to stay here until he leaves which is the 26 :(. Yepperz that soon.... I'll be bawling my eyes out forever!. Well next doctor appoinment in now the twenty fifth.. FOREVER AWAY! Update ya when there is news.

Febuary 25th

So I finally had my doctors appointment.. about fricken time lol. I have been waiting forever, I was even nervous for this appointment but don't ask why cause I wasn't so sure for myself. Well we got there and everything was going smoothly. Weighed me in, Checked my blood pressure which is doing AMAZING and then we heard the babies heartbeat. My Mother was with us, this was her first time hearing Damian and she was all giggly and all bubbly it was adorable. So after that we asked our nurse if she thought my doctor would let us have one ultra sound done today due to it being Scott's last appointment with me, and she went and begged the doctor. So I even got to see Damian ... well somewhat lol. My doctor said that he was faced down and healthy as can be. So when we were about to leave I joked with the doctor telling him no vacations until I have gave birth and he said don't think so I am vacationing spring break which the week I am due... I was so upset when I heard this.. he said don't worry Damian will be here by then.. I was shocked... because my due date is in April... and spring break runs into it but starts in March.... So my baby can be coming within two -three weeks... I am so not ready :( Like I want him here but I am going at it as a single mother basically... Am I ready for that???Scott leaves me tommorrow.... I am dreading it.... but I have to keep thinking it is what is best for our family.. and pray to God that is the truth.. Well next doctor appointment is the tenth of March, and I have a hospital appointment for my heart murmur.. well whenever they call me so update later.......

February 28th

Okay so yesterday I went in for the heart test. I was a bit nervous because I was unsure of what was to come. It went well actually. I waited and waited and when we got into the room we jumped right in. He had me strip all my clothes off *besides pants and panties* and get up on the bed. He had to push on my boob so hard to see my heart, I was in alot of pain. My girl area was also hurting very bad also, then it didn't help when he put me in odd positions. Lets just say I was ready for it to be over.... After my heart test though he worked his way down to my tummy.... *that is not his job lol* but he was soo obseesed with my stomach. It was adorable. He acted like a child when he saw the baby. It was cute. He had to mention how big he looked but I am not too worried. Oh and guess what I DROPPED! Well we think I did lol. I look different if that counts... so we will see. eekkkk only 11 more days till my next appointment. I can't wait! Oh and Scott *the fiance* never left so he might be here for the baby yippee!!!!!

March 12, 2008!

So I had a doctors appointment yesterday! Nothing really exciting! Never is. I am beginning to hate me ob! He never even pays attention to me. Like two weeks ago he told me to expect Damain way soon, now nope!!! I mean my appointment ain't until the 24th. Talk about weird. I am always confused when it comes to him.But I did get my GBS test done, still waiting for the results. Oh and the report on my hearttest was there too. But my ob couldn't understand what the doctor was stating. It was about wether or not I will be able to push during labor or not. Basically saying I can deliver natural or go c section... fingers crossed for natural!!!!!!!!!! Well that is about all!!! sadly:( I just wish I knew more about my baby, I mean I have no idea what he is weighing in at, how big, I mean I know nothing:( && It is breaking my heart. I just can't wait until Damian comes, that way I know lol... well babyshower is in 3 DAYS WOHOO!!!

March 23rd 08

So I have lots to update on lol! First off HAPPY EASTER! I was really hopeing to see Damian today, but he was a no show :(. Anyways lets fill ya in! So March 15th I had my BABYSHOWER!!!! I was soo nervous. Everyone I invited was either fighting with someone else I invited, or was just stuck up and I knew would say something. Which of course there was whispers, but I ignored it and had fun! I got so spoiled, or should I say little Damian got spoiled. We can honestly say * We are ready for Damian*. Which we were a bit nervous for, not knowing when he is coming and not being able to be ready for him broke my heart. BUT now I am just counting the days down. But back to my story lol. So anyways Babyshower morning, we are decorating, getting things ready and I get told to go shower. I go in and have too pee first *of course*. After peeing I wipe and notice my mucus plus. I WAS LOSING MY MUCUS PLUS!!! I was scared, I thought I was gonna go into labor the day of my shower. But nope, the shower went well and people were heading home except family who stayed afterwards to hang and chill. Well later that night I started having bad back pains. I was playing cool as if nothing was wrong, but my aunt Pebbles and Scott noticed the pain in my face. My aunt asked me to explain the pain to her, which was hard because it was in my back. Lucky me she had back labor so could relate to what I was going through. Everyone thought Damian was coming that night... But sadly no. So everyone who was left at the house took bets to see when Damian was coming... every one is out but like three people.

It is kind of funny. Everyone asks have ya popped him out yet? Well, I am still fat as can be and my hands are empty so I am gonna have to say NO! I want him out though, lately he is being stubborn and making me so uncomfortable. Like today during the Easter egg hunt * Easter is a huge day to my family* I was out hunting eggs and ended up in tears. I don't know if it is a back contraction or what but they hurt! Other then that I haven't had any signs of contractions, or any other type of sign telling me Damian is coming. I don't think he ever will either. I have an appointment tomorrow, hopefully I'll find something out. Never do, so I shouldn't get my hopes up :( Well besides back pains, and an increase of girl area pain I am still hanging in there. Fat as ever and wanting to be done, but that aint up to me. Keep ya updated!