March 20th 2008

Well where to start.... lets start with the whole Tricare deal that made me go to the ER in the first place. I was suppose to have an appointment today at 9:45 at a civi doc, but 2 things prevented me from doing that, making me cancel my appointment. 1 was my records from Drum weren't there yet, bc they sent them in the mail and 2 according to them i needed a referal from my primary care doc, which i got, but it couldnt be in writting it had to be put in the system with tricare. And until that was done they would not see me. Well as some of you know I had been cramping for the past 2 weeks off and on, kinda like pain when you get ready to start your week. Plus with the weight loss i was kinda worried that the stress was getting to me and baby so i wanted toget an appt. quick to make sure everything was ok. well since i had to cancel my appt i asked tricare if they would cover an ER visit since i couldnt get in to see a doc, plus the nurse said i should go anyway, better safe than sorry. Tricare said it would be covered so i called my mom from work and told her to be ready when i got home to go to the ER.

We got to the Snellville ER at 7:15pm. the place was packed!!!! I got my vitals checked pretty quick, but it took them 4 hours to register me! In the time that i was waiting my lil peanut was moving like crazy, kicking kinda low. Especially everytime I cramped, which seemed to be about every 25 to 30 min apart. So finally at 11:30pm they get me back to the room to take 6 vials of blood from me thru my hand...that is the most painful thing every. My mom couldnt look and I’m pretty sure i squezzed the blood out of her hand. Then they went looking for peanuts heartbeat...they found mine no problem.They said it sounded irregular so they put me on a monitor to make sure everything was ok. Peanuts heart beat they found all the way down in my pelvis, which my mom said was kinda low.

Then a hour later they took me to a GYN exam room saying I was gonna get a pelvic exam to checkmy cervix and see where peanut was at. I had to strip down and sit on the table in a gown for 2 hours until someone came and got me for a ultrasound...bc the GYN on call was too busy. That room was cold and with the IV still stuck in my hand i couldnt get comfortable. So they roll me to the radiology department, all while telling me mom she couldnt go. I get there and the ask me for i think the 5th time what the problem was, when my last period was and if i had felt the baby. You would think someone would write that down. So the technician started the ultrasound...found peanut right away...HEAD DOWN..about 3.5cm away from where my cervix would end...why peanut was that way i had no clue. The heartbeat was 145 bpm. Then the tech asked if i wanted to know what I was having...uhh duh of course..it took a minute bc the lil booger was squirming all over the place, but finally with the butt facing me...we saw it pretty clear...lol A BOY!!! the tech said he was kinda jealous bc he wanted a boy.. But my lil man was measuring 20 weeks 4 days and at 13 onces ( thats where all my foods going).

They wheel me back, doc says my cervix is still closed but to take it easy since the baby's was head down, but the peanut would maybe rotate back around. And they said NO more stress...easier said than done right...

So thats my lovely ER story, which was topped of by my " dear " hubby getting mad at me for not calling him when I decided to go to the ER and sending me a message saying " Yay a boy that I' ll never see bc of you " gotta love it. What he does know is i sent him a txt saying i was going...so maybe that wasnt good enough. oh well. so today i finally got my referal to go to the doc and now i can shop for BLUE!!!

March 24th 2008

well ladies I am still cramping and it seems to be getting worse. i can feel my lil boy punching me below my pelvic bone. So today i have ANOTHER appointment to kinda follow up on my ER visit. hopefully they will be able to answer my questions better than the stupid doctor in the hospital.

UPDATE:
the appointment went great. doc said everything was right on track and not to worry about the cramping. so in 4 weeks i go back for my monthly. in the mean time i'm going to relax and enjoy my lil boy.

March 30th 2008

6 months today!!! yay. it's amazing how all this has flown by so fast! I am enjoying feeling my lil man kick and move around too much too worry about him. My next appointment is about 3 weeks away and I'm starting to think about paying for a 3d/4d. But other than that I am feeling great I am showing a lil bit but not enough to were ppl actually believe I'm 6 months. still no weight gain, but I can tell Evan's appetite is increasing which is making me eat more. Hope everyone else is doing well!! YAY for August babies!!

April 5th 2008

WOW 23 weeks already it's crazy how time is flying by. Evan is getting stronger by the day and I absolutly enjoy feeling him move around. It's my new favorite thing to do :) . Other than being tired a lot I have no complaints. I have been walking everyday now to build up some stamina bc I am SO out of shape it's not even funny. My next appointment is less than 3 week away and I also have a dentist appointment set up for May 5th to get my teeth cleaned.... yikes. I'm nervous about that appointment seeing that I have not been to my regular 6 months appt like I am suupose to. Haven't heard from hubby is a cpl days which suits me. His goal seems to be " make the pregnant lady cry" because all he does his say hateful things. I'm trying not to let him affect me and just concentrate on me and Evan, sometimes its harder some days...somedays it's not at all. But it's getting better. Hope everyone is doing well and having a healthy pregnancy so far :). Have a wonderful week!!!

April 13th 2008

YAY for 24 weeks! This past week has been pretty quiet. Evan's kicks are getting stronger and i think sometimes he gets the hickups, which is really cute. I also got another ultrasound from the ultrasound tech that comes to the doctors office i work at for FREE!!! I got to see my lil man kick and squirm. it was so awesome!!! In 2 weeks the tech will be back and he's gonna do another one, this time I'll get a video and some pictures that I'll try to get posted on here!! hope everyone is having a good weekend!!

April 20th 2008

So week 25 is here and the closer i get to my third trimester the more of those uncomfortable aspects of pregnancy start creeping up on me. I can no longer sleep on my back, i start to sweat during my sleep and ramen noodles are a no no due to heartburn. But what overshadows all of that is the fact that i am finally starting to show. I can finally fill out my maternity shirts and look cute in them as well. :) as far as hubby goes, wednesday i go to the legal office and see what i can do to legally get him to support me bc now he won't give me anything :( tells to borrow stuff from his sister who had 2 girls until he decides to come down and buy stuff...sorry but that's too late for me, so i'm taking matters into my own hands. This week i get my free ultrasound i'm so excited :) i can't wait to see my lil man again, who btw has calmed down a lot. He still has a strong kick, but isn't as active...guess he's having a quiet week. Other than that nothing has happened this week. No dreams of my baby yet, but definitly dreams of food :). I wanna say congrats to lolabean08 and Jacobi :). Your lil man is absolutly handsome and i think about you two everyday!!!! Love you both!! Hope everyone else is doing well!!!

April 21st 2008

well I had my monthly doc appt. today and it was quick and painless...everything checked out fine, gained a whopping 2 lbs...YAY so i weigh 151...what does a girl have to do to agin some weight around here? Oh well i'm not gonna worry anymore bc evan is healthy and i feel great. I left work earlier than i wanted to today, i had braxton hicks contractions all the way to work and back home. So i took a nap, sweated like crazy, woke up and was fine again.I mentioned that to my doc and she checked me just to make sure.... I'm 1cm dilated alreadys o she told me to take it real easy. of course my mom, who went with me said " see i told you driving 3 hrs a day to go to work isn't good...and the next time that boy callas give me the phone i'll give him something to think about. " lol she only means well. I can't believe i'm so close to my third trimester...time is flying..yikes!!! Oh the only negative thing i have to say is that i have to take that stupid glucose test AGAIN....ugh...for the third time....at least it's only an hour...

April 25th 2008

ONLY 99 DAYS TO GO!!! OMG YAY!!! I"M GETTING SO EXCITED!!! IT"S CRAZY HOW TIME FLYS :)

April 26th 2008

YAY 26 weeks today!!! another week and it'll be 7 months and on to 3rd trimester! I'm so excited. This weekend has been very quiet so far. Evan has been quiet too. He hasn't been moving too much lately, guess he's enjoying the quiet weekend too. But I have finally gained 5 lbs...woohoo :) . I'm excited about that. Finally all those snacks are paying off....or maybe it's just all the walking. Hope everyone is doing well and having a good weekend :)

May 1st 2008

So I had to go in for an appointment today, bc when I talked to the nurse yesterday about my BH and my swollen ankles and shins she told me to come in the next day. I was told that I need to drink more water, for I am now dilated 1.5cm....scary!!! And as far as the swollen legs go, she toldme to eat rice, wear stockings and walk a lil more at night and that should take care of that. Other than that it's been a stressful day and I can't wait until the weekend!!!

May 3rd 2008

Well finally week 27 and last trimester!! I don't think all this has really sunken in yet. I mean I am MORE than excited about having a baby, it's just not REAL to me yet. Maybe because I don't have a stroller or a bassinet yet, or more baby clothes. Maybe it will when I actually go shopping for all that. This weekend has been pretty mellow, actually got to talk to the father last night. He actually had the nerve to complain to me that he "ONLY" had $600 dollars...poor guy.. not really. I also told him that I don't think I love him like I used to, nor that I know if I want to stay with him. He got mad of course, but I am just being honest. I am to the point where I really really think that I can do this alone and would be better off that way. I have a great support system, awesome friends, and I am more than capable of raising Evan alone. I guess we'll see how it goes when he comes down for memorial day...if he comes. I never know when he'll change his mind.

But in other news Evan seems to not like the underwire of my bra. He constantly stretches and pushes on it, which I admit these walmart bra's aren't the best. I just think it's funny when I'm sitting at work or in the car i can feel his lil feet trying to kick it away. Oh I love him so much already!!!

May 5th 2008

LESS THAN 90 DAYS!!!!! I CAN"T WAIT FOR MY LIL MAN TO BE HERE!!!

May 8th 2008

I got my free ultrasound today!! we taped it, but no pictures :( . that's ok though because I got to see my lil evan!! his legs are super long and he was head down still. A lil lower than before!! like he was getting ready to come out... both me and the tech told him to wait because it's not his time yet :) . i love my lil baby so much already!!!

May 10th 2008

28 weeks today and I have been uncomfortable ALL day. I feel short of breath and like a balloon and I can't get comfortable no matter how I lay down. At least my feet and shins haven't been to terribly swollen this week. So weight gain as of today is 10lbs...I kinda float up and down, guess it depends on how swollen my feet are...lol. Evan has been moving a lot lately and it always puts a smile on my face when I feel him stretch. It has been pretty hot here in GA already. This past week it has been between 75 to almost 90 degrees and kinda humid and I'm already getting cranky about it. :( I'm not looking forward to the next cpl months...ugh. I have my 3rd and hopefully final glucose test on the 19th...so a week from monday. I'm not looking forward to that either.BH has slowed down a lot, which is very good. .. Other than that I'm trying to take it easy and not stress too much about anything.

May 19th 2008

So I had my test today, failed it. So next Tuesday I take the 3 hour one.....again. ugh. Oh well. Then the week after that I go in for my RH shot, and after that it's every 2 weeks from then on I believe. Everything has been going fine, well except for the father who has more mood swings than any 100 pregnant ladies on any given day. I'm not worried about it anymore. I've made up my mind as to what I am going to do and it's gonna be that way if he likes it or not. The world doesn't revolve around him anymore and I'm tired of waiting on him. On a lighter note my appointment today went well. I'm still at 10lbs total which suprises me with the amount of food I eat...lol. Hope everyone is having a good week so far!!!

May 25th 2008

The big 3-0!! Wow time is flying by. This week has been pretty mellow. I heard from the commanders wife and hopefully by next week I'll hear something positive from her. I have broken off all contact with the "father" it's not worth my time anymore. I have other things I have to worry about than him calling me names and such. Evan has been moving non-stop this week and has had the hiccups a lot too. It's feels funny and it's kinda cute. I can't wait to hold him in my arms. My feet have also been very swollen and won't go down even after hours of rest. So at my appointment Tuesday I'll ask my doctor about that and the dizzy spells and the white spots. Other than that everything has been going pretty good. I've gained another 2 lbs which puts me at 162. I love my lil Evan so much already!!

May 27th 2008

So I just got back from my doctors appointment and I got thru my 3hr test ok...I also graduated to 2 week appointments. I am now dilated to 2 cm and am officially not allowed to drive no longer than 30 min at a time. So i have to quit my job thats 2 hrs away. Evan is still head down and already 15 inches and is weighing in at almost 3 lbs. i got my RH shot too, next to being stuck 4 times...ugh...lol. So now my goal is to make it to at least 36 weeks...they would rather have me make it to 38 but we will aim for 36 first. About the swelling they said I need to eat rice and drink at least 12 glasses of water...that should be interesting lol...more trips to the rest room for me. So that's the update for now...please pray that evan stays inside me...he doesn't need to meet the world yet...his lil lungs aren't ready..nor am I...

May 31st 2008

So 31 weeks today and honestly I feel no change from last week...just an emotional change. I think the whole thing with "the father" is finally starting to get to me. Bc i think of it and it takes everything in me not to cry. Today he managed to be a butt again so I got home from work and threw away everything he ever gave me. Hope that doesn't make me a bad person but i just don't want it anymore. He told me that he loved me and I told him I don't. I can't possibly love someone that will be nice to me for 10 min and then call me every bad name in the book the rest of the day...he doesn't even ask me about Evan...well he never really has and I don't volunteer the information anymore bc he thinks I'm rubbing it in his face...so I just keep it to myself. I feel so lonley here lately. I so wanted to have him to share all this with...the kicks, the appointments the shopping, but I know I did the right thing. I guess I'm still no used to being on my own with this. Well I'm not all alone I have the greatest support system surrounding me, but a small part of me still wants him there. I think I'm gonna take a while to get over him. But I can manage. I'll soon have Evan to keep me company and that'll be the best thing that has ever happened to me!!!

June 7th 2008

I feel like a house already!!! And the GA heat is not helping me. lol I have been having migrane type headaches for the past week everyday now and taking tylenohl numbs it and then it comes back. I drink more than enough water bc it's so freakin hot outside...but the headaches and the spots will not go away. I have been to the doctor about it and she told me that it was just allergies. So this wednesday I have another appointment with my regular doctor and hopefully she will be able to give me more insight on this. BH have been moderate this week but have been going away with left side rest. Evan has also been very active which I enjoy...until he kicks the crap outta me and it literally makes me jump. It kinda hurts lol. On the "father" side of things nothing has changed and I will be going to more drastic measures this coming week. I cannot afford to just sit around and wait. It's taking too long and it's making me very mad. Weight has held steady at 163...we'll see if that holds true on wednesday lol...but i'm pretty sure it has, bc with this heat i haven't really been hungry and Evan's feet have been pushing my stomach so there isn't much room at all...lol. Also I have discovered my first stretch mark....right where my belly button ring used to go under my skin...it has been itching like crazy...I keep thinking that more are gonna show up on the lower part of my stomach on the left but i think it's a bruise....i think. That's all the exciting news this week...hope everyone is doing well!!!

June 14th 08

So I had my 2 week appointment wednesday and everything was ok..although i only measured 30 weeks, which the doc said was fine. weight gain is 15lbs which they also said was good. The headaches have gone away for the most part and the spots stayed....the doc said those are normal, since blood pressure varies so much right now. I need to scheduel a hospital tour and get my pre-registration paper work done. And find a pediatrition....ugh somuch to do it's crazy...i think I have almost everything i need for evan. still in need of a travel system and a bassinett, but i have a bath tub and most of the clothes i need... on the "father" front one of the guys i used to work with was a retired staff sgt and he called hubby's commander and they made him go to legal and fill out paper work for a legal seperation in the state of NY so he'll have to start paying me something... he's not very happy....actually he's pretty mad. lol oh well....lets see how that goes.