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My name is Abby, this is my 2nd pregnancy with my 1st child... I found out I was pregnant the first time on Feb 25, 2008 and we were so excited... The week before my 1st doctors appt I started feeling really crampy but being my first pregnancy I didn't really know what was going on, then March 18, 2008, the day before my appt I started bleeding very heavily with lots of tissue so we went to the emergency room and they told me I was miscarrying. I went home and passed everything naturally, I bled for 7 days and stopped, we were very emotional for that week and I couldn't get myself out of bed for much of anything.. I did not have a D&C or anything..

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To top things off I had to let go of my dog that week because my living arrangements had changed drastically in the months prior and I didn't have the heart to cramp him in a little apartment being an Australian Shephard/Border Collie mix, but he went to live with a 5 year old boy on 5 acres of land so I am sure he's one happy doggie... so in an effort to mend my broken heart my fiance (at the time) decided that I could get a more appropriately sized dog and I got a Chihuahua/Jack Russell Mix puppy that was colored very similarly to the cattle dog whose name is Shiloh.. I named her Daisy and we added her to our family the day before Easter. We also got Jake's dog who had been staying with his parents until we got stable living arrangements, she is a 2 1/2 year old Lab named Mckenna. 

We stayed in the apartment for another week before we moved into a trailer home that we are buying that has 3 bedrooms, 2 full baths, dishwasher, washer and dryer... so much more space than the 650 sq ft apartment.. We were gettng married on April 11 and having a reception/house warming party on the 12th, thats 12 days after moving in.. Not only did we move in but Jake built a fence by himself in those days too.. Everything went off without a hitch pretty much, well the dishwasher flooded the kitchen the night before the party which was our wedding day.. but thats life.. Its amazing looking back at everything that went down in 12 days.. Moving all of our stuff, we got an entertainment center and TV from an hour away, Jake built a fence, we bought a washer and dryer, unpacked EVERY SINGLE BOX and put everything away, hung things on the walls, all the while taking care of a new puppy and helping a little older dog adjust to moving for the 3rd time in one month... thats a lot to do but I needed it having just had a miscarriage just 2 weeks before...
Well after we got married we settled into the roughness of moving into our first home, being married, having both of our families (over 50 ppl) in our house and overcoming the miscarriage... we definately weren't riding on rainbows but we made it... We were looking forward to getting pregnant again now that we were SOOOO much more stable..

Around April 15 I started to feel all those feelings I had been feeling before the loss.. so we took a HPT and had a bit of a disagreement on whether there was 2 lines, we decided that I just knew where the 2nd line was supposed to be and that I was seeing things.. Well my pregnant feeling doesn't go away and for the next 5 days I dismiss it to an over active imagination, I am convinced that I just want to be pregnant so I convinced my head to make me feel that way, like a coping mechanism.. It was about day 6 or 7 that I was pretty freakin sure I wasn't crazy and I just knew I was pregnant... that would be about April 21, I went to the health department,that way I didn't have to decipher the test, they would have to and after about 2 hours of waiting the nurse came and told me that my test was positive! I immediately called my hubby and he was glad but both of us were VERY hesitant to be excited.. on April 25 my OB told me again that my test was positive and that they would do an ultrasound to date my pregnancy.. I was so afraid of that u/s because the last time or well the only time I'd had an u/s was when they told me that there was nothing there.. We were on pins and needles until May 8 when we got the u/s.. that showed a little bean with a strong heartbeat of 128bpm and put me at 6w4d pregnant... but we still knew we weren't in the clear so we still weren't ready to be really excited... I wouldn't have another appt until June 5 and we knew a lot could happen between then.. but as the days went by and there was no sign of blood, no sign of cramps and my pregnancy symptoms were so much stronger than before we slowly got more and more confident in this pregnancy... On June 4 I had a minor melt down because I had been being the good optimist throughout the whole month the other side of the coin was so obvious right then, because I was fine until I would be going to see the one person that could confirm my fear... the fear of a missed miscarriage.. I was so afraid that I would go to the doctor and she would say that we needed to schedule a d&c... but hubby held me until I had cried all my tears and we went to bed.. We got to the doctors and they came and did all the routine stuff, blood pressure/pulse/"have any pain?" type deal and left... minutes later another nurse came back and gave the disclaimer of "we may not get to hear it but i'm gonna try to see if we can get the heartbeat on this doppler" and my heart sank.. but she found it immediately, I heard it for a second and squealed, the nurse told me I had to be still and quiet so she could get a count so I just laid there and smiled... she said "170bpm, thats awesome" she wiped the gel off and said the PA would be in soon... and as soon as she shut the door I started bawling.. I had NEVER heard my baby before and it put me on the moon, I'm actually tearing up writing this.. :) so now we are waiting for our next ultrasound on July 3 which we have our next OB appt will be that day too.. so now that I have seen my baby and heard it just those times I am no longer in the mindframe with the fear of losing it.. I am not in the mindframe that we need to prepare to meet this baby in December...
Hey! Thanks for reading all that!!

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nickibella -
21.1 hours ago Just stopping by to see how things are going :) Glad its going gooooodd, belly is getting big :) notPMSimjusCRZY -
25.6 hours ago thanks :) well i guess theres nothing wrong with producing too much estrogen!! take care jenl645 -
Tuesday, 2 September Thanks. I've popped a little more since that photo was taken but I'm still pretty tiny. Baby and I have both been gaining weight though so I don't why it's not showing more. Oh well, haha, all in good time I guess. lemonysickness -
Monday, 1 September Yeah it is the other way around with Mike and me, but we keep each other in check haha. navyprincess0001 -
Monday, 1 September I love your name, it's different and unique, and thats why I pick my daughter name. I really do appreciate you taking the time to respond, thanks. lemonysickness -
Monday, 1 September Haha that is how the Daddy is. He has ADD horribly. lemonysickness -
Monday, 1 September Yeah this registering has taken its toll on me. And you are right, it is hard to look at everything you really want and are afraid you won't get. I've been lucky with the big stuff so far. I just look in the classifieds section of my newspaper for yard sales and especially estate sales and I got my crib for $20 (sanded and refinished it so it looks brand new) at a yard sale and the wardrobe which I absolutely love to death I got for $25 at an estate sale. And I found a woman who sold me her graco travel system with matching swing for $150 and it looks perfect on craigslist.org kwaggonerrn -
Saturday, 30 August Hello. I saw your husband's pic on the belly page and immediately recognized those shorts he's wearing. I live in Stillwater so I thought I'd pop in and say hello to a fellow Oklahoman. Good luck with everything. Congratulations! nickibella -
Saturday, 30 August FINALLY added a belly pic, go take a look if you wanna see, please comment.. too big? too small? healthy??
COMMENT :X Cami -
Saturday, 30 August I've read so much stuff and did a lot of research after I got my labs back today and had a really high liver enzyme count. Everything is pointing to Cholestasis and my Doctors act like it's nothing...I'm starting to worry. ~Alicia~ -
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