Wednesday, 14 May
It's a BOY!! :)))) and he is healthy. We are very very happy.
Tuesday, 13 May
Dare I say
it? My morning sickness is gone! I'm 19w and 3d and I seem to be able
to eat normally, thank God. Last week I thought it was returning, but I
think my stomach was just upset b/c I was stressing about work. And
today it was a little weird after lunch, but it serves me right for
eating at Burger King, even if it was a veggie burger. I'm wondering if
my appetite is normal, though. You grow up hearing about how pregnant
women eat entire pizzas every 3 hours but I've just been eating like I
would if I weren't dieting or if I were running everyday...like man
servings. I guess I'll find out when I get weighed tomorrow.
Tomorrow
we go for our big US to check the organs and find out the sex - I'm so
EXCITED! I watched a bunch of videos on YouTube to prepare myself on
what to look for in case our technician can't tell. i was surprised at
how different the equipment looks - it's pretty obvious when you are
looking at man junk or lady junk. i don't plan to paint everything pink
or blue, but i feel like it will give me permission to shop b/c it will
be evidence that things are going well.
i just want a healthy,
happy baby overall, but we think it's a boy b/c we originally hoped for
a girl (we figured Fate would want to keep things interesting). I've
come to love the idea of a little boy though too, so I will be happy
anyway. I'm thankful that I've had a pretty normal pregnancy so far and
what looks to be a healthy baby.
I feel like I'm a different species of woman. There are women
who are not pregnant and never have been and they kind of look at you
like, God I hope I'm not pregnant or God I wish I was, but for the most
part they are in the first group. Then there are women who have one
young child and, thankfully, tell you everything to expect and what you
should buy/not buy. They look at me the way I would expect my Mom or a
big sister would - they take stock of my tummy, how I look, how I seem
to feel. It shows that they care and they remember what it was like to
be clueless, alone and excited (thank you to all the new moms who have
helped me!). And then there are all the pregnant women. I feel like we
are a special in-between species right now, as if we're half
caterpillar/butterfly in the cocoon and only we really know what the
weather is like in here. I walk around most of the time feeling like
I'm the only pregnant woman on Earth, kind of alone in my experience,
b/c my husband can't really, really understand, I don't live near my
family, have no siblings and my 2 best friends seem to have fallen off
the radar for some reason. But I come on this site and I realize I feel
so instantly connected to thousands of wonderful pregnant women all
over the world. I see that other beautiful, ephemeral species to
which I belong to right now and then I don't feel alone anymore.
Wednesday, 26 Mar
Thought I was in the clear with the morning sickness - I was already stuffing my face with chicken burritos (Homer-esque salivation going on) - but got a couple waves today. It`s OK though because I was still flying high from my ultrasound yesterday. The tech checked the nuchal space, arms, legs, brain and everything looked normal. The best part was that the baby was moving around so much that she had to drag the wand around my pelvis to get a good enough shot to take the readings! He/she turned over on its side, bucked and put it `s hands up to its face covering its eyes as if playing peekaboo. I could have watched forever but it occurred to me that maybe the baby was thrashing b/c of the energy from the ultrasound (?). Got some awesome pics though. 9 months seems like so long to wait but then again it `s such a wonderful surprise to see how much he/she has developed since the last time. I `m not religious but I really feel like a miracle is happening inside of me.
Another interesting tidbit...was at a work meeting today meeting my colleagues for the first time. We went around the room introducing ourselves and when I finished my boss basically outed my pregnancy to the entire team! I had told her about my pregnancy 3 wks ago, but for some reason she thought it was her right at that moment to announce it to everyone else without asking me first. I was absolutely shocked. I don `t now about other peoples' workplaces but this has happened to me 2x! I feel like the only person who respects discretion at work.
Saturday, 22 Mar
nausea
is letting up a bit, but i still gag 2x a day. none of my bland
standbys - bagels, bananas, etc. - seem appetizing anymore, but i have
infrequent, spontaneous cravings for more adventurous foods now like
chicken tacos! still feel kind of lonely in all this. i told my 2
closest female friends (1 has kids, the other doesn `t) and they seem
to have fallen off the radar for some reason. i `m kind of hurt that i
have to call them all the time to stay in contact, that they haven `t
called to ask how i feel. my mom is always there for me though.
Any Suggestions?
I'm
trying to create a playlist for the baby - you know, songs that are
slow, beautiful, soothing, happy, singable (I'm staying away from songs
with 'baby' in the title or lyrics and just looking for tunes that
don't have to do with dumping a lover or depressing subjects) - but I
need help thinking of more. Can you suggest some? :)
P.S.
The player below is not my official list (that's on my iTunes) but the
Coldplay and P. Gabriel songs are generally what I'm aiming for...