Hi,

I found out I was pregnant in June, happiest time for me and my hubby. We were't suprise it was just a matter of time.

The first part of my pregnancy was horrible, you know how they say its morning sickness, well we pregnant women say its all day sickness and hubby's think we wine too much.

Had a few scares for the first four months but I survived them all, thank God. If it wasn't dehydration and listening to my husband telling me its my fault, it was breathing problems.

I rant alot so you can stop reading at any time...

A little about me,

I am the first girl for my mother and 16 years later she decided to have two more with a man who's name isnt worth mentioning. I met my hubby in 2001 and had my son in 2002... yeah i know that was fast. He is a truly great guy, just have some ruff spots about him that gets on my nerves.

In September I found out I am having another baby boy... Yeah!!!

Girls are too much work being the big sister to two little girls who thinks Disney and the latest trends are all that matter in life.

Today being 11/14 I'm feeling down, but I being pregnant you have those days. 1 minute you happy, next minute the world is coming to an end. I see the doctor at the end of the month to do my glucose testing, hope I past. Will continue to update page as day goes by... Believe my life is dramatic as hell, not with a hubby that cheats or anything but with a mother that gets on my last nerves (but I love her, because of her I have hypertension) HELP!!! I really need to stop helping everyone and solve everyones problems around me and do something for me for once. Wish i had a job apart from this on though, i hate it.

My Question

Okay, I need someones honest opinion, remeber that stepfather I mentioned that I said name don't worth mentioning. Okay herre goes...

When I was young I was (abuse) by him. I use abuse because if I say the right words I will cry. My mom doesnt know and I told my brother out of cofidence and he told my other brother then they forced me to tell my hubby. My hubby was very supportive and didnt hate me for keeping it a secret for so many years. Anyway my mom claimed she needed money from me to buy a vehicle because that was the only way she will leave him because she won't need him anymore (whatever, she is afraid of being alone). I was excited so my hubby and I gave her the money that was a month ago she said he would have leave in two weeks after i gave her the money. he is still here and i have to look at him, u see it didnt bother me that much over the years because I moved out of the house and he couldnt hurt me anymore but when they moved close to where I live he tried again when my husband travelled.( i told this to no one) and this pissed me off. I am forgiv and forget but when he tried again I realize I need to grow up but I am still scared to talk Im afraid my mom will hate me. My brother's say i have to tell her but how can i look at her and tell her that the man she claimed she love for so long hurt meso many times. Sigh... am i the most unlucky person or what. What do you think? should I tell her and make she hate me ot not tell her and be stupid. (I know tell her) but I am afraid she will blame me again, my mom is selfish and anot the most smart person when it came to men. I wish my dad was still alive he could tell me waht to do. there goes my blood pressure again....

So I have a team outing tomorrow to go to some cave, I dont want to go but I dnt want my team members to think I am not a team player. There is one particular guy that keeps talking about his relationships abt which man he slept with an such. I dont want to be mean and tell him I dont want to hear it so tomorrow I am gearing up that I can take his chatting. Hope the baby make me sleep tonight. Ouch.. my back hurts like hell.

11/15/07

Its Pay day. Yeaahhh, Bills are due, Noooo. such is life. So its Alecia again, had no sleep last night I am so tired, I haven't had much sleep for some time now. Wanted to take that Benadyl last night but decided against it. I have a team outing today and it is cold as hell outside, having snowflakes and we are going on a cave tour, sounds exciting. I am definately going to get sick.

My birthday is on Saturday, turning 25, Im growing up, Im 25 going on 24. For peet sake time does go by when u are getting older. Im really not in the birthday mood, I wish I was back home.

Thanks to all you guys that left nice comments encouraging me what I should do, I really appreciate it.

The baby was moving like hell last night, kicking all over the place at 3 am in the morning. He was being quite active, oh my talk abt ouch. I met some really nice people in the chat room last night, they were hilarious, some went into labor, some talk abt hubby's and all and it was so nice, some even vented their anger and unfortunately we had some loss last night. I prayed for those lost babies and moms that they heal.

I also took my on to the doctor yesterday, got a letter from school saying he failed his hearing test, turns out he is perfectly fine, Thank God and I found a very nice pediatrician in the process Im glad. Anyway I'm here will let you know how i survived my team outing today. Bye...

11-16-07

So my day yesterday was fun, our team went to the Ohio Caverns in Marysville, it was so cold and it snowed a little nothing too much to stick to the ground and the breeze was striking. We saw calcium cones and Iodine thing made from mother nature that took like 200,000 years to form, it was exciting, i walked about a mile and snapping pictures. When it came to taking the really good pictures my camera battery died, i almost cried so I just cursed under my breath and everyone was laughing after me. Half my face got frozen outside walking back to the gift shop because the van didnt come to pick us up. the place just so pretty and peaceful with miles of open land, made me want to just move out of the city immediately. Anyway i got some souvenirs and went to Applebees with the guys to eat. i was so hungry until i wasn't hungry anymore but when the food came the carnivore came out in me...lol. Well today little Dominick is moving and kicking can't wait to see him.

Later will catch up with you next time.