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Just wanted to say thank you to everyone for all your kind and supportive messages. They are greatly appreciated!

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About Me

Hi! I'm 22 live in the U.S. and am pregnant with my 1st baby! This pregnancy was not planned, so the father and I are highly considering adoption. Though it may be the hardest thing to do, it will only be for the baby's future well being. And I know it can bring so much joy to a family unable to have children. Financially neither one of us is ready. I've just always wanted to have "the perfect family". Have a house, be married, then children. I want my children to experience a normal life. I feel horrible bringing a baby into the world without any of that. She deserves the world and more, and unfortionetly, I can't provide that right now. So it breaks my heart : ( I feel keeping her would only be the selfish thing to do.

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UPDATE 5/21/08

So things have been pretty hard around here lately. The bf and I can't agree on the adoption subject anymore. He really wants adoption so the baby will have a much better and stable life. He says he loves her and just wants the best for her. I also want the best for her, but I just can't bare the thought of giving my child away anymore. I know I am being selfish, but I really can't help it. My family says they will help out in any way they can, and I'm sure I can make this work. Hopefully everything will SOON work out so I can have a HAPPY pregnancy like it's suppose to be : )

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UPDATE 5/29/08

So the boyfriend left me because of my final decision to keep the baby. He is now dating other girls. He still wants to take me to court for cusdoty after she is born... He called me a piece of sh*t and said he wants nothing to do with me until the baby is born. He can't be with someone who makes stupid decisions like keeping a baby. So frustrating. He keept trying to pressure me for abortion until I was 17 weeks! Now I have to deal with this..Grrr! lol. I'm sure in time he will come around..at least that's what I pray for : )

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UPDATE 6/11/08

Just wanted to thank everyone again for all your messages. Sorry I haven't gotten around to replying. Just been a poopy patato lately. My best friends don't even know what's been going on in my life for the past month at least. I guess I shut myself out from the world. Not meaning to, but I'm just never in the mood to call anyone back or anything. I feel bad. But anyway, things are still the same with the baby's dad. I'm getting so tired of his attitude and the nasty things he says for no reason. I really don't know if I want to cut him off completly. He doesn't deserve to have anything to do with the baby he never wanted. But she does deserve a father. So I dono. I was nice enough to schedual my 4d ultrasound next month in the city where he lives (2hrs from me) so he could go. I feel like I'm being too nice... but that's just how I am I guess. I need to learn to not let ppl walk all over me. Now I don't even know if I want him to go. I guess I'll have to see how he is until then.

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UPDATE 6/26/08

So things seem to be getting better. Not with the ex, but the whole depression part. I'm starting to feel more and more excited for the baby's arrival. I love being able to feel her move inside me. It always reassures me she's doing ok and that I made the right decision : ) As for the ex, same ol same ol. Starting to think he will never change. He told me I tricked him into having a child. Yea, umm..ok.. after debating abortion then adoption for so long.. it's obvious that's what I did..lol. Idiot. He said "it's like this is all I wanted" (to be prego). Not sure where he gets these ideas from.. but they are starting to become funny, since I don't even care anymore. As for the ultrasound coming up, he doesn't seem too excited and thinks I'm crazy for being excited for it. But I still think he needs to go..it might be an eye opener..Im hoping. Fingers crossed for July 5th!

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25 Weeks

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