....all of my life, I wanted a big family. I grew up with two brothers and a sister, and our family life was anything but boring. Our home was filled with life, laughter and best of all LOVE.

I've been happily married to my husband for over 13 years. We have 3 boys, my step son Danny who is 22 years old, our son Christian who is 7 years old, and Connor who is 4 years old. We have been trying to conceive since 2005, and have had two m/c since then, our last one in May. Thankfully, we are pregnant again, this time....with TWINS. I am a fraternal twin, my twin brother's name is Bryan. I never gave it much thought, that I could have twins, and now here I am. Pretty darn cool. Still, I pray that it is God's will that these little babies keeps growing and growing.

I have made some great friends on this site, a few in particular who are like sisters to me. Your friendship and love, means so very much, thank you for holding my hand through it all, and for keeping me focused and positive. I love you from the bottom of my heart. XOXO Allyson

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Twins...twins...twins....

10/23 - AF has packed her bags, should be gone by tomorrow....hubby is scheduled for a test on the spermies...hoping that they are in good working order so we can try again soon.

10/24 - Hubby can't get to the hospital for his testing, due to the fire, so we will have to wait until next week. But, the BD will not wait, we'll carry on, despite it.

10/31 - Day 14- time to get busy.....babydust to all! BD today.

11/2 - Day 16 - BD again today, layed in bed for 1 hour afterwards. Hoping that was long enough to keep those little guys in there! LOL! Had ovulatory pains today, throughout the whole day, pretty cool. We will BD again tomorrow, and then again in a couple of days. Feeling much better this month, as the stress level has definitely decreased. Maybe that is just what we need. BabyDust to all of my girls TTC, and to my girls who already are....xoxoxo to your little babies growing inside of you.

11/4 - Day 18 BD agains headed this way, two da today...lay in bed for a whole 1-1/2 afterwards, used preseed too. Feeling really good about this try. I don't know what it is, perhaps because I am more relaxed about it, but, feel a bit more "aware" of it all, if that makes any sense. My birthday is coming up, and we will BD again on that day, as a birthday treat to myself! :o)

11/5 - Day 19 BD again this afternoon, pretty sure I have nipped this in the butt, covered all my bases. But, just to be on the safe side, will BD again tomorrow.

11/6 - 38 years old today! Hubby and I picked this birthday as the day that we would stop TTC. But, we have been trying for so long, that we just can't stop right now. It just doesn't seem right. I've extended the TTC until the end of the year, hoping and praying that we don't have to wait that long. I really feel good about this month, and maybe, just maybe, we did it right this time. 38, I can't believe it.

11/12 - Like a BIG DUMMY....I tested early again. 5 days early. It was a BFN! But, I am still hoping that I am, and it could just be that there hasn't been enough time to build up that hcg. Won't test again until after Friday. Hoping that AF does not come. Please God,

11/16- Like a BIG DUMMY....I tested early again...only this time, I got my BFP!!!!!! On my way to the hospital to verify and to take a test there. Sweet Jesus...thank you, thank you!

11/16 - Hospital says I am definitely preggo! Now I just hope that this little baby thrives and grows, I really want this to be the chance our family has been waiting for. XOXOX

11/20 - Headed out for a week vacation with the family....we'll be back next week! Hope you all have a great TURKEY DAY, I am sure the resort has internet, so I'll check on you all while I am away.

I am still getting the run around from the Military Hospital, the bottom line is I am going to have to transfer to a civillian doctor. They ordered my hCG tests for after I get back, so we will know then. The bastards weren't going to give them to me at all, until I started screaming at the doctor, who very politely told me that they did not consider me "high risk" because I had only had TWO MISCARRIAGES.....when I've had THREE, then I would be high risk, and would get AMA attention. Can you believe that? I have not suffered or endured enough loss ladies.....as far as the military is concerned. Anyhow, I am not going to let this upset me, or the baby. Please keep us in your prayers...this first trimester is going to be critical. Much love......xoxoxoxo Ally

11/27 - Hey girls, will be back from vacation tomorrow. We have had a blast, and I am feeling great. I definitely took it easy, and am ready to get back in the game of life. You know, got bills to pay, and all that jazz. So if we get home in time, I will have my blood drawn tomorrow, if not then Thursday. LOVE to my girls..............

11/30 - Blood drawn yesterday, finally got my hCG levels, they were 33,000!!! I found that out after I went in to the hospital to change doctors, which I did, and my new doctor, seeing how concerned I was, ordered me an ultrasound on the spot. What we saw were TWO GESTATIONAL SACS! The yolk sacs were detectable, but no heartbeat as of yet. I will go back next Thursday to be scanned again. To say that I am in shock would be putting it mildly. I am totally jazzed, on cloud 9, and even more worried than before. I pray, and I ask that you keep us in your prayers, that it is God's will, that these babies grow. I am afraid to even leave the house. LOL!

12/6 - Had our second ultrasound today, and everything looks fantastic. I was overjoyed and totally relieved when we saw a baby in each sac, and the best part of it all, was the heartbeats. What an amazing sight. I had a good cry, and so did the hubby, we are on Cloud 9, and are feeling totally optimistic that we will see this pregnancy to the end.

12/18 - Had a doctors appt yesterday, had a bunch of lab work done, blood and urine. No ultrasound, but, I am not worried. I woke up this morning with very full, heavy breasts, and so I know that the babies are thriving in there. My doctor prescribed me extra calcium, folic acid, iron, and stool softeners (yipee!)

6-7 weeks old! TWO BABIES, TWO HEARTBEATS!!!!!

1/5 - I am not sure why, but I have been feeling a little down the last couple of days. I have begun to second guess this pregnancy, and am starting to make myself believe my pregnancy symptoms are going away. I know that sounds crazy, but, I can't seem to get myself out of this funk. I won't feel entirely safe until my appt on the 17th of this month. Not until I see and hear those heartbeats.

1/7 - First things first, I am feeling much better since I wrote that last message. Many of my sweet friends, gave me a (much needed) kick in the pants, and so I have shook those negative feelings, and am back on the positive side of this pregnancy. Thank you ladies for the wake up call. My appt is next week, and I just know that everything is going to be wonderful, and I can't wait to show you all a new picture of the babies. I wonder if at least one of these babies is a girl????? Please God, I want to shop for something PINK, that doesn't have dump trucks, footballs and superheroes on it. LOL! Guess we have a while before we will know for sure. Any betters out there?

1/17 OFF TO OUR 13 WEEK SCAN....WILL POST WHEN I GET BACK. I AM SO EXCITED!

1/17 - YIPPPPPEEEEEE!!!!!!!! We had heartbeats, we had bouncing babies, hands waving, feet moving! I cried the whole time. They measured 13 weeks 0 days. Right on track. I have to go pick up Christian from school, but, will post details when I get back, along with u/s photos. Thank you for thinking of us, and thank you for your encouragement, prayers and friendship....without it, this first trimester would have been unbearable. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE YOU GALS......XOXOXOXOXOOXXO x a million.

1/17 - So what else did he say, not sure as of yet if they are fraternal or identical, but we may find out on wed, at my nuchal translucency screen. My uterus measured in at 16 weeks, 3 weeks larger because of the twins, which thankfully, explains my BIG BELLY! I will post pics of that belly soon, since now I have an excuse! Everything else went great, and now I can go shopping for maternity clothes! Somebody pinch me.

Baby A = 13 weeks 0 days / Baby B. - 12 weeks 0 days - I had forgotten that my doc said one was measuring bigger than the other. (sorry for the size of the pic)

1/23 - Doctors visit went great today. Babies had normal nuchal fold measurements. So, it is hopeful that they do not have DS or neural tube defects. All other measurements looked great as well. The only problem that the doctor saw, was that BABY B, has only 1 artery and 1 vein in the umbilical chord, and should have 2 arteries and 1 vein. Because of this, the babies heart and kidney's will need to be watched closely. She said that babies who have this can and are born normal, but there is a chance it might not be. Not sure of the SEXES of the babies, but she is fairly sure they are fraternal.

2/6 - Not much happening here, just trying to get over a cold, and to make it through to next weeks appts. On Mon 2/11 we have the quad screen, and on 2/13 we have the 2nd trimester ultrasound, where we hope to find our the sexes of the babies. I think its a b/g, but, I have also been wrong for each of my pregnancies. Hope to find out that Baby B is growing as should be, and that the baby is doing as well as the other one. Best wishes to you all ......

2/11 - Got to hear the heartbeats today. Such a beautiful sound it was too! I've gained 10lbs. and my bp was a little high, so I need to watch that. Had blood taken for the Quad-screen. Sure hope the test results come back negative, but, am aware they could come back positive. Don't know if that means I will do the amnio or not. The thought of it scares me...so we'll just wait on that one. Wednesday is the big day for the 2nd trimester ultrasound, and hopefully we will find out g/b, g/g or b/b.

2/13 - Boy/Girl? Boy/Boy? Or Girl/Girl? Which will it be? The day is finally here! Will post when I get back.

2/13 - I should have known....my husband has always claimed to be a "Man's man" and after today, I do believe he is correct. I will first say that I am happy to be preggo, especially after trying for so very long, and as much as I wanted and was hopeful of having a girl....I will just have to be hopeful that my grandchildren will be girls. BABY A - confirmed B-O-Y! Baby B - the doc thought was a girl at first....(totally got my hopes up) and then later after another looksie decided it was a B-O-Y! I am not convinced, because the proof was not as "obvious" as it was with Baby A, or with my older boys. The baby did not cooperate with the doc trying to get a between the legs shot, and the picture he took was from an odd angle. So, my husband is holding on to the hope that we will see something different at our 5 mos appt in March. I would love to think that it is possible, but perhaps I am destined to be the Mother of BOYS! What a responsibility and how awesome would that be! So, thanks for all the thoughts of pink, but unless we see something different in March, I will have to think blue, BLUE, B-L-U-E!

17 weeks belly shot

2/14 - Will post the pic of the baby "parts" when I get back and you all can judge the photo for yourselves. Got to take my little one to the doc.

(L) Baby A, clearly a boy (R) Looks like 3 white lines to me, not a "boy" part.

Next appts:

3/12 ECHOCARDIOGRAM - Not a good appt today. The cardiologist thinks there may be a whole in the septum seperating the ventricles for Baby B, he called it Ventricular Septal Defect (VSD). Using the doppler on the ultrasound he detected "cross-current" between the ventricles. He was not able to get a "straight on" look at the septal wall, but believes there could be a small hole there. He says for right now its not urgent, as long as the baby is in me, there is not a problem, and has rescheduled a look at BB's heart for 4/9. Hopefully he will get a better look at it then. I am not going to freak out about this, I've prayed about it, and am hoping for the best. Should there be a hole there, they will take care of it after the baby is born.

3/13 - My doctor didn't show for my u/s scan today (stomach flu!) So, looks like Baby B will remain a mystery for a couple of weeks longer. Boy, I am beginning to think this baby really is a girl, with all the attention she is getting, and demanding. :o) I see my OB again on 3/31, then a radiologist on 4/8, and the cardiologist again on 4/9. You would think that with all of those appts, someone will be able to confirm the sex of this baby. I will feel much better, giving them names besides B.A. and B.B. I've decided not to think about the possible hole in BB's heart, I know that the babe is safe inside of me, and until we know more, there is no sense in worrying about it. Thank you for your prayers......please keep us in them. Sending love right back to you all!

3/24 - Scheduled 4D Ultrasound at 12pm. The tech says they G-U-A-R-A-N-T-E-E gender determination. If for some reason the baby doesn't cooperate, they will let me come back for free. Its gonna be a great day, and finally I will get my answer.......boy or girl?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

I'm going in girls........please let this be the day the baby shows itself....LOL!

D-r-u-m-r-o-l-l please.......Baby B is .....

The stem on the apple! Good Lord somebody help me, I am going to have 5 boys! I get to go back next Thursday for another scan on Baby B, she would like to get some better photos of this baby, since Baby A wanted to be the center of attention. That is it for me, now I can start concentrating on names for my two little boys. Thanks for all the dust gals, I am so happy to be preggo one last time and happy to be sharing it with you. Oh....I will post pics from the 3D later on today!

4/8- GROWTH SCAN - Baby A - heartrate 153, 1lb-12oz ~ Baby B- heartrate 143, 1lb-10oz

4/9 - 2nd appt with cardiologist about the ventricular septal defect in BB's heart. We are hoping that the hole is small, will post when I get home.

Great news....the hole in the septal wall is G-O-N-E. The cardiologists saw no sign of it, and it is just an amazing miracle, and we are so thankful to God, and for all the prayers said for this baby. Thank you.

4/25 - 27 weeks- Okay, so its been some time since I updated this blog, sorry for that. First I want to say Congrats to Julie, AmyJ, LolaBean, Dawn and Suzi on their beautiful bundles of joy! YAY for April babies! :o)

I had an appt with my OB last week, and he told me that the radiologist who did my growth scan noted that BB's kidney's were "enlarged." I asked him what that meant, and once again he hinted that it was a "silent marker," same as the 2-vessel cord, and together they could mean congenital abnormalities. So, feeling a bit deflated, but, I know that this baby is meant to be, and is loved so much by me, daddy, boys and above all else....he is a gift from God. I am thinking of Cayden as a boy name for this baby, it means "fighter"!

5/1 - 28 weeks - Had an OB visit today, my glucose screen came back excellent as did the iron in my blood. Lost 6 lbs, so the official weight gain so far is 21 lbs. Got to hear the heart beats, BA's was 130bpm and BB's was 150bpm. Didn't get an u/s today, but I have another growth scan next week on the 8th, with the radiologist. At that scan they will check to see if BB's kidney's are still enlarged.

5/8 - 29 weeks - Saw the radiologist today, and a growth scan was performed on the boys. BB's kidney's are still enlarged, but the good news is that they haven't gotten any bigger, since the last growth scan (1 month ago). That is great news, and he says I will have another one at 33 weeks, where we hope to see that his gestational age catches up to the kidney size. Thanks for keeping him in your prayers.

BB- 2lbs 11oz heart rate 141 BA- 2lbs 13oz heart rate 133

5/15 - OB appt today, expecting the usual weigh in, and maybe an ultrasound. If there are any pics I'll post when I get back. So glad to see more preggo friends on here, Jubilant35, Juniper Willow now join the ranks of HaveFaith. I am so excited for these gals, they all have been through heartache, and now have come through with blessed bellies!!!!! Yay for you! :o)

OB appt went well, back up to 30lbs gained. No u/s today, but have a follow up with the radiologist in a couple of weeks, so that should suffice.

6/5 - Had an OB appt the other day, got to hear the heartbeats, and the belly measured in at 38 weeks, even though we are only 33w. Doc says he think around 4th of July we will look for a date.

P.S. Congrats to Amanda and Maury on their BFP's!!!! So happy for you girls!

6/9 - Had an u/s done with a songrapher today, to have the kidneys checked for BB. I will get the results when I see my OB on the 19th. The boys are getting big at 33 weeks....

BA - 4 lbs 13oz - hb 138bpm BB- 4 lbs 15 oz - hb 138bpm

34 weeks - Belly shot ( for Jules ;o) )

6/19 - 35 weeks.......belly measuring at 41 weeks. Both babies were in the vertex (head down) position. Baby B is now the lowest, with his head already in the pelvis. Doc says its a pretty good chance that they will stay head down. I really want a vaginal birth, so lets hope and pray that they don't move.

BB's kidneys have "stabalized" (is that spelled right...pregnancy brain at work here!) Doc says that they are still enlarged, but not enough to order another trip to the radiologist! I am so excited and thankful about that!

I will start to see him weekly now, and go back on the 25th, where he will check for dialation. I've had alot of bh contractions, lots of lower back pain, and have no idea what is going on down there, as my hips and groin are always aching. So maybe I just may go into labor this time, on my own.

He asked how I felt about July 9th as an induction date.....I told him I thought July 6th would be better. He said I could have the membrane strip done at my July 2nd appt, and maybe I could get my 4th of July babies!

One last thing.......my oldest son Danny called to tell me yesterday that he has gotten married to his girl, and that they are EXPECTING a bundle of joy early next year. He told me he was making me a grandmother, while I was making him brothers!!!!!! We laughed pretty hard at that one. He is an excellent young man, and hard working individual. I know that he will make an excellent father, and husband, even if he is only 22. I told him I was praying that he got the "girl" I could never give him!!!!!!! Thats it folks! XOXOXOOXOXXOOX

6/25 - 2cm dialted and 5O% effaced. Getting closer. Going in on 7/2 for a membrane strip. Hoping that I go into labor soon. The boys are head down, and BB is presenting first. Hubby and I are doing our best in the bedroom (:oP) to help the cervix dialate....and not sure what else to do. Would love some 4th of July babies....

7/2/2008 Hi Everyone, its Allyson's sister Jocelyn!!! Allyson is dilated at 5cm and 75% effaced so she has just been admitted to hospital. These sweet babies are coming today!!! I will keep you posted the moment they arrive. We are so excited!! Cant wait to hold them in our arms.

7/7- Hello everyone, so sorry for the delay in updating. The good news is I am doing well, and have two beautiful little baby boys to add to our family. Kaden Gregory and Kellen James were born on July 3, 2008. They were delivered vaginally and 6 minutes apart.

With a heavy heart, I must add that one of my babies is having complications. As much as I have been dreading this, and some of you many know that I feared this, it appears that he may have a disorder of some kind. I am awaiting the results of genetic testing, and hoping and praying for a miracle, and the strength to handle this next part of the journey. He requires a ventilator, and that is our biggest obstacle at this point. The rest will just fall into place, as God shows me the way.

Kellen is doing well, and was the smallest of my babies. He has had the sole task of bringing in my milk supply, and he had done a fantastic job! I will post pictures later, once I get home from the hospital.

Thank you all for checking on us. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. Much love ~ Allyson

7/8 - My beautiful baby boy Kaden Gregory has Trisomy 13. This is one of the disorders that I have been dreading. There is no long term life expectency for my little one, as the doctors keep pointing out to me. I am heartbroken and yet full of joy that this little miracle has been blessed upon me, and I pray that God will help guide me through this next part of the journey. My little Kaden is a gift from God, just as his brother Kellen is, the only difference is that he came to me in a little bit different kind of wrapping paper. I see that, and am thankful to God for this amazing gift of love, and I will cherish him all the days of his life. There is so much more to update you on, but my mind is exhausted, so off to bed I go.

7/9 - Thank you so much for all the encouragement, and for your prayers. I have so much to do, and not enough time to message you all back. I hope you understand. I did want to share with you my day with Kaden, yesterday. As I have said before, Kaden has been on a ventilator, he was breathing on his own, but was also being assisted by the vent. He had been having seizures, and was being administered phenobarbitol to control them. The goal was to get him off the ventilator, breathing on his own, so that he could come home with us, so that when the time came he would have family around him. The procedure did not go well, Kaden took two breaths on his own, then stopped. The doctors were instructed by us to re-intubate him should this happen, and they did after much struggle. It was horrible to watch, and as his mother I just felt so helpless, that I could do nothing for him. He had a significant internal bleed, and the doctors have him stabalized at the moment. So now the plan for taking him home has changed, as I am not sure that I will have the strength to watch him go on my own. I would rather it be around professionals who can assure me that he will be in no pain when the time comes. His family will have a chance to say goodbye to him, and then his Dad and I, who witnessed his coming into this world, will be there holding him, when he leaves it. How blessed am I, to have this little miracle in my life? He has come to teach me a lesson of love, that I will carry with me forever.

*********************************************************************For all my friends who are TTC, this icon worked for me. Well IT, and alot of prayers and Babydancing! Good luck and Baby Dust.

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