So after writting a big long page on my life. Lol, i accidently erased it somehow so here it goes again. Ok, my name is Amber and I have a gorgeous 3 and a half year old little girl whose name is Mackenzie Danyel. Although she was somewhat unexpected when i was 18, she is my world. I honestly dont know what i would do without her. Noone can make you as happy as your own child can. I guess thats just something you have to experience before u ever really know. So after a divorce and pretty much raising Kenzie on my own, we found Rob. It didnt take long to realize that our "little family" had found the missing link. You wouldnt believe the kind of chemistry that Kenzie and Rob have. Besides the last names, you would think that he was her biological dad. Kenzie says that she has two daddys and alot of times she calls him that. And anyone whose been a single parent knows how great that can feel :)!!! I want to make her as happy as i possibly can and i honestly feel that i finally have. Her real dad is somewhat a part of her life. He might come around once every month or two, and she still loves him with all her little heart. But now she has someone who is there every single day.When shes sick, when shes sad, when shes being a little hellian, lol! He'll be there no matter what.And he would do anything in this entire world for her.

So then we decided to try to have a baby. Kinda soon, but theres nothing we wanted more. Kenzie is at the age to were its time for a baby brother or sister anyway. My doctor told me to toss my nuva ring, take prenatal vitamins, and to check my temp every morning. She said coming off birth control would make me extra fertile since I had been on it since my daughter, and that when my temp had went up a couple of degrees than usual, that i was ovulating. Well, the thermometer thing didnt really work all that well so we ditched that after a few days. However, the next month that little screen popped up "pregnant"!!! I had even taken it a couple days before i was supposed to have started. So after finally finding a doctor because mine had quite after going to him for almost five years, I went for my first prenatal visit. She was awesome!!! I had never actually been to a female obgyn but I really liked it. I guess because shes been there and knows exactly what im going through. Not to mention shes pregnant as well , about as far along as i am. My other doctor always sent me to someone for an ultrasound, but she does it right there in the office, on your first visit!! Rob was actually in Florida visiting family and I couldnt get off work to go, so I had to go to the first visit on my own. Well she did a pap , which i expected, and then went for the ultrasound probe thingy. I was soooo excited!!! Then...I saw it. What appeared to be two little sacs instead of one!! I thought no way! Its been a long time since ive had an ultrasound so maybe i just dont know what im looking at. Hahaha, well thats when a large gasp came from my doctor. Yeah, that kinda confirmed it for me!! "Congratulations, your having twins". OMG, talk about shocked. Yeah it ran in my family but you never think that youll ever be one of those people that actually have twins. So i told Rob over the phone. I kinda wanted to wait but i just couldnt keep my big mouth shut. He was ecstatic. Along with everyone else. Me...well i worry about Kenzie, and the fact that its always been just her. Its gonna take some getting used to but were excited about it. Scared!!but excited. We found out at 14 weeks that its two boys. Woo hoo! Although Kenzie insist on the names Charley and Lola (after the cartoon), were thinking Matix and Kason. Still a little undecided though. Work...well i quite around 17 or 18 weeks. You wouldnt believe how little energy i have. And my back hurts 24/7 non-stop. It dont really bum me out cuz that means i get to spend more time with Kenz and prepare for when the two little ones get here. If you can be prepared, lol. I am 20 weeks and 4 days. Half way through!! :) Any questions?? Just ask.

Me @ 20 wks. Ugh... this was a bad day!

Tuesday, 13 Nov

Hello ladies!! So its almost 3am and i just cant sleep. Im almost 22 weeks but i swear it feels like i should be 42. Its crazy! And all day yesterday, i felt like i couldnt breath. The heartburn is just about too much, my back feels like its been broke in about ten different spots, and im starting to feel that morning sickness feeling again! I really dont mean to get on here to bitch, but jeez ill be glad when these babies come. Their gonna be a handful but it cant be as bad as this! No way Jose. But anyhew, thanks for listening to my crazy talk. Hope everything is goin good for u girls!

Thursday, 15 Nov

Hey guys! This week hasnt been the greatest. Its just this back pain. Nothing helps it! Ill move into to a position that feels ok and then a minute later its hurting again. Not just hurting, more like throbbing! Idk, ill just be glad when they get here. But on another subject, im finally starting to look at baby stuff. Ive kinda been holding off because we really have nowhere to put it. However, right after christmas were moving into a bigger apartment. Woohoo!!! Im sooo excited. Ill be glad to get started on the nursery. Never got to with Kenzie because we just had a one bedroom. But anyhew, when it comes to baby talk, they have been kicking like crazy! I can actually see my stomach pop up now. Its great stuff :). I go Monday for two different doctors appts. I have to see my obgyn early in the morning for my regular check up, then I have to drive to Knoxville to get another one of those ultrasounds that takes like two hours. Hate to say it but im really not looking forward to it. The last time I went my back was killing me by the end of it. Not to mention I thought I was going for a 3D but when I got there they were totally rude about it. Said it was way too early and twins are hard to see anyway and yada yada yada! Whats crazy is that everyone I know thats been sent down there has had one. I just think this one particular doctor was a hooch. But....maybe ill luck out this time and get a nice doctor. So on a different note, I think weve decided the names. Jaxon Michael and Mattox David! We still have a few weeks tho, so u never know, we might just change our minds by then. Lol. But anyhew, talk to u girls next week. Ill update on Monday. Totally anxious to see how much they weigh and stuff!!! :)

Monday, 19 Nov

So tomorrows the day!!! Im hoping everythings ok. Its been 5 wks since I seen my doctor but with all the kicks ive been getting, I think it will be( knock on wood). Im hoping that shell refer me to a chiro. This backaches getting worse and worse. Im really hoping the doc in knoxville will give me a 3D too!!! Not gonna hold my breath, but well see. Omg, this thing just came on tv about how 30% of women who die in childbirth, die of blood clots after having twins!!! Man, CREEEEEPYYY! I think ill ask my doc about that seeing how I do have to take an aspirin a day to keep from clotting. Ive had to since I had Kenz. Jeez, gonna have nightmares thanks to seeing that!!! Anyhew, hope everythings good 4 u guys :)!!! Ill update 2morrow with my baby news.

Tuesday, 20 Nov

Well everything looks great!!! Twin A weighs in @ 1 pound 8 ounces, and Twin B weighs in @ 1 pound 4 ounces. Woohoo!!! My boys are a growin. Hehe. So anyway, there was one thing that kinda sucks. Twin B is now breech. Yeah, that kinda sucks! But I still have a good amount of time to go so maybe he'll flip back over. To tell you the truth I had a pretty good idea that he had because I thought I was feeling kicks down towards my bladder. But oh well. What happens, happens. Anyhew, we realized that Jaxons middle name cant be Michael. Lol ( Michael Jackson backwards) Haha, yeah. So idk, Mattox still isnt completely settled on yet. I just dont think Mattox Michael goes together very well. But anyway, thanks for listening to my babble. Ill talk to you guys later! :)

Monday, 26 Nov

Omg! Today was a crazy day!!! I almost caught my apartment on fire!!! Yeah. I went into the bathroom for a split second and when i came out my little girl had pushed her little dora kiddy couch up against a wall heater in our livingroom. It was completely up in flames. Talk about freaking out. I knew i couldnt throw water on it unless i wanted fried, so i grabbed a side of it and threw it outside. Thank god noone got hurt. And i think i should be able to clean most of it up with the right cleaner, i hope anyway. I thought my bf would freak out but he was just glad we were ok. But anyhew, what really got me was when my landlord came by he was a COMPLETE ASSHOLE about everything. First off he had to point out that its not an accident when u push something against a wall heater(asshole). So I had to pop off ya know i think it is when its a 3 yr old that does it. Well in a 'i get the last word' kinda tone, he mumbles out,.... not in my opinion. What a pos right? I mean, i understand him being upset but its really not that bad at all. It didnt hit the ceiling or the air conitioner thats right above it. And i mean like 2 foot above it. Not to mention, im just really glad that my daughter and myself are ok. Then of course he had to say that he really wouldnt want this place to burn down because his 20,000 lawnmower is in the storage building next door. Screw him!!!! I am so glad were moving out of this place after christmas. And to think i honestly liked him b4 this. I thought he was a really nice guy. But thank god kenzies ok. Thats all I care about. I mean, for real, screw people like that!

Ok, so weve for sure decided on the names....

Jaxon David & Maddox Michael

Tuesday, 4 Dec

Well tomorrow is yet another doctor's appt. To tell you the truth, they dont really excite me anymore. I get to find out how much I've gained, lol, and she does an ultrasound, and thats it. Not that I'm complaining, ill just be glad when they get here. :) So I've been packing like crazy! Were moving on Friday and im sooo freakin excited bout it. Bigger, nicer place. Way nicer. Moving can be stressful tho, so im trying not to feel so overwhelmed by it all. The babies have been kicking the poo out of me. God ill be happy when I can see my two beautiful baby boys!!! And I cant believe were almost to 25 weeks! Seems like we were just trying yesterday. Gosh how time flies! Thank God for that too cuz my back is getting worse and worse it seems. But anyhew, I plan on posting a new belly pic tomorrow. Hope everything is going good 4 you guys!

Me @ 28 weeks.... how can I get any bigger then this???

Wednesday, 26 Dec

Hey,hey girls! How did everyones christmas go? Mine u ask... it was ok. Tiring...very tiring. Then my ex picked my little girl up at 8am and didnt bring her back until almost 8pm. Needless to say, I was pretty pissed! For real, he comes around on holidays and totes her around acting like father of the year or something. While in reality hes a pos whom I thinks only title should be sperm donor. But whatever. Guess thats why hes the `ex `. Sooo....I have a doctors appointment tommorrow. Time for my glucose test. People say its all nasty and stuff but with Kenz, it wasnt that bad. Idk, new doctor so maybe new stuff. Speaking of, this is actually a rescheduled appt from last week. It made the third time shes called, like an hour before, and cancelled on me! Not to mention, they hadnt even told me it was time for the test. They mentioned that when they called to reschedule. Im not sure, but I think I might try to change doctors. Its sucks seeing how Im almost there but this doctor isnt really making me feel all that taken care of. My old doc was the best and maybe im just used to him, but she is fresh out of med school so idk. My whole family wants me to switch and I think their really talking me into it. The only crappy part of it is that were down to 2 doctors here in town. My doctor and then another doctor, who ive always heard does alot of c-sections. Ive swore that Id never go to her....but...she has to be better then this lady I think. Anyhew, I guess that ive talked enough. Lol. I should really be cleaning my house anyway. Hope all is good with you guys. Ttyl!!!

Sunday, 6 Jan

Okay....sorry guys!!! One of my friends little one and a half year old little girl kinda got ahold of my laptop and yeah....its broke! We sent it off about a week ago so hopefully well have it back soon. Its killing me tho guys! Missing talking to my girls. Anyhew, hope all is well and ill update as soon as possible. ps...babies are doin great. Measuring around 3 pounds. :)

Friday, 1 Feb

Jeez lapeet! Its been so long since ive been able to update. Ok well things have been going good since the last time i was able to. Babies are doing great! We went for an ultrasound today and one is at 4 pounds 4 ounces and the other is at 4 pounds 10 ounces! Oh..and she says they have ALOT of hair. Woohoo! All that heartburn better pay off. lol. But gosh thats alot. Kenzie only weighed 3 pds 12 oz when she was born so this is definitely a change. Im freakin huge!!! Its crazy. And lets not even talk about the stretch marks. Lets just say there will be a tummy tuck in this girls future. Hehe. So weve gotten so much stuff. Still needing a glider for those late night feedings but besides that an a few small things, weve got quite a bit. Ill put some pics up as soon as possible. And this huge belly as well. U guys are gonna freak! But anyhew... oh yeah, I finally changed doctors. Well i just changed over on tuesday but my old doc called and cancelled on me yet again for the second appt in a row, making it a grand total of 5 times since ive seen her. But im loving this new doctor. I already feel better taken care of and ive only seen her once. Anyway, I guess im gonna go. The fingers are getting a little tired of typing, lol. But ill talk to u chicks later. And thanks for everyones comments while i was away! :) .....oh btw, both babies are breech so ya know what that means! Most likely their not gonna turn and ill have to have a c section. It sucks but i have a great family that im sure will help alot.

Yep, this is it @ 34 weeks & 3 days! I can only pray that NOONE has stretch marks like this!!!