Pic of the Jerk

This is Phillip my unborn baby's daddy... He was living a double life and I never even new. He not only hurt me but my three other children as well. He played house with us while having a whole other life going on. He played me, her and other's all in this mess. Sat there and promised me everything just like men do. Sat there and told me how bad he wanted a baby girl more than anything even though I am not sure what I am having. But then when he found out he had been busted that I new he had been cheating on me he dropped any contact with me and acts like he does not even know who I am. He has gone on being with his gf the one I never even new about well I should say the one he has been with the longest since there was three of us he was seeing all at once. Cant even believe he got away with it as long as he did, must of all cause I live in a small town. I am sure I am not going to hear anything from him which is fine with me. I am not going to contact him for any reason. I have never had to be pregnant alone before but thank GOD I have great kids, family and friends that have gotten me through this mess with him. Beware Ladies there are alot of these men out there!!!!

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Hey there everyone, I am a mother of three wonderful children 2 boys and a girl.They are my Life =).... I am having another baby due August 30th 2007... The one good thing is I cant go to my due date since being pregnant with my daughter 4 years ago. She gave me a Blood Clot in my leg and I now have to give myself a shot everyday when I am pregnant. So I can not take the chance of going into Labour while on my shot's so my Dr. will induce me. She has said we are going to do it on August 23, 2007. But we will see since I have been contracting already. When I had my last one my son I had to deliver at 38 weeks since I was having contractions and she did not want to chance it. I am hoping that, that will happen again so we will see.

My Other Children are 8,4, and 2. I was not planning on having another child but I feel I was truly blessed with my last little one. I am not sure on the sex of the baby. The baby was having to much fun with the Cord that they where not able to tell what it was that I was having =(... So I guess I have no choice and I will have to wait until the big day. I only had two ultrasonds and they are not planning on having anymore =(... This is the first time I have ever not known what I was going to have so diffrent for me but it will be so worth it in the end..... =)

You won't need to try any secret recipes to bring on labor. Have your emergency numbers ready. Don't wait until the last minute to get your nursery ready. We predict your baby will come 1-2 weeks early. Your baby will most likely be born in the morning. Justmommies predicts that your baby will weigh approximately 7.5 pounds and that your labor will be about 5 hours long.

Before I was pregnant!

1st U/S 13 weeks

20 Weeks

4 Months

5 Months

6 Months

7 Months Tummy Shot!

7 Months

8 Months

July 23, 2007

Well here I am 34 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I am not feeling so well =(... I have been so HOT and cant seem to get kool at all. I have been having contracations today as well as over the weekend. I am to be induced on the 23rd of August so 30 days today YAY!!! But I have a feeling that if I keep having these wonderful contracations my Dr. will take the baby sooner at 38 weeks instead of 39 weeks. I would much rather have the baby at 38 weeks but who wouldnt right lol. But what ever happens is ok with me as long as the baby is healthy that is all that I care about. My next Dr. appointment it not until August 3rd and then 2 weeks after that when I will be 38 weeks. Where I live they are hurting for Dr.'s so they cant see you like they should be. I should be getting seen very week but that wont happen here. *Sigh* Well I am having my fourth child so I am only taking off 2 weeks from work! But the good news is that I get to bring my baby to work with me. That was the only way I was going to go for that one. But if for some reason I have to have a cseaction then think again I will be out of work longer!!!! Well Good Luck to all my Mommy to B's.....

July 26th 2007

Well here I am 35 weeks pregnant today YAY!!! I am getting closer lol.. and more scared. I dont have a Dr. appointment until August 3rd next Friday and that kinda sucks. I have been having some contractations but nothing to close or anything which is a good thing. I dont want this little one to come to early. I am looking foward to seeing the Dr. just to see if I have changed or anything. Other than that everything is going well still. Still giving myself a shot everyday of (Lovenox) for my DVT I had with my daughter back in 2003. Once you have had a blood clot you body will more than likely get them and more so when you are pregnant that is why I have to give myself a shot still to this day when I am pregnant. So other than that wonderful burning going into my leg everyday when I give that shot everything seems to be going really well. Have not been getting sick anymore thank God! But then again I better watch that cause everytime I say that I get sick again =(.... Well I have 4 more weeks as of today until my little one comes unless I have been changing and then if so we will take the baby at 38 weeks which gives me 3 more weeks today. Hopefully I will find out more on all that come next Dr. Appointment.

August 2, 2007

Well I am now 36 weeks YAY I am so glad that I am in the last stretch. I have a Dr. Appointment tomorrow so I will update again tomorrow. I am crossing my fingers I have been doing something if not I think I am going to cry =(. I have been hurting so much and to be honest I dont know how much more I can take of this. Alot of the pain is in my legs from the DVT I used to have. For some odd reason my legs have really been in pain these last few days and it does not look like it will ease up until hopefully after I have the baby. So I will keep you all posted what the Dr. tells me tomorrow. Other than the leg pain some contractions still and when I have them it is shooting pain in the lower part of my back. So I guess you can say I am miserable all together right now. I sure hopw everyone is feeling alot better than I am. Will update again tomorrow.

August 3, 2007

Went to the Dr. today after spending almost all day yesterday in Labor and Delivery lol.. I was sitting at work and started to have contractions and they got closer and stronger so I called the Dr. office and they said to go in and sure enough I was. They checked me and I was 1 1/2 cm d... I was kinda excited and scared but then they said to walk and see if that would help me to change more. So I had to walk for an hour only did it for 45 mins and I was checked and only 2cm now. So I was sent home and nothing really happening today sept I went to the Dr. to find I am almost a 3 and still long =(. But when the Dr was checking me it was kinda hard and I have been losing parts of my mucus plug today so maybe that will help me to loose it all the way. Either way I know my baby will be here soon in my arms. For sure I know on the 23rd of this month unless when my Dr. gets back from vacation when I see her on the 15 of this month she might let me have the baby the next day on the 16th. We had talked about this before that if I started to change she would up the due date to the 16th. So we will sit back and see what happens. You know cause nothing is really going to happen unless baby is ready....

August 8, 2007

Went to the Dr. yesterday and YAY I am getting some where. I was 3 cm and now 70% effaced. So these contractions I have been having are doing something. I was also told baby is big so they will for sure induce me next week if I even make it. The Dr. said with the way I am going I might not even make it till next week when my Dr. is back from vacation. So we will see what happens. I am getting really excited and scared as well. You would think with it being my fourth that I would not be scared or anything but I still am.

August 13, 2007

Had a long weekend and did not start it off well Friday. Was contracting 3 mins apart and the Dr. that was on call wanted to check to see if I have dilated anymore just to be safe over the weekend. Went in and they put me on monitors since i was having contractions 3 mins apart and with every contraction came a lot of pain from my DVT I had back in 2003. Could not understand why I was in so much pain in my leg so they did an ultrasound on my left leg to make sure that I did not have another clot. Thank goodness I did not just baby was putting a lot of pressure on major vein and artery that it was making my leg hurt with each contraction. But since i was not changing and my Dr. was still on vacation they sent me packing with new meds. So I am off of the Lovenox which is good cause if I went into Labor on that I can forget any pain meds and I have been down that road before and do not want to have a baby with no DRUGS again. (More power to the women that can). So I am now on Heprin shots which dont last as long as the others just in case I go into labor on my own. Have Dr. appointment on the 15th and am hoping since it is MY DR. "She is finally back =)" she will go ahead and take baby this week instead of the 23rd. Dont know how much more I can take with the pain since i am still contracting and with every contraction comes PAIN in the LEG from BABY....

August 15, 2007

Well got back from the Dr and I am still the same. I have not dialted anymore or done anything in that matter since the last time I was checked. Was so hoping that she was going to induce me since I have been in pain in my leg but she is going to make me wait till the 23rd. That is what we have had scheuled for sometime now and she told me that since I was on my meds "Shots" of "Heprin" she was not going to worry about anything enev though the pain and swelling in my leg is pretty bad. So I guess the count down has begun and I will have this baby by next Thursday thank goodness. I hope something happens from now until then just because I am hurting so bad but I doubt anything is going to happen until I am induced. Never have gone into Labor on my own have always been induced. Good Luck Ladies and to the ones that are to be induced on the 23rd as well let our count down begin.

CAYDEN WAS BORN AUGUST 24TH 2007 3:12PM

I was supposed to have gone into the hospital to be induced on the 23rd of August but all the rooms where FULL! I was so dissapointment and sat and cried forever. But then I got the call Friday morning from the hospital that they had a room for me and to be there by 8:30 in the morning. I grabed my bags and other children got them to there Grandmother's house and myself to the hosptial. They started the IV around 9:30 and then started the Pitocin about 10:50 I was having contractions but nothing to wild then my Dr came back around 12:45 and she then checked me I was 4cm she broke my water at 12:50 and then I went to a 5. My nurse then asked me if I was ready to make a choice on pain meds I told her to give me about 30 mins since they where not that bad and I did not want to slow my contractions DOWN! She came back in 20 mins and asked I told her I was ready for the EPI. She had me go to the bathroom and then checked me one last time from there I was already at 7cm. I could not believe how fast it was going. She then said there might not be enough time to get the EPI since they dont give you anything once you hit 8cm. Shoot you best get me that EPI. Well the Anth Dr. messed my EPI up twice the first time he hint nerves and my leg was kicking up in the air and talk about PAIN!!! The second time he did it he only had it working on the right side. So I felt everything and by the time he got done it was time to start pushing. My nurse came in after I got it asked if I had the urdge to push and wanted to check me since BABY'S HEART RATE WAS DROPPING FAST! She checked said it was time to push got my Dr there and I started to push. BABY was not coming and things started to get bad. The babys heart was droping faster and faster I was in so much pain from the way he was stuck that I was not able to PUSH as well as I should of. My Dr then used the vaccum to help get him out when she did it the first time it twisted his neck and came of changing the way he was stuck once again only making things much worse. They had the OR ready to do a C-Section she said this is it if we cant do anything this time we have got to get the baby out before anything else happens. I went with the pain and gave everything I could as well as the Dr using the vaccum again at the sametime and Thank GOD he was out..... IT'S A BOY!!!!! He was 6lbs 14oz 20 in and is doing very well now. Had some problems with his TEMP but everything is ok now.

1 1/2 months after having Cayden

Cayden 7 days away from being 2 months already =(

Well the time has really gone by since I have had Cayden. Everyone keeps asking me if it is hard to have Four Children and be a Single Mother.... The answer to that is NO!!! I am having the time of my life and the kids are so great... I was truly blessed with all my kids and they are all such a Big Help and would not change it for nothing... Cayden is getting so Big and he is so Chunky. None of my others where this chunky it is so funny cause he was the smallest I have ever had and Now he is turning into the Biggest I have ever had... I hope everyone is all going well and for the ones that have had there little ones Congrats and to the ones that have not yet it is not that far away...

My handsome little Cayden is getting so big... The time has just gone by very fast.... He is going to be 3 months already come next weekend the 24th.... He is such a good baby sleeps through the night and has already laughed for the first time and keeps on laughing making me laugh and smile so much. I have been truly blessed with all my children....

12/13/2007 Well we are all getting ready for Christmas and been spening to much money but yeah it only comes one time a year. Cayden is doing wonderful he has gotten so big and laughs all the time. I have talked to the Donor only because I called him to find out his side of the Medical History for the Dr. He had no problem giving it to me and then when I asked him if there was anything he would like to know he said "NO"... Did not suprise me at all since he is not a real man. Cayden is much better off without him in his life. I did find out a couple months ago that the Donor is getting married to the Girl he Cheated on me with and on her with me. So more power to them both! As for my other children they are just loving the new addition to the family and have been a true blessing. They like to help out with everything, feeding, diapers, bath time everything. It has been such a great joy to have them there to help mom out with the new little one. Everyone has asked me how I do it being a single mother and taking care of 4 kids all by myself well to me it is nothing they are all so wonderful, loving and caring children that I would never change the fact that I have 4 or that I am a single mother. I hope everyone is also doing well and to all the New Mommies Congrats and to all the Mommies to be Hang in there you are almost there.

Cayden has gotten so big and is such a good baby. He still has no hair lol and its funny cause my other child all had a head full of hair but not Mr. Cayden!!! lol.. He is 6 1/2 montjs aog and all tell you time has gone by so fast. It breaks my heart knowing and thinking that here soon it will be his First Birthday! =(.... he is a very healthy and happy baby and that is all that matters to me!