My name is Jenn and I am a 26 year old mom to 2 amazing boys, Andrew (10), and Matthew (7), with number 3 on the way! I have been with my husband, TJ, for almost 9 years.

A little about me.....I am the type of person who speaks her mind. I have no problem letting everyone know exactly how I feel and why I feel that way, (with some exceptions..). Recently I've had a hard time with life in general, (like everyone does at some point in time or another) but I'm workin' it out. All in all, I'm proud of who I am, what I've accomplished so far, and where I intend to go. I'm completely spontaneous, overly sensitive at times, a bit crazy more often than not, and I have a tendency to thrive on drama and disasterous situations.

My boys saved my life. I hope I can give them the independence and self confidence to achieve all of their dreams and goals. I am awesome when it comes to being a mom. That is my first and most important achievement in life. My family is my world and I cherish every day with them, they have made me a strong and complete woman. I am a total romantic and a focused dreamer... I keep very few close friends because I don't give away my friendship easily... to those who have made the cut...congrats!! You're the strongest people to walk the earth!! To everyone that may enter my life, please have patience, it will be rewarded. I am the very typical Cancer girl, my family, my home and my friends are my top priority. The rest is just in the background.

10/04/2007

Well, tis the season. I have been sick on and off for two weeks now. I was hoping that being pregnant would somehow miraculously prevent me from getting sick. Apparently that's not the case. It wouldn't be so bad if I could dope myself up with some good cold medicine, but again, not the case. There's not much that is worse in this world than being 32 weeks pregnant, bloated, off kilter and sick. As if carrying around a 5 lb child 24-7, having some really crazy dreams, not sleeping well, not being able to move around without feeling like you should have an "Oversize Load" banner permenantly attached to your body, not being able to eat ANYTHING because EVERYTHING gives you heartburn, feeling like your lungs are somewhere in your throat, and of course, and the middle of the night leg cramps from hell arn't enough. I could go on but you get the picture. I could swear I'm being punished for something, what exactly, I'm not sure. Thank god for the people who love me. I didn't go to work yesterday because I felt like I got hit by a truck, today looks about the same. Yesterday my mom brought me lunch, my youngest son catered to me when he got home from school, my husband cuddled me, and my best friend made us dinner and delivered it to my house. If there is more I could ask for when feeling so horrible, I don't know what it would be, other than to feel better. Thank god I only have 7 and a half more weeks to go.

09/24/2007

So I have started the process of "nesting", aka, cleaning like a mad woman. Despite my body's protests, the swelling hands and feet, the aching back, and sore muscles, I have started a cleaning binge that doesn't look like it will end anytime soon. If I was capable and had a giant ladder, I would probably power wash the outside of the house and scrape the peeling paint off of the outside of my windows. (The thought to high-jack a ladder and power-washer has occured to me.) But luckily, I still have some of my better judgement that is preventing me from doing so. It all started with the baby's room last weekend. That's done for the most part, so yesterday I cleaned the boys' room. (Picture me in a hazmat uniform because that's what you need to clean their room. The fumigation process is still underway.) It baffles me how two boys could make such a mess. So that has been checked off my 3 page long list of things to do before the baby comes. Today it is laundry and our room. The laundry in itself would make a weaker person cry. The curtains have to be washed, the windows have to be cleaned, the dressers have to be polished after they've been thoroughly disinfected. Lysol and Chlorox are my two best friends at this point in the game, along with my trusty Rainbow. There is some spackling and painting to be done. I have to pick up the baby's dresser and crib mattress. Then there is the basement, which I won't even get into. Crazy you say? Nope, just pregnancy, which I guess is just as bad;)

08/26/07

Every day I wake up to a new little life kicking me and making me aware that he is here and waiting to meet his family. I go through my daily routine, get up, let the dogs out, make some coffee, go online and read what the world is up to, get my morning phone call from TJ, get a shower, get the kids ready, go to work, come home, watch a little tv and go back to bed. On the weekend I get home from work, and typically clean what needs to be cleaned then spend my Sundays with one of my best friends and my rock at this point in my life. But realistically, 24 hours a day, seven days a week I'm waiting. Waiting for little one to get here and complete our life. We're preparing, lttle by little for the big day, but time is going by so fast..sometimes it seems like it's taking forever, but then I look at it again and there doesn't seem to be enough time. Through this whole process I've been somewhat irritable..lol. (Go ahead and laugh..) I can't wait to have my body back to myself. Soon enough.

The people I see everyday make me appreciate what I have. They make me appreciate what I've been through and how I got to where I am currently. Through all of the heartache I've experienced in my life, my mistakes, my trials and my growth, I've come to be a better and stronger person. I've struggled more than most people my age, I've experienced more life lessons, and have come out on top of it all, with an amazing family that I am beyond proud of. The realization that a lot of people long for what I have, some people would kill for it, some people torment themselves for not being able to obtain it...this makes me more grateful, more proud and more appreciative of all of it. It didn't come easily to me, it wasn't handed to me, I've worked for it. I've taken some time to learn from other people's mistakes, as well as my own and it has paid off. The best things in life are free, as I've said before, but at the same time, you pay a price for it. Maybe not monetarily, but through hard work, self reflection and pain. The key is to not give up, to not let your insecurities keep you from living your life, to keep going when you feel like it is just easier to stop. My family makes me work harder to be the person I need to be for them.. my friends make me see myself at my best and at my worst and help me to find the balance I need..TJ makes me believe in true love and happy endings...this new little one has taught me that hope and new beginnings do exist when I had just about given up after all of the pain I had endured. Little things in your life leave some of the biggest impacts.

I have taken some time to pay attention to the people I come across in my life and recognize how many strengths I have obtained. I have a lot of determination and drive to better myself, to better the people I love and I am starting to find my balance there. I have to take care of people, it's my nature.. but I had a hard time finding a balance between helping and enabling..therefore almost self-destructing due to being overwhelmed. People are going to do whatever it is that they want to do..I can't control that. But I can give guidance and support when possible. I've learned to accept the lack of control I have and I am much more happy, less stressed and much more calm. I'm proud of who I have become, what I have to give and how much I respect myself for finding the way to balance it all.

Much luv... 91 days to go;)

Pregnancy Survey

About You
Name?: Jenn
Age?: 26
Height?: 5'8"
Pre-pregnancy weight?: hahaha no way;)
About The Father
Name?: TJ
Age?: 27
Height?: 5'7"
Are you still together?: 9 long years;)
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?: nope..third!
When did you find out you were pregnant?: March 22,2007
Was it planned?: Nope
What was your first reaction?: giggle,cry,sob,giggle
Who was with you when you found out?: TJ
Who was the first person you told?: him, of course
How did your parents react?: My mom didn't believe me, my dad passed away May 31st last year;(
How far along are you?: 27 weeks
What was your first symptom?: I ran 2 miles on the treadmill and almost threw up, my first clue since I usually do 4
What is your due date?: November 25,2007
Do you know the sex of the baby?: Yes;)
If so, what is it?: ? a BOY,again..

Have you picked out names?: Some..no definites...
If so, what are they?: Jon Thomas

How much weight have you gained?: 20lbs
Do you have stretch marks?: not from this one yet
Have you felt the baby move?: all of the time
Have you heard the heartbeat?: yep;)
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?: Of course
Home or hospital birth?: hospital
Natural or medicated birth?: medicated..i hope
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: TJ
Will you breastfeed?: I'm going to try
Do you think you'll need a c-section?: depends on how big this one gets..Matthew was 9lbs 5oz.
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: Nah
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?: Hey sweetheart..we've been waiting for you;)
Would you let someone videotape the birth?: nope
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: scared..it's really painful..with or without drugs

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