2/14/08

I'm officially getting married 3 weeks from today! I can't wait!!! We're going to fly to vegas for 4 days and 3 nights and while we're there we're getting married. I still have to book our wedding at the chapel I want to get married at, but the trip is booked and I'm so excited!!!

1/21/08

Things are going so fast, and much better than they were. Ronnie is doing much better. He's still upset obviously, but he talked to his dr. about his depression and she gave him some medicine to help him with is depression. So he is doing better. Brandon and Ronnie have been bonding a lot lately too. They are starting to act more and more like father and son every day. Brandon is starting to get used to staying over at Ronnie's house too, which is good. He's doing much better with our weekend sleepovers. And Ronnie says we're gonna be working on Brandon's room very soon (which I have been hoping we would, but I didn't want to rush anything with his mom passing away) So I'm very excited about that. I've been feeling pretty good lately, with the exception of feeling so heavy and the constant heartburn. I've already gaiined almost 20lbs, and I'm starting to get uncomfortable, especially when I'm sleeping. Oh well. My sister has just recently found out that she is pregnant too, about 10 weeks right now. I'm sooooo excited! I know she's going to be a great mom. She's very stressed and scared right now, and her boyfriend and his family have not been supportive at all to her. But she has me and our family and her friends taht are very supportive of her. I know it's going to be hard for her, but I know things will work out for the best in the end. Another thing I'm really excited about is Ronnie and I are planning on getting married in early March. We have been looking into going to Las Vegas to get away for like 4 days and while we're there we want to get married. I really hope it works out, cuz that would be so nice. So I've been really busy with lots of things and everything seems to be going pretty good!

1/3/08

I am sooooooo stressed out. I'm worried about Ronnie because he's been very depressed, which I know is to be expected, but I just hate seeing him like that. It's terrible to watch, when he can't eat much or sleep and just isn't himself at all. And now, I'm really getting worried about Brandon too. It's very obvious that he's becoming very stressed out. He has been having outbursts that make no sense, he's afraid to be by himself, he keeps saying that he's never gonna see anyone when we move away. I know there is SO much changing for him, with a new baby coming and the fact that we'll be moving in with Ronnie and his brother and sister soon. I just don't know what to do. I've been trying to ease him into moving in by sleeping over at Ronnie's on the weekends and having dinner there once or twice a week. I've been bringing some of his toys over there so he has stuff to play with too, so he feels like he has stuff over there. I want to start on his room there, so that he feels like he has a place that he belongs there too, but when I asked Ronnie, he kinda brushed it off by saying that we can start that once they clean out that room(whcih is currently the computer room) and go through their mom's stuff. I don't want to rush that, cuz i know that it's gonna be hard for them, but I also don't want to delay it too much, becasue I'm looking out for my little boy. He needs some stability because he is obviously stressing out that he doesnt have that right now. I just don't know what to do...

12/27/07

This whole holiday has been a nightmare. We had the wake for Ronnie's mom on the 23rd, which was just horrible. The next day, Christmas eve (and also Ronnie's birthday) was the funeral. It just seems like this is all a bad dream. I love him so much, and it breaks my heart to see him hurting so badly. I have tried to be there for him as much as i possibly can, and I feel guilty too, because in doing that, I haven't spent much time with Brandon, my son. It has been just so stressful and sad. And it just feels so weird to be in their house, it feels so empty. Ronnie wants Brandon and I to move in to his house with him now, because his sister can't afford to live their alone, and has nowhere else to go. So it looks like we'll be moving in shortly, but I want to make it as gradual of a change for Brandon as possible. We did get a little something to look forward to now. I made an appt for a 3d ultrasound for Feb 2 (which turns out to be Ronnie's mom's birthday). We are both sooo excited and he is especially excited becasue he'll get to see his little boy for the first time, on a day where he is gonna need something to cheer him up. Anyways, I've been feeling good. Nathan is kicking like crazy all the time now, especially when Ronnie talks to him. I didn't eat much within the last week, and I checked today, I haven't gained any weight, but I think since everything is over now, Ill be eating more normal. Hopefully, I'll be gaining the weight I need to then. My next dr appt is Jan 9th so, we'll see.

12/21/07

My fiance's mother passed away wed night from cancer. She was home with her family when she passed. My fiance is taking it pretty well, especially for the fact that her funeral will be on christmas eve, which is also his birthday. We were really hoping that she would make it to see her first grandchild, but she was just soooo sick that she couldn't hold on any longer. May she rest in peace.

12/19/07

We just got back from my 20 week ultrasound, and we found out that I'm having another baby BOY!!!! So it's baby Nathan! I'm so excited!!!!!!! My fiance couldn't come with to my ultrasound, though. HIs mom is in the hospital and is dying. I'm actually gonna be leaving to go up to the hospital very soon, so even though this has been a happy day, it's also a really sad time right now. We were hoping that she would make it to see her first grandchild, but unfortunatly she was too sick, and now we're just praying that God takes her quickly to end her suffering. But, my sister and my son came with to the ultrasound with me, so that made me happy. And we got to see our new little baby, moving around in there. The tech was soooo nice, too, she let me have lots of pics and did lots of views for us to see him. We got to see his little face(well we could make out his eyes and nose and mouth a little) and he was moving around his little arms. There is def no denying that he is a boy too, he was very cooperative in showing us his little boy parts lol. Well today has been a day with very mixed emotions and I'm sure that it will be even more by the end of the day.

12/8/07

It feels like I have definatly popped out this week. I went to bed on Tuesday night and woke up Wed with a very pregnant looking stomach. It looks like I swollowed a basketball! I feel huge, but it's cute because my little baby is in there. I've also been feeling the baby moving around A LOT, and thursday night my fiance actually felt the baby kick for the first time. Can't wait for the 19th when we find out if we're having a baby boy or girl!!!!!

12/3/07

We've officially picked a boys name for our little baby: Nathan Alexander. I still think we're having a girl, so I dont know if we'll end up using it or not, but I love it. So Nathan Alexander for a boy and Kaylin Rose for a girl.

11/29/07

I had my dr. appt yesterday. Everything looked pretty good, except I haven't gained much weight since my last appt. My dr. really made me feel bad, because she said by now I should be gaining about a pound a week. All I have gained in 4 weeks was 1 lb. I don't know what to do because I eat ALL the time. I feel like I'm always eating something. So I'm not sure what else I can be doing. Then when my dr. measured my stomach, she said that I'm measuring big, at 20 weeks, instead of 18. So confusing!!! I have no idea what to do. Anyways, on a good note, my ultra sound will be on Dec 19th. I feel like I'm like the last person to find out if I"m having a boy or a girl, but I don't really care, I just want to make sure the baby is healthy. But i am very excited to find out if Brandon will be having a baby brother or sister. i'm guessing that I'm having a girl, I just have a feeling that I am. But we will see in 3 weeks!

11/17/07

MY BOYFRIEND PROPOSED TO ME LAST NIGHT!!!!! WE'RE FINALLY ENGAGED!!!! I'M SOOOOOO HAPPY

11/16/07

I'm so relieved! My boyfriend and I have finally come up with some names that we can agree on. That took forever! I don't know why, but I was obsessing over not having any idea of any names for this baby. I kept having dreams that I had given birth to the baby and when someone asked me what the baby's name was, I had no clue! So we have finally agreed on Kaylin or (Kailyn) for a girl and Riley or Tyler for a boy. I don't know how long these names will stick, but hopefully for a while. Well that's all for my good news for today.

11/13/07

I feel like I'm getting so big! I have been feeling my little baby moving a little bit, it feels like I have a little jumping bean in my stomach! This pregnancy is definately going very fast, I can't believe I'm just about 4 months pregnant already. I've been feeling pretty good, I have a lot of energy again. I've just been getting headaches a lot lately. It's been annoying, but nothing too bad. My boyfriend has been working a lot, putting in a lot of overtime, but he's still pretty good about making time for me and Brandon. Brandon is really starting to get very close to him. The other day, we went to Ronnie's house and played games with him and his friend and his mom, and when we left, Brandon asked if Ronnie could be his real dad. lol :) We still have to figure out what we're gonna do about a place to live. I've been looking at apartments. I think we should just rent for a year, and save up some money for a down payment on a house. I just really don't want to buy something right now, when we don't have much money for a down payment. Plus, neither of us have lived on our own, and we really need to learn how to budget and stuff before we just go and buy something. Idk, I have a dr appt on Nov 28th and hopefully I'll find out when I'm having my next ultrasound. I want to find out what we're having so bad!

10/18/07

I went for my first ultrasound today! It made me even more excited than I already was, and I didnt think that was possible! I got to see my little baby, and he/she was moving around a lot. When the tech told my mom and my son that they could come look at the ultrasound, the baby must have fallen asleep, because he/she stopped moving. But I saw the baby's heartbeat, and the tech said it was beating at 177bpm. I told my boyfriend and he can't wait til he gets home from work to see the pics from the ultrasound. we are both soooooo excited!!!!!!

10/15/07

I'm 11 weeks pregnant, soon to be 12 weeks at the end of this week. I'm really starting to show in my stomach. I know it's a good thing, because there's a baby in there, but I just feel sooooo fat! I really haven't been eating a lot of junk food either, because I dont want to gain a ton of unecessary weight. Oh well. I'm scheduled to have an ultrasound on thursday of this week to check to make sure my dates are right. I'm so excited to see my little baby!

My name is Meghan and I'm a 23 year old single mom to a beautiful 3 1/2 year old son. My boyfriend, of a a little over a year, and I have just recently found out that we are pregnant with our first child together. We were both very surprised when we first found out that Im pregnant, but we are both VERY excited!!!! Both of our families have been very supportive of us, which my family has been very supportive of me and my son since he was born. I'm very excited that we will be our own little family very soon, but I'm also a little nervous. I know that this will be a lot of change for my son, all at once. We have been living with my parents since he was born and he is very close to my family, especially my sister, who has been like another parent to him. My parents have both said that, when my boyfriend and I get married, which we are planning on doing in the near future, we can live with them until we have enough money to get on our feet. I think that will help my son adjust a little better, but there will be so much changing for him, a new baby, a step father, and eventually a new house. I'm just trying to spend as much time with him one on one and also have him spend time with my boyfriend and I to get him used to us as a family. My boyfriend and my son, both get along very well, which is making it a little easier to blend us as a family, and my son's father has not been in the picture at all since he was born. I know my son has noticed other children with their dads, and I know he very much wants a dad. I know my boyfriend will be a good dad to both my son and our new baby. I guess all I can do is take one day at a time. I know everything happens for a reason, so everything will happen the way it's supposed to happen.

Pregnancy Survey
About You
Name?:	Meghan
Age?:	23
Height?:	5'5"
Pre-pregnancy weight?:	135lbs
About The Father
Name?:	Ronnie
Age?:	23
Height?:	5'11"
Are you still together?:	yes, and are planning on being together always.
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?:	no, 2nd
When did you find out you were pregnant?:	Sept 3rd, after I had missed my period.
Was it planned?:	nope
What was your first reaction?:	I cried.
Who was with you when you found out?:	my sister, Bridget
Who was the first person you told?:	Bridget, and my other sister Maggie
How did your parents react?:	My parents were surprised, and a little upset, but I think they're excited.
How far along are you?:	11 weeks, almost 12
What was your first symptom?:	I was soooo tired, and my boobs were sore.
What is your due date?:	May 1rst 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby?:	Not yet, although everyone keeps telling me they think its a girl
If so, what is it?:	n/a
Have you picked out names?:	not yet, we can't really agree on names at the moment. :)
If so, what are they?:	I like aidan or peyton for a boy, and mackenzie or teagan for a girl. at the moment :)
How much weight have you gained?:	like 4 lbs
Do you have stretch marks?:	yes, I had them from when I was pregnant with brandon
Have you felt the baby move?:	I think i have, it seems early, but I have felt little flutters.
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	not yet, at my next appt for sure though!
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?:	of course!
Home or hospital birth?:	Hospital
Natural or medicated birth?:	epidural!!!!!
Who will be in the delivery room with you?:	my boyfriend, maybe my sister, maybe my mom, if they want to.
Will you breastfeed?:	yes
Do you think you'll need a c-section?:	i hope not!!!!!
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	Most likely, I cried when i held Brandon for the first time.
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:	probably "hello little (guy/girl), I'm you're mommy"
Would you let someone videotape the birth:	no way.
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:	both, i kind of know what to expect this time, so i'm not as nervous, but I know it's gonna hurt really bad, and im not looking forward to that!