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My name is Ashley. I got married on February 9th of this year and a week later, I was being a little mean to my husby so he bought me a preggy test and it was POSITIVE!! I took 4 more after that, just to make sure, they were all still positive! Were really excited now and have lots of very supportive family going along with us.

My husband is a former U.S.MARINE who served for 4 years and has now enlisted into the US AIR FORCE for 6 more years of service but is gone for 4 months in Texas for training..he'll be back at the end of August but that seems sooo far!!! I am sad that he will be gone for 3 and a half months but I know that he is doing whats best for us.

Im SCARED!! I have always stayed soo far away from kids, I really did it so that I wouldnt want one before I thought I was ready but now I have kinda jinxed myself because Im terrified of them....guess I better get over that quick, lol.

...Im also on MYSPACE if anyone is on there.

http://myspace.com/atayner

7-09-08

This is really the first time that I have updated my info....but..Im 25 weeks now and have finally started to really feel him move around...

OH YEAH, Im having a BOY!!! His name will be Cash Jaysen Tharp...(daddys name is Jason and we absolutely cound not think of a middle name so we just modified Daddys name).

My placenta is anterior so I guess that is why I have had such a hard time feeling him thus far :( I remember being 18 weeks and thinking that I should just have a few more days until I can feel my little one and now Im 25 weeks and can still barely feel him. He does punch me every once in awhile and this morning I think I got my first dose of Foot-in-the-ribs, lol...it was slightly uncomfortable but Ill take it over nothing!!

I go to my last regular doctor's appointment on the 17th of this month, after that I will be seeing a midwife from now on, my plans are to have the midwife with me, at a hospital that allows water births and do it all in a tub. There will also be a doctor there, just in case of any complications but hopefully I will be able to do this all naturally, I want to have all those natural, wonderful things that are just supposed to happen, I am quite aware that it will hurt but I think that the benefits will definately outweigh the pain that I will experience. Just in case though, like I said, i will be at the hospital and although they will not come out and offer me any medication, I would be able to get it if I absolutely could not handle the pain or something were to happen and baby be in harms way.

Im ready for my husband to be home, I feel like he hasn't been included in anything, Im so scared for him to really see me in person because I have gained 50 (!!!! yes...I know) pounds already and I dont want him to think that Im a huge cow. He is practically a body builder and Im just nervous that he wont accept my ever changing figure. Im sure that it will be fine but I still have another month and a half before he can see me in person.

Lastly, I have a 3D ultrasound scheduled the day before my birthday on the 30th, what a wonderful gift to myself!!! I cant wait!!

8-14-08

Im in pain...my right hip is KILLING me. I dont think that I can have an X-Ray right now but by the end of the day Im just DONE. I cant take anymore. I know that its gonna get so much worse from here too..swelling sucks, I wish I could at least start the day un-swollen but I wake up puffy :(

Jason comes home in 11 days, Im SO HAPPY. He doesnt get ANY time off though, he has to go back to work the VERY next day (BUMMER), but it will all work out, I know it. I just dont know when were gonna move if he has to go right to work. I havnt packed any of my stuff back up either, Im not doing it until I know whats going on.

Im doing good with the Doula and my Midwife, Im seeing the MW every 2 weeks, just like I would the doctor. Shes sooo nice, Im lovin her. Im so happy that this is what I have decided to do, I think that it is going to be the best decision that I have made for us. I just need to stop being so scared. The closer that I get the more scared that Im getting that Im seriously about to have a baby and Im going to try and have him with no drugs, naturally, the way that your supposed to. Like I have said before, I know that theres a chance that things could go otherwise, and Im open to that...I DO think that I would be very disappointed if I end up not being able to do things my way, but again, it will ALL work out. I know this.

Hope everyone else is doing good :) Im off to an appointment now.

9-19-08

SO......4 weeks left (and a couple days), thats IF he comes on time. Im ready, physicaly anyways, Im so tired. I just cant get over how darn tired I am. I get 8 or more hours of sleep and I still wake up and cant keep my eyes open. Im out of breath just walking up and down the stairs to do laundry, I honestly never thought at 7 months that I would ever say that I was just ready to be done. But thats seriously how I feel.

Im still working, about 25-30 hours a week (closer to 25 with all these doctor appointments). I have a desk job, which is actualy killing me more, I get NO exercise at work, except for running to the bathroom..at least I'm the farthest away from the bathroom. Im suffering though, not doing anything, Im very swollen, like, SUPER swollen. Its bad and it sucks big time. I try and drink lots of water but Im afraid its not enough, the midwife wants me to drink a gallon to TWO each day!! Have you ever tried to do that?? It is NOT easy. Im lucky if I get 3 liters down.

Im up to a total weight gain of like, 80 pounds. That really makes me want to puke. Im so disappointed in myself. My husband is so athletic and works out and does his thing and Im FAAT. I cant wait to try and get back where I need to be. I tell you what though, Im SCARED. Im so scared that Im not going to be able to look the way that I wanna look, that Im gonna be fat and gross forever now. I hope that breastfeeding works like people say it does, Im gonna sleep with this boy on my bewbees (HAHA). Yesterday when I went to the doctor, they actually, finally yelled at me (not really yelled...but finally SAID something)...about how much weight I gained (9lbs) in two weeks. I was disgusted with myself and of course, my husband was with me this time, for the 1st time and didnt really have ANY encouraging words except that Ill have to work hard to lose it all. NO SHIT.

We also took our hospital tour, they were great, the room that Ill be in is MASSIVE. Since Im having a waterbirth I have this huge tub in there, Im excited. My husband is excited too. The hospital is brand new and so nice. The people/nurses there are awesome and supposedly, its one of the best places in Columbus to have a baby. My husband was worried that the baby would get confused with another baby in the hospital, like in the movies...I never even thought of that. They actually put bands on BOTH of his legs, the put a band on my arm, Jasons arm and then they also put a tracking thing on the babys umbilical cord. Thats CRAZY!! Hell be safe though :) He actually doesnt have to leave the room at all, everything that well need is in the room with us.

I cant wait. I just wanna be finished with this. My baby shower is this weekend, I cant wait to see what we get!!