4th March, 2008

Ok so maybe it is time for an update then. Jon still has reflux but I dont think it bothers him as much as it used to. Which is so great. People keep asking me when #2 is coming but my answer is still not yet. Jon was a very difficult baby. We are still having settling troubles when it is nap and sleep time. He just doesnt like sleep. I always say to hubby that he is taking after him in the sleep department cos he hates sleep too. They say that the baby adopts the personalities of their mother or father when they were babies. But both me and my man were quiet babies apparently, so I dont know where Jon gets his difficult behaviour from. My mum said the other day that she used to put me down somewhere when she went visiting and would pick me up from the same spot doing the same thing when she came to pick me up after a couple of hours!!!! No crying!!! People who used to see me used to flip out!!! Anyways.

Jon is now 6 months and 1 week and things have improved slightly so Im hoping things will just get better from here. I love reading everybodys post so keep them coming >>>>>

29th December, 2007

Ok so this is where Im at...

Ok so, Ive been thinking about lately what it actually means to ...'BE A MUM'. So far the journey of motherhood for me was nothing I expected it to be. Probably cos my pregnancy was perfect. It actually felt better to be pregnant than not. But as soon as my son was born I must admit I expected a little bit more.

When he was born, he had latching on problems because of the anatomy of his mouth (it was tiny...I mean REALLY tiny) until his mouth grew to a reasonable size, I was pumping and pumping. The very few hours he slept I was awake making sure he had food to eat when he awoke. He eventually latched on fine in week 10!!! He was diagnosed as having colic with severe 'silent reflux' (this is when they look like they are going to vomit but swallow it back which ends up burning their oesophegus). Because his food keeps coming up, he hardly sleeps. And I am actually typing this after trying to put him to sleep for 2 HOURS!!! (due to the reflux). He was also jaundiced the first few weeks but under the range limit so didnt undergo phototherapy and had a heamatoma on his head due to such a long labor (he still has a little lump at 4 months).

Anyways, the first 6-8 weeks after he was born he did nothing but cry. If he wasnt eating he was definately crying. And it wasnt a normal cry he used to actually go blue in the face clenching his 2 fists by his ear. All doctors had to say was 'it will pass, it's normal'. People who come to visit say 'Enjoy these times' but I just cannot wait for him to grow up.

He's now 4 months and still has severe reflux. He swallows like 10 times in the 2 minutes you look at him which I must admit is quite painful to watch. I really havent been able to enjoy motherhood as yet. We'll see what the future holds.

February, 2007 (while pregnant)

Hmmm..Im supposed to say a lil about myself here so here it goes. Ive been married for about 8 years and all this time we have been busy with studies and work. I have reached a level of academia and experience gained at work now, that hopefully finding a proper paid job in the future (if needs be) will not be an issue.

We (me and my man) had never really talked about starting a family probably because we were so busy and oh! the fact that I was so scared to death of labor, that he hardly brought it up and I tried to ignore the urges....

Early last year my sister in law gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and my sister fell pregnant and we had started to talk about extending our own family soon. In the back of my mind, I thought that we couldnt even have babies, and I guess many women feel this way when they havent conceived in such a long time (especially without contraception). So, we tried for one, and God blessed us on the 3rd month with this baby.

It has been quite a serene journey, pregnancy....so far, that I just hope the birth is just as great.....

Thats it for now but I hope to update on a more regular basis (more than I have been anyway) :)