My boyfriend is absolutely ecstatic! And has nicknamed me Baby Bake Oven. I told him when he returned from California and was shocked at how happy and excited he was! I didn't think he would run away but what I got was far better than what I expected. This will be the first child for both of us, and we couldn't imagine either of us doing it with anyone else. Now I just need to get through the first few months and I will be feeling really confident and even better about it all! I imagine if all goes well with this little one we'll move to Northern California in about 5 years and try again... but that remains to be determined yet.

The 18th was our first appointment. I weighed 111 and we had an ultrasound. I got the typical pap and breast exam. Tyrus doesn't do very well in doctor's offices so he stood up for about 2 minutes to watch the u/s and then almost passed out. Oh how I hope he makes it through delivery... Time will tell. But we did get to see the heart beating and what she thought were little leg buds forming. I cannot wait until it actually looks like a little baby in there rather than a blob on the screen! I've had absolutely no morning sickness so far. I do get nauseous now and then, but I have not gotten sick yet. The bloating is killing me! It's so bad, and so is the constipation. So I look pregnant but I am more than aware that it's not baby yet and it's been hard to get used to. Aggggh! Oh well, it will all be worth it in the end!

April 2009

9th - I cannot believe I've made it to week 11. I am absolutely stunned and allow myself to get a little more excited every day. But not too excited as we are not completely safe yet and I am too scared to get my hopes up. I had some blood work done on Monday March 30th and they did a few tests after removing 6 vials worth of blood from me... My screen for the prenatal profile, Cystic Fibrosis and HIV were all good. No signs of anything bad yet and they said the prenatal profile looked great! So that's one better thing to move past. I have my 3rd month check up on April 15th and the first trimester screening on April 16th. I wish I knew what to expect at the screening appointment. Will I get to see the little one? Hear a heartbeat? What? Ahhh! The anticipation is killing me! And the last 2 days I have been soooooo nauseous but I guess I had it coming with no real m/s so far. I still haven't gotten sick so I'm counting my blessings and the days until the first trimester is done! 12 days to go! Then I will allow everyone including myself to get excited!

22nd - I weighed 117 at my 12 week check up. I got the results from the first trimester screening! Everything looks great so far! Our chances of Down Syndrome are 1 in 1,800 and our chances of Trisomy 18 are 1 in 10,000, all really good numbers from what I am told! They will do more blood work in about 3 weeks to get our final risk numbers. But so far so good... Today starts week 13 wihich is the last in the first trimester! Yahoo! I cannot even believe we made it! I still have not gotten sick even once which is just awesome as far as I'm concerned! I am still starving all the time but not as badly as I was at 6 weeks! Watching the little one bouncing around at our scan last week was absolutely incredible! I was completely amazed as was Ty! I think we both felt really good about things after that appointment. Now I am ready to start buying things and getting ready for the little one's arrival. I hope everyone is feeling as good as I am these days... aside from the stress of our move but you can read my blog about that if you're interested! Here we go to trimester 2! Yay!

May 2009

1st - YAY! Im still pregnant! We're in the second trimester and feeling pretty good about it! I had my first bout with morning sickness last Friday night, but it also seems that my first may have been my last. Time will tell I suppose. I can feel my belly growing but I haven't put up any pictues yet as sometimes I just feel like it's not even a baby belly yet. But my clothes aren't fitting right and my "fat" jeans are the only one that are comfortable and don't have to be exteneded with a rubber band. So I'm heading to Kohls this weekend to grab some Motherhood Maternity jeans as they are currently on sale there for about $20 a pair! I also plan on heading to Babies R Us this weekend too. I started a registry online but I want to go see what thay have in the store as well. My next appointment is May 11th and I think I'll probably be slightly sad at that one. It will probably be the first appointment that I won't have an ultrasound... and I have just loved seeing that little one in there! But I also know there are some of you who have yet to see your little one's at all so I just try to be grateful that I've had one at every appointment this far. 6 weeks to the half way mark! Hooray!

12th- Last night's appointment went great, I weighed 121. If it weren't for hearing that heartbeat I would almost say it was a little boring! lol! We were in there for all of 10 minutes. He felt around and made sure my uterus was where it should be, then we listened to the heartbeat. And that was it. He asked if there were any questions and that was that...

18th - So I am quite sure I felt the first distinct movements over the weekend and I'm still feeling some this morning. I took some pics of me laying down today and they look so freaking neat to me! It's amazing how much I'm starting to pop out now.. just starting obviously but so cool! And apparently I have the best doctor's offive ever because they just called with the results from my blood work Friday morning. Everything looks great! Our chances of Downs is 1 in 1,300, Trisomy 18 is 1 in 10,000 and Spina Bifida is 1 in 6,000. All good numbers according to her! Hooray!!

June 2009

4th - Well I woke up feeling like I had swallowed a watermelon today.. And my belly was looking much bigger to me! Hooray for popping bellies as Shea said! :-) I love being pregnant... it is so freaking neat!

9th - Yesterday's appointment was good. They gave me the drink that I will need for my glucose test in about 4 weeks. Said my weight gain is great, although the day I popped I actually gained about 3 pounds. I got on the scale on Tuesday morning and it was 122.4. I got back on that scale on Thursday and it said 125.9, last night at the office it was 126.4!!! Whoa!! That was fast seeing as I hadn't really put any weight on in a few weeks. Everything is growing and I am absolutely enjoying it! Our ultrasound is Friday morning! I'm told it's a very cool one even if you're not finding out the baby's sex! 4 weeks until the next check up! just about half way there! YAY!

19th - I've been lost without this site and my friends here for the last week! So my ultrasound was last Friday the 12th. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life! I loved the way they can count fingers, toes and bones. Measuring the brain and looking at the heart valves was really quite awesome, but I thought the way they show you the blood flow was incredible! The baby was about 11 ounces, heart rate was 157 bpm and everything looks great! They also said I have plently of fluid in there... My bf was completely amazed and pretty much hasn't beeen able to keep his hands off of my belly since! My Mom came with us too and I was quite proud of her, she didn't cry, find out the sex or anything typical of her! I've felt the baby moving SO MUCH in the last week finally! I weighed myself again for the last 2 days and I'm at 125.8... ??? Weird! I finished my registry (I think anyway) today as Mom is handing out invites to family at our first picnic of the summer tomorrow. I went with Babies R Us and put everything I could think of on there. We get 10% off of everything that wasn't purchased from the registry after my shower so I'm all for that discount on some big items! I cannot believe my shower is in about 10 weeks! And even crazier is that about 10 weeks after that (or less) the baby will be here! All of the sudden this is going so fast to me, and I'm so excited and ready to meet the person we created! Obviously not quite yet... but I can't wait!

July 2009

2nd - It's freaking July already! HOLY CRAP! I just cannot grasp how the time has gone by so fast at this point. On one hand I feel like I've been pregnant for such a long time, but then I realize that it's been just about 6 months and there are only 4 months left! It feels like just yesterday I was just aching to get to that half way point and now we're three weeks past that! Which by the way doesn't seem right at all anymore since I'm now freaking out about how soon the baby is coming! I'm really excited because we're starting our move in about 4 weeks, my birthday is in 6 weeks and the shower is in 7 weeks!! And then 10 weeks (at the most hopefully) after that this little one will be in my arms! I know the next 16 weeks or so are probably going to feel like forever to me, but I'm sure they're also going to fly by quicker than I like!

7th - So we had our month 6 check up last night. Everything is good so far. Baby's heartrate is still in the 150s and sounds so strong and good! I go for my glucose screen next Friday the 17th, something I'm not looking forward to at all. I took the whole day off so hopefully after I'm done at the screen I can go to our new place and start painting. We don't have a huge place to painting should go quickly. We're doing everything in an eggshell color right now just to get it done and get us in there. We're feeling a bit stressed on our timeline right now but I think we'll make it. I think so, I hope so... We may actually pick a color for the baby's room and our room but we'll see how we look on timing... not that color makes it take longer to paint but it will take me longer to pick a color. :-) The place looks great! Ty and his friend have done some amazing work over there! I wish I would have taken more before pics, but it's time to start taking renovation pics. I cannot wait to see this little person's face and what type of personality they develop! But I'm more than ready to start putting that nursery together!

20th - 100 days to go! All seems to be going well really. We still have a lot of work to do at his place but I'm trying to not even worry about it at this point. I'm just trying to stay at a low stress level and reming myself that everything will be just fine. I am looking forward to moving though and cannot wait for the day! I had my glucose test Friday morning, which was fine. Not as bas as I was expecting actually... the drink wasn't too bad and the hour went by quickly! I can't believe we're down to just 14 weeks until baby is due! I'm beginning to really treasure my quiet Saturday monrings when I can still sleep in...

August 2009

4th - Well last night was our 27th week check up. We were with Dr. Cadieux again and I absolutely love her! I truly hope she is the one on call when it's time for this little one to arrive. She said my chances of getting her are 1 in 6 nd she doesn't have any vactions planned for then... lol! She is fun, hilarious and takes time to talk with us and see how we're doing rather than coming in doing her business and sending us on our way. And she totally gets Tyrus's humor, a rarety with any other doctor we've seen so far! They definitely click well! So she looked over everything from our Level 2 u/s and said she likes the look of it all, she also said I am measuring prefectly for my week. Which was good to hear because I was feeling a bit small again! Then we discussed names for a while and her and Tyrus talked about their favorite letters of the alphabet and why... I'm telling you, she is awesome! I also asked her about the purple looking thing showing up on my boob, kind of like spider vein... She said it's fine and actually a very good sign that I have great blood flow in my breast. It basically shows that the capillaries are filling up with a lot of blood, not bursting, but filling well into the top layers of my skin which is a good sign if I'm planning to breast feed, which I am! My weight was 134 and they are now testing my urine for protein at each appointment. Back in 3 weeks with my cup of first morning pee! lol! Here we go ladies, 12 weeks and 1 day!!!

26th - All is well at this weeks check up! My weight was 135.2 but they aren't concerned and said it's not a problem. Baby is head down, heart rate still sounds great and even though I freaked out because the baby was moving less for a couple days they said not to worry. He said as long as I am feeling the baby move a couple time through the day it's fine and to pay more attention to whether the baby starts moving after meals more than anything. He also said he thinks the baby will be about 7 pounds. Oh and now this little bugger has been moving around like crazy again for the last 2 days. Some days I feel like I can't get enough to eat and some days I have no appetite at all... but overall I still feel pretty good. My shower was last Saturday and we are almost completely ready, as far as stuff goes, for this baby's arrival! Hooray! I'm getting to anxious to meet this little person! My Mom has finally decided she doesn't care what the sex is, she's just happy to have a baby coming. I don't think I knew she cared so much about the sex before, but I did know that she wanted a girl! I have all of the balloons from the shower in my living room and so far there are 4 pink that remain up and only 2 blue... so maybe it's a girl! LOL!

September 2009

21st - I just realized it's been almost a month since I've updated this for myself. This month has pretty much flown by. We had a breast feeding class on the 8th, which was fine. Long and very repititious, I think the 2.5 our class could and should be cut down to a 1 or 1.5 hour class but whatever. Tyrus was determined to go to all of the classes with me and I was fine with that, but after that one he decided he will sit out the pumping class, lol! So we attempted to go to our birthing class on the 12th, and that didn't work out so well. Tyrus didn't even make it through an hour of class. As soon as she started speaking about my water breaking and amniotic fluid colors he needed some air. About 5 minutes later I found him laying down in the hallway outside of the class drenched in sweat and worrying about what we were going to do for my labor. WE do not have to worry about that part obviously, I do. He will be sitting in the waiting room or somewhere else waiting until it's all done with and he can come in and meet his child. I know he still wants to try and be there but I cannot handle that while I'm in labor, I'm scared to death as it is and watching him go through siezure like panic attacks is only going to make things worse for both of us. Besides, after these panic attacks he tends to need about 4 to 5 hours of sleep just to feel awake again and if ANYONE is sleeping for 4 hours after labor it will be me - not him! LOL! And I'll only get to sleep for about an hour at a time I'm sure, if even that! My Mom and Sister will now be joining be for this baby's birth, and I'm not sure how I feel about that at this point... Nervous I guess, I don't even know! Either way, the next birthing class isn't available until October 17th, so now I'm just hoping I don't go into labor before then... Any day after that I will be fine with, I'll even be fine with contracting through the class and heading striaght over to delivery when we're done. Just please let me get through this class baby! Otherwise things are okay. I think we are pretty much prepared for this baby's arrival tomorrow if it happened that way. We have clothes, diapers, wipes, all the important safety stuff, toys etc... everything is washed, hung, put together and almost everything is organized... for the baby anyway. All of our stuff is in shambles because he keeps trying to convince me to get ready to move. I know better, just take a look a the pic I uploaded of his place today and you will know better too. Now as long as my landlord continues being nice and lets us stay until at least November I think we'll be set. And if he keeps working he just might get his place done by then, but it will take some serious motivation, time and money and I don't know how much he has left in him. He is wearing himself very thin these days... It worries me. It also worries me that him and I are just going to lose it on each other one of these days too... but it hasn't happened yet so my fingers are crossed. I know we're both frustrated so I don't complain to him almost ever. You poor ladies have heard me complain about 1000 times more than Ty ever has... I think complaining only makes him work slower... So I guess that's it for this long update... I hope everyone is doing well! Less than 6 weeks to go! WOO HOO! 28 working days left to my due date! YAHOO!

22nd - Today is my furbaby's 2nd birthday... I cannot believe I didn't even remember to give her extra hugs this morning. I'm not feeling like a very good Mom today! :-(

29th - So Friday night I had contractions for about 3 hours or so. They started off every 5 to 6 minutes and were very mild, then they went to every 3 to 4 minutes and got a little stronger. Not much stronger, but enough to make me wonder... I laid down for a while, tried drinking lots of water and just resting. By this point it was almost 11:30 pm. Then they started moving around to my back too and were coming every 2 to 3 minutes so I decided to call the office and see what they had to say. I figured it was better to call at midnight rather than 2 am. When Dr. Silverburg called back he said to keep resting and see if they were still coming every 2 minutes and getting stronger in about an hour, if they were to head to L & D to be monitored for a while. They were still coming an hour later but didn't seem to be getting any stronger, so I decided to lay in bed. I figured if I fell asleep I surely wouldn't sleep through it... So when I woke up the next morning they were still coming but not as frequent or strong anymore. I did have a lot of new pressure down below though.. and that hasn't changed yet. It feels like this baby is trying to push right through my pubic bone already! I've been feeling very nauseous too and I'm hoping that goes away. I don't enjoy trying to sleep with heartburn, nausea and never getting comfortable...We had a check up last night, my weight was 139.6 and I am dialated 1 cm... but my cervix doesn't seem to have thinned out at all so it will most likely still be a couple weeks. I definitely don't have contractions every 2 to 3 minutes all the time so we shall see...

October 2009

6th - Well I have no new news really... other than the fact that I am 142.6 pounds! I weigh 8 pounds less than my boyfriend, that is almost depressing to me! Dr. Cohen didn't feel the need to do an internal last night so I don't know if I've progressed anymore. He said he doesn't usually feel the need to do them before week 37 or 38 and I'm not even 37 until tomorrow so it can wait. I have to see Dr. Silverburg next week and he will do an internal. Boo hoo, not a big fan of him for some reason. I haven't had any constant contractions like I was having so I probably haven't changed much, but it would be nice to know for sure! He did say that the baby's head is down in a good spot in my pelvis and all seems to be just where it should be. But I am so very tired of being pregnant ladies. I'm so ready to be able to get out of bed without ROLLING off the side of it, to be able to put on my socks and shoes and to never have to put these damn maternity jeans on again! *Not for a few years anyway, lol!* Last night I had a complete emotional breakdown about labor... it scares me so much to even just think about it. I have been more scared of that than anything since we hit week 16... Ty tried to comfort me and tell me I would be fine and that my Mom and Sister would be right there and he would be just outside (lol) the room... and he also used the "women have been doing it forever and most of them want to do it again after going through the first one" line... but that didn't comfort me at all. I just can't grasp how I'm going to get this baby out of me. Maybe I'll feel better after making it to birthing class on the 17th (hopefully) but I doubt it. Either way this baby has to come out and I am ready for him or her to come out, but I am still unbelievably scared too... Hopefully not much longer though!

16th - I completely forgot to update this on Tuesday morning. I cannot wait for my brain to work again. So Monday's appointment was pretty uneventful. I weigh 146.8 pounds... I'm only about 4 pounds less than Ty at this point, which is not the most exciting news I've ever heard. He used to be about 160 but he doesn't have the time to spend at the gym these days like he used to. I was still only 1 cm dilated at Monday's check up... :-( What is this little one waiting for, I have no clue! But s/he is very low in my pelvis to the point where the doctor could feel the head when he did my internal. Which is why I feel all the pressure and discomfort down there... from front to back it gets quite painful. I keep having mild cramping and such and I'm not sleeping well at all. But that's to be expected at this point. I was really hoping to be a bit more dilated or something by now. I know this all works out on baby's timing, but that little one has to be tired of being so squished in there! I keep telling them that there is so much more room out here and all they have to do is push that little plug all the way out or just go ahead and break the bag! This child isn't listening to me already... oh the joys pf parenthood... lol! In the beginning I was more than happy to have this little one on Halloween day seeing at it's my favorite holiday and such... now I wish I were already holding this baby in my arms! Why can't I just be done... please...

19th - We finally have some progress! My check up was great with Dr. Cadieux! She said that I am about 2.5 cm and 80% effaced! YAY! I've been having contractions on and off since Saturday and this evening they seem to be getting stronger but I"m not calling the doctor just yet. We'll wait until I'm really in pain before doing that. I weighed 145.7 today so maybe I'm done gaining weight? Here's to hoping these contractions get stronger and my water breaks tonight!!

21st - Baby Logan arrived at 5:52 am!