The night before I graduated high school I decided to take a pregnancy test to clear my mind for the big day that was approaching quickly (with no sleep!). Well, my mind wasn't really cleared, instead bombarded with questions and concerns of being pregnant! I've gotten a grasp on it all, and have been NOTHING BUT excited since the day I found out. I had a feeling from the first few weeks... At work VERYYY early in my pregnancy I felt light headed as I stood up at work and fell over. I jokingly said to my manager "I think Im pregnant" without really thinking of what I was saying... In the next weeks I shopped for and bought a graduation dress, which I LOVED... However, my breasts grew SO quickly I had to get a new one the next week, just days before graditation! Ciggarettes became unbearable and smells were more powerful to me. I find it all such a miracle!!! The father is simply out of the picture, and I believe I and the baby are better off that way! I have an extremely supportive mom. I have a feeling its a boy, but like almost every woman out there, secretly wish for a little girl!!!

*mom to be :o}

My First Doctor Appt: Monday, July 7 2008

~8wk and 6days!~

So until earlier this morning at my appt I totally thought I was at ten weeks. Howevever, after the internal sonogram (ughh of which I was hoping I would NOT have to get annother EVER haha) the doctor measured my baby and determined Im not even 9 weeks yet!!!! 9 weeks TOMORROW! Sooo weird. Now the rate my belly is growing is even MORE alarming seeing as how Im not even 9 weeks yet!!! So my due date has jumped allll the way to Feb 10 2009. I have a feeling this is gonna be a big stubborn boy(?) so it'll probably be even later than that when he(?) actually comes into the world. I had to kick my mom out of the room because she started crying! Before I even got the pap smear!!! omg. So she missed the heartbeat. I wanted her to hear it! I was kind of upset when I went to get blood work... all I did was look away when she put the needle in and complained a little that I could still feel it... (I usually cant feel a thing once the needle is in you know?) and my mom and the nurse started making fun of me... the nurse was like "Id love to see her when she gives birth" and my moms like "yeah wait for this...and that...blahhh". Like seriously!? I have to be SUPERWOMAN just cuz theres a baby in me!? I am soo much stronger but why cant I be a little freaked out about the things they do to me... If Im in discomfort why cant I voice that...? Well its funny because later in the day my mom was like "Oh she nicked you're vain, your starting to bruise... maybe it DID hurt a little..." Uh yeah thats all I was saying, it didnt feel normal! Well anyway! Everything is fine! Thank God! I got the sonogram pic and will post it very soon!<3