6/10/08
Wow! My due date is tomorrow!! I went to the Dr. today and I was 2-3 cm dilated and 80% effaced. Then she sent me to the hospital to make sure my blood pressure spike was okay. Everything is fine and the nurse in triage was sooo nice. She told me that she will be seeing me very shortly! I was havign contractions the whole time and she said that everything looks great and I will most likely be going in for the real deal either tonight or tomorrow. She said MAYBE the next day, but unlikely.....thats sooo crazy to think I will actually see my baby so soon! I have been feeling the contractions ALL day and yesterday too. But they arent too painful yet. I hope I know when it is the right time to go in. But I am so excited and nervous as hell! ELI COME TO MAMA!
3/25/08
Well I got my blood tests back from the Dr. I have to go back for a 3 hr. GTT test. They think I have diabetes :-(. They also said my iron is low and I should be taking a supplement. I dont know....I dont really believe in vitamins so much. I already take the prenatal. I think I will just eat spinach every night...I thought I was better at this pregnancy thing but my body is failing all the tests!! I am getting closer to my due date and it all feels so real now....I hope I am ready!! Eat healthy, ladies, or you will end up like me....the diabetic anemic fatty! hehe
2/15/08
| A LIL SURVEY |
Where was ur baby conceived?: | In our bedroom in Dan's parents house |
Have you felt the baby move?: | YES since week 18 |
What race will your baby have? From you and daddy?: | Jewish and a quarter Italian |
Do you have stretch marks?: | I guess little ones on my breasts and I can tell I will get them more soon to come. |
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What religion will the baby know? And from what side?: | Jewish holidays wherever I can pull them off...but we are very open minded and not religious at all. |
What music or interests do you want the baby to know?: | music and READING. Daddy loves music and mommy loves books, so the baby will have plenty of exposure hopefully. |
Will ur baby have godparents?: | honorary ones to make my friends feel special I guess. |
Who will the god mommy be?: | Angie |
Who will the god daddy be?: | Sean |
What is the baby's room theme?: | Theme?? Uh, it is green. It will have a crib. I dont think it needs a theme.... |
What was the first thing u bought for the baby?: | I'm not allowed to buy stuff til baby is here, cuz its bad luck. |
Are u ready to be a mommy?: | I hope so! |
1/14/08
ITS A BOY!!!!!!!!! A little Italian boy swimming and kicking my stomach!! I cant believe it! I really thought it would be a girl.....I am very nervous. I cant imagine myself a boy mom...or a mom at all for that matter. Do I have what it takes? A BOY!!!??? Oh my goodness!! I'll post u/s pics later.
1/13/08
I FELT THE BABY MOVE!!!!!!!! i JUST CAME OFF A WEEK CRUISE AND i GAINED ABOUT 5-7 LBS. YAY!! I HAVE AN U/S TOMORROW. OPEN YOUR LEGS, BABY! OPEN!
12/14/07-

11/28/07
I went to the Dr today and this new Dr is soooo cool! She is young and little like me, and she treated Dan like an equal even tho we arent married. She was super sweet and thorough with her examinations. She told me all the things my other Dr neglected to do. She also did a vaginal u/s ( my first one) and Dan was getting all excited watching the baby move and he was so cute and smiley looking at the baby! He showed off the pics to his mom right after and he sounded so excited! That really made my day! For some reason the head looks REALLY BIG which is concerning me because Dan has a mega huge head and Dan's mom told me how freakin painful THAT was! Oh please have a normal sized head, little baby! I am a little person (5'0) with a tiny head and Dan's is so big so the baby has to be average sized right? haha. Anyways this Dr. seems great but my mom had warned me in the beginning when I was looking for Dr's to stay away from the D.O. because its not as good as an M.D. and she calls them "fake Dr's". I dont know the difference between them. If anybody does, I am real curious. But my mom is a judgemental bitch and this Dr seems awesome so I'm not too concerned. I mean, my mom also thinks I shouldnt listen to anything the people I work with say because they are all white trash( since I'm a cashier at a dealership). For some reason she has always thought she was better then everybody. I just smile and nod and love her and take everything she says with a grain of salt. haha. Thank G-d she moved out of state!
I am getting SUPER EXCITED about my pregnancy. I am starting to show and have a "Buddha belly" as Dan calls it. And I just feel like telling everybody I meet! My violent rages are gone and the moodswings seem to be diminishing for the time being. YAY!! I'm having a freakin baby!!! Now I just cant wait to tell what the sex is!! hmm lets see.....6 more weeks to wait! My next appt is 4 weeks. Wow, cant believe its already going to be christmas soon! How time flies....
Ladies, hope your holiday season is GREAT and full of YUMMY FOODS!!!!
Possible Names so far:
11-26-07 GIRL: Kaya Rose Pontillo
BOY: Eli Robert Pontillo
These are preliminary...
11/12/07
Well I checked myself into the ER on Saturday because I am in-between doctors and I was getting worried about the abdominal pains I have been having. They cant find a reason for my constant thirst but they ruled out diabetes. They said the pain might have to do with a slight UTI they detected in my urine and because the uterus is stretching. They did an u/s and that was cool cuz Dan didnt get to see the last one. The baby is 171 bpm which is awesome and "the blob" (thats what it looks like to me) is bigger and I could see the beating heart inside the blob, which I couldnt see last time. I feel like it is a girl. I am real glad she is healthy and doing fine still. I am about to start antibiotics for the UTI and I hope they dont make me nauseous cuz I was lucky with the lack of nausea I had been feeling. I can feel myself getting fatter already and maybe I should start exercising. I havent exercised at all since I found out I was preggers.
Life is so expensive. Its driving me crazy. I just wish I had more money. LOTS more money. GRRRR!!! ;-)
11/3/07
This page has really helped me more then anything else get through these emotional times of my early pregnancy. Things are starting to improve. My parents are letting up and letting go. They have accepted that this baby is coming and that I am growing up. Dan has been good most times but he has a problem being serious and ESPECIALLY growing up. I have been at him to get another job and we have been fighting a lot recently. He just wants to spend all his money (which is practically nothing anyway) on weed and smoke it all day instead of looking for a job. But he loves me, really. Hes not as bad as I make him sound. He is real respectful and has a heart of pure diamond and is the most intelligent man I've ever met. He just has problems dealing with real life and making money. It comes from his past of being a drug addict and never achieving anything in his life. I dont think he believes in himself. But he has potential, and he has me, and now he has this little baby, G-d willing, to prepare for. I am real hopeful.
I have been an emotional wreck. And violent too. I have violent outbursts and fighting with Dan usually ends now with me physically harming him. I cant help it. Its the hormones. But I think he understands....
10/28/07
I have made a decision. I decided to go against my family and stay with the father of the baby, aka my soulmate. They are trying to fight me and basically I cant stand them. They are causing me mucho stress and I am over the whole lot. They dont understand love, only money. They want whats best for me but yelling, crying, and carrying on isnt going to make him marry me. So they are actualyl making things worse. I am just over it right now. I am ready to start my new life and new family with Dan and I am over my parents. Good riddance! Talk about unsupportive, inappropriate, and demeaning! They have nothing nice to say about all this. If I wont get married, I am not responsible enough to have a child. Well FUCK YOU MOM! Sorry, I had to get that out!! haha. Whew I feel better now. Me and my BOYFRIEND will be just fine!
10/26/07
Today is a new day and happens to be better then others. First, I got my first ultrasound. I am 7 weeks and 2 days. I heard a heartbeat!! Now, I've settled on the fact that I cant make everybody happy in this situation. Dan and I had a LOOONG talk last night. We went for a walk and really considered for real what we were going to do. Turns out, he wants the baby! He is willing to work extra hard to make this little family work. He just does NOT want to move to MO and take orders from my father. Dan and I are not like typical society. We like to do things our way, him more then me. My parents are not happy about this, needless to say. But I feel better now that Dan is serious about being a daddy! I cant live to please my parents. They should be happy that I am happy. I am sure I have not heard the end of it. My folks are crazy but we will make it through. Me, Dan, and this little peanut sized baby in me with a quick little heartbeat. Everything will work out for the best. People have made it through with far less then we have.
10/25/07
I am having an awful time with my emotions. I thought Dan would stick around for this and "go with the flow" as he originally implied. But now he is talking about dipping out if I dont get rid of the baby. Its not just him but his mom and my whole family is disturbed by all this. Its so sad how much grief I have caused. I dont know what to do. I just cant abort again. G-d will never forgive me. I will never forgive myself!!
10-22-07
okay...well I have gotten through week one of "oh my G-d, I can't believe I took that test 3 times and they were ALL positive?!" I wont even see a doctor until Tues. but I am sick in the mornings with violent nausea, my boobs are HUGE and swollen, and I cant even remember when my last period was....so basically, I am pregnant. It is scary. My boyfriend of 2 years was freaked out beyond belief at first, but he has gradually warmed up to the idea, I think partly due to my mother's supportive optimism. We have not told HIS mother yet, nor my father. My dad will not take it well. I am dreading the day he has to know.
Well I have a LOT of decisions to make and plans to arrange, but this could work out. I will try my hardest. My boyfriend will have the most difficulty because he cant save money AND he is addicted to drugs. He just came out of recovery and only has 5 months clean! But this....child... will either make him or break him and will give ME something else to live for. Because despite my boyfriends' problems, I love him with all my heart. I knew from the first day we met that he was the one. Now my mom wants us to get married and the more I think about it, the more I want us to get married too. But one day at a time. I still need to go to the doctor....I refuse to be stressed by all this even though my life is a freakin soap opera! Geez.