April 22, 2008- Would be 13 wks 3days

This is one announcement I never imagined I would have to make. My little angel did not make it. Since the last post, I had a third ultrasound and again was told that everything was OK. That was Thursday. On Friday, April 18th @ 3pm, my baby went to be with her heavenly father. I was completely shocked. I woke up and was in constant pain to the point where I couldn't get around well so I went to the Doc. On the way there, I lost my baby. I was in the hospital for 3 days. It didn't hit me until yesterday when I left the hospital without my baby. I just broke down. It's amazing how quickly we fall in love with our babies. Pray for me guys. Today is better. I have my moments but I feel stronger with the help of the God. I am accepting that this was his will and that it is according to his plan and for his purpose. It helps when I imagine him cradling her in his arms looking down on me. I don't have a husband or a companion now so I won't be trying again for some time, but hopefully in due time I will see you all again....all the way to the end. Thank you all for your support and prayers. Take care mommies and charish your babies. They are truly a blessing. May God be with you and your families.

Dana & Ryliegh (my angel)

April 16, 2008 - 12 wks & 4 days

I had an appt today as a followup to the ER visit this weekend. She checked my cervix and it's still closed. The baby's heartbeat is fine. All of my tests came back negative. She sent me for an U/S. The baby is measuring right (actually 3 days ahead). I saw my little bean's lazy butt again (that's 2 U/S in one week). She was asleep again!!! We shook her up and she strectched and flipped over but wasn't too active. I have pics that I will post soon and I was given a DVD of the U/S. The DVD was a cool surprise!! So it seems that everything they check comes out fine. Yet, I am still having heavy pink discharge with a funny odor and constant abdominal pain. Trying not to worry, but I'm just not sure why the Doc's can't give me a reason for this sudden change. Everything was fine until Friday. The only advice they give me is to "get some rest".

On a positive note, since I had the DVD of the U/S I couldn't resist showing my daughter. She loves looking a baby stuff. She watched it and kept asking who it was. At first she thought it was herself as a baby. I told her that it was her little brother or sister. It took her a minute to put it together. She says, "well that would mean that you're pregnant. Mom, are you pregnant?" When I told her yes she could hardly believe it. She kept asking if I was sure. It took me a bit to convince her that I was pretty sure. She was ecstatic!! She kept rubbing my belly and telling everyone within hearing range. She danced around the house singing, "I'm going to be mommies little helper" over and over and over again. I knew she would be excited. I was happy for her. I wasn't sure when I would tell her, but with me having to go to the doctor so often the past couple days, she was getting worried and asking why I was soo sick. I thought it was time and the DVD was a good way to break the news.

Anyways, just trying to stay positive and get through the next 6 months uneventfully. Ladies keep up the good work. We'll be bringing our babies home in no time.

April 13, 2008 - 12 wks & 1 day

This pregnancy is waaayyy backwards. I haven't had many of the miserable preggo symptoms... like vomitting. That is not until now!!! I have thrown up three times in the last 2 days and experienced bleeding. What is going on?? I thought all that stuff was supposed to be clearing up..not starting. After the miscarriage scare on Friday night, the vomitting was kinda welcomed. It made me feel pregnant so no complaints. Also, just FYI...I don't really talk about baby daddy much cause I try to focus on my little baby, but just had to update u guys. About three weeks ago I ran into him unexpectedly. I merged onto the highway and he pulled up right next to me. We both were surprised as hell. I haven't seen him since the night we concieved and had been avoiding most of his calls because when I do talk to him the conversations are not productive. Anyways, we kinda stared at each other for a split minute, nodded, and pulled off. Ackward? Yes. Then I didn't her from him for the next three weeks until yesterday. He called from every phone he has. I didn't know what he wanted so I didn't intend to call him back right away, but there was a number I didn't recognize. I called it back and guess who?? He used someone else's phone. Well we talked a few minutes. He asked questions about the baby. I was reluctant at first, but I told him what has been going on...even about the ER visit. We talked about names and for the first time he seemed somewhat ginuenely interested in the baby. I don't expect much from him, but it was nice to actually share my thoughts and this experience with the baby's other half. Anyway, much love lady's and God bless you all!!!!!!

April 12, 2008 - 12 weeks

This morning I am fulling exercising my faith believing that God knows what he's doing. On last night, after a perfect pregnancy, I had vaginal bleeding. It was completely unexpected. I went to the restroom before going to bed and when I wiped (sorry if TMI) the tissue was soaked in blood. I did not feel any unusual pain or cramping, but I went to the ER just to ease my mind. The Doc said that any bleeding could be a sign of miscarriage. He did an US and there was little bean. At first all I could see was her head. He had to shuffle around a bit to find the rest of her. She wasn't moving though. I was expecting to see her jumping around. With my first daughter she was all over the place. The Doc moved my belly a bit and she finally reacted. Maybe we woke her up. She didn't seem too happy about that. She started kicking and flipping around. I could see her legs and arms. I know she is tiny but in the US she looked ready to hold. The Doc tried to find her heartbeat. I saw a small pocket where the heart was, but I didn't see it beating. She was moving though, so I guess she's OK. The Doc told me to take it easy for a couple days and to follow up with my OBGYN next week. He said that it was not much that he could do...that it was in God's hands. I don't know how much he believes in God, but his little reminder surely put me at peace. God knows. I was still spotting before I went to sleep, but this morning everything seems fine. Pray for me and the little one. You all be blessed.

Thursday, March 20th (8 Wks 5 Days)

I had my first appointment today. I hate needles. They drained my blood, asked a thousand questions and the Doc stuck his hand far up my u know what. Not much fun. I wasn't sure, but I was hoping to get an U/S or hear the baby's heart beat...no such luck. So far as they can tell the baby looks healthy. i go back for an ultrasound mid April. I'll be 12.5 weeks. I've heard that it that's too early to know for sure the sex but I'm hoping they can see something. Can't wait!!

Saturday, March 8th 2008

I am 7 weeks today...yay!!! I took my first belly pics last week (not much to see yet). I was always excited, but I've grown even more excited. Thanks ladies for all ur comments and support over the past 3 weeks. I've been able to deal better with daddy donor and my less than ideal situation. I'm just anxious to see my little one. Since I've known from day one the past 7 wks have felt like forever. I know I have a long way ahead...I try not to think about it though. Anyways, hope everyone is doing great and keep in touch.

Hello all u mommies & M-2-B,

I am a very excited second time mom!!! I found out on Valentines Day (1 day before AF was due). I am now 4 weeks and 6 days looking forward to many more days and years to come. This pregnancy was not planned, but I couldn't be more happy about it (can't say the same about daddy donor). Even though I knew that their was a possibility, I took the test fully expecting to see a negative. I was in shock when this dark blue plus sign popped up almost immediately. I just kept running in and out of the bathroom thinking that it would change or that I was seeing things. I didn't....baby is on its way!!!! I haven't spread the word yet just to daddy donor, my mother, sister, and few close friends, and all you mommies out there ( guess I have spread the word,lol). Everyone has been encouraging and supportive. I have a daughter who will be 6 very soon and has been asking for a sibling for a couple years now. I think she might be more thrilled than anyone. I haven't told her yet..just trying to wait for the right time (not sure when that will be, but sometime before my belly tells on itself).

Anyway, I'm just here to share in your excitement and for you to share in mine. I will soon be a single mother of 2, so to all you single mothers your advice in welcomed. To all others I am eager to hear your pregnancy and mother tales also. This is a blessing and a wonderful experience. Let's enjoy it together!!!

Wishing Us All Happy & Healthy Bundles of Joy,

Belle1198