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 | Age: 21 Country: US Province/region: Pennsylvania City: Elizabethtown Partner: Boyfriend Brandon Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 18 May ,2008 Occupation: College Student |
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cali.momma - Wednesday, 23 April
are these the people that will fly you out a couple times a year or w/e?? i hate olive garden, so i only eat the breadsticks and salad haah.
cali.momma - Wednesday, 23 April
ahh tomorrow?! the nice ones?? id be insanely nervous!!!! id probly cry when i saw them.
cali.momma - Wednesday, 23 April
dang girl. youre still so tiny! :D cali.momma - Wednesday, 23 April
has your cervix ever stung? like it hurts SOOOO bad
cali.momma - Tuesday, 15 April
heh. my dad calls her olly hah. i dunno what will stick tho. we'll see
cali.momma - Monday, 14 April
aw thats cuteeee! :D i want to get something for olivia, but not her name because when shes old enough to write her name im going to have her write it out and ill get that tattooed. i want a symbol or something, but im not sure what..nothing exciting comes from her name lol. one meaning is "elf army" though, that could be sick haha
cali.momma - Friday, 11 April
was the accident his fault? good thing he didnt get hurt tho.
yesterday pregnancy physically hit me. randomly came, but harddd. im the worst person to be pregnant. everything goes wrong. you should be a seragate :] get money :]] hahah
winnowillr - Thursday, 10 April
I'm glad to hear Brandon was able to be with you when your "friends" let you down at the dance. Besides, watching NCIS is beter than hanging out with losers!!! :) (NCIS is one of my favorite shows!!!My hubby is in "love" with Abby, I think it's funny!)
I'm really not sure how Eric feels about visits... I think it will be hard on him at first, but over time I think he'll be alright. You see, a bit of background... He has two children from a previous relationship. Their Mom had Bipolar Disorder, and that makes it impossible for him to have a stable relationship with his children. I think he's afraid he's going to lose touch with this child, too. I've tried to tell him this is different, but he doesn't seem to want to talk. So, I guess we shall see over time how he handles this.
I hope you get the chance to meet them soon... Time's growing shorter! I insisted right away on finding and meeting adoptive parents.. It has given me such a piece of mind!
My 7 year old met Amy recently. We were talking about how Amy is going to be the Mommy of her baby brother or sister. Poor Desi.. She looks at me with her innocent brown eyes and ask, "Does that mean she'll be my Mommy too?" Wow!!! Some days it's so hard know thw right words to get them to understand.
How have you been feeling physically? Are you going to the doc more often yet? Measurements and everything ok?
You take care, hun. Hang in there. I'm continuing to pray for you!
-Winnie
cali.momma - Wednesday, 9 April
heyy :] hows everything going?
samlib - Tuesday, 8 April
love the new pic!!!
winnowillr - Monday, 7 April
You are sooo beautiful in your picture!! Did you have a good time at the dance?
Just a warning... Do not watch TLC's "Adoption Stories" without a bix of tissues handy! Most of the epesodes I have seen have been older children , or overseas adoption. This time, I saw a young mother relinquish her newborn to the adoptive couple... I cried sooo hard! All I could think of, was, that's going to be me. Wow, the emotions were overwhelming!
I hope you get the chance to meet Ryllie's adoptive parents soon. I know it's such a meaningful experience for me, and I'm sure it will be for you, too. Do you know what kind of openness they are agreeable to? We've arranged to visit with baby twice a year, and photot updates in between.
We're getting close to that time! I wonder which one of us will go first.. I know my due date is a week later than yours, but I have a history of carrying overterm. Since we're going through this "together", I feel we have a bond. We'll have to make sure to keep in touch after our births. That way we know we have someone to talk to who truely knows what the other is going through.
Take care, hun! Hugs!
-Winnie
winnowillr - Friday, 4 April
How do you like the changes on the site? I don't do change very well... I don't like it!
I just wanted to share that Amy took me to visit her house after my last appointment. It was sooo wonderful to see their home! This baby is going to be sooo spoiled! The house is huge, clean, and beautiful! I even got to see the nursery! It's so funny how we share similar tastes. She decorates in a lot of blue, her bathroom is done in a fish/under the sea theme, and her TV is even the same brand/style as ours! This is sooo meant to be. Yes, I'm still hurting, but it was reassuring to know exactly where my baby is going to live. I just has to share with someone, and I knew you would understand!
Hugs!
-Winnie
samlib - Tuesday, 1 Apr
hey! how have things been for you!
winnowillr - Saturday, 29 Mar
Hi hon! My doctor is going to 'make up' a reason to keep me longer in the hospital longer. He's really understanding of the situation, and is working with me to assure I am ok afterwards.
I'm glad Brandon will be able to stay with you for a few days. Is he really supportive and understanding? Eric doesn't really have much to do with my pregnancy. He pretends it's just a medical condition, not a life, so he doesn't get attached. So, I feel I'm on this road alone.
The kids are handling it pretty good! I knew from the start that I couldn't raise this child, so they have had lots of time to get used to it. Desi (age 7) is seeing the counselor at her school weekly to help her, and reports that she has a positive attitude about it. Isaiah (age 4) didn't understand at first, but we brought him to meet Matt and Amy. I introduced them to Isaiah as the baby's parents, and he gets it now. He just needed the visualization. Stefan (age 14) is just glad he won't get stuck changing diapers..
Next month the kids are ALL going to meet the adoptive parents at a local pizza place with indoor mini golf. They're pretty excited to see who the Mommy and Daddy are going to be.
I know I have the kids to look forawrd to when I come home from the hospital, but, I'll be honest. My depression is getting so bad, that I don't enjoy the kids like I should. Yes, I feel the love... But, I'm not taking pleasure in the little things like I used to. I'm really hoping I will get through this quickly, for their sake. They need their old Mommy back, not the shell of a Mom that they now have.
I did meet with the dietitian, and learned a lot! I have to see her once a week for a few more sessions. My levels are still spiking once in a while, but I am getting them under control for the most part. I'm really surprised with the diet they put me on. I thought I would be starving, but the serving sizes are much more realistic than I expected. I think the worst part is having to give up my fruit juice and soda pop. It's also hard watching my family eat their Easter treats...
I'm also glad to have you to understand and know how it feels to go through this process. Thank you for being a friend! It's nice to get the emotions out, and know now that you understand and have similar feelings. For the longest time I felt so alone. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Hugs!
-Winnie
winnowillr - Friday, 28 Mar
Yes, we know it's going to be hard. We don't need anyone to tell us. I know I am going to be a basketcase after the baby goes to his/her new home. I've already made arrangements to stay in the hospital after baby leaves for my mental health. There's no way I can go right home and jump into keeping house and caring for my kids like nothing happened. I'll need time. But how much time? How long until the pain dulls?
I'm having a difficult time because two of my sister in laws are pregnant. I'm going to get to watch my neice/nephews grow up, but not my own child... Whenever I talk to anyone in my husbands family, I feel like they're so proud of my sister in laws, but I'm not worth anything. It may not be how they are thinking, but, it's how I feel.
I'm lucky that I haven't been getting nasty comments or looks... I'm so sorry you have to go through that. It may be because I am married, or cuz people understand my physical limitations. But, I have a lot of people saying, 'Well, why didn't you ask ME to parent your baby?' I made my choice, and am happy with it! It's my baby, and leave me to make the decision best for it. Why can't people understand this? Don't they know it's hard enough on me as it is?
And no, this is NOT the easy way out. The easy way would be to hold our babies and rock them to sleep and cherish each and every precious moment. It may be the easy way, but it's not what's best for the babes. So, we made the DIFFICULT decision to give our children better. More opportunities.
Yes, I constantly remind myself about the adoptive parents, too. How wonderful they are, and how happy this child is going to be! The adoptive Mom has been going to all my doctor appointments, and I think she's the glue holding me together. Seeing the joy on her face. She felt the baby move at my last appointment. Her face just lit up! It was a priceless moment, one I will hold forever in my heart.
Thank you for sharing your feelings and frustrations with me. I'm sorry you have to go through the pain, too, but it's reassuring to know it's normal to feel this way at this point in our lives.
-Winnie
winnowillr - Thursday, 27 Mar
I just wanted to know.. Is it getting harder for you, too, as each day goes on? I know adoption is the right choice for this child and for my family, but, how am I going to cope? I'm getting seriously depressed. I'm hanging in there for this baby, but, how will I handle life after it's gone? Am I the only one feeling this way?
cali.momma - Thursday, 27 Mar
we sat around all day in our pajamas. we dont do anything really. its kind of lame when youre older. no egg hunts or anything.
nisabrat - Thursday, 27 Mar
I'm really glad to see that I'm not the only one that is giving their baby up for adoption. My high school sweetheart and I are having a child together but he and I are no longer together (1st off) and neither of us are in a postion to take care of her.
cali.momma - Wednesday, 26 Mar
have you had your spring break yet?
cali.momma - Wednesday, 26 Mar
eh everythings fine. just stressed out and such. have you had dinner with them yet?
babymomma88 - Wednesday, 26 Mar
I have so much respect for you. You are honestly amazing from what I've read. My sister-in-law gave up her first child to open adoption and has never really regretted it. She gets pictures of her every like 6 months and always on christmas, and the adoptive parents are going to let the little girl make the decision whether she wants to meet her birth mother or not. You and your son are in my prayers.
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