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birthmothernikkole has 1 days to go and is now in week 39
	Age: 21 Country: US Province/region: Pennsylvania City: Elizabethtown Partner: Boyfriend Brandon Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 18 May ,2008 Occupation: College Student
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Hello! Well, my name is Nikkole (o: I'm 20 years old and a Junior at Elizabethtown College. I'm a Social Work major and proud of it!! My boyfriend ”the â€śbaby daddy" aka Brandon and I have been together since my freshman year in college (02/17/06)!

Things back home have always been bad, so I moved out the summer of '06 and actually moved in with Brandon and his family. I don't speak to my family--other than my birth father who I just have reconnected with since I turned 18 and the restraining order my mother put on him was taken away.

I was actually on birth control pills when I conceived, but everything happens for a reason, so here we are. Sadly, we are in no shape to truly support our baby. Although I would love to keep him, and REALLY wish I could, it is smarter to allow them to have a better life with people who have the ability to provide everything he. I opted out of the abortion route--which my boyfriend initially thought of--and I have decided to have an open adoption. (Personally, I need to have it open. I need to make sure I picked the right family, that my baby is safe/happy/loved.)

I'm not sure yet as to how open to make the adoption though-- I've talked to people who have decided to have visits with their child, and I have talked to people who have actually had the adoptions and decided to not see the child until he/she is ready. I understand both. All I am sure of is that I want to have pictures and letters from at least the AP. If anyone has any experience with this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE drop me a line and let me know what you did/how you liked/disliked it!!!

A few things I read in one of the books my AMAZING Social Worker gave me called 'Given in Love'.

-To remember is painful. To forget is impossible.

-There will probably be times when you need to let your tears flow. Crying is not breaking down, it's breaking into tears. Crying is a gentle melting. Don't hold your tears back if you need to cry. Don't be afraid that if you start to cry you won't stop.

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winnowillr - Tuesday, 4 Mar
I'm so glad you were able to find a family you like for your baby! Are you going to meet them before the birth?
I've established a relationship with our adoptive parents, and the mother has been going to my doctor appointments with me. We get along very well, and I have confidence that she is going to be a wonderful Mommy!
How has the pregnancy been going? Are you finding it harder to do normal activities yet?
-Winnie

cali.momma - Tuesday, 4 Mar
i was sane til i got pregnant. then i got the baby brain they talk about lol.

cali.momma - Tuesday, 4 Mar
who the hell has the time to sit there and tell you this stuff? they need a life. seriously. well i think its great that youre mature enough to know what to do. everything depends on the situation, and you know what to do. screw those people lol

lilmstarwater - Monday, 3 Mar
wow, i have to say that i admire your decision to give the child up, rather than abort. It takes a strong woman to do so

cali.momma - Monday, 3 Mar
heh i had to change my name, cus i felt people were ignoring me because of it. and yesterday for the first time, like 10 people crapped down my throat because of my age. yet half of them were 19!! 2 years older. and one of the 19 year olds that said something, already had a kid and was pregnant again. so who is she to say? im sure if you asked them if you could buy stuff they wouldnt care. its less they have to buy lol.

teenMOMMIE - Monday, 3 Mar
whats the one couple like? i still give you so much credit for doing what youre doing. i couldnt give her up. im sure if i was in a different situation i would tho. do you still buy him things? i would heh :] i wonder if the strep b test hurts? it probably does. when they tested to see if it was my fluid, it was only a swab, and it hurt like a mother! it was only like a swab from a pap, but they went farther up. :/ hurt sooooo bad

teenMOMMIE - Sunday, 2 Mar
hah should i say 'how' to you instead of saying hello? lol :P how are you doingg?

samlib - Friday, 29 Feb
hope you are doing well!

lilgracie - Friday, 22 Feb
I came to your page because my husband and I are tattoo collectors and it's nice to see other pregos with tattoos. But when I read that you and your boyfriend are giving the greatest gift a mother could give I just wanted to say that you are totally rad. That is amazing and you are amazing and I wish you ALL the best in your journey with the open adoption!!!

allboyson19th - Friday, 22 Feb
I had tp leave a comment and say that what you are doin is amazing. I had a little boy when I was 17 and my aunt has custody of him now. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do but I knew that it would be selfish of me to keep him. My siutation is different because a family memeber has him and eventhough he does call her and her husband mom and dad he calls me momma too he knows who i am and seems to understand the situation. I am just glad that he is happy and with people that love him and also people that I trust...good luck

adoptwithlove - Thursday, 21 Feb
Hey~
Was just checking in to see how you are feeling. Your new pics are adorable :) Your tatts gave me an idea BTW. I have always wanted to get my kid(s) names (when we are done) or something like that. When my son asked me 'how did I get in your belly?' I told him that he was a 'twinkle in my eye' and he just started growing in my belly. He is under the impression that babies are twinkles in mommy's eyes....I would like it to stay that way till he moves out if you know what I mean..LOL. Anyways, I have been racking my brain for a few years on what to get and it occurred to me.....Stars that are interlocked and that are twinkling and then have their names inside or near by...havent quite designed it in its entirety nor figured out where to put it, but I have the idea now...So thanks!! :0) Stay well and warm.
Renee

mrsbotti07 - Thursday, 21 Feb
Just want to tell you, that I think you are a wonderful for what you are doing. I commend you for being a wonderful woman. It takes alot of courage to do what you are doing.

teenMOMMIE - Wednesday, 20 Feb
last night i hopped on my right leg a few times. that worked lol. i hopped cus i was like OW OW OW! hahah but it worked

teenMOMMIE - Wednesday, 20 Feb
never thought of that. does it help?

teenMOMMIE - Wednesday, 20 Feb
woohoo last tri! :D

so far no luck with the headaches, nothing is helping. but oh well. i gotta deal with it.

i dont get too many problems with that nerve, but yesterday was insane. i was walking in my kitchen i had to stop and not put ANY weight on my left side. hurts SOOO bad

lovingmom - Wednesday, 20 Feb
So first I would just like to say, after reading your page, I admire & applaude you for being so incredibly strong, courageous & unselfish. You are doing an amazing thing & I can only imagine how hard it must be for you & Brandon. Keep your chin up & remember that because of you, someone elses dream of having a child will soon be a reality :) Thank you for commenting on my weight gain 'issue'. I'm not at all worried about the weight itself, but rather concerned about the size of the baby. I guess I should just be happy that everything is okay & the doctor is satisfied with how everything is measuring. Thank you for helping me put it into perspective!

samlib - Wednesday, 20 Feb
good luck to you and keep being strong!

teenMOMMIE - Wednesday, 20 Feb
heyy you. how are you doing?

07babe - Wednesday, 20 Feb
yeaaah they said he could move in. but the only way brian will move in is if my parents agree to let us sleep in the same bed cause savannahs room is across from mine and they want him to sleep downstairs with my brother! which is retarded. i really think they want me to do it all myself that way i'll want THEre help but i dont i only wants brians if not his than not theres,

07babe - Wednesday, 20 Feb
i'll be turning 17 in about 2 months.. so i still have 14 LONG months ahead of me and personally Its nt gonna get better, its gonna get worse my mom dosent want me to move out when im 18, hell she dosent even want me to get a JOB cause she wants to keep collecting me on her taxes!!!!!!!! as long as she can..and thinks brian sud do all the working! and pay for everything.... im gonna graduate But It wont be at my parents home.. im leaving the last day of school of 2009. so hopfuly me and brian will have a nice sum of money saved up by that time and we can move out of here and brian hasnt even moved in with me yet because the way my parents are.. he plans too eithher when savannahs born or when he graduates in may.

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