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birthmothernikkole has 1 days to go and is now in week 39
	Age: 21 Country: US Province/region: Pennsylvania City: Elizabethtown Partner: Boyfriend Brandon Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 18 May ,2008 Occupation: College Student
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Hello! Well, my name is Nikkole (o: I'm 20 years old and a Junior at Elizabethtown College. I'm a Social Work major and proud of it!! My boyfriend ”the â€śbaby daddy" aka Brandon and I have been together since my freshman year in college (02/17/06)!

Things back home have always been bad, so I moved out the summer of '06 and actually moved in with Brandon and his family. I don't speak to my family--other than my birth father who I just have reconnected with since I turned 18 and the restraining order my mother put on him was taken away.

I was actually on birth control pills when I conceived, but everything happens for a reason, so here we are. Sadly, we are in no shape to truly support our baby. Although I would love to keep him, and REALLY wish I could, it is smarter to allow them to have a better life with people who have the ability to provide everything he. I opted out of the abortion route--which my boyfriend initially thought of--and I have decided to have an open adoption. (Personally, I need to have it open. I need to make sure I picked the right family, that my baby is safe/happy/loved.)

I'm not sure yet as to how open to make the adoption though-- I've talked to people who have decided to have visits with their child, and I have talked to people who have actually had the adoptions and decided to not see the child until he/she is ready. I understand both. All I am sure of is that I want to have pictures and letters from at least the AP. If anyone has any experience with this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE drop me a line and let me know what you did/how you liked/disliked it!!!

A few things I read in one of the books my AMAZING Social Worker gave me called 'Given in Love'.

-To remember is painful. To forget is impossible.

-There will probably be times when you need to let your tears flow. Crying is not breaking down, it's breaking into tears. Crying is a gentle melting. Don't hold your tears back if you need to cry. Don't be afraid that if you start to cry you won't stop.

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07babe - Wednesday, 20 Feb
i know... shes my and brians daughter the only one whos gonna control her is Me and brian, My parents have NO say in what we decide whats best for her! yeaah she'll be there granddaughter! but it makes me wanna move far away so they give me space! no wonder my brother loves living in califorina! haha My mom was pissed when she heard my brother said topanga my 3 month old neice isnt getting her ears periced until shes atleast a year old ha.. which me and brian decided the same thing we think its best to wait until shes a year old. and im like starting to like stuff they dont just to piss them offf cause its funny....

07babe - Wednesday, 20 Feb
awwwwe thanks! and i feel my parents are so up TOO NO Good! they always seem like there planning something! ughhh i hate that but sometimes I think they'd rather brian left the picture that way they wouldnt have to share MY DAUGHTER! they seem like they want her all to there selfs! lol...

samlib - Wednesday, 20 Feb
Hello..I saw your page a while back and never got to write but now i saw you had new pics on! I think you are a very strong young woman for making this decision in your life! I am very happy when i read your page! you are giving someone something they can't haev and that is amazing! My best friend is actually planning on adopting, she has been trying for years with her husband and i know if she saw your page she would be so happy and proud of you too! Sorry i'm going on and on....good luck to you! Have you found a Family? Best wishes on following your dreams!

*Haiden Elizabeths Mommy* - Monday, 18 Feb
i wish i could adopt your baby but we live so far:(
i love babys:)
hehe i just found out were haven twins;

levismom - Friday, 15 Feb
I admire and applaud your strength. You know that you are not ready to be a mother, but are so unselfish to give this child a better life with parents who are ready! I had an abortion at 19 when I was a freshman in college. I regret it more than any decision I have ever made. It was selfish and unacceptable of me. So, you are a hero in the eyes of many women. bless you and good luck with the remainder of your pregnancy!

winnowillr - Wednesday, 13 Feb
Thanks. It was fun going swimming, even though I was embarassed in the bathing suit at first. LOL!
How have you been feeling? I hope all is going well, and I keep you in my prayers!!
-Winnie

mylittleone - Monday, 11 Feb
as far as your bills go, the adoptive parents should pay for everything! just ensure you keep good records of all payments made.

hugs and kisses - Saturday, 2 Feb
awwe thankyou for my comment that was really sweet! hows you feeling?
x

us-n-kenzie - Saturday, 2 Feb
I was reading your Jan 31st post about your mother...Don't worry about it. Really. I am in the same situation with my birth father. He walked out on my mother when I was 7months old (actually he told her to leave and take me so his g/f could move in) and then when I was 2 he shows up with his wife and wants visitation!! So I stopped going to see him when I was about 14 and old enough to tell the court I did not want to go. I talk to him now only because I adore my stepmother and my younger sister (their daughter). I don't like him, I am uncomfortable just being around him. I only talk to him about twice a year. Sometimes we are better off without our parents. You do what you feel is right in regards to your mom and just continue smiling when people give you the 'its your mom' and 'she's trying' speeches. Anyone who has walked even a day in your shoes would know better and those who haven't are better off for not knowing. Good luck with everything and I wish you the best. I think what you are doing is awesome! I applaud you for knowing that this is not the time for you to raise your son and for being responsible enough to know it and unselfish enough to give this incredible gift to someone who is ready and waiting. You are going to make a great birth mother.

powellspianist - Friday, 1 Feb

Wow, you grew a lot in just a few days. That happened with me too. Congrats, and hope everything goes well.

hugs and kisses - Friday, 1 Feb

mylittleone - Friday, 1 Feb
Thanks for the message, we are most definatley in love! can't wait for it to be three!

mylittleone - Thursday, 31 Jan
Update us!

winnowillr - Tuesday, 22 Jan
Hi! Thanks for checking in, I have been wondering about you. :)
Things are going great for me. I am finally over morning sickness!!!! It's wonderful to enjoy a meal with my family. And some days my energy levels are almost normal, it's great!
The adoptive Mom and I have been in close contact lately through E-mail, and the more I hear from her, the more I know this is the right placement. I know this baby is going to be proud to call her Mommy!
We had an ultrasound, adoptive parents were present. They were real excited to see it! They want the sex to be a surprise, so I am going to respect that. The names they have picked out are Elizabeth Jean or Noah Matthew. I like both names!!
I hope things are going well for you, hun. Update me and let me know!! Many blessings to you and yours!
-Winnie

bamamaof4 - Monday, 21 Jan
Hi, I was glancing thru to see who was on line. I became a mother at 19. Just turned 19 that May, had my daughter that July. I was a young mom. The dad wasnt in the pic. I had my mom. She was the best. My 2 choices when I found out I was prego was abortion or adoption. I didnt do either. I couldnt. I was like the baby didnt have anything to do with this. You know what I mean. I couldnt go on in life knowing that I had a child out there and not knowing if he/she was ok or not. I was a senior in high school, no job, no money. NOTHING!!! Like I said my mom was there with me. Than my step~dad came around. He was the one that gave me those 2 options, not my mom. They ALMOST divorced because of this. Then my step~dad came around. My mom wind up prego with me! LOL. I dont know where I am going with this conversation..LOL.. I know that it is tough right now. Just hang in there. How are your parents taking this? I know that you said that his mom dont know. (I only got to there, my thoughts were racing in my head). O.K.. finished reading it. Moms get like that. So, what does she say about the adoption? If you ever need to talk or anything, let me know.
Kim
P.S.. My daughter is now 11 yrs old.

wyatt24 - Thursday, 17 Jan
Hi Nikkole

In answer your question regarding hard and soft cheeses. Soft cheeses are those with a soft rind that may or may not have been pasteurised, such as Brie, camembert etc. In addition cheeses such as goats cheese and feta are also not recommended. Hard cheeses are all the rest such as cheddar.
hope this helps

blondiek - Monday, 14 Jan
Thanks for the comment..yup im little, there reg jeans. I was hoping to put on some weight elsewhere other then just my belly. Hows ur pregnancy going??

cynthia86 - Saturday, 12 Jan
thanks :-)

Amy-0x - Friday, 11 Jan
awww dat good lol i love the name :)
im 22 weeks 2mrw :)
xxx

teenMOMMIE - Thursday, 10 Jan
hehe thanks. dang girl! youre so tiny still. youre so lucky!!

weekirst87 - Thursday, 10 Jan
hey I wasnt on over the festive period, but you sent me a message.
hello and congrats on your pregnancy, your due the day after me! Have you had your big scan yet? I am having a girl!! x

DeniseA - Wednesday, 9 Jan
Hi Nikkole,
I loved realing through your bog. Congratulations to you and Brandon on the baby boy! I'm an adoptive mommy to a 2 year old boy and he's the light of our lives! We have bio. children as well and ya know what? It honestly makes NO difference whether I carried our children or not. We have a fantastic relationship with Tyler's whole birth family--even grandparents etc. and absolutely LOVE it! I am also a birthmother through surrogacy--I carried g/b twins and a little girl for 2 couples (had a hysto so can't anymore) but seeing the joy on their faces when they held their new baby's was priceless! I wish you and Brandon and Ryllie the very very best. Ryllie is an awesome name. If you ever want to chat, vent, talk about adoption from an adoptive mom's view or talk from a birthmom's view I can do both :-) I'm always available, but usually with a 2 year old trying to type right along with me lol!
Take care sweetie!
~~Denise
AveryKlan@charter.net

adoptwithlove - Wednesday, 9 Jan
Hi Nikkole,
Best of luck to you with your adoption journey. Because I do not really know how this site works here I thought I would let you know I sent you a private message a few days ago. I hope my information to you is helpful and that I didnt offend you by contacting you. If you cannot access my previous note (not really sure where it went...........lol) I can resend it. You can see more about my family at www.adopt-with-love.com and privately email me from there if you would prefer???? Anyways, best of luck to you, Brandon, and Ryllie.
Renee

mom2belc - Tuesday, 8 Jan
I came across your page and wanted to tell you that what your doing is amazing! My Husband is adopted and has never met his Biological Mom but he says he has no ill feelings towards her and that she did the most SELFLESS thing that anyone could do. You and your Boyfriend seem so happy and I love that you guys stay so positive and I know that when you are ready you will both make great parents. Good luck with your pregnancy and school!~Laura

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