The Greatest gift that God could send, He sends with love to you: A sweet and helpless little child, An obligation too. Each baby that God gives to us Is merely lent awhile. To Cherish, Love, Protect, and Guard from every snare and wile. To form within its childish heart his image good and true. God Bless this tiny new-born babe and may he bless you too!

11/29/07 - 7 weeks, 4 days

I had a really quick ultrasound today and was able to see a heartbeat. The doctor said the placenta was attached right in the middle of the uterus and everything looked great. What a huge relief!

1/5/08 - 12 weeks, 6 days

Today is my 34th birthday and my morning sickness seems to be officially gone for almost a week now. I weighed 145 when I found out I was pregnant, I am now 13 weeks and weigh 141. I am sure with my appetite back it is only a matter of time before I gain back the weight and then some. =)

1/18/08 - 14 weeks, 5 days

I got a phone call from my doctor today to tell me I failed my glucose tolerance test. I officially have gestational diabetes. I checked my blood sugar at my moms house (she has a monitor) and poking myself wasn't near as bad as I expected. Cross my fingers I won't need insullin.

1/23/08 - 15 weeks, 3 days

I asked my doctor to have me retested for GD, after all what is being poked one more time if it saves me 300 pokes over the next 5 months! I am so glad I did, the first tests results came back at 225 and the second time 121! I am so releived that I asked for a re-test! At my doctors visit I weighed 143, my next visit is scheduled for Feb 13th and my 20 week ultrasound is Feb 28.

2/13/08 - 18 weeks, 3 days

I feel awful, today at my appointment the doctor did a copolscopy and removed a polyp. She said to follow up in 2 weeks it is being sent off for testing. Let me just say I am very sore 'down there' She also said no intercourse for 2 weeks so imy cervix can heal (which is fine by me especially since it hurts) but with tomorrow being Valentine's Day and the fact my poor hubby hasn't had any in a week already makes me feel bad.

02/15/08 - 18 weeks, 5 days

Feeling better today and I am back to 145 lbs now. I still don't eat anymore now than I did before I was pregnant. I just don't crave it like I did with my 2nd child, but I definately have a swell in my tummy. I am less than 2 weeks away from where I was when I had my last m/c. If I can just hold my breath for 2 more weeks when I get my ultrasound I think I will be alot more relieved. Thats also when I get my results back for the biopsy the doctor took as well as the afp screening.

02/22/08 - 19 weeks, 5 days

It has been one week since my last post and I have gained 2 pounds(147) , yikes! I have definately had an increase in my appetite since last week. Just six more days till my ultrasound with the perinatoligist and I get all my test results back.

02/28/08 - 20 weeks, 3 days

Today was my big appointment with the perionatologist for the 20 week ultrasound. The baby looks good and measures 20 weeks 2 days so it looks like I am right on target. Doc put me on progesterone (he gave me the option of vaginaly or by injection, I chose vaginaly) due to premature labor that happened last time. He also told me my cervx is shortned which puts me at an increased risk for premature labor again. I now will be going to see the doctor every 2 weeks and having my cervix checked for changes each time (via manual exam) fun, fun, can't wait for that! I have been banned from having intercourse (poor hubby) and heavy lifting for the remainder of my pregnancy. My biopsy results came back and I am between stage 1 and 2 the doc said stage 5 is cancer so we will wait until after the baby comes to treat it but i will need another pap in 4 months. Baby weighs 12 oz and the midwife said sugar was spilling into my urine again, guess I better lay off the apple jacks and orange juice!

03/02/08 - 21 weeks, 1 day

I weighed myself this morning and I am somewhere between 149 and 150. I have been really sad the last couple of days, I guess the news from the doctor brought fear and anxiety that I will lose yet another child and aslo brings backs the sadness of losing my little angel Matthew almost 8 years ago. I know I need to leave it in God's hands but I still can't help but to stress. Hopefully the doctor will give me good news at my next visit and help put my mind to ease.

03/13/08 - 22 weeks, 3 days

The midwife checked me and said my cervix is still hard so that is good news but no scan to measure the length. Then she gave me another prescription for progesterone 2 times the dosage I was given 2 weeks ago. I told her then that I had already been given one prescription for half that dose and she suggests that the other doctor wants me to take this instead so that I should double up my dosage and fill the prescription she is giving me. I took it to the pharmacy and they called the doctor to let her know she would need to call my insurance company to get an authorization on it and she told them to return the prescription to me. What the hell? Meanwhile I have been taking 2 times the medecine I was originally prescribed for the last 3 days. I am not sure if it is the medecine I am taking making me upset over this or if it is the total lack of organization from having 8 midwifes and 3 doctors in one practice. Maybe it's a little of both. My weight is now at 150.5.

03/24/08 - 24 weeks, 1 day

I weighed in at 153.5 today, cervix is still closed and in 4 weeks I will have another transvaginal ultrasound to measure cervical length again. I haven't noticed as many braxton hicks contractions as I was having a couple of weeks ago but I had a whopper the other night. Hubby and I were leaving the grocery store, we were in the car thank goodness when one hit me so hard and so painful the only think I could do was breathe, there was no talking through that! Thankfully it was just once and nothing else followed it. Not sure if it was a contraction or baby moving to a different position, but it sure hurt like an active labor contraction! It was so good to not get any BAD NEWS at the doctors office. My hubby called me to see how the visit went, it was nice to tell him everything looks good :) Now if I can just stop eating every 2 hours during the day. I find that I am not that hungry at night but in the morning and early afternoon I can't seem to stay full.

• Your baby's birthstone will be Ruby (Contentment)
• Your baby's Astrological Sign will be Cancer
• Your baby's Flower is Larkspur or Water_Lily (Green, Russet and Red )
• Your baby will be born in the Chinese Year of The Rat
• This time next year your baby will be 33 Weeks Old!
• Your baby will start kindergarten in 2013, be old enough to drive a car in 2024, finish high school in 2026, and will graduate from college with the class of 2030, give or take a year. Can you imagine?

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Life Is a Gift.

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat. Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion. Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven. Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren. Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets. Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet. And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job. But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.

Written by Jennifer Wasik
In memory of Zachery Wasik.

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked 'What makes a Mother?'
And I know I heard Him say.

'A Mother has a baby'
This we know is true
'But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?'

'Yes, you can,' He replied
With confidence in His voice
'I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.'

'I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here.'
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

'I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

'So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!'

'DEATH LEAVES A HEARTACHE NO ONE CAN HEAL,
LOVE LEAVES A MEMORY NO ONE CAN STEAL'