Love and Light to all!

As we have all heard and have to hold on to.

"Every thing happens for a reason"

Yes I am pregnant, but I do believe I am having a miscarriage.I began spotting wednesday night. We held out and hoped for the best. I tried to remain positive and stayed in bed all day Thursday because we had our ultra sound scheduled for Thursday. We knew then, we would find out what is going on. Well the nurse said the baby only measured 7 weeks and should of been 10 weeks. Then as I layed there and I squeezed Jaysons hand, we knew something was'nt right. Jayson asked"there isnt a heart beat is there"? She replied no I am sorry there is'nt!

We were devistated, and bawled like babies. We are still in shock. And knowing the baby is still inside and we will never hold her/or him Is killing me. It is amazing how you can love someone so much you never met. I know someday I will see him or her in heaven.

I will say,not all of our other children were planned. This one was. We want a girl of course cause we have 3 healthy and handsome boys. However, at this point as long as the baby is healthy is all we care about.

I am so scared! As I sit here I am beginning to cramp and the bleeding is heavier. My Dr. says if it is a miscarriage I could pass it on my own or have a D&C which is better?

We have a wonderful family, and I am thankful for that always! We were just wanting a new addition so very much. If this one is not possible then I have to believe there is still a chance. And reading all the stories on here has given me hope!

We definately are not going to give up. When it is meant to be it will be. God bless!

Well it has been 5 months since our miscarriage. We have since cried together many times and apart I am sure. We did get married this month, which was a beautiful wedding.

We are still trying to concieve, I have been so trying to make love on the right days.

We are both scared, that if we do get pg will it hapen again? Only God knows, bt I guess that is a chance we want to take.