Hello everyone and welcome to my page.

My name is Kirsty, i'm 23 and currently in my 2nd year at uni, studying to be a teacher of 5-11year olds. I have had 2 previous miscarriages and a chemical pregnancy, and as you can see i am now PREGNANT again.

So far in this pregnancy nothing exciting has happened, well apart from finding out i was pregnant lol. I have extremely SORE boobs and fatigue, still waiting on M/S to show itself. I never thought i would be one that hoped for m/s.

To those who are TTC. I hope you all get your BFP's soon. I cant imagine what its like to see bfn's continuosly, i'm sure its heartbreaking. please don't give up though. Your dreams will come true. xxxxxxxxxxx BABYDUST xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

My doctors appointment was a WASTE of my precious time, not a happy bunny. It seems i have the most negative doctors in the world. first she didnt believe i was pregnant, saying 'are you sure you are?' to my response 'oh my god YES, i have now done 11 hpt's' Her words then were, 'lets leave it another 2 weeks and see if you are STILL pregnant then and we will see what we can do'

I am sooooo frustrated right now, she made me feel like i was imagining everything, so my total for the HPT's is now 15.I felt like i had to be sure i was, even though i know i am. From what she said i dont think that she truly realises how much this means to me, and for the negative comments i recieved it made me cry and feel ridiculous. So i am still no wiser as to what is going on inside me, i have to wait until the 22nd Octobe before they will even aknowledge the pregnancy. I am going to worry constantly until then, its not fair that doctors do this to women that are worried and anxious, they are supposed to help and ease our minds, but obviously my doctor is to stupid to do that.

SORRY, i just had to vent!!

HEY HEY, i ended up calling my doctor today because the nausea is SO bad now, i cant even leave the house, i feel awful but at the same time so happy. Anyway back to the important news,................ i have now got an appointment on monday the 15th october to discuss my pregnancy, with a different doctor! OH YEAH! This doctor is going to go through everything with me, and hopefully get me in for a scan ASAP! i am sooo excited, only 3 days until m app. She has recommended sick bands for the nausea, so i am heading to boots in the morning to grab some. I have my driving test on tuesday, so i am in dyer need of some relief!

My new picture is of my new puppy who i get on the 5th November. I called him HARLEY!

OK, so i rushed out the house this morning to get my sick bands, hoping for relief, but oh no......They suck, they are a waste of money, absolute S**T. Not impressed. I managed to go for my 2hour driving lesson without feeling ill, i kept a stash of polo's by my side. fingers crossed i can do the same on my actual test! only 3days now until my dr's appointment. WOOOOHOOOO!! =)

13th October ~ All my symptoms seem to be fading away. :( No more sore boobs or nausea. I'm very worried! All i have a small pains in my abdomen! Hope i make it to the 7th week.

15th October ~ Well i had my Dr's appointment today. I got some medication to help with the sickness and nuasea, but sadly nothing else. My first scan will NOT be until January 14th 2008 when i am 20 weeks. We are currently trying to look for a private clinic to di a scan before 13 weeks. To top it all off i started having slight cramps, so overall NOT a good day at all, i dont know how they expect any woman to wait until 20weeks for their first scan. I think it is outrageous. :( If i have anything to do with it i WILL be having a scan this week. My other half is back 2moro night, and it is now his mission to get me a scan this week without fail. so i will keep you all posted on the outcome. xxxxxxxx

UPDATE! ~ 20th October. Sorry i havent been on for a while ladies, i have been so bad with sickness and nuasea. Have had blood tests done etc to see whats going on but nothing is wrong, its just the baby. I have now started some new tablets and i take gaviscon along side it to ease the process. lol. I am sorry i had some of you worried, i have just been so drained out lately i havent been able to do anything. My poor partner is having to do everything for me at the moment. :) I have even had to stay off of uni for a while so had to take this year off, but all in all things are ok i think, havent had a scan yet, cant really leave the house at the mo, but when i am better i WILL be having one lol. Once again SORRY tothose i had worried, thank you for checking in on me. speak to you all soon. love kirsty xxxx

UPDATE!! 1st November... Today is my 23rd Birthday. All i have done is sit in my bathroom or sleep in my bed. The sickness seems to have gotten worse now, nothing will stay down! My last resort is to go into hospital for some fluids, but i really dont want to do that. My partner went away today for 3weeks to Russia so i am home alone for a while. I will be going to stay with my parents tonight to ease the pain i am in. I cried at the thought of being here alone. So far my birthday has SUCKED big time, but hey the main thing is i am STILL pregnant. I have a midwife appointment on the 14th November to book myself in, i am hoping she will let me have a much needed scan. I will keep you posted. I am getting Harley this sunday and that is the only thing keeping me going. I am slowly giving up on the hope of having a GOOD day, but deep down inside i know it will all be worth it in the end.

UPDATE! 11th November 2007 ~~ My sickness is kinda easing off, i have days where i am well and days where i am bad! IT SUCKS ! lol. I have awful heartburn now too. I also have a stinking cold and everytime i cough it hurts down below. hope its normal. other than that i am doing ok, i am still extremely anxious about the pregnancy but figure what will be will be. I only have 2 weeks left until i can tell close friends and relative and i cant wait, but at the same time i am still soooo nervous about teling them and then having something go wrong. only time will tell. My puppy Harley is doing great, he is soooo cheeky yet soooo cute. He wakes me up everyday by pouncing on me at 5am, its good preperation for the baby i think. He had a few accidents but nothing too bad. I love him to bits hes lovley. I will put pictures up soon. I hope everyone is ok, i am sorry i couldnt reply to all your messages but my tummy is grumbling big time lol. i will be back online soon. take care everyone. love kirsty and Harley the pup! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ladies, sorry it's been a long time but i have been moving house and busy throwing up lol. anyway down to buiness, I HAD MY FIRST SCAN TODAY!!!! I saw the heartbeat and i got a picture! woooohooooo i am exactly 13weeks and 2 days due on the 2nd june 2008. i am so relieved. i hope everyone is ok. When i get the internet back on at home i will be online more i promise. love to everyone. love kirsty xxxxxxxxxxxx

12th December 2007~~ Today i went to the midwife to have my blood tests OUCH lol. We finally got to hear the heartbeat it was 150 wooohooo, everything is going great, i am bang on schedule. My m/s has finally gone, only now i get travel sick, but i can cope with that tho. I have now settled in to my new house and finally unpacked lol, i have internet now too so i will be online MORE! yay. I dont see my midwife now until the 14th feb after my 20 week scan. we will find out the sex of the baby in january, i cant wait i am dying to know lol. I have already chosen a girls name but cant think of any boy names yet. I am really hoping for a girl, but hey as long as it is healthy i will love it to the end of the earth.

GIRLS NAME: Ellie May.

BOYS NAME: William Robert David

Today the 23rd December i found out that i am RHESUS NEGATIVE! I got some pathetic leaflet with minimal information on it which helps no-one. I have to go in to hospital for a shot @ 28 weeks and possibly have another after the birth. Thats all i know right now. I am so angry that they sent me some silly leaflet and didnt call me in to discuss it. I am calling the DR 2moro to vent at her.lol Other than this i am doing well, still have sicky moments and i am still extremely tired. I will be glad when christmas is over so i can go for my 20week scan.

I hope everyone else is well. Take care over the holidays. MERRY CHRISTMAS XXXXXX

3RD JANUARY 2008 - - - - Hi everyone, hope you are all well. I am doing ok, havent felt my lil one move yet though and now i am so anious to see my baby again. I am still awaiting my 20 week scan date :( it is driving me crazy now lol as soon as i get it i will let ya'll no ok. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL XXXXXXXX

First Trimester	1-4 weeks = 1 month	5-8 weeks = 2 months	9-13 weeks = 3 months
Second Trimester	14-17 weeks = 4 months	18-21 weeks = 5 months	22-26 weeks = 6 months
Third Trimester	27-30 weeks = 7 months	31-35 weeks = 8 months	36-40 weeks = 9 months

YIPEEEEE! finally got my scan date. Its on the 16th January @ 1:30pm, i cant wait i am so excited. I am dying to know the sex of our lil one!

UPDATE: 7th January - - I am SO happy to be in week 19, i have my 20 week scan on the 16th and i cant wait. I am still so very anxious about this pregnancy and things going wrong.I havent felt the lil one move yet and thats beginning to make me nervous that something is wrong, i am probably over-reacting. My other half has gone back to work today for 3 weeks so i am very emotional, im not one to cry but today thats all i have done, i feel so miserable and lonely. On the upside i purchased my babys travel cot yesterday and it kinda made it all feel real, strange i know but other than doing that one lil thing i have not felt like it is real, i still feel like i am dreaming it. nearly half way there and i feel so lucky to be here @ 19 weeks but i also feel like it could be taken away from me at any given moment. I hope these feeling are normal and they fade aay over time, i dont want to go the rest of my pregnancy feeling down! I hope everyone is having a great week and roll on 20 weeks!

75 % chance of having a girl

AND I AGREE!!

I am beginning to get very nervous about my scan on wednesday, i keep dreaming that something is wrong its freaking me out. I keep having horrible dreams, ones where they tell me that the baby died ages ago and thats why i havent put on weight and why i cant feel him/her move! how scary! I dont know how i am going to cope between now and wednesday.

My mum is coming with me to the scan because billy is away working again. :( I purchased the babys pushchair and car seat yesterday, it will be here monday! i cant wait but at the same time i wonder if i have jinxed everything. :( If all is well with the baby wednesday then i am going to get the cot-bed and start decorating the room! fingers crossed that everything is OK!

13th January 2007! -- Today i purchased my lil ones cot-bed! so excited, my dad is even more excited than me (if thats at all possible) lol. I cant wait for my scan on wednesday, the wait is killing me! It is becoming harder to sit straight up lately, i have to lay back a little. Still havent felt any movement - which is a little worrying, but i am thinking positive.

January 16th 2008! ---- I went for my scan today! Everything is GREAT with the baby. The lil one was in a very difficult position, FACING THE FLOOR! refusing to turn around which meant the ultrasound tech had a really hard job measuring everything and checking everything. I was told to walk around and drink lots, three attempts later and s/he had shifted a little bit. just enough for the tech to measure the head etc. I am measuring correctly giving me a due date of 2nd june 2008, the baby is nice and healthy, and VERY stubborn. When i asked the tech what the sex was she said, There are no obvious dangly bits but i cant be 100% sure! SO we are going on the assumption that it is a GIRL, but we are going to have a 3D/4D scan in the near future to double check! I will put pictures up ASAP i promise.

I wish to Thank all of those who have been with me on this journey so far. Thankyou for your support and words of encouragement it has been a GREAT help to me. THANKYOU!

21st Jan 2008 -- I felt my lil one kick on the outside last night, it was AMAZING! I swear she keeps jumping on my bladder lol. Billy is home sunday, i cant wait. He is dying to feel her moving. It feels more real now that i have felt her moving! Heartburn is REALLY REALLY bad at the moment nothing is shifting it :(. Going to the doctors 2moro for my 21 week check up, hopefully i will get to hear the heartbeat again. I hope the next 19 weeks go fast for me. I have painted the nursery nad i am going to put the pictures and border up this week, then get the carpet, the room will be ready for filling then lol. I have gone shopping mad lately and have pretty much most of the things that i need for the nursery all i have to get now are the clothes and nappies. Cant wait for Ellie to be here now!

22nd Jan 2008 -- I had my 21 week check up today at the doctors, everything is great. We found the heartbeat first time, indicating she has moved! It was 130! hope thats good!? lol Everything else is great too, no problems at all. Been given gaviscon for my heartburn and if that fails i will be put on ranitadene (sp?) Was measured today too and i am right on schedule, my tum is the right size for where i am in the pregnancy! Today has been a really great day, at 4:05am this morning my best friend gave birth to a 6lb lil girl, it is so exciting. I am going to see mum and baby this week. I am starting to have more of a positive outlook and everything now and i am more confident that everything is going to be just fine!

23rd Jan 2008 -- Just booked my gender scan for next wednesday. It will only be in 2D b'coz they are fully booked for 3D/4D for ages and i really want to have it done now so that Billy can be there. This will be the first scan he has been to and he is sooooo excited! Only 7 days to go! woohooooo!

30th January 2008 -- I had my gender scan today and oh my it was lovely. It was the first scan that billy had been to and he was so gob-smacked and emotional it was lovely to see. The babt was stil so very stubborn and refused to move around and let us take a profile pictue, billy says thats just like me lol....We got 8 pictures in total which i WILL put up later today also we got it on DVD, i will upload it and put it on my page, it is soooooo cool. A lasting treasure......... NOW for the good bit......... It is definatley 100 % A GIRL! She showed us her 'BITS' as soon as the scan started lol. I was so excited that i went shopping on the way home and bought her first PINK babygrow, its soooooo cute. I cant wait to welcome ELEANOR MAY into this world.

1st February 2008 -- We finnished decorating the nursery today! YAY! everything is in place all i need to do now is put the clothes in drawers etc. Most of the shopping is done now too which is cool. Ellie moves around much more now its wierd but i love it. Back at the midwife on the 14th Feb for check up, i can't wait! Harley is doing great, 5 months old now and a little terror! He has got an eye infection at the mo :( and is really sad. Billy is finally realising that he is going to be a Daddy in 4months! lol It's beginning to hit me too :) I can't wait now, i want the next 4 months to go so fast.

8th February 2008 -- 23 weeks pregnant and loving it! I feel so lucky to be at this stage in my pregnancy. Heartburn is a constant as is going to the toilet lol. I am absolutely addicted to cereals, mostly honey nut cheerios and honey shreddies! I have always got a bowl of them in my hand lol. SO YUMMY! Billy went away to Austria on monday for 3 whole weeks. :( So sad. It is getting so hard to say goodbye now, i just want him to be here. I seem to sleep much better when he is here, harley misses him too :( Harley's eye infection has finally gone although, i think it may have gone in to the other eye :( I have done SO much shopping for Eleanor this week YAY! it is so exciting, i cant wait until the 3rd trimester. It is going so fast now. I have got the midwife on Valentines day! cant wait, i get to hear Ellie's heartbeat again! She moves around much more now, especially when its time to eat! hehe :)

VALENTINES DAY! -- Billy is still away working but had a huge boquet of RED ROSES sent to me this morning! the card just reading " I Love You Both, See you soon" so sweet it made me cry!! Had midwife this morning too, and Eleanor is doing so good! Midwife is sending me for physio for the pain i get when i walk the dog, and i have to up my intake of fluids because my urine is VERY dark! whoops lol. My blood pressure is great 120/60 and Eleanor is exactly where she should be, we listened to her heartbeat again, it was 138-145bpm. I must say it is such a relief to be able to get the heartbeat straight away, i always felt so anxious when we had to search for it lol. So far today has been the best in the whole pregnancy. I am so happy with the way things are going, things are fantastic. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU ALL!

19 February 2008 -- 25 weeks and 1 day pregnant! I went to the doctors yesterday because i was AGAIN having trouble walking etc. It turns out i have SPD (Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction) I was given leaflets explaining everything, but to be honest it made no sense to me lol. They recommended a suppoert belt to ease the pressure! WOW! My midwife is pushing to get physio theraphy sorted as soon as possible, they are going to teach me how to sit properly, lying down properly etc to ease the pain and discomfort> if it doesnt get any better there is a possibility that i will be induced once the baby is ready and able to come out! I must say the thought of being induced isnt the best, it is quite scary, but never the less i will do what is necessary to make sure everything with Eleanor is OK! On the up side, my older brother is coming down to see me this weekend, i havent seen him in SO long i cant wait. Billy is back on sunday and i cant wait for that either, its going to be a great week for me and Ellie. Harley is a little terror at the moment, totally ignoring everything i say! :( So i am taking him for more training! Think its the testosterone coming out in him lol!

27th February 2008 -- 26 weeks and 2 days pregnant! WOW! I can't believe i am NEARLY in my 3rd Trimester, Billy and I are so excited. Not had a good stat to the week, I broke a MIRROR! and then our shower blew up on Billy (i secretly laughed). It has made me a nervous wreck! never mind ay!! I had physio therapy on tuesday this week, they checked over my back, legs and pelvis and things are okish. The problem area is the Symphysis Pubis. i have to wear a support belt when walking, shopping etc and i must say what a help it is. It is amazing lol. I was given tips on getting in and out of bed, how to sleep comfortably and how to do deep tummy exercises. All in all a good thing, i am not in so much pain now, although i have pulled a muscle in my leg which is killing me! its making me waddle hehe! small price to pay for such a privilege in life! Billyi s hoem now for a week which is lovely, he is so excited to be able to feel Eleanor, tonight he was listening ot my belly and she kicked him in the ear, i couldnt stop laughing! how cool! Roll on 27 weeks! love to you all xxxxx

MOTHERS DAY! ---- I had my Mum and Dad over for Lunch and it was so lovely. Even though i am not yet a Mummy i recieved to lots of flowers, a card, some chocolates and Billy bought me a new laptop so i can keep up to date with you ladies on here whist on the move! YAY! I can't wait for Ellie to be here now, D-Day is getting closer but it still feels like a lifetime away! hope everyone had a lovely Mothers Day!

Monday 3rd March 2008 -- Today i begin my third and FINAL trimester! YAY! 27 weeks pregnant and so excited. Billy has been home since the 24th feb but is going away again 2moro for another 3weeks :( It is getting So hard to say goodbye these days i just want him to be here all the time. He has 3 more months of work before he takes time off for Eleanor's arrival. He is getting ery excited at the thought of her being here in 3 months, come to think of it so am i lol. duh!! My aches and pains are minimal now, however, i now have NIGHTMARES everyday! its very stressful, i am not getting much sleep at all . Eleanor is kicking all the time now,and i must say it hurts quite alot. She hates it when i am lying in my left side and kicks me until i move onto the right side. When i put music on she bounces away like a jelly bean, its cute but also quite painful. She also has a habit of kicking me right in my bladder area, as i am typing this she is kicking me quite hard! I enjoy feeling her kick and move about but at the same time it hurts and i feel myself getting stressy because of it, dont know why really! does it make me a bad person?? Me and Billy are currently trying to decide whether Eleanor will have a double barrelled name Eleanor-May or whether it will be just Eleanor and then her middle name be May, its quite hard to choose. i hope that whne she arrives i am able to decide straight away! I have booked myself on a breastfeeding class in April and i can't wait, still awaiting confirmation of the hospital tour!

6th March 2008 -- Had to have an emergeny doctors appointment today! My breathing was SO terrible i thought i was dying. My asthma has become really bad lately but today was the worst. I have been give new inhalers and strict rules lol. My doctor is suprised that i have managed so far without increasing my dosage! Already i feel so much better breathing wise. However, my back is now killing me, i think i slept funny last night :( oooooooh and the growing pains! OUCH! I keep telling myself its all worth it!! I have a hospital appointment on the 13th March for my Anti-D injection, i am dreading it, i HATE needles! :( spoke to my midwife today and she said that i will have to have one when Ellie is born too because i am A- and Billy is A+ grrrr its not something i will be looking forward to lol.

14th March 2008 -- Yesterday i went for my 28 week check up and the dreaded Anti-D injection. I was so nervous before my appointment and rightly so lol. The midwife wanted to take bloods first (OUCH) and then give me the injection. I am not the best person to get blood from and absolutely hate it too :( After 3 attempts she finally got SOME blood from the side of my right wrist (OUCH) She didnt manage to get enough for all of the tests but i couldnt let her do any more, i was close to passing out. If my mum hadnt been there i dont know what would have happened! Once that ordeal was ovoer it was on to the Anti-D and OH MY GOD what the hell is that about lol. It felt like 10 bee stings all at once, right in my butt! I was screaming my head off and bannging on the wall. lol the midwife was trying so desperatly to calm me down but after having my bloods done i was not in the mood to be jabbed again. lol :) Then on to the GOOD bit, we listened to Eleanor's heartbeat and everything is GREAT, my blood pressure was fabulous and my fundal measurement is 29, ahead a lttle already! WOOHOOOOOO!! :) Midwife is a little concerned about how my body is coping lol, she doesnt think i will go full term! I hope she is wrong! :( how scary. She has asked me to go back in for aother chack up in 3 weeks instead of 6 weeks. Today i have bruises EVERYWHERE! I am so sore and just want to stay in bed all day, but harley isnt having any of it lol. I cant wait until she is here now! hopefully my bloods show NO antibodies present so i dont have to have another jab!

UPDATE: 20th March 2008 -- On tuesday i received a call from my midwife, she wanted me to go and have more bloods taken because they didnt have enough. So i went straight in to hospital to have them taken, however, they couldnt get any AGAIN! So i went home sore and miserable knowing that i would have to go again the next day. Tuesday evening i noticed that Eleanor wasnt moving and hadnt really moved much all day. I called my midwife and she said to go straight in to the hospital for a trace. I arrived at the hospital at 10:30pm, the midwife felt my tummy to see what position Eleanor was in (BREECH) and then put me on the trace. After a while the midwife came in and looked at the result, she noticed that Ellie was showing a few signs of distress and so left me on it for a little while longer, at this point i was freaking out thinking the worst! The doctor came in 20 minutes later and looked at the results and said that i shouldnt worry! BUT, if Ellie's movements slow or stop i should go straight in to hospital. i finally got in to bed at midnight. Wednesday i was sent to have my bloods taken again, luckily this time they managed it first time and it was all over in a matter of minutes. Later that day i was SICK and thought i was going to explode. My doctor says i am overdoing it and need to relax a little. I agree, but it is so hard to relax at the moment because Billy is away and i have to do everyting myself. He will be home for 2 weeks on the 25th and i cant wait, we will finish the shopping for Eleanor and spend quality time together. YAY! I am seeing the midwife on the 2nd April to see if Ellie has moved and to evaluate my situation to see whether i will make it to my due date or not! i hope i make it to within 2 weeks of the date AT LEAST!

UPDATE~UPDATE~UPDATE~UPDATE!

Sorry its been a while ladies but its been so crazy here! It would take me forever to type it all so i'll just do a small update. I had my bloods done as you know but only just recieved the results (shockingly late) turns out my white count was up! I found this out after i had spent several hours in hospital on tuesday(01/04) because i was in pain! Grrrr It all started Sunday, i was walking back from the shop and felt horribly sharp pains and stinging pains inside, i didnt think anything of it but it continued on monday and on tuesday so i called my midwife and went traight into hospital. To top it all off Ellie had not moved much throughout the weekend. Anyway they took a urine sample and put me on the trace machine. My urine showed blood and protien in it so they sent it off for further testing to check for UTI. Whilst waiting they told me that the reson i dont feel Ellie that much might be because she is a small baby and so they wanted to do a growth scan the following morning. After an hour on trace i was allowed home. Next day i went for my growth scan and to my HORROR Eleanor is HUGE! She weighs in at 4 and half pound already (above average) and they estimate that if i go full term she will weigh a whopping 9LB! oh my god! (very scared now). All good with her then lol. So i got home feeling happy but also thinking about how on earth i am going to give birth to her?!?! I recieved my urine sample results today and everything is clear, so i ask myself why was my white count up? and why was there blood and protien in my urine?? is there a problem somewhere else? I will hopefully find out on thursday when i see my doctor. On top of all this Billy got called back to work early Grrrr! so i was not a happy bunny! Oh and can't forget the major tooth ache i have had for ages now! I feel so poop! I can't walk Harley anymore because i am in so much pain, i feel so heavy and wonder how i will cope if she does get any heavier?!?! Anyways thats all for now, totally drained after writing this lol. Hope everyone is okay! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx blessings xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

UPDATE! MIDWIFE APPOINTMENT 17th APRIL 2008!

Today was my 33 week (routine) check up and what a day it was! Got to my appointment at 9:30am feeling great, had the regular checks, blood pressure- normal, Urine-normal, measurements- spot on....then we talked about the fact that Eleanor isnt much of a mover nowadays, my midwife was concerned about this and wanted me to be monitered and so sent me to the hospital straight away for trace and general check up. got to the hospital and was put on trace and had BP check again etc. Everything was looking good.....We could hear her moving on the trace but i couldnt feel it at all and the doctor was quite concerned especially considering she is quite a big baby lol. The doctor spoke to his boss who then wanted to know my maternal family history, he wanted to know about clotting problems and m/c in 2nd or 3rd trimester. Once i told him about my aunt (who had 9 m/c, 1 stillborn, 1 who lived for 48 hours and 1 living daughter) he kinda freaked out and went straight to his boss. I was in hospital for 8 hours and then they finally decided that i should go and see the consultant on monday to have another scan and to talk about what is going to happen labour wise. There is a possibility that they will want to do a c-section at 36 weeks just to be safe. I will find out on monday. fingers crossed everything goes well. I will update as soon as i get back!

FRIDAY 18th APRIL 2008

As i told you in my blog i am currently ill! I have a horrible throat infection, i had trouble with my meds nad so they changed them. Just as i thought it was getting better it got worse. I woke up at 12:30am and was suddenly uncontrolably sick everywhere and my face had swollen up like a beachball! I called my midwife who wanted me to go straight in. once again i was put on trace, they made me do a urine sample and checked BP,temp etc. Baby was great heartrate wise! After a while the doctors came to see me and told me that it was ANOTHER allergic reacton to the meds i was on! GRRRR! How hard is it to find meds for pregnant women?? I was so angry and feeling so sh*tty I just wanted to go home. We got home at 4am and i tried to sleep, not that it worked. Today I am extremely sore everywhere and i have the beginnings of 2 black eyes! I have managed to burst blood vessels above my evelid and they are all bruised, i look like SH*T and to be honest i really do want this all to be over already! I am hoping that they will bring her early so i can get back to some kind of normality health wise!

My appointment went really well on Monday. Eleanor is growing nicely and is right on schedule. They were pushed for time and so didnt do the scan, i have to go in on the 6th may for the growth scan. They want to leave her inside for at least another four weeks if everything goes well. If things get worse we will look at bringing labour on early. My leg (sciatica) is killing me nowadays and i have to drag it everywhere (literally) Going to see the midwife 2moro to discuss physio therapy and walking aids. :( other than that i am doing well. Billy is home now and will be here until after Ellie is born, we are both going away this friday for the weekend to Liverpool, i can't wait. I really NEED a break!

29th April 2008 ~~ Hey ladies i am back from my trip to liverpool adn feeling a little bit relaxed, not much though. lol We finally finished all of the shopping for Eleanor so now all i have to do is pack my bags ready for her arrival. How exciting. I have an appointment for physio theraphy this thursday and i cant wait i am in so much pain it brings me to tears :( . I have also been given an appointment for my health visitor to come to the house and see how things are! Hmmm, wierd but normal apparently. I have MAJOR baby brain at the moment and cant remember anything! Grrrrr! Its all so CRAZY! Billy is being a great help at the moment and doing most things for me. He is so lovely he brings me breakfast in bed! I feel so lucky hehe. Heartburn stings like a B***H and its makng me so frustrated, nothing works for long enough now! eleanor has been really active over the past couple of days, i feel he low down and it feels like she is rummaging and trying to escape lol. its such a strange feeling. I really can't wait for her to be here now. hope everyone is well. xxxxxx

POLL: Please could you all vote on my poll. As you are aware we have chose to call our baby Eleanor May Favager but we are unsure now of how to have it on her birth certificate. The choices are as follows;

Eleanor-May OR Eleanor May.......... With or Without the - ?? please help. Any comments will be greatly appreciated. :)

UPDATE!

GROWTH SCAN: I had my growth scan on the 6th May. Everything is good apart from her AC (abdominal circumference) Which is VERY concerning. Her AC is off the graph :( I mentioned my concerns to my doctor and they are finally going to do a GTT, to me it seems to late to do anything but they still want to do it. My only concern is that if the test shows i am now intolerant then WHY is her AC so much bigger than it should be! Could there be something wrong internally? It is stopping me sleeping and i am so worried all i can think is the worst. :(

MIDWIFE: Had my 36 week check up and everything is OK. BP is fine and Urine is OK. Going back in 2 weeks for another check up. Did my Birth Plan also and i must say it seems so much more real now. everyday i wake i pray that she will arrive lol. I am in so much pain (back wise) (oh and leg wise) lol ok basically everywhere is painful lol. I will be 37 weeks 2moro (12th May) and yet it feels like its been 40+. i feel like i have been pregnant FOREVER! Grrrr, i want my baby Hehe.

Billy is going to spain 2moro (12th May) for 3 days and so i hope not to go into labour, i really want him to be here for it. Another stressful thing--My Auntie is in hospital at the moment with SEVERAL problems, i went up to see her on saturday and its NOT looking good. hense why i would love for my baby girl to get here ASAP! I want my autie to see her al least once. :( Overall my life is pretty miserable at the moment, with aches and pains and illness in the family and just plain old feeling poop! I hope everyone else is OK. Not long to go now!

CONGRATULATIONS: AMYJ AND SNEEZY ON THE BIRTH OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABIES!

UPDATE!

I had my GTT test last thursday (15/05) it was truly awful! Also had a full blood count done. Got the results yesterday (19/05) and everything is fine, both results were fine so nothing to worry about. Although they came back ok i still have worries about how big Ellie's tummy is. Going to midwife thursday to discuss this with her. Its scaring me to death, i keep thinking she has problems inside her tummy. Grrr :( other than that everything here is fine. just counting down the days until Eleanor's arrival.

UPDATE! 30th MAY 2008

STILL HERE AND STILL VERY MUCH PREGNANT!

Nothing much to say really apart from I am miserably awaiting the arrival of Eleanor. I have not had any BH or twinges, NADA! I cant eat,sleep or walk much nowadays and its beginning to get me down. Midwife reckons i am depressed! well DUH! i want my baby girl here! i want relief from heartburn and constipation, i want to hold my baby and bond with her! Not having her here right now is frustrating me. I am so close yet so far away! :( Hope everyone else is doing well. xxxx

UPDATE 4th JUNE 2008

Went to midwife today and had a check up. Everything is fine. Eleanor has slowed down so much lately that everyday i go over i get so much more paranoid, i am a wreck at the moment. We discussed going over into the 41st week and i said i didnt want to do that and so i am going in to hospital on saturday for a stretch and sweep (if cervix is favourable) with the hope that i will kick start labour. If that doesnt happen we will discuss a date for induction. UGH! i really do still want her to come naturally! :( although having a date to look forward to will help so much lol. eleanor is quite low but NOT ENGAGED yet! GRRRRRR!! Still hoping that something is going to happen within the next 2 days or so!! fingers crossed ladies, we will all have our lil bundles of joy soon enough! xxxxxxxxxxxx

UPDATE 6th JUNE 2008 - 40+4 weeks pregnant

woke up at 3:30am with HORRIFIC period type pains, they came quite regular and so i called the midwife at 5:30am and was asked to come in to be monitered. Got in to hospital at 6am, baby was fine although sleepy lol, so the midwife spent a good hour trying to get her to wake up. Contraction were every 5 minutes and very strong. EARLY LABOUR! Woohooo. The consultant came in and checked over my notes etc and because Eleanor is not much of a mover he decided that they are going to INDUCE ME 2MORO! The midwife tried to do a sweep but my cervix is still closed and so nothing was done. I go in 2moro evening to be induced if nothing happens between now and then. The contractions are still coming 5 minutes apart,lasting 45sec to 1 min! I am so excited yet SO nervous.

THANKYOU!

I would like to say a huge thankyou to all of those who have been on this journey with me. Your words of wisdom have meant so much to me and without them i don't know what i would have done. Having this website has been fantastic, being able to talk to ladies out theere going through the same thing has helped hugely, you are all like family to me. Thankyou all for you kind words and congratulations messages. I would love nothing more than to be able to relpy to each and every one of you but as you are aware Eleanor takes up most of my time now lol. Love to you all.

love Kirsty,Billy and Eleanor.

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