Wednesday April 16

So the appt was yesterday and went quite well, except for the part when the Dr did the internal u/s and said "you have multiple fibroids on your uterus". Ok so all in all that's not too bad, but then he mentioned that one of them seemed to be protruding into the uterine cavity and could prevent an egg from ever implanting. So i have to go in the next little while to the hospital for a hystersalingogram (hope i spelled that right!) which they insert a cath and inset dye to flush the tubes and get a better picture of the uterus. That will tell them whether or not i need surgery to remove this fibroid. Lovely!! while i'm all for anything that will increase our fertility i'm absolutely petrified of being put to sleep! i had all 4 wisdom teeth and a molar removed in the dental chair (with some lovely drugs to help) b/c i was to chicken to go to the hospital! oh well, hopefully it won't be so big that is has to come out....we'll see and i'll post more when i know!!

Baby dust to all!!

Tuesday April 22

So have the hystersalpingogram scheduled for this coming monday at 1pm at the hospital. not nervous about this one, except if it shows i have to have surgery...but at least it might get us closer to having a baby!!

My other news of the week is that i got a tattoo!! i decided that since my divorce from my son's father was finally final on sat, i would do something i always wanted to do....get a tattoo....i got the kanji symbol for birth, with my son's DOB below...maybe it'll bring us luck! i also wanted it b/c to me it symbolizes the birth of a new life, mine with my partner......

Baby dust to all!

Sunday April 27

So tomorrow is the test at the hospital! the HSG........hoping that it shows good news, rather than "surgery". at least it's one more hurdle! apparently after the test i am to come home and rest. we have Cub Scouts tomorrow night with Connor (my partner and i are both cub leaders) but i don't think i'll be doing the hike with the group - think i'll drive and meet them! i can go back to work on Tuesday though.

Baby dust!!

Monday April 28

Well the test today went well. although , what a comedy it was! They have you lie on this table in the imaging room, and the table is so high you have to use a stepping stool to get up there! then they move the machine around and the table back and forth until they have you situated correctly. Your behind is raised up by stacks of blankets, to offer them a better view i guess. The beginning part is kind of like a pap test, only the radiologist couldn't find my cervix. i'm laying going "ok i swear to god it is there!" they all laughed. Bruce was standing next to me, wearing a full lead apron, complete with neck protector and all i could think was "protect the boys, protect the boys!!" anyways after about 15 mintues of rooting around down there (seriously!) the dr finally found my cervix, but not before i have been hoisted butt first in the air, so high my feet were almost dangling! what a sight that must have been! So the catheter is inserted and the balloon inflated. This was the first discomfort i had really felt. Then the dye was injected and the pictures taken. So now it's over and the dr goes over the results. Everything was fine, no fibroids on the uterus (ok so what was the other dr seeing that made me have this test in the first place?). The only issue of concern is that my right tube appears to be blocked, so essentially cutting my chances of conceiving naturally in half.....as if they weren't already down with the other issues! anways the other tube looks fine, and we'll have to meet with our fertility dr again in 3 weeks to discuss the options, but looking more and more like IVF. All in all, at the end of the day the outcome was positive, as we'd been led to believe i may require surgery to rid me of any fibroids in the uterus. there are none, so that's a bonus,a nd the dr today said they rarely need to remove any blockages or fibroids in the tubes, b/c there isn't really a point. the surgery could possibly render the tube utterly hopeless. at least we got the results right then b/c i would've gone spare waiting a few weeks to get the results. And it brings us one step closer to our goal of having a baby, having this hurdle and possible waiting for a surgery date out of the way!! Next appt is May 24 to discuss this with our dr and to discuss Bruce's results.

Anyways off to bed, this test has left me quite exhausted and feeling like i've been kicked in the stomach repeatedly...i think me and my hot pack will be good friends for the rest of the night!

hope all is well with you all:)

Baby dust to all:)

THURSDAY MAY 22

We had a follow up appt today with our Dr. He recommends IUI (Intrauterine Insemination) to start with and In Vitro if that doesn't work. So i start taking Clomid in about 3 weeks time and then shortly after that they'll do the insemination. we're quite excited about this......we had expected it to be months down the road before anything was started and here we are getting ready to start within a month!!! He warned us about the side affects to taking Clomid (making me grumpy, headachy etc) to which i replied "and this would be different from any other day how??" hee hee!! he also warned us that there is a substantial increased risk to multiples because of this. They are hyperstimulating the ovaries to produce more eggs and then directly inserting the sperm into the uterus so they don't have to fight their own way there. But we're ok with that and will deal with whatever comes our way. i just pray to god this works. anyways just thought i'd share our news with you. Hope everyone is well:)

Baby dust to all!!

Sunday June 8

AF is here!!!!! i've never been so happy to see it in all my life b/c that means on day 3 i can start taking clomid and then somewhere around day 14 we will have the IUI done!! just waiting on clarification from our Dr as to the meaning of Day 3.....his meaning is day 3 of full flow but quite often my cycles are nothing more than spotting some months, and other months are super heavy. if i assume that the flow will increase and if it doesn't then i could miss day and have to wait another month. considering i was anxious for this cycle to come, i'd rather get it right this time! anyways there's a chance i'll have to start the clomid on my 36th bday which is this tuesday...maybe it'll bring us luck!!

hope all is well with everyone! baby dust to all!!

Saturday June 14

Clomid was started on wednesday preceeded by a wicked Sinus infection that started tuesday june 10th, my 36th bday! great timing! infection is finally starting to subside and so far the clomid has been a breeze! off to dr on wednesday for an u/s to check to see how many follicles have grown and if it's time for the trigger shot! have to get ready now for my bday bbq this eve;ridiculous amount of friends and family coming over! hope all is well with you all you ladies:) baby dust to all!

Tuesday June 17

Tomorrow is u/s day!!! hoping that the follicles are the right size for us to procced with the trigger shot to induce ovulation! will post more when i get home tomorrow!!

wednesday june 18

u/s was first thing this morning and there are 5 follicles....none of them are ready at this time so we have to go back on saturday for another u/s to measure them.....will update again after that one!!

Saturday June 21

Had u/s again yesterday and it showed the 2 follicles on the left were matured but the 3 on the right hadn't grown anymore. So i took the triggers (HCG) shot at home last night at midnight, which will induce ovulation. we go in tomorrow afternoon for IUI! wish us luck! Am sending Baby dust to everyone TTC'ing as well!!

Monday June 23

IUI went fine today, was fairly easy and painless. now we're in the 2ww. i have to go to the lab in two weeks for the test, regardless of how i feel. keep your fingers crossed for us ladies!!! we'll be baby dancing for the next two nights for extra insurance!! baby dust to all!!!