June 15th 2008

Jaeden and I are PERFECT...he's getting SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOO big at his last appointment he was 17 lbs and healthy. He hasn't rolled all the way over yet but he's gettiing there. He's teething now and he still spits up like crazy even after I changed his formula to similac alimentum, this kid even spits up water so I think it's just what he does it has nothing to do with how easy the formula is to digest. His father and I are on good enough terms and I have found love again with an ex from my FAR past. He accepts Jaeden and treats him like his own. Jaeden enjoys his baths now, laugh, smiles, talks too much and is always aware of what's happening around him. I'm working on getting back into school in august and getting a part time job during the summer. Everything is working itself out and I couldn't be happier. You can find videos of him on youtube just type in baby jaeden. Please don't hesitate to message me on aim (bcmamii).

May 4th 2008

Life so far is going just fine. I adjusted to motherhood fairly well, the only thing that seems to bother me is can i get my stomach to be as flat as it was before lol. I have my son and he seems to be all I need right now since I made the decision that I'd rather not have his father around, he's in Jaeden's life....just not mine lol. Jaeden is 15lbs 4 oz and just 3 months old. He spits up too much, has a short temper, jumps at loud sounds, possesses no patience and still doesnt like taking baths but I wouldn't trade him for the world :0)

I love it when he just wakes up in the morning and he's half asleep and as soon as he lays eyes on me he gives me this really big smile like hi mommy I missed you FEED ME...that just makes life worth living. I love it when he tries to talk and at the same time is shoving the pacifier back in his mouth with the back of his hands. I love the face he makes when he tries something new and how excited he gets when he likes it. I love the fact he loves to stand and he sleeps with his hands open never closed. I love that he purs like a kitty when he's eating or sleeping. I love his little mustache and his curly mohawk. I just love him.

My Birth Story
It all began 6am in the morning. I was hard asleep and all of a sudden heard a pop and woke up instantly. I got up and liquid was trickling down my legs YES MY WATER BROKE WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOO so I called my mom and my dad was about to leave for work so it happened just in time. My bags have been packed for like 2 weeks already so it was just to grab them and go
after i changed my underware and put a pad on of course because by now i was basically swimming in a pool. So I get to the hospital didn't have to wait to be admitted but there wasnt a delivery room available. So I'm just
laying in this room with my mom until I finally got into a delivery room at like 3 pm. The nurse asked me if I had did number 2 in the past 24 hours and i sad no so she said well we'll have to fix that. I woun't say
what she did but it had me in the bathroom for about a half hour emptying my bowels....NEVER EVER AGAIN!!!! The contractions didn't start until like 8am but didn't get unbearabley intense until
about 5 pm. Yes I was in labour for about 15 hours and we thought it would have been more because of how slow i was dialating.
When my doc checked me at 7pm i was only 5 cm dialated and said i probably woun't give birth until 3 or 4 in the morning so my
parents left at about 10 to come back the next day and i told bd to come the next da too since i wasnt supposed to give birth anytime soon (yes NOBODY was there when I actually gave birth). After they left my doc came and checked
me again and all of a sudden i was 10 cm dialated and feeling LOTS of pressure. I thought the epidural was wearing off but actually it was just him ready to BUST OUT!!! My doc told me to start pushing and my sister is calling me every 2 minutes while im trying to concentrate so i answer and i say "baby comming pushing almost here call you back ouch!!!" didn't wait to hear what she had to say didn't care. After about 20 minutes of pushing and ripping
he was born at 10:59 pm on Jan 31st screaming bloody murder. He weighed 7 lbs 8 oz . 5 minutes after hes out my sister calls back (she's super happy because my youngest nephew was born that day too so they are sharing a birthday). The nurse put him on my chest and attempted to clean him off but he peed on her
and we all laughed. He was active and alert the entire time but he spent the night in the nursery to give me time to recover
especially since the epidural had my legs numb for like 8 hours after i got it. Long story short I will definitly do birth
again in the future I just got to remember to try to poop every day so I don't have to go through that horrible bowel movement again!!!!

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5/28/07

My sister bought me a pregnancy test since she knew I had missed my period...half of me wanted to be pregnant and the other half didn't. So 1 line was dark and the other was so damn light like it was hardly there so I just passed it off as my imagination and convinced myself I wasn't pregnant. Then I started to feel sorry that I wasn't so I took another pregnancy test and it had the same result. Now is when I decide to actually READ the directions and the light line meant positive also...go figure!!!!

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5/29/07

I should be about 4 weeks now. My boyfriend took it pretty well since it was unplanned but we discussed the what if's of it. He was actually kind of excited which is what I was actually hopeing for so thats great.

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6/13/07

Today I had my doctors appointment and I am 7 weeks 3 days and healthy ;-)

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7/14/07

First ultra sound...gave them a hard time taking proper pictures of you but I got them after u got tired of being difficult wiggling around..healthy and right on track 12 weeks and 1 day ;-)

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8/10/07

I'm mad your father gonna argue with me about what I think your sex is...your a boy damn it!!!!

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8/30/07

okay achase here's my update...my baby daddy sucks everytime he tells someone how far along I am he always gets it wrong he's constantly on my myspace page and theres tons of baby tickers that say exactly how far along I am and he still doesnt get it right...i mean yea he is just a man but damn how hard can it be to just keep track of whats going on....also I still think he cares more about that dumb dog than me and the baby but thats another story. Other than him being as useful as a teddy bear baby and I are fine. Don't feel much yet...all I know is I'm expanding and lately my pelvis/butt bone hurts everytime I attempt to get up and it's annoying me cause now I know how it will be to be 70-80 yrs old with arthritis in my ass AAAAAHHHHH!!!! I have been munching on a box of bootleg raisin bran cereal for an hour and its almost gone already and I'm amazed that I'm still hungry...with all that fiber in my system I expect to go to the bathroom sooner than usural ;-) I just got done with my first week of college today and I'm hopeing I can atleadt finish this semester off and baby doesn't decide to make an early arrival. I'm gonna stop typing now because I have already written too much and said somethings you might not want to hear but you are the only people I can complain too since you know what I'm talking about so thanks for listening/reading I appreciate it ;-)

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8/31/07

19 weeks today HOORAY...Oh and I totally stole somebodies baby for my background but I couldn't resist she was just too cute..I typed in funny baby pics on yahoo lol...I still exepct her to jump out at me or bark at me or something.. I hope my baby is that photogenic when he/she is born (no I don't know yet gotta wait 2 weeks ;-( but I'm hopeing it will go really fast ) O yea and I definitly felt some movement today like around 6:05ish lol...definitly wasn't gas although I know I'm full of it so I'm happy ;-)

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9/1/07

So I bought babies first outfits today I don't know what I'm having yet so I stuck to unisex colors primarily green. Baby Daddy had the nerve to ask me if they looked good like I would dress my baby in ugly cloths ah I feel like he's so...unnecessary....sometimes....lately....LOL

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10/12/07

Thanks alot for deleting my stuff gosh...well I'm having a boy...found out on september 19th. I got stuck 4 times with a needle for blood but my mom was nice enough to come with me so atleast I wasnt alone right?!?!. I'm excited to be having a boy tho...I actually always wanted my first born to be a boy...so my daughters can have an older brother to beat their stalkers up LOL...well I'm 25 weeks today WOOOHOOO and the bigger he gets the more scared of birth I become ;-(....The good news is he no longer kicks the hell out of my crotch...the bad news is he likes being in the left side of my tummy..and thats fine, however, that means I can't sleep on my right side because then he gets unconfortable and he kicks so I have to sleep on my left side with him but then after an hour my left leg starts to tingle like its going to sleep cause theres no circulation and I might just get it over with and cut it off!!!! .....his father and I have reached a new level in our relationship. We weren't together long to begin with when I got pregnant so it felt like we stayed together for baby...it took the reality of haveing a relationship ending argument and leaving his house 8 in the morning to embark on a 3 hour journey home alone with the feeling of he broke my heart to realize that there was more there than just a baby...and vise versa....so we're making a real effort to stay together...not just for baby..but for us...I think it's more meaningful that way....his mother still refuses to meet me and I can care less...my next appointment is October 17th and my mom is gonna be there for that one too so thats good...to the ladies I know that have suffered a loss...I'm so sorry...I can't imagine what you are going through...I don't know what I would do...but I know what I can do...I can pray.

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10/26/07

I am 27 weeks today HOORAY...I've spent this entire week searching for baby feet because I know they are around there somewhere and I enjoy him kicking my hand away like he needs his personal space or something lmao. Well October is almost over and its depressing because now I really have to start getting everything ready for my early departure from school on thanksgiving. I gotta take all my finals early...take out another damn loan to pay for this semester so I can register for online classes next semester while I'm home with baby and meet with my advisor to figure out what online classes to take would be nice too. I hate the financial aid office I dread going but theres no way I can avoid it now.....Besides going to doctor appointments I have done NOTHING for baby so I gotta change that but getting situated with school unfortunatly comes first. Bd and I are doing fine and events have been happening this week that have been giving me access to CHOCOLATE and CANDY and I with no self control have been eating them and stashing for the next day so I definitly gotta cut that out. I have so many papers to write it isn't even funny so I'm gonna go get a head start of one right now.....

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10/28/07

I am itchy...so itchy...I apply lotion to my back and tummy 3-4 times a day...whenever I try to lay down my skin stretches and it itches IT ITCHES!!!!

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10/29/07

So...my bd's other bm gave birth today at around 8 p.m. She wasn't due until end of December but now baby is here and shes 4 pounds 6 ounces and he's so excited and I am too...to a certain degree. I know I'm supposed to be understanding that his first child has just been born and he's now officially a father and he thinks she looks so much like him....but I keep hearing that little voice in the back of my head that says "well what about me?" I'm so jealous...jealous that her baby is here and she can hold her and see how much she looks like him and I can't. I guess I gotta stop being so selfish and be happy for him and hope this all MUCHO EXCITEMENT blows over very soon cause if I have to hear about this everyday until my baby is here in January I'm gonna hurt somebody.

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10/31/07

My sisters dog died today...the great dane in my pictures...my sister called at 7am crying her eyes out...he had surgery on his stomach and he didn't make it through the night...the kids don't know yet they just think he's still at the hospital...she's waititng until they come home from school friday to tell them the news...they're gonna be devastated.....:o(

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11/2/07

28 weeks today ;-) I've been feeling braxton hicks so I think I have to relax a lot more than I am now...my next doctors appointment isn't after thanksgiving and I need to feel that everything is okay now for some reason...not talk to bd right now...just because his daughter is here thats all he talks about and totally ignores the fact that he has a viable son on the way too...he says im just jealous..no duh...but don't think you can demand I name him after you and not care about him until he's here...besides she claims the baby aint his anyway but we know better...she wants him to leave her alone so her and her "fiance" and take care of the baby without his interference...i would show sympathy...but he pissed me off...so they can all go 2 hell!

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Munckin Man *28 weeks*
He likes it quiet noise makes him stay still...he hates it when I eat ice...he loves it on my left side..he likes it when I lay down more than standing up..he rearly moves his arms and legs at the same time...when mommy cries he NEVER moves..he thinks its fun to stop moving whenever someone put their hand on my stomach...he likes to play "guess the body part"...when i poke he kicks back like im invading his personal space...when I wake up he wakes up a.s.a.p. if I'm not asleep he aint asleep either...Saniyya is his future gf/bm...I <3 Him.

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11/9/07

SSSSSSSSOOOOOOO Munchkin man is 29 weeks today ;o)!!! I'm so proud of him. I really wish there was someway I can see him in there on my leisure lol. Update on other bm - she doesn't exhist anymore (well not to me anyway). She lied to him for like 6 months about the baby being his...when the baby was born said she looked like him...then a week later says its not his and how she got a paternity test for some other guy and it came out positive. I don't believe her...it probably is his she just wants the baby to herself and her "finace" but if there was ever an opportunity to get her out the picture its now. Bd however was pretty tore up about it and after I told him not to talk to her and block her he decided he wanted to anyway so we're not talking (did i mention she practically stalks me on aim now with like 3 different s/n's why is this necessary I don't know???) . One of my close male friend's girlfriends gave birth today to a boy. He was 27 weeks. I havent heard the details yet I'm just hopeing hes okay. My birthday is in 11 days and thats when I finally move out of college and go home to relax thank the Good Lord I can't wait. I've been dieing to be home so I can be close to my doctor and the hospital you know LOL.

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11/16/07

SSSSSSSSSOOOOOO Munchkin is 30 weeks today..and for some reason it's a milestone to get this far even though I know he still has A LOT of fat to gain until birth. I'm ready to have him now but I don't want to see him hooked up to ANYTHING so I'll wait. I'm leaving school november 20th (which is also my birthday) and as stressful as packing is gonna be I can't wait to get home and be able to SLEEP in my bed and watch Birth Stories on TV and EAT my mother's food and do NOTHING except prepare the transformation from Carlene's room to MJ's room. My next doctors appointment isnt until the 28th but I don't care as long as I'm home and close to my doctor and the hospital. My sister and mother (not me) finally decided on a date for my baby shower so it's gonna be December 15th. I'm gonna miss my friends at school though I know eventually I'll be bored out of my mind at home but hopefully when that happens munchkin wount be too far away from making his grand entrance. Well thats about it for now...I'm gonna go heat up some chicken nuggets and watch another movie lol.

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11/20/07

So its my birthday HOORAY!!! I go home today for good so I've been packing all my stuff. I probably wount be updating my page anymore or just not as often but when he gets here you all will know it. Have a happy healthy pregnancy girls!

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11/23/07

So Munchkin man is 31 weeks today...proud of him once again. Bd and I broke up he likes to do stuff behind my back so I told him since he wanna talk to other girls and since hes so "sexually frustrted" he can move on and he did and I said i'll see you at the hospital so you can take that paternity test your mother wanted so you can start on your child support. I'm not the least bit broken up about it I am actually pretty content...I think thats a great place to be right now.

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12/2/07

I can't believe it's December already!!! Also can't believe I get to hold my sweet baby next month. Bd and I.....it's better.....still has the nerve to argue about the babies name...if I knew nameing him was gonna be this hard I would have thought twice about not using protection LOL. I just saw my doctor last monday and I can't believe that I'll be back there in 8 days...my baby shower is in 13 days LESS THAN 2 WEEKS and my mother is still taking her cool sweet time to get stuff done....it's frustrating but I'm trying not to think about it. It's snowing outside how non-cool is that lol!!!

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12/11/07

Just had a doctors appointment yesturday. Baby is 33 weeks and a couple days old and everything is good but I want an ultrasound and he wount give me one lol. This week I got his snow suit, a robe and a hooded towel to match, a big plush blanket, hats, and a johnson's bedtime set. My baby shower is saturday and I have NOTHING to wear ;o( I'm actually looking foward to it being over with and its supposed to snow saturday night into sunday so that wasn't nice to hear at all.

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12/17/07

I'm 34 weeks now. I had my baby shower this past saturday. I was supposed to start at 3 and end at 7 but it actually started at 6 and ended at 9 (BLACK PEOPLE!!) but overall it went well mostly everyone I invited came, everyone got along with everyone, I got what I wanted except for diapers and wipes LOL and my mother was happy that she didnt have to put left overs in the fridge all she had to do was wash up (AND THAT WAS A LOT OF FOOD!!!). So I'm happy ;o)

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12/28/07

I AM SICK!!! I've been sick for a whole week now and I am NOT getting better. My throat is pissing me off I can't stop coughing and everytime I sneeze i get a nose bleed. ALSO, my wisdom teeth NOW wants to come completely out so my gums are swollen and tender and I don't want to eat anything that will get trapped between my teeth I bet I'm going to lose weight by the time I go to my doctor's appointment on Jan. 2nd since I can't eat everything in sight. Children tylenol does NOTHING for me!!! My eyes are pink (i think i have pink eye my nephew brought it home from school) those eye drops aint really doing much and my stretch marks just keep on getting bigger and bigger. I am miserable.

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1/5/08

I'm 37 weeks along and I feel SSSSSOOOOOOOOO much better now. Had a doctor appointment on the 2nd and I've been eating so much sweet stuff that I had the blood reading of someone suffering from diabetes. Thats what I get for eating pop tarts and adding extra sugar to my raisin bran. Anyway he did a culture and made me take blood AGAIN so i'm staying away from sugar from now on. Didn't even get an internal exam to see if i was dialated or effaced and I felt like he should have because the week before I had the worst pelvic pain when I tried to stand up or walk and forget trying to switch sides while laying down it was too painful but its pretty much gone now and I had nothing really to complain about when he asked me if I had any questions and that was depressing LOL. Oh well on to the next one on the 10th.

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ATTENTION

I just wanted to say that when your belly expands to the point where you can no longer see your feet PLEASE make the effort to keep them pretty and also make sure your socks don't have holes in them so you wount end up having to take your socks off in humiliation and realize that your feet are HIDIOUS and ASHY and you have no lotion and your doctor and his assistants are gonna bear witness to this catastrophy...don't end up like me I KNOW I KNOW but the belly is in the way and your running out of breathe and you can't bend over for long even when your sitting and you just can't believe you let it go this far and shame on you and baby got the nerve to be kicking you cause your squishing him but it is sssoooooo worth it ;o)

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1/23/07

I had a doctor's appointment yesturday. Apparently you don't need to have braxton hicks or contractions to dialate. I've effaced and I'm 1 cm dialated and I've felt absolutely nothing so I was pretty surprised. He gave me an ultrasound and we watched my little prince yawn and swallow the fluid around him HE'S SSSSOOOO CUTE and CHUBBY I can't wait to hold him. My due date is in 2 days but my doc has Jan. 27th from when he measured him so if he doesnt come on his own ill be induced a week after my due date which would be after Feb. 3 but he doesnt believe i'll last until febuary so I'm hopeing he's right.

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