April 2009 update :

WEll we have our baby girl ! Lily Jolene was born March 25th at 8:48am, her birth story is posted under my childrens info. Funny when they wheeled me into the delivery room, the giant clock on the wall said 8:12, the exact minute my beloved son Max was born, again another sign, everything was going to be good. I have recovered remarkably well from my 2nd C section.. beautifully... despite me being a little too active and pulling my incision open a little.. ooops..

But my daughter is healthy as a horse, sweet and beautiful. Often she smiles in her sleep, and i wonder if her angel brother is whispering to her!

AUG 2008.. we're expecting again! Which is pretty amazing since I was on the mini-pill! WHen i missed my period, i took 4 , yes 4 pregnancy tests and was so shocked and amazed, that my husband had to tell me that the tests were positive ! I've just been to one obgyn check-up, I'm being referred to a high-risk obgyn due to the death of my son. No, we still do not have the coroners report back yet. The amazing thing is that i am due April 9th, 2009. One year to the day of Max's death. Of course it wasn't planned, i beleive it's a gift or sign from my son that everything is gonna be alright.:) I just hope that this pregnancy goes well and that i have a bouncing baby this April !

On Wednesday, April 9, 2008, for reasons that are unknown to us and a team of 50 doctors, Max passed away. Right now the city of LA Coroners office is doing the autopsy nd investigation.
Obviously, my heart is broken, but I feel Max burning bright in my heart and giving me strength.

I don't know why he was taken, he was just an angel who flew too close to earth., He's now my shining star, I was the luckiest mommy in the world ... everyone who met him, their breath was taken away by his beauty and personality.

If anyone wants to do something , please donate blood to your local childrens hospital and have it directed to the NICU. If you are unable to do that, please, as much as you can, of course, be involved with your local downs syndrome society. Love and kiss and hug your children tight, they are our little angels.Sean and i plan on trying again as soon as we can, AND, 100000% want to adopt a DS baby.

He taught us so much, and sends us signs every day.