5/23/08

Wow ! my baby girl is 4wks today! time is fly so fast. im ready to put her on a church door step and run or send her to college lol. just joking but she really thinks she is a princecess ,she dramatic and likes to fight already , its her way or noway, i told her donnot bite the hand that feeds u . of course she isnt listening. they grow and change so fast i have to take pic frequentley, and she can eat and eat very frequentley. went to the dr 2wks ago for her she weighed 8lbs 8oz @ 2wks old . her birth weight was 7lbs7oz but @ discharged she weighed 7lbs4oz i know she is over 9lbs @ this time. everything is going good . take to all until next tim

HAD MY BABY GIRL 4/23/08 PICS AND BIRTH STORY COMING SOON ! ( WENT IN TUES CAME HOME SAT due date was 4/25)

37w6d

37w3d I dropped I think

32wks pic below

31w5d when this was taken (placenta @ the right of her face)

B4 BABY SUMMER '07'

15W4D

This is my first baby ,meaning the 1st that lived this long , but this isnt the first time I have been pregnant . I was pregnant May of 07 and lost it the day before memorial day.

The first time that I was pregnant was May 07 after 5day of not having my period I knew i was pregnant b/c i had pregnancy symtoms. The day before Memorial Day I started bleeding and cramping and i knew i was loosing my baby, this went on for 5days . As a nurse I knew I didnt have to go to the emergency rm b/c I didnt sock up 1 pad in an hr , I bleed like my regular mentral cycle and if I would have bleed for more than 5days then I would had a D&C but my Dr. was informed and there was nothing that i could do. I would see other pregnant women or newborn babies and would remember that day and would say why?.although i was 6wks when I miscarried I cried and cried and day dreamed. I was happy that I was pregnant in May b/c I'm 29yrs old , how long it's going to take for me to have a baby ? Even though I had never tried to conceive.

The 2nd time that I became pregnant I was shock b/c I was so careful I'm suprised my partner didnt asked me if the baby is his lol. When it happened. the 1st time I knew I was going to get pregnant and also my Dr. said to me not to get pregnant until I had 3 regular periods and I wasnt trying to b/c of the risk of miscarrying again. I knew I was pregnant in aug 07 which would have been my 3rd regular period. i was happy , but i was in the process of changing jobs , but now i have to stay until my baby is born.

I was a smoker for 12yrs and I smoked with my 1st pregnancy which possibly caused the miscarriaged or maybe it didnt ,I dont know , but I continued to smoke into my 2nd pregnany until almost my my whole 1st trimester. I had always said I will quit if I become pregnant and I didnt .I was just was making excuses at times so I can justify my actions. I didnt have much of any morning sickness I guess i was lucky, but the little that i had had vanished when I was 9wks . As a Nurse I thought of every diagnosis and I came up with a missed abortion b/c my symtoms disappered.I also had alot of cramping w/o the bleeding for the 1st few wks of my pregnany . I had the same type of pain that I had with the 1st pregnancy and I was just waiting , so I continued to smoke more b/c I was worried. I couldnt get an appointment b/c my dr. was on vacation I didnt take a pregnancy test until I was 10wks pregnant ,but I knew that I needed to take my folic acid vitiamin after 5days I had missed my period ,so since I wasn't able to see my Dr. i went to work and took a box of 1mg foic acid vitamins since its the most important vitamin during the first trimester so I started taking them after 5days of missing my period..

Finally I saw my Dr when I was 11wks and it was confirmed again that i am pregnant by a pelvic exam and by assessing my urine. He asked me if I quit smoking when I knew I was pregnant I said yes and I lied. I started smoking 3 cig a day and one day I had 1 lefted and I said this will be the last cig. and it was. It was hard I had withdrawls which only made me gag when I smelled ,thought of, or even seeing others smokes, but the withdrawl only lasted for 2days, just had to keep myself busy. I was scheduled for my 1st songram 10/17/07 b/c my Dr wanted to know the gestational age. My Dr. even said my breast donnot feel tender etc. and I was telling him that my symtoms just disappered so a sono was scheduled, but he said sometimes our breast donnot have to be tender to touch, but i went for the scan anyway.

On 10/17/07 I was expecting the worst, I wanted a cig so bad but I had told myself that I willn't for the sake of my child ,just in case im still pregnant . As a nurse I know better i know about possibly having a low birthweight baby , perterm baby , a baby with developmental delays, complications after birth b./c the lung aren't mature yet . I could also die too along with my baby , my placenta can dettached from my uterus and I can bleed to dealth internal , externally or both ,it varies and other problems can occur.. when I laid on that table I was nerves until a couple of mins into it. The tech said to me due u want to see ur baby? I said yeah and I saw my baby kicking of course I couldnt feel it @ that time I was 12w4d , my baby was moving his/her arms legs everything he/she looked good . I saw by baby's cardiac pulsation and when I saw that I almost cried , I just didnt want to cry in public. It has been a little over a wk @ this time since I quit smoking. I said if feel like I have the need to smoke, im going to look @ these songram pics that I had requested for.I havent smoked since then, Im in luv with my baby I WILLN'T SMOKE DURING MY PREGNANCY.

The 1st time that I told my mom that I was pregnant I was 13 wks b/c the risk of miscarrige has dropped alot, I never even told my mom I was pregnant the 1st time . I didnt even get to enjoy the pregnancy enough for myself to even tell her. I didnt want her to feel the hurt that I felt. Although I can still miscarry up to 20wks I still told her b/c I starting to show so I had to say something b4 she asks. When I told her the 2nd thing she said to me is that I need to quit smoking if not for me for my baby and I was proud to say I already did quit. she has been trying to get me to quit for yrs but I just didnt. My mom told me a story that day. She said that my sister which is 20yrs older than me smoked with my newphew who is 2mths younger than me. My mom said my sister went the whole 9mths ans still my newphew was born 3lbs connected to to so many tubes . He stayed in the hospital until he was atleast 5lbs. Looking back I remember him having developmental delays meaning he wasnt at his grade level in school. I could remember when we were about 8yrs old my newphew had Cancer . I donnot know what kind of Cancer but i remember him having chemo and radiation therapy. Im not saying it was do to the smoking but who knows. when i speak to him next time i will ask him about it ,but today he's Cancer free for yrs now.

Now it's been 6wks since I quit smoking cold turkey, if u smoke Quit, if u cant cut down, i know its hard and I know u luv ur baby b/c I did and i do although I was smoking. I have to give this child a chance I will regret it for the rest of my life if my baby was born with any problems , complication or anything . esp. knowing it was my fault. Even 2nd hand smoking isn't good , after I had quit I made my boyfriend smoke eles where not in front of me or anywhere that I can smell it.. Im 15w4d today. I cant wait until my next appointment which is nov.9th to her my baby's H.R.