SEPTEMBER 22ND

.............Thankyou almighty GOD!.........for looking over our blessing.............everyday is a miracle!...................everyday we are Thankful!...................GODBLESS all my friends and there blessings and may GODBLESS every one of you who are tt'cing!!.....

We also had our scan, this monday!!.........we got to the hospital, my hands were sweating........and shaking(I think its always going to be like this).............the midwife told us that we would have to wait (again) because a poor women had to have some emergency treatment..........(but we thought thats fine........)so I sat there praying and holding DH's hand so tight.......................while we waited the clerks started to run around..........then I saw a pregnant lady on a wheelchair crying............that was it I started to cry ...................I started to think that things were going wrong!........so it had to be one of them bad days!..................................after about 40 minutes....our doc called us (she is so sweet and caring) said she was sorry and asked if everything was okay!...........I told her I was so nervous so she said hop on to the bed and we would do the scan straight away...........(godbless her).........and there was our blessing.............waving his/her hands at us............my heart was overjoyed and DH had such a big smile..........doc said everything was good and that I would get another scan in 4 weeks.......when I was 21 weeks..........................................thats is the one which I am so anxious over....................I still remember our last scan..........at 20 weeks when they said our baby had no heartbeat...........................I think these few weeks are going to be so hard!..............................I pray that the lord looks over our blessing.........

Thankyou again for everyday that pass's by safely dear lord!

GODBLESS all my freinds!

SEPTEMBER 17TH

So .......We are 14 weeks now!...........The weeks have gone slow!..( my stomach felt bigger since last night).I have had bad and good days....I still tend to worry on and off!..................I had another UTI infection and have been put on antibiotics!......the doc advised that I should take them............because if I was not treated.......it may lead to another M/C.......so I was quite happy to take them!......(anything for my blessing to stay safe!)...................the kids still do not know........even though I am showing now LOL! they think it's just fat LOL.......the rest of our extended family know now!......but are keeping it under wraps!..........I think they were abit shocked at how (3month after ourM/C!!)......but we are over the moon!...................I cant think of any syptoms.......I have had no M/S.......last week I have started to feel abit nauseas at about 1 in the afternoon, but only for a hour or so(I know wierd!! or I'm just a wierdo!! LOL)...and yes it is always at the same time everyday!................(crazy).........I have no cravings (sad....wanted them heheheh)............feel like I can eat more though!!( I am going to get so fat)I had backache a few weeks back that has dissappeared now( I am sure it will show its agly head very soon)........OH ! AND THE WORST, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 35 YEARS...........!! I HAVE BIG SPOTS ON MY FACE! I MEAN BIG LIKE ONE ON MY CHIN, 1 EACH ON BOTH SIDES OF MY CHECKS (sad)......THEY LOOK AWFUL.....the docter said it was pregnancy hormones..............never had it with my other children..................if I get any more wont be able to show my face in public for another 6 months..........................LOL! as long as our blessing is safe and in our arms in march................................WE DONT CARE......................Godbless all my friends on this site...................

AUGUST 14TH

Our scan was today!.........we went to the hospital........soo nervous........I thought I would be sick we had to wait nearly 2 hours..........that made it even worse..........my Dh held on to my hand............................................
both our hands were shaking............we both said some prayers!...........then the lady called my name (at last) ..............she said she understood the stress we were going through( I think that will be with as this time till the end......hoping the lord will bless us this time).............I lied down and she started to check..........I closed my eyes.......I could'nt bear to look.............until my Dh said" its okay darling open your eyes".........and there was my little blessing, his/her little heart beating away!..........tears rolled down my face......Thankyou lord! My Dh held my hand tight.......the doc said everything looked okay.........for now!...............the feet and legs were just growing!(godbless!) she said that I was 9 weeks and 2 days along and that the date was 18th of march not 29th as we had believed!.............then we went to see the consultant............she really is great........she said she was so happy to see as again!(godbless her)and that she would do her best to look after me this time........ which was brill, we would get a scan every 4 weeks!........................I think what ever happens Dh and I will be nervous, at every scan we have.......specially until we get past 20 weeks......maybe then we could hope!!

Godbless all our friends!

JULY 20th

First appointment with midwife!.........had to go to the maternity ward, because they were busy!!.......


Found it hard!.........last time we delivered our sweet little angel there!............normal stuff filed in some forms

did bloods.........the student midwife was great, she made me feel so much more happier and less nervous!

made a appointment for our scan in 3 weeks time!...........already feeling nervous ! but cant wait! please lord keep our blessing safe.

JULY 18th.

...............Think! I will do another test!! just to make sure................god we are so excited and scared!

want to tell the children..............but I know I have to wait!!!...............cant let them know yet! not after last time!.....they were devastated..........................I love my kids soo much!.............

JULY 17th

We Got our .BFP.......just cant believe it!!..

............now I have to just wait for the doc's appointment!!

Godbless all my friends......who have supported me!! And To everyone who is ttc'ing hope you too are blessed very soon!........

JULY 16th

Doing the test today ..............fingers crossed!

JULY 14th

Moved most of my last pregnancy stuff, to the blog, as most of you
now we are ttcing! fingers crossed!

Its funny, I never know what to write here............at the moment I am waiting for my july AF.........I have been having, pre AF cramping for nearly a week and a half!..and also I got tiny bit of pink discharge last week dont know if it means anything!.................we are at the moment 3 days late, my normall cycle is 27 days or 26, but today I am at 31,I do not want to get excited yet or do a test because, last year (january)before my m/c, I went to 33 days...........so I am still waiting!!.........................I am abit worried because for the first time in my life, this summer(even though we have not had much of a summer here in the uk) I have been experiancing bad hayfever and have a very bad cough......................and my asthma is playing up and I have to take my inhalers, so I am scared.............because we had stopped trying now thinking it was better if I got myself sorted and look what happens(MIGHT)...................so I am feeling very kind of nervous, when I should be excited !!

JUNE 5TH

moved some stuff to the blog sections.............................

we will always remember our baby!.................................it has been so hard!...............but we are trying again

now .................may god! give us another chance!

JUNE 3RD

last couple of months have been really hard.....................could not face coming on site!...............starting to feel abit better now...........our baby is in heaven now!

MARCH 20TH

our babys heart stopped at 21 weeks!

Hello..................new friends

I just joined this site yesterday, love the message board!........I am 34 and have 3 children!A beautiful daughter who is 14 and 2 sons 11& 8.......... already..... cant wait to ask loads of questions!............mmmm yeah I know,,,,,,,,your thinking what questions...you already have 3 children.......yes all three were so diffrent!

If anyone has questions .........I would love to help!!

Godbless!

soo cute!