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Hello,

My name is Chloe. Im 19. i live in australia, in adelaide.

Im pregnant with my first baby, it wasnt planned at all and was a huge suprise wen i found out...BUT i believe everything happens for a reason, and i beleive this was a present from sumwhere for sum reason.... a reason im unsure of at the moment...

I found out that its going to be a little boy....

I have a medical problem, that is probably going to cause him to come early.

But.... i dont no how early, the doctors have said the further along i get the better but the higher the chance he will come....

Im excited but scared at the same time.....

Ive had a pretty smooth pregnancy so far, ive had no morning sickness or anything....

i suffer from low blood presure tho and i faint alot! its so scary!

ill keep you all posted on how im going....

love chloe n the little mant

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05 of may 2008-

Well i havnt written on here in a lil while....

soooo... Not alot has been happenin really, my depression has seemed to faded away a lil bit... i dont feel as depressed anymore, but saying that i still do get the odd teary eye here n there.... hehe

Im currently 28 and 6 days pregnant, 2moz im 29 weeks...

But i havnt really gotten n e bigger and i havnt put on n e more weight.....

IS DAT BAD????

ive onli put on 5kg in all.....

the lil one is movin round lik crazy.....

ummm i hav my next appt not this friday but next, on the 16th.... brett said he will prob cum again.. :-)

Me n him r half ok.... i havnt seen him since my last appt, but thats coz i hav 2 stop bugging him.... i havnt bugged him for a week n a bit so hopefully i get to c him soon... we talk everyday tho.... n r gettin along alot betta.... im jst lonely n wanna c him....

LOVE CLO N LIL MAN

24th of april 2008-

Well.... were do i start? i had my glucose test, AND YESSSS brett came with me!!! im so effin happy!!! woohhh hoooo.... the doc even got the portable ultrasound machine to show brett his lil boy!!! Brett was amazed! it was so good! brett even said he will prob cum 2 all the otha appt.... yay!!!!

On the otha hand tho ive been so depressed and sad.... im now havin to go c a counciler....

And im gettin fukn stretch marks the only thing i didnt want!!!! ohhh its suks so much i hate it so much.... they r microscopic but i no they r there and clearly they just gonna get worse! ohhh whhhyyy me?????

sob sob

all that bloody money for nothin!

i feel so unattractive now n feel like brett is going to leave me for sum1 skinny! coz i am no longer skinny, im a friggen heffa lump, and raahhhh im so upset..... :-(

I so hope this lil boy is worth it!!!! NOT HAPPY JANE!!!!

luv chloe and lil man

17th of April 2008-

Well i havnt written 4 a lil while.... Everything is going ok.... 2moz i hav my glucose test.... and Brett says he is going to cum wit me!!!!

so Figgers crossed i hav sum1 who is gonna hold my hand!!! woo hoo

Im 26 weeks n 3 days.... im also still not that big.... which is good but im kinda worried bout the lil fella.... so 2moz at the docs im gonna say sumfing to him....

My bubba's pram came yestaday.... its fantastic.... cant wait to push my baby in it.... hehe

Lately ive been really depressed and lonely, i feel like im so alone....

and i feel like im losing brett to his friends coz he is ALWAYS with them n i feel like i hav to force him to c me.... its saddness to me.... makes me cry constantly.... but it cood just b my hormones.... :-( i dont no

love clo n lil man

6th of April 2008-

Ok so Its my birthday 2day.... woo hoo 4 me.... Yestaday i went to the speedway with my family for my b day.... and that was really good.... had so much fun.... ummm then i had a nice sleep in 2day and woke up, mum n dad got me a gold necklace and braclet and a few otha things....

Guess wat? yup Brett actually took me out and we had the BEST time!!!

He took me to the 24 hour pancake palour!!! it was so good!!!

he was a gentle man and paid for everything, held my hand, got me a card, and made me feel loved, and was really nice....

BUT he put his hand on my belly by himself for the first time 2day and felt baby kick.... and that was the best birthday present eva, just him rubbing my belly...

i said to him that i wanna c him more, coz wen we r 2getha we r perfect and hav so much fun, its only wen we are apart that we fight and dnt trust each otha... soooo.... HOPEFULLY he seen im not that bad to b seen wit and im not a drag to hang round n he will wanna c me more oftern.... coz even tho we hav been 2getha for 2 years, we havnt seen each otha for bloody ages, and i think we both forgot how much fun we hav 2getha and how good we get along...

Im not holding my breath tho, coz im not setting myself up to get hurt...

im just gonna take it one thing at a time....

Bak to the baby tho.... my belly is gettin bigger, and i think ive found the first little sign of stretch marks.... and im not happy.... im actually really depressed ova it....:-(

baby is more active than eva... he kicks sooo much.... sumtimes a little to much tho....

am very excited, and most of all happy.... happy me n brett had a good time.

keep u all posted

LUV CHLOE and lil MAN

2nd of April 2008-

Hey all.... i just ordered my babies broom broom pram.... hehe.... and am finally gettin all my stuff 2getha for the lil one.... i lurve the pram, its one of a kind... and extra comforty for my boy.... and coz im so damn short those adjustable handles will come in handy... hehe

Woo its my birthday on sunday!!! Big 19 lol....

My family is takin me to speedway on sat coz i luv speedway... and on sunday brett says he is going to take me out.....BUT IM NOT HOLDING MY BREATH!!!

He is so rude to me, so nasty.... yet i dont no y coz im nothing but nice to him.... ahh well he is the one missing out....

I CANT WAIT TO MEET MY SON.... HURRY UP PREGNANCY....

OHH this baby kicks like crazy!!!! as im writing this, im laying in bed and im watching my belly wiggle n hav a kick here n there!!!! its so amazing.... But if u watch for to long it reminds me of a alien inside a belly... hehe

well im off....

luv chloe

28th of march 2008-

ok so i went to my baby appt 2day with my normal baby doc n the medical complications unit.... everything seems to be going smoothly!!! yay

umm But coz the lil man is so lil they hav put me bak a week, so im offically 23 weeks n 3 days 2day....

they ha changed my gestation lik 3 or 4 times now.... annoying!!!!

ummm so im pretty sure i got this kid trained already... hahahaha'

everytime he kicks i tap were he kicks n say baby, n he kicks again in the same spot!!!! WAT A GOOD BABY!!!! HEHE

Everytime i go to the doctors n i sit in that god damn waiting room by myself while nearly everyone else in the effin room hav their partner wit them, i get tears in my eyes.... All i want is a simply belly rub, or sum1 2 hold my hand and be there wit me threw the things im going threw...

Is holding sum1's hand hard?

Brett the babies daddy who i hav been with for 2 years now has not yet felt his son kick, he has touched my belly on 2 occasions (pretty much coz i made him) And has seen me 4 times now since ive been pregnant!!!! It really hurts!

Nearly everytime we talk bout baby, he says its prob not even his! So wood like to announce to the world, or to ever wants to listen that unfortunatly it is his baby, i wish it wasnt but it is!

SORRY I HAVE UR BOOTAFUL SON INSIDE ME BRETT!

Im fukn angry.... no actually, im not angry....

IM UPSET!!!!!!!

wat do i do? wat does he want from me?

im going.....

keep u all informed...

chloe n lil man

x

25th of march 2008-

well i was 24 weeks yestaday.... n everthing seems to be going smoothly!!!!

i thought i wood hav a bigger belly then wat i hav....

but at my 18 week scan the doctor said my boy is little so i guess thats y im not very big....

i dont mind not being big at all.... lol.... coz im so tiny im so anxious of the whole stretch mark thing....

last night i even had a bad dream bout bloody stretch marks!!!!!

allthough i havnt even got n e yet.....

i havnt been sleeping very well at all.... it sucks.....

ummm i only have sixteen weeks left!!!! dats only 4 months!! arrrggghhhh not long at all....

LUUUUVVVV CHLOE n the little man

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