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Hi everyone! My name is Christine and I am from South Carolina. My husband Rick and I have a four year old daughter that keeps us in stitches! Rick and I have been married for almost 8 years, but we've been together for 15. We recently decided that is was time for us to add onto our family. It took us about 3 months to conceive again. We were so excited when we found out. Unfortunately, we lost our little baby on February 9th, 2008. It was devastating for all of us, but we've accepted it and are ready to move on.

***Baby Dust and Sticky Glue to you all!!! ***

February 9, 2008

I have no idea what's going on!! I took a home pregnancy test on January 26th and several more there after. All the tests showed up positive. So by my calculations I would be about 6 weeks pregnant. Friday morning (2/8), when I first went to the bathroom, I noticed a bit of pink on the tissue. My first reaction was, "Oh my God! What is happening?" I went to work telling myself that everything was okay and that I was just spotting. When I got to work, I went to the bathroom again and there was a good bit more pink on the tissue. Of course, I started crying my eyes out. I went back into my classroom and my co-teachers were of course very concerned. The kids would be coming in any minute. I certainly did not want them to see me crying. So I went to the office and waited for my doctor's office to open so that I could call. It was a LONG 35 minutes I had to wait. So, when I finally got them, they asked me to come in for an ultra-sound.

When I went in for the trans-vaginalunltra-sound, they saw nothing. They told me not to panic, that maybe I had my dates for my last period mixed up. When the doctor saw me, he said that could be a possiblilty or that I am in the process of miscarrying OR that I could have an ectopic pregnancy. The whole time I am sitting there, I knew something was wrong. I was 99% sure of my dates. He told me to come back Monday to check my hcg levels. Until then, I needed to go home and relax--yeah right. Easier said than done.

It is now Saturday morning. My spotting has turned to bleeding and I am still having heavy menstral-like cramping (some of which are pretty severe). I called my doctor again, because I was starting to worry about the pain. He told me that I should not worry unless I was just pouring blood. This is just all confusing to me. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON!!!! Have I had a miscarriage or what? He said not to jump to the conclusion that I've had a miscarriage, yet.

So here I am, waiting...

February 11, 2008

Well the news is not good. My doctor called a this morning to confirm that I had miscarried. My husband and I are so sad. It's hard to believe that one can become attached to something that is so small and that can't even be seen, touched, or held. Of course I am already thinking that I will never have another baby to hold in my arms. Maybe someday.

March 11, 2008

My first AF post m/c has come and gone. It was a killer!! I'm glad it's over with. Now I feel like I can move on. I'm scared as Hell to TTC again, but I need to just face my fears and know that whatever happens-- I will be okay. I have a wonderful support system. I feel confident that I will be able to have another healthy baby. So here we go again!! Yaaaaahoooooooo!!!

April 9, 2008

AF has come and gone again. I hope she doesn't come around again for a long time! I guess it's time to start tracking days here. My only concern is that I don't want to become obsessed with it all. To me, it takes away a lot of the natural beauty of conceiving a child. Don't get me wrong...when the time comes, I'll be the first one checking my CM (ugh) and getting excited over the slightest pain in my abdominal area. However, I think that's about as carried away as I am going to get. I trust that God will carry out his plan for me, and that I just have to be patient. As I have said before, I know my husband and I will have another baby to hold in our arms. ♥♥ In the meantime, Baby Dust and Sticky Glue to you ALL!