September 23, 2008: Ok, so I know it has been a long time since I updated this page. I just had to get away for a while. Even though I am happy for all the BFPs I was still getting too depressed because it was not me. My DH and I are in the process of adoption. We are so excited. We are even taking a class to become foster parents. We are doing this for the adoption part and not the foster parent part. If all goes well we will probably be adopting our first in maybe January. We are getting excited, nervous and making plans all at the same time. It is kind of weird the emotions we have about the whole thing. With pregnancy you know when to expect a little one, with adoption you do not. You can also know boy or girl with pregnancy. We wont know until they call. Well, we are gonna wait it out and hopefully January will be the start of a new year and new life for us.

October 8, 2008: I still come here from time to time to see what is going on with everyone. My DH and I have been in the process of adoption for a while now. We are exploring all types of adoption. We have even decided foster care adoption might be right for us. We are currently taking classes to get licensed as foster parents. We have only three classes left. I am so excited, happy and nervous all at the same time. To think that as early as January we could have a child is unreal to me. I hope we get a child in January cause I kind of have my heart set on it. But then I have had my heart set on having a baby for a few years now, so we will just have to see what happens. I have read a lot of BFP stories and they are all so wonderful. I still wish it was me, but if it cant be me- I am glad it was someone. I will try to update from time to time and let everyone know how we are doing. I will say that since we stopped TTC it seems we are both a lot less stressed. Good luck to you all and I will update again when I get more news.

January 6, 2009- Well, we are still on the journey to become parents. I just found out a few weeks ago my best friend is pregnant. I am happy for her. I also have another friend who told me she is now TTC. I am happy for them both. As for me and my DH we had part of our home study done. Now we are awaiting the results from more back ground checks. Apparently they did not do the ones from when we lived out of this state. Hopefully that will not take a long time. Everything else looks like it is a go. After the back ground checks then it will take a few weeks for paper work and all of that, then we just sit back and wait for the call. I am so excited, nervous and anxious. We will be taking a nice cruise in March to just relax and forget the rest of the world exsists. Our marriage is as strong as it has ever been and my favorite place in the world is curled up in the arms of my DH. I hope all of you are doing well. I see some got BFPs and some did not. To all of you still trying- Good luck and God bless. To all of you that got your BFPs- I hope you have a happy and healthy pregnancy. I will keep all of you posted as to when I finally get to be mommy. Right now I am still thinking I will be Mommy in 2009. :)

January 30, 2009- Well, I am feeling bummed today. I have called about our adoption and have not been able to speak to anyone. Seems like everytime I call no one is available to take the call. I have left voice messages and I am starting to think it is never going to happen. Why wont they call me back? I know neither of us has anything on our back ground checks. Maybe it is just taking a little longer since the checks are out of state. People think it is just so easy to have a baby. I am currently watching what seems like everyone around me have and raise children and yet here my DH and I are.. able, willing and anxious to have a child and yet- NOTHING! I know the moods are all a part of the process. When we were TTC it was the same thing. I hope I hear something soon. For now I guess I just have to wait and wait and hope our prayers will soon be answered.

April 27, 2009- For over a year now my DH and I have been trying to get all the things done we need done to adopt. I finally dropped off the last bit of paperwork this morning. Now we wait. Are they gonna need something else..a drop of blood perhaps!? It is funny cause I dont even get excited anymore. We have had to jump through so many hoops and every time we think we are almost there...they need something else. I dont know what else they might need, but I am ready. I know I dont update like I used to, but it is so hard. One day somehow someway our child will come. God has a plan. *****Baby Dust to all******

May 12, 2009- I got a call today. Looks like we are closer to being able to adopt. All paperwork is in and on the 27th the lady will be coming back out to go over everything and then we can move forward another step. I am trying not to let myself get excited at this point. I just seem to always get my hopes up and then get crushed when they need something new and I have to wait longer. I just hope all these steps are baby steps. :) I will post again when I know something more. ********Baby Dust to all*********