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Jan. 9, 2008

I want to thank those who have been sending me messages they all have been truly helpful seeing how I still haven't told anyone about whats going on in my life. I live at home and am a full-time employee which will soon go to part-time when I start college next week. anway, today was an okay day, i started it off with a bowl of honey nut cheerios and water. throughout the day i dragged my body to keep moving. thankfully i am home now and can just sit, relax and enjoy the time that i can be doing this. the father to be sent me a text messgae and said he really wants to work things out, that situation is touchy and could cause stress that i dont need.... what do you girls think?? he's a good person just has a past that seems to creep its ugly head in the present causing pain, tears, anger and more resentment. I dont want to feel torn and i cant talk to anyone in my life about it. i know i seem weak but when the time comes and the time is right for me i can come forward with a strong and confident attitude about my pregnancy. as for now, im waiting for the first dr's appt. thanks!

Jan. 14, 2008

Week 9!! i think this is going to make life go much much faster so i have to remember to enjoy and embrace each moment, even if that means im sick to my stomach or feeling wonderful. i have my 1st doc appt this thursday... so i will definitely be posting something abt that. im a little scared, going into it alone but i know that at the end of the day i'll know a lot more abt the little person i chose to bring into this world. i was able to tell a close friend about my pregnancy and shes the only one in my physical life that i have told. she understands jim (the dad), his ways and his actions, reactions or no actions. Im so thankful i was able to tell her because she knows the situation with him and I, not that its a bad one. just people change, just like the seasons of the year, i still love him and love what he has given me. i hope all of the other week 9 mother to be's are feeling great as well and i wish everyone the best this week!

Jan 19, 2008

dr's appt 2 days ago.. and it was mainly just to confirm that i am pregnant... and i had to talk to come social workers and nurses. i have a real drs appt on the 31st so i ll be 12 weeks! 3 months.. amazing. i cant wait to actually see the baby thats growing it'll be beautiful. i hope all of the other week ten mothers to be are feeling wonderful and happy! i wish you all the best of luck this week.

Feb. 5, 2008

first official dr's appt where they did an ultrasound! this is the first time i was able to see my baby and it was a busy little bee kicking and waving its hands to get away from the u/s stick it was beautiful. i seen and heard the heartbeat. the baby is more to the right side of my body which feels weird and i wonder why its over there. i hope it doesnt mean my stomach will look deformed. anyways, it was an amazing experience listening to another life inside of me... (jim tells me im really dramatic) but to me it is a huge deal. by the way he was at the appt with me and he was white as a ghost and didnt talk at all.... i think hes trying his hardest to get used to this life changing experience. and we're trying our hardest as well. the due date is Auguest 16th, 2008, so this summer.... :)

Feb. 10, 2008

I told my mom yesterday morning at breakfast about being pregnant, it took me an hour to get the words out but once i did my entire body and mind we're able to relax! i'm an over thinker. she took it very well to my suprise, i wasn't sure how she was going to react bc im still in college and jim and i aren't together. she's not mad abt either. as everyone on here told me, she's my mom and she'll support me and accept me, and thats exactly what she said:) so thank you!! she also said she thinks it'll be easier on me if i'm not with jim until he takes care of himself but she loves him as well and will be there through this entire experience. this is her 8th grandchild! i'll be the only one that has had to live with her but i think she'll love it, love the company and the energy of having a baby.

March 26, 2008,

Jim and I are having a girl!!! yayyyy!

May 21, 2008

it's been a while since I've last updated. I've had several dr's appts and the baby is healthy. I still haven't chosen a name for our little baby, some names have came up, I may just stick with my 1st choice which is Viviana... Viviana Lynne... Lynne for the mom's middle name! I had an appt today and the dr said i am right on target, my belly is 28 inches, she was kicking as the dr was feeling around for her, its so exciting. the baby shower is July 12th and I can't wait to sort through everything, set up the crib and just be wrapped up. I'll be 28 weeks this coming friday and counting down the weeks!