Hello everyone my name is Michelle, My husband and I where married in Nov 2005, shortly after I turned 35. We started trying for to get pregnant right away. I did know my age would put me into a "high risk" group but I never realized how difficult it would be... 2 years and 1 month later I'm pregnant for the 4th time . My first 3 pregnancy ended in very early miscarriages between 5-8 wks. I'm currently at 5wks and 1 day and I will be holding my breath for the next few weeks hoping for the best this time.

I'm 6 weeks pregnant today and even though I was trying not to get my hopes up this time... They are... 1st reason for hope is this is only the 2nd time I have reached 6 weeks (2 of 4) and this time feels different. I'm more emotional, I've been having morning sickness (which I can't figure out why it's called morning sickness since I fell nausated on and off all day long) . Not to mention my inital bloodwork came back with my progestone level normal... (1st time on that one but the doctor has been having me taking progestone medicene while trying to get pregnant so that I would have a head start ) I go for my 1st sonogram next week and that will be able to tell us if it's a viable pregnancy. 1 more week of not knowing....

Jan 4th, I had my sonogram done yesterday and I couldn't have asked for better news. Not only did they see the baby but they also saw the heartbeat. I'm 7 weeks +1 day and I was measuring 7 weeks and the heartbeat was at 135. They say everything looks good... They said we won't stop worrying until after the end of the 1st trimester but so far things are different from the other times. I'll go back in 2 weeks for another sonogram.

Jan 23, I'm 10 weeks today... I had my doctors appt last week and again things went well. Another sonogram and I got to see the baby moving around and heard the heart beat again. This time it was at 178. I was 9 wks + 1 day when I went. They had me measuring 8 wks + 6days. I'm a little worried about that but I was a day off to begin with (1st sonogram) and the tech said that it could be the way the baby was laying and they might not be getting an accurate measurement. The doctor said nothing about it so I assume all is well. I'll go back next week for them to listen to the heartbeat again. This time instead of a ultrasound they will use a doppler. I'm having some sort of parania set in at this point. I've never been this far along and I'm still so scared something will happen. I'm hoping to stop worrying when I get out of the 1st trimester but I know better than that... I'll probably worry the entire time... I'm assuming that's normal after 3 misscarriages...

Feb 12, I'll be 13 weeks pregnant tomorrow and I'm still waiting for the shoe to drop even though I've been told not to worry anymore that the baby is doing fine. I'm starting to feel some excitement and I'm looking forward to a level 2 ultrasound on thursday so I can see the baby again. (my last Dr appt was on the 31st and they just used the doppler to hear the heartbeat, it was at 165). The ultrasound is to access my risk for Down syndrome since I'm over 35... I'm refusing the amino at this point and time so my doctor wanted me to do this since there is no risk to the baby. I'm just scared to take the risk on the more ivasive test.

Friday, 22 Feb

Hello everyone, My level 2 ultrasound went really well. I was able to see the baby moving around and kicking. They where shaking her to get her to turn over and that was cute to watch. And they are 80% sure that it `s going to be a girl. :) As far as genetic issues at this point there appears to be none. The NT measured at 1.4 and my Dr says anything under 2 is normal. Also he was able to see the bridge of her nose which he says that you don `t see with Down syndrome babies. I have refused all other genetic testing, including the blood work (they said it has a high false positive results). I `m 14 weeks and 2 days now. I `m feeling less worried about the baby but I `m still a little scared. I `m looking forward to my next doctor appt so I can hear the heart beat again just to get reassurance.

It's now June 18 and I'm 31 Weeks, I know I haven't updated in awhile... Things have been going well, I wish I could say that I've stopped worrying but not a chance... :) even though I feel much more confident than I did in the beginning. Doctor says things are going well, I have another ultrasound on Monday which I'm looking forward to. They say it's to measure her growth. They have been keeping an close eye on me due to the past history and tell me they will do an ultrasound every 4 weeks to make sure things continue to go well, at 36 weeks they will start weekly non-stress test. I spent the other week in the hospital due to a spider bite, My hand got extremly red and swollen so the doctor put me in the hospital to start IV antibotics, all is fine now but I am slighty worried if all that medication had some effect on her...