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daysha
	Age: 27 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: I used to love him Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: Clerical
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I'm happy, I'm nervous, I'm in a relationship, but I wanted to be married before the baby gets here. I want a boy. I would name him after his father. If its a girl it'll take until she pops up for me to think of a name. I don't know about any one else but I'm feeling bottled up right now. I have a bunch of family and friends but I still feel alone right now. Just me and my baby, the father is around but I just don't feel connected to him anymore. I am waiting for my u/s on the 18th of june and I can't wait for that. I really need piece of mind to be sure everything is ok. I keep telling myself if I can make it until September everything will be ok. I haven't had any kind of discharge but I look at every wipe just to see if I'm spotting or anything. Mostly I've heard that up to 12 weeks a m/c is possible even though I've heard of women having them after, I think I'll have peice of mind after my 12 weeks are behind me. I want to know that everything is fine and forming properly. My first prenatal visit didn't tell me anything at all just that my tubes feel normal not like if I had a tubular pregnancy so that made me feel a little better but still I pray every night for my baby.

June 13, 2007I just broke up with my boyfriend/ baby father, I don't know how I feel about it. I'm tired of him just walking away from me. He is really childish and I don't feel like he is there for me. Honestly I'm scared, but even though I'm pregnant, I don't feel as though he wanted to be with me. His actions were empty. I think me getting pregnant made him want to be with me. I don't want that. I wont stop him if he wants to be in my child life but he doesn't have to be in mine. At least thats the story I keep telling myself.June 18, 2007He and I are back together, seems like things are getting better. He missed the u/s today and called to ask me a bunch of questions, I told him he missed the babies heart beat. I know its kind of cold but he needs to get his priorities in line when it comes to this pregnancy. Hey everyone, had my u/s today, the radiologist didn't say anything that gave me any indication that any thing was out of the norm but this is my first child, how am I suppose to know what looks normal, I'm 7 weeks 4 days and although I saw the heart beating and I saw the baby, I wasn't able to hear the heart beat and that worried me, she said that the volume must be down but I heard my heart beat just fine. I'm thinking that maybe since the baby is so small that was the reason why I didn't hear it. She sent me on my way with my baby pics and said my doctor will have her reports in a few days. I thought that this visit would give me some kind of reassurance but I'm still worried. Ladies any inputJune 28, 2007Well I made it to nine weeks and everything seems fine. My dude thinks he is ready to be where and what he needs to be. What ever, although its great to think it's better to know. I know I can hold my child and myself down. It's not in my blue print to hold down a grown man. I feel a little wierd but blesses because the only symptoms I'm having is the sore breast. I really don't "feel" pregant other than the gut that keeping me from wearing my beautiful bikini. Darn Special K comercial. She wore a itsy bity tiny weenie yellow polkadot bikini, well not this summer. Lol. Any way ladies , dang thats a long word but we all made it another day. My next doc appt in on the sixth of July so I probably wont write until then but who knows my life is quite the soap. Oh yeah my 12 weeks are up 1 day before my baby daddys' birthday isn't that something. The baby is due 1 day before our 1 year anniversary. Whoo hoo double presents yeah baby. Who's the Momma!July 7, 2007

Went to my second prenatal visit yesterday. It went very well. I am 10 weeks 3 days and I heard my angel's heartbeat. Doc says everything is as it should be and I am fine. That is such a relief. 4th of july I had brown when I wiped and I just fell out. The doctor said there were no red blood cells in my urine and that it was old blood that hadn't falling down yet from my previous period. I still don't feel pregnant but hey I am so here I am. My baby daddy is cool now a days. he has finally giving in to me. Women rock. I am proof that a woman with half a man, no insurance, no substance, no real business about myself b/c I just moved here a few months proir. can still make it, with all my obstacles, I still am alright. Now I have a job, a home to move into of my own next month, insurance, and well I wont say a whole man cause we all know how men are, but, hect I'm ok though. God bless.

July 19, 2007

Dang ladies, time is moving now huh, 12 weeks at the door knocking, thats what's up, congrats to us all for making it thus far and expensive toast glasses to us! lol. I've been feeling fine, no more sickness. Lost of appetite mostly I have to make myself eat for the baby. I have gained about 4 pounds my doc says. I feel fat, my belly looks stuffed, not like the baby roundness. I probably wouldn't mind if folks could tell I was pregnant to just fat. Hard transition for me going from club type sexy gear to baggy big shirts. I've heard I have the "glow" but I can't see it. My hair doesn't act right now. I've just been wearing wigs, which isn't a problem since I make them myself, but my hair feels dry and brittle no matter what I do to it. My hair has always been of good grade so I know its the baby. As long as it goes back to my grade after the baby thats cool. My boyfriend got a good job yall, about time he man up. He has really turned around I'm proud of him. He doesn't run the streets anymore or hang out late. He is really growing up mentally. He is still a man though and we all know how the revert back sometimes so keep your fingers crossed for a sister! Other than that, everything is still greasy in the kitchen. Is it me or is pregnant sex great. Wow I've never climaxed so quick before, maybe its just me. Well keep the comments coming, I love the mommy interaction. I feel connected like I'm not going through this alone. I love how we can help each other with similar things we are going through.

August 13, 2007

Well ladies that man showed his @#$ and left. He said he didn't know how to love me and that we argued too much. He actually said that I did my thing physically but metally I wasn't there for him. Our whole relationship he told me how he didn't feel like I was his type, he said I was out of his league. I was though but I was willing to work with him. The real reason was he got this new job and started to feel himself and felt he could do better, good luck to him. You can't really expect to much from a ghetto dude that has no class so i guess that was my fault. I just thought he had potential to be more than he was used to. He left behind the only thing that matters to me, my child that I'm carrying. Will he come back, who knows, will I take him back, @#%& NO, I would never.

I read some of you ladies pages and you all are truely blessed. You admire the families and the new brides and one day I'll have that too I think. I've been struggling with my emotions a lot lately. Really I've been depressed. I grew up in a two parent home and thats the only way I know. My sister is doing it on here own but she is quite the bum. I feel betrayed but no as hurt as I did. I think its because I didn't really want him in my life I just want a family for my child. Well about my baby, I missed my doc appointment on Friday so I had to reschedule for the 22. I went to hospital to make sure everything was ok since I'm not eating due the fact that I wasn't really feeling up to it. They said the baby was fine but I was a little dehydrated. Told me to force feed myself. I have been. Told me that the baby is now starting to move above my pelvic so they said I can find out my babys' sex around my 25 week. They seem to frown on doing a vaginal ultrasound if it isn't needed. So I guess I'll wait a little longer. Other than that I'm 15 or 16 weeks now. Not that I care to even keep track anymore, but I'm still feeling good about this baby. Not that I'll name my baby Miricle but I feel that the baby is going to be fine. Maybe I'll find my strength through my child, anyway pray for me. God Bless.

August 20, 200711:42 pm Think I just felt the baby move, cant wait to tell everyone. It lasted about 5 to ten minutes, on my lower right side. If the babies no bigger than a grapefruit, does it move all around my stomach or is it just under my navel? Might have been gas or something but it sure did make me giggle with excitment.August 30, 2007Well I'm feeling a little better. Baby checked out ok. It was gas not the baby moving by the way. I have my ultrasound on the 13th so I'll keep you all posted. Baby daddy not due to make an appearance until my due date or later. Good for me! I have decided if its a girl I'll name her Ariel and a boy Chris. I want a normal name so that I can buy personalized things, like pencils and ballons. My name was never on anything unless it was made. Does any one else feel weary about the names you choose for your baby. I mean it will be with them through out thier lives. You don't want to name them anything that may get them picked on or any thing like that. I feel pressure with the naming, boy I know I'm going to drive mself mad this pregnancy. Anyways until next time.September

My ultrasound went fine, my sister went with me. I'm having a boy. The doc gave me 16 pic of my lil one. My child turned to the screen and was talking to me. I was so excited. This lil one that grows inside of me made from me. I love my baby. He is long, wth a tank head but I can tell he got that from his daddy. The doc says I have fibroids in my uterus. She said they are pea size so its nothing to worry about it. She explained it to be as little growths. When I got hom I looked it up on the net. They are tumors. Apparantly if they grow to a size the will harm the baby they will have to operate. That scared the crap out of me but they said they will watch me. They said its not abnormal in pregnancies. Well I can't remember whhat else happened in September.October 18, 2007This is a quick update since a lot of my words got deleted. I just really didn't feel like doing it all over again, plus I can't remember all that.Now I'm 6 months pregnant I think I'm 25weeks, I dont really keep track any more. I'm having a boy, Christopher. His father decided we argue too much and left and I haven't heard from him since. I was torn up. That was two months ago. Now I'm good. I rarely even think about him. My son will be good regardless. My son isn't that active which scares me from time to time, maybe he is like his father, cute but lazy, I have a doc appt today, I kinda be sleeping right through those, today I have my sugar test, they say it taste like kool-aid. I'm 27 now, just had a birthday. I've gained 7 lbs my last weigh in, my whole pregnancy. That scared me a bit too but I read that t depends on ur wieght and what space the baby needs, some ppl dont gain any weight, but hey it'll be easy to work off 7 to 10 lbs when its all done so I'm not trippin.October 28, 2008

So I can see my lil man kicking now, my whole tummy pops like when I have the hiccups, when I lay my hand over my tummy I can feel him moving around. Its really my own little man in there, just as lazy as his daddy but I love him all the same. Work is getting more and more irratating to go,I don't even want to go any more. My tummy is getting hard at the top at the bottom its still soft. I'm showing a lot more now. It seems like I'm growing every day. I've started to distant myself from everyone lately. I'm feeling like I just want to be left alone. Just me and my baby. I guess its the hormones. I take my sugar test on the 8th. I'm 26 weeks now. To be almost in my third trimester that week thing doesnt make me feel any closer to my due date. I dont know about yall but I'm ready to have my lil one. My doc appt take about a hour to see the doc the like 10 min once I'm in there. I thought it would be more, but being that I don't have any discharge or pain she just checks his heart beat and the I'm on my way again. Oh every visit i have to urine in the cup but thats nothing. I guess I would be happy if one of these visits she would look inside to see if everything was looking well but i uess that not needed. I'm gonna fake something so that I can get another ultrasound. I want to see what Chris looks like now. I know I'm going to me a good mother to my child. I hope that his father get his head out of his butt before he gets here. How I feel about him now I may just have him kicked out the hospital as soon as he sign the birth certificate. Its what ever, I don't want him in my life but i wont stop him from being a father to his son, but supervised of course. I dont trust him or his family anymore. They have proven to be quite shady in the last few months. Well I hope all of you are fine. I'm out.

Tuesday, 30 Oct

Christopher
Greek, Latin: One who carries Christ; A beloved story tells of this name given to a saint that carried the Christ child across a river and is now known as the patron saint of travelers. Others believe Christopher means to carry Christ in one's heart.

Sunday, 11 Nov

Well lately I've been stressed out b/c of my living situation and I don't think Chris appreciates that, he's been kicking so hard. I went to make sure I wasn't having preterm labor, they said my cervix is closed and i wasnt having contractions, really I just wanted to get out of going to work really. I'm really ready to have my baby. For more reasons then to get my body back. I just dont have time to be pregnant, I got time for my baby but all the doc appts and wobbling and all the aches man whatever I'm good, but I want to see my lil angel more than ever now. What of me will he have, my eyes, my nose, my bowlegs, I can't wait. Well I'm 28 weeks now, congrats to every one.
Sunday, 18 NovAnother day for me and Chris. Everything is fine. I'm getting bigger. I got a new job. I'm going to be do the Winnie the Pooh theme. As if that hasn't been done for ages but whatever. The nursery is already done. Poohs painted on the walls. I got a big behind Pooh plush rug centering the crib. Next week I go get his Pooh car seat and stroller set. Then his Pooh crib bedding. I wanted to do Snoopy but I couldn't find enough Snoopy stuff to fill the nursery.
Mentally, I'm drained, I'm caring this load every day, my hormones are still raging. My belly is hardening and it seems to me every day I look bigger. I really can't wait to see son. At first I really wanted him to look like me. Now I sort of don't mind if he looks like his dad. I'm not upset with him anymore for being who he really was. Basically, ladies, shit happens, but the world keeps moving around us anyway. I don't want that bitterness eating away at my core, or even making me become the type of mother who loves their child but has that attitude b/c of the father. I love my son already and at one time I loved his father as well.
On that note, I'm 29 weeks and still healthy, my son is healthy, and I pray that he doesn't have sickle cell b/c I have the trait. I'm not sure if his father has the trait. I'm hopeful that all will fall where it will in a blessed way. If by posting my feelings helps anyone out there, I'm happy b/c your not going through it alone, we all cry, we all scream, we all get tired of the every day bull, but we aren't the only one feeling the things that we feel. Its universal. One day at a time baby!
December 9, 2008Ok ladies, I'm 32 weeks, 8 months and 52 more days to go, as you can see my son looks about ready. I am ready for this boy to come out my self. Still no word from his father which is ok. I'm been feeling acid in my thought after I eat. That ready is uncomfortable. I have my doc appt in the morning. I feel like my son is still too small myself. Although some times I feel like but stomach is going to split open or something. I've been working long hours trying to get ready for Chris to arrive. My back aches a lot now a days and no I haven't been taking my prenatals or excerising b/c I be so drained after work I haven't went to pick up a new bottle. I have our bags packed and I'm going to make sure I know the quickest route to the hospital by the end of this week. Time sure did fly though. I wish i wasn't doing this on my own but hey we all got our own issues in life so oh well. Well ladies i'm going to bed, be well and keep me posted.
Jan. 4, 2008I'm 36 weeks and awaiting the arrival of my son.

Jan. 19, 2008So its know 11 days until my due date. How Am I Feeling? Drained, tired, sleepy, achey a lil but not much. My feet stay swollen, my legs look prostetic, my hand swollen look like a blown up glove. My neck is black. My cheecks are swollen. My toes look like hot dogs. Now, HOW YOU DOIN?No word from my baby daddy, nut I met some one something like wonderful a few months ago. Didn't say any thing cause you know how you think you meet some one and then he turns out to be just another faker. He's cool though. I don't epect much from him but he stay surprising me. He says stuff like he wants to be there for me and Chris. I told him don't worry about my son he already has a father. I don't trust any one too too intrested in my son already. He seems harmless but you never know. Well ladies hit me up with ur updates.

Friday, 1 Feb

Wed. I went in or high blood pressure and the induced me with 3 little pills. Then they put a lil ballon in me to get me to dialate after that they gave me something to make the contractions come. They were every 2 minutes so they broke my water. My contractions feel like gas bubbles like I had to potty, then I got a big bubble an called the nurse b/c I didn `t want to feel that again and before the pain started I wanted to be prepared. The nurse came in and asked if I wanted an epidural which was my only pain relieving option since I was on magnesium for pre-eclamsia I know I `m spelling that wrong. I felt another gust of pressure and she said let me check you. He was coming head first. Doctors ran in a caught him just as he wiggled out. Quicker than an orgasm I tell you and no pain at all really. Feb. 9, 2008

Chris is my light. He sleeps all day almost all night. He latches to on breast the other one he doesn't. I've been just giving him breast milk in a bottle. His dad doesn;t even know he is here. I don't feel like I need to go looking for him. Child support can do that. In all I'm happy. My tummy looks like a shriveled up balloon. My back still hurts too. My swelling is going down my body is starting to look normal again. Valentines day isn't looking so good now since my dude just got locked up for I don't know what. We weren't that serious anyway though. So thats what ever. Let see what is left. As a mommy you want to do so much, you want to make sure your kid has every thing but lets pace our selves. Some of us try to do too much and end up looking dumb in the long run. Everything doesn't have to be done right right now. Be blessed, congrats to all the new mommies and to the upcoming deliveries get your sleep now you journey is really about to kick off!

feb. 16, 2008Chris is 17 days old today, two weeks 3 days. My boy getting big. He is eating about 3 to 4 oz every 3 to 4 hours. Sleeps about 4 to 5 hours at a time. I'm so drained. I've lost 24 pounds.As you can see he looks like his dad.Still no word from him.Feels odd since he put up such a fight just to have he right to see him.The nice dude I met got locked up.Guess he wasn't so nice, but he was a dyme to me.I miss him. Not that I'm attracted to all the wrog types but it is what it is. Well Congrats to all the new moms.

2-29-08Put ya boy on child support today. I didnt want to be that chick but he made his choice.

3-19-08

6 weeks oldWell we are ok, Tanka had his 2 month shots so I can return back to work. He took the shots like a champ, I had to position my body so I couldn't see the poke my baby

he had a fever for a few days afterwards but he slept thru most of it he was fussy a bit though

thats my Tanka. I love my son too much and yes he is already holding his neck up and scooting. The doctor didn't belive me but he showed her. Oh yeah 6 weeks after delivery this is how I look, I have lost 55 lbs.

April 15, 2008

Yeah so his daddy

finally got in touch with me, had to nerve to act concerned and said he wanted to know the welfare of his son, ha ha ha I told him he was a whole lot late and not to play himself b/c I take very good care of MY son. Then he tried to get in my biz and I told him if it doesn/t have anything to do with my son dont ask me about it. Trying to find out if I'm with some one. Said he had his own biz now, yeah right, when he asked if Chris needed anything I told him and a day later he said he didn't have any money and told me about a sale on diapers at Walgreens I just laughed at him. He also said he was going to come and see his son for the first time on Sat.

NO SHOWHe emailed me a hour later saying he didn't have any gas to make it. When I say I'm good ladies, I'm good. I work 5 days a week getting paid 11.50 a hour. My son is good and he can't miss what he don't know. I didn't even bother to reply to his lil email. If my son was old enough to know what was going on I would have told him I'm his mother, I protect his entire being that includes his feelings. Good luck to you all hope ya men stay in line for you or at last thier seeds. Here are some updated pics of me. Chris is 2 months now.

April 19, 2008Ok ladies I have a confict that needs a resoulution so give me your feed back.After telling my sons dad that he needs to step up to the job of being a father like helping with his up keep and what not like daycare and food and just everything ya know, so his reply to that was that he works nights so he will watch him during the day so daycare isnt needed. I told him that is not an option for a few different reasons. He has never seen my son face to face, he doesn't know his charateristics, all babies arent the same. I don't know where he lives, what he does, who lives with him, who has access to his home, if he got problems with anyone, for safety issuses. Just a number of things that I'm not comfortable with. My son don't know this man and last I checked he didn't even have patience for me how he gonna have it for his son. Plus the only way we converse is through email I dont know anything about this man we been apart for almost a year and hadnt spoken a word. I also don't want him over there passing my son off to anyone b/c he needs a break, I don't get a break. Its just so much to consider but regardless my answer is no.4/23/08Chris dad got married 4-16-08 to a woman with two kids aint he aint even taking care of his son, said he sign the paternity papers and then said his wife wants to speak to me, unless she cutting the check I dont have no words for her4/26/08So Chris dad came by today and we sat and had a discussion about the welfare of my son. He signed the paternity affadivid acknowledging he is his father and will pay child support. He asked how could he get unsupervised, I told him he couldnt. Well not at this time. When he starts talking and can tell me if someone did something I'll rethink it. The wife seems cool.

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