Hello ladies, i'm 19 and on my 2nd baby.... This is something I'm still trying to come to terms with.... But every time I think of a woman who can't concieve it brings me to a very grateful state of mind. However I don't know whether to be scared, happy, confused or just feel like a fallen piece of shit on society"for lack of better words". My home life is crazy I don't have a mom nor dad... I'm completely by myself. I got my g.e.d... and I'm in college for MA... I have 3 semesters left... Hopefully I will succeed. I do not have a man in my life for my choices, but I will admit I'm completely dumbfounded when it comes to men and relationships. So I decieded to worry about me and my kids, and leave what I can't understand alone, until such a time I can understand, without putting myself in a bad spot such as an abusive relationship..Because I have to remember it's all about my kids. Sometimes I admit I'm not ready and the thought of having mouths to feed and minds to nourish before my brain was able to grow is very hard, and scary. I do believe that the Lord doesn't give us anything we cannot handle..so here I am "Destined to be a Mommy"..., and that's ok. My daughter she will be 4 very soon, as I will be 20 be4 her b-day. So my kids will have 4 yrs and 4 months apart, not completely bad. My daughter's father was a complete ass.... and he abused me, and put me down.... So I left him about 2 yrs ago, he cried, but it seems like he has tooken well to the fast life and well to not paying for the child he made. I have a lot of hate for him, I feel I was promised the world and got nothing in return. He was 18 and I was 15... I was the one making burgers at mc donalds to put clothes on my baby's back while he continued to do him.... I never loved him.. I felt stuck I have no family and I was lonely and scared..and boy am I glad me and him are over. My second baby father... he was crazy..he was worse than my first he did worse things to me.... he decieded on a whim he wanted to make a baby with me... it was against my will... but he made me feel very nervous and forced. He is crazy and does not know I'm pregnant so I'm doing this by myself.. I'm scared for my life so that's why I haven't told him. He defualted on the protection and here I' am... I cried but figured how could I get prego... Ladies get this... I had no period for the month of august and I get pregnant September 17th anyone have that happen to them? Drs say it was meant to be that no period simply means no ovulation...I'm in my 4th month and begining to come to terms with the pregnancy thing again... I've been sick this pregnancy but not to bad.... I fainted once..Recently I had my u/s and I 'm having a boy..I'm so excited I always wanted a son.. I seen his you know what first thing lol.. either my daughter to be has a large vagina or its a boy lol....the tech confirmed its a boy.. My angel's heartbeat was 146 and seeing and hearing it brought tears to my eyes. My lil guy even waved at me it seemed as he lifted up his hand to the monitor... Drs... say the baby is measuring up to 17 and half wks... has anyone had this happen to them? But I know I can't be further along because I had an u/s at just 5 alomost 6 weeks back after I first found out I was prego and the yolk sac and heartbeat was there.... so There is no way...I 'm going to take that up with the dr tho....because I got my u/s at october 27 and sure enough I was barely that many weeks... IDK But the daddy is tall and football player build the dr..said that can make a difference... I lost 3 pounds I try to eat but can't sometimes... My baby however is def..fine and I feel good about that... I will eat now being I feel better ... Has any1 else had weight loss in pregnancy