2/7/08...~TOP LEFT HAND PIC IS MY LIL LANDON TILLMAN 30WEEKS OLD!!!...TAKE A LOOK AT MY LIL MAN'S CHEEKERS!!!...HE IS ABOUT 3 1/2 POUNDS & WITH THE RATE HE IS GROWNING HE COULD BE ABOUT A 10 POUNDER IF I CARRY TO FULL TERM!!!...SO I COULD BE HAVING HIM IN ABOUT 7 WEEKS!!!...I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE THE MOST CUTEST LIL MAN IN THE WORLD~MAMA LOVES YOU SOOOO MUCH ALREADY LANDON~XO~

11/19/07...HERE HE IS!!!...18 WEEKS & GROWING :)...WE SAW OUR LIL MAN TODAY...HIS FINGERS...HIS TOES...HIS BOOTY...HIS FACE...HIS LEGS...& HIS LIL MAN PART!!!...HIS SIS,HIS DADDY, & ME, HIS MAMA ARE SO HAPPY & EXCITED FOR THE ARRIVAL OF OUR LIL MAN...NOW LETS DECIDE ON A NAME & AGREE ON IT HAHA!!!

Well after 4 miscarriages, here I am...carrying my lil miracle child... lab after lab, we found a problem with my blood and a little thing like a baby asprin a day is helping my baby grow so I can give Marcus his first child, my daughter a lil brother/sister that she has been waiting forever for and me one more chance to bring a beautiful child into this world...went for an ultrasound early in the pregnancy at 5weeks and saw my lil' bean bouncing all around like he/she was jammin to some music...then just a few weeks ago heard my lil one's heartbeat...so amazing!!!...I feel so blessed...

	11/1/07...well had my 15week checkup today...everything looks great!!!...gained only a pound, and heard the heartbeat again :)...the heart was beating at 136, so the doctor said her verdict is a boy!!!...i have been having girl dreams...we will see for real in a few weeks when i have my ultrasound...also did blood work to check for down syndrome... we will have to do some shopping as soon as we find out if we are having a lil man or lil mama :)!!! 11/07/07...for the last few days my lil miracle has been bouncing & kicking...feel it from the inside not quite yet from the outside...first day was at mc d's, dont know if he/she was excited about the quarter pounder with cheese i was about to gobble up or if they wanted mama to put it down and grab a salad!!! haha...headaches have gone away along with the heartburn...havent had really any cravings or not super hungry all the time its actually just normal eating for me...got a pooch which is beautiful and need to go do some clothes shopping!!!...got the results of the down syndrome test and the baby is fine...still go looking at baby stuff but havent bought any yet, wow am i good or what??? :) 11/19/07...well i got me my lil man :)...it was great and very emotional...all the tests came back normal and fine!!!being high risk they checked everything out...i will go back in the 3rd trimester for another ultrasound to check everything out again!!!...feeling great, heartburn is less, headaches are less, not going crazy with food just eating normal, still tired when i get off from work n ready for bed real early...baby is a mover and a shaker...feeling it all, and while at the grocery store over the weekend i felt him kick from the outside!!!amazing...have my next doc app the last day of this month...so i will write more then... 11/29/07...well just got back from our check up...and they moved my lil man up again...they are saying now i am between 20-21 weeks!!!...i got me a big boy on my hands, they say my uterus is right below my tatas...he is always moving & kicking i can feel him even from the outside!!!...so amazing, his sis & daddy has felt it too...when the nurse was trying to find his heartbeat i had to tell her where he was :) cause he kept moving from her, then when she found him he kicked at her :)...stubborn lil man already...well i have been throwing around the name ~Peyton Tillman~...i love it when i see it written down, just flows, tillman is his grandpa's first name...its not a def yet but i am hoping daddy likes it cuz i am loving it...been very tired, i think it's mostly work that is making me tired and being prego too i am sure adds to it...but besides that i feel tired...also feeling numb n tingling in my right arm thru the nite n in the morn, really bothers me so my doc is refering me to a physical therapist so lets see if that helps...but me & peyton are outta here! 12/27/07...well just got back from my 24 week checkup!!!!!...my lil man's heartbeat was around 138 & sounds sooooo healthy & active...very hard for the doc to count his beats cuz he was soooooo wild...i told her that he has been up the last 2 days, must be the fudge & xmas cookies haha....but everything looks good...i also only gained 1 pound!!!! that's a total of 9 pounds, so happy doc says i am right on schedule...next visit we will be doing the glucose test, blood work, and my special shot for being rh neg...crib came yesterday so i am so excited to put it up & get the room all ready...havent been able to sleep much...lil man is in charge of which way i lay...shortness of breath, dizzy spells and alot of tightness, thanks lil man mama loves u too...i just cant believe how active he is!!!...well gonna lay down since he is finally asleep & mama needs to rest too :)
	1/09/08....let me just tell ya how much my lil man is kickin & movin!!!...wow, all day :)...one nite while laying in bed all of a sudden i got this huge stomach pain...next to my belly button (that is almost poked all the way out) i saw my lil mans head poking thru...it was amazing...me & marcus was laughing so hard, its like he was wondering what we were doing!!!...then the other day while on the couch i felt his feet kickin the side of my tummy, tears were swelling up in my eyes...he is very, very active...been doing ok...dizziness is gone...have had some leg spasms (hate those so much)...heartburn is still there (gross)...just tired & still shortness of breath...got the crib up...bedding on...clothes washed & hung up...shower is in a few weeks (feb 2nd!)...its just happening so quick...but marcus & des has been soooo supportive the only thing is he hasnt ran to the store/fast food joint in the middle of the nite yet for me...but i am sure he will soon :)...well i gots to go rub my tum tum cuz lil man is a bumping, he's lettin me know he is ready for his afternoon rubdown...already got me wrapped around his finger...p.s. we also are agreeing on the name ~Landon Tillman~...how u like?...
	1/18/08...lil ~landon~ boy is he a riot already...he seems to always be up!!!....hopefully then when he gets out he will be asleep haha...all day moving, jumping, bumping, kicking, my belly at times looks sooooo weird because he just lays allll the way to one side then alllll the way to the other side...i just finally broke down and bought some clothes i know i should wait but i just couldnt!!!...i am so loving lime green and blue too cute!!!...i didnt buy newborn thou just 3months, having my girl i know newborn lasts about a few weeks so...but i got 2 jeans one in 3months and one in 6months...my lil ~landon~ is gonna be soooo adorable...i love shoppin more for boy clothes then girls...dont know why...shower is in 2weeks, lookin forward to see what im gonna get :)....kindof naughty thou cuz on babies r us .com it shows u what people have bought so far...ok i will admit i looked!!!...i cant wait :)
	1/24/08...hello 3rd trimester!!!...just came back from the docs...gained 3pounds this month so that is a grand total so far of 12pounds!!!...told doc of my braxton hicks they were kindof concern so they went in for the count, no dilation all is good...said just to keep an eye on it...shouldnt have more than five in an hr...measured ~Landon~ and again said he is bigger than the normal 28 weeker so i go for a growth ultrasound in 2 weeks to check his size n weight...heartrate was at 140, very healthy and strong...got my rogains shot in the booty 'ouch!'...did glucose testing 'should get results tomorrow, fingers crossed', and did 2 other blood tests...so all is really good :)...still having problems at nite with my lil man, breathing and cramping nothing i cant handle :)...one more week and 2 days to our shower yea!!!... 1/29/08...just got my glucose test back & im alllllllll good...being so nervous over nothing!!!...my iron is a lil low, i was like that with my daughter...doc said to just start eating more foods with iron...but all the other tests were good...this pregnancy is a miracle to me...i never thought i would make it this far...& without any problems & issues besides the normal affects of pregancy which i would gladly take on & on & on...just to have my healthy lil man ~Landon~...its worth all that im going thru, even this damn heartburn haha...well ~Landon~ was craving homemade cookies today & like the good mom i am i hooked me i mean him up :)...so im gonna go try one...4 more days til the shower!!! 2/5/08...what a weekend...had my shower on saturday....wow over 45 people showed up and blessed us with sooo many gifts...i practicly got everything on my registry...took 2 car loads to take home and a few hours to go thru and put stuff away...Landon is going to be sooo happy with all he got...i am so blessed to have people in my life who mean so much to me...on a down side...i was involved in a bad car accident sunday right before the game...while returning a few things from my shower my car brakes locked up on me and hit a car in front of me from behind...it was scary, my stomach hit the steering wheel twice before my car came to a stop...had to be taken away by ambulance to the hospital...still in shock and could hardly remember a thing about the accident...they ran some tests and did an ultrasound and Landon was moving all around and the placenta was attached...they sent me up to the ob unit for more tests to be on the safe side...the moniter showed i was contracting...i was having contractions 4 min apart...the nurse was so concerned they ran an ivy to stop them...they went from 4 min apart to about 7min apart but they needed them to stop completely so this time they gave me a shot and after a couple of hrs the contractions were completely stopped...i had to stay overnite so they could still moniter me to be safe...after a long painful no sleep nite i was able to go home in the morning after breakfast...today i am going for a stress test to make sure everything is still ok and Landon is safe...that was the hardest weekend for me, something i will never forget...but also just reminds me to always be happy and blessed for what you have...and let the ones in your life know how much you love and care for them...cuz you never know what tommorrow may bring...god was watching over my son and i that day...i am so blessed
	2/14/08...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!...just got back from the docs...and I LOST 2 POUNDS???...whats up with that...ive been eating just not going crazy with my eating...oh well ~Landon~ is still growing and everything looks good so they are not concerned at all...so now i have gained of total of 10pounds and i just started my 8th month...go for another ultrasound in 3-4 weeks to check his growth again...its gettin down to the wire!!!...im gettn sooooo excited...my baby kept me up last nite late...he just is moving soooooo much!!!...mama loves ya landon xo... 03/03/08...well had my doc app over the weekend...& now i only gained 1/2 a pound !!!...what is going on...my lil man is big & mama is not???...all tummy the docs say, as long as he is growing & is healthy they are not concerned...go for my last ultrasound this thursday...had a real bad weekend & my day right now is not so good...shortness of breath really bad...feel sortof like im gonna pass out at times...yesterday i was in bed all day cuz i was having bh & i was in the worst pain...dont remember this with my daughter but landon is givin his mama a run for her money!!! its all good & worth it...just hurry up boy please...:) 03/06/08...well just got back from the growth ultasound with bad news...i have to have a "C"...i was dreading this...i have something called placenta previa where my placenta is very low...i so wanted to have him natural like i did destinee...im sooooo scared and nervous...doc wants me off my feet, no heavy lifting ect ect...hello, im a mama , a wife, and hold down a fulltime nanny position...what the heck am i gonna do???...i just got soooo much on my mind and sooooo worried about my lil man...he looks so good thou, over 5 1/2 pounds, head full of hair, belly full of food "he is a lil fatty man"...i know i need to do what is right for landon, mama is just so scared thou...so i go back in 3more weeks for another growth ultrasound to see if my uterus lifts at all, after that we will schedule a c section date...it will happen on mommy n daddys 9yr anniversary or daddys 36th bday!!!...i have to watch for bleeding first sign i have to go in...n daddy needs to stay off mommy that is a big no no right now so we will see how crabby he will be in the next weeks ahead :)...mama loves you landon xo
	03/24/08...well had my doc app over the weekend...did the non stress test & landon was soooo very active...not dialated but my cervix is very soft...im so confused thou...my high risk doc who performs my ultra sounds says im 36 weeks with a due date of 4/16...but my doc who is going by my last mentrual is saying im still 35 weeks with a due date of 4/22...so what date do i go by??? so confusing...i go back for another ultrasound this thurs so we will see then if we can set up an c section date...i just want to know so i can plan everything i need to get done...these last couple of weeks are going by soooo slow!!!...i also gained a 1/2 pound so that is a total of 14pounds so far!!!...not bad not bad...im just gettin soooo anxious and in pain everyday...but i dont want to push anything i want whats best for mamas lil man~