7/13/08 30w3d Yeayyy we're almost there. SO lemme update u ladies since i havent done that in a while. Amiya is just fine and so am i. I had a U/S appt on Tuesday and Amiya weighed in at 2lbs 13oz. She was only measuring a week behind instead of the 2weeks she was a month ago. i was so happy. A month ago she was in the 20th percentile and now she's in the 30th percentile...so she's coming along. I feel like my verry grows eveyday..everyytime i wake up i feel larger..lolz i love it. At the U/S appt they but 2straps on my stomach: 1 to moniter if i was having n e contractions and the other one was 2 listen 2 her heartbeat for 20mins. She kicked the straps off like 3 times...lol i was so proud. The past 2 days she seems 2kick less, im just assuming thats because shes running out of space in there. I wanna get a 3d U/S so ima talk 2my doctot about it at my appt on thursday 6/4/08 24w6d So yesterday i had a U/S appt that did go so well. I got to see my little mamaz n i posted the pics 4u ladies 2c. but the doctors are concerned. I have to go back in 2 weeks for another one. Im 24w5d(well yesterday i was) and Amiya was measuring at 23w1d....so her growth kinda stopped...so idk. Her heartbeat was so strong tho, The docs r like i shouldnt worry but how can i not. I just need 2kno my baby is ok. Adrian keeps telling me not to worry neither that our baby girl was destine for this world and i truely believe that. He says he feels shes going 2b ok...so im leaning on my Lord and He hasn't let me down yet. Please keep my little mamas in ur prayers 5/15/08 22weeks Things are finally looking up. Ive decided not to worry about no1 or n e thing. Miss Amiya is my main concern now a days. A week from 2day we go in for our glucose test, im a little nervous because i know diabetes runs in my family. But im putting this all in the Lord's hands. Yesterday me and the father of my child had a long nice talk. And he hit me up this morning so im hoping things r gunna change. On tuesday i went in to c my doctor b/c i hadnt felt Miya move in 2 days and i was scared but she was in there heart beating away. I made a U/S appt for June 3rd ill b 25weeks by then. This morning me and Adrian started discussing who we were going to make godparens. The 2 women he chose at the beginning of the pregnancy i had my it set that they were going to have no part in my child's life. But i have since then grew up and let him pick them but i told him they got the rest of the pregnancy to prove themselves or they will EASILY be replaced. I can't believe i only have 18 more week left to go. I have a little hump and my tummy has become so round but nothing drastic. Looking at others at 22weeks depresses me kuz i dont look like that, but thats ok...lol The doctor told me i gained 7lb since ive been pregnant. I gained 6lbs in 2 weeks. I was sooooo happy b/c i was having a hard time gainin w8, but im doing it. Ill keep you guess updated mommies, rub those bellies. 4/29/09 19w2d So my stomach has been jumping for the past couple of days and i didnt kno what that was, now its come to my attention that those jumps r Amiya's kicks. I usually feel them at night with these dreadful heartburns. Im so excited. Like this is really happening. This is really real. My feet n fingers are so swollen..8-(...n i only gained a pound. Aint that some stuff. But as long as those jumps continue im fine. Yeay Miya. *Im all done with school and officially a senior (c/o 09) oh yea* 4/24/08 18weeks I have had the best pregnancy by far(as far as feeling good) Little Miss Amiya is tha best. I have a doctors appt today, i cant w8 2 hear mah mamaz heart beating. I think 2day i might cry after everything ive been going thru. I was with her dad yesterday he always makes me 4get all the drama and just babies me. I love it. N i love it when he rubs my tummy n talks n sings 2his daughter...its makes this worth all the hating im getting from my family. My tummy seems 2have put a halt on growing bcuz it doesnt look like its getting n e bigger. I guess i shud enjoy that for now huh. Well ill keep you guys posted. Stay blessed and well rested mommies 4/4/08 16weeks Well im finally offically 16 weeks 2day and im so down. Im sick with a sinus cold and i miss my Adrian. I just want him 2 baby me and make me feel better but i refuse 2kall him bcuz i feel he should be calling me 2c how im doing. I mean i am carrying his child. Bu thats whatever. Amiya is the best little girl i could have ever been blessed 2 bring into this world. She just minds her business in there. No kinds of sickness or n e thing. She moves around alot now and i'm loving it. I have a pre natal appt in 2 weeks and another u/s appt. I cant wait to go see my little angel again. 3/31/08 15w3d So i had to delete some of my entries because it was getting to long. But dont worry i have them all saved to give to my baby GIRL. Heartbeat 155mph..You go Amiya YES she's a girl. She would NOT move. She stayed upside and backwards the whole time we were at the doctors. As soon as we left the doctors she decided to move. Her father says she's already stubborn like me. It was so amazing tho. I thought i was going to cry when i 1st saw her but i was so steady on tryna c what was going on..LOL. I have to go back in 3 weeks b.c for some reason the doctors thot i was 18 weeks and were hoping to see a bit more, but since im only 15 weeks they werent able to see everything. So i get to go back in 3weeks and see mah little mamaz agen..YEAY Im so happy Its been little Amiya ive grown so in love with these past 4months. 2/26/08 Day 38 Hello sweety. How are you? Mommy feels fine. Just alittle emotionally  but that's expected. I miss ur daddy terribly. Him and I 1st started talking in 2002 and i feel in love with him right away. We started dating 2yrs later. 2004. 4yrs later and he still holds mt heart. At times I feel this is just a small road block in our love that we'll get around it and get back 2being us and at other times I think its reallyy over. Thinking that kills my spirit and breaks my heart so I try not to think about that. When we 1st got 2getha my greatest fear was losing him bcuz baby, mommy and daddy went thru sum heartache and haters. A whole bunch of females after him and me wondering why he chose 2b with me. Insecurity was something serious until I realized he was really in love with me. But I that ima end it here kuz tears a rolling  my face and I told myself ill no longer cry over ur daddy. 2day was a good day as far as how my body feels. I woke  only once 2pee at 6am and that was a 1st and kinda strange 2me. I never hold my pee all night. When I woke  @ 6 my stomach was realy hurting bcuz of イサモ pee I was holding in. Mommy promises she'll try 2neva let that happen agen. 3days my angel. I'm so excited but scared @ イサモ same time. What if they kant find ya heart beat? All イサモ what if ?'z are now going thru my head terrifying me. But I trust in an awesome God, so all my trust is in Him. I love you my little peanut. .,¡i|¹i¡¡i¹|i¡,. `'¹li¡|¡|¡il¹'

2/25/08 Day 37

Its been about a week my love..mommi is terribly sorry. We're 11 weeks and a day 2day...go us..Ｌ(ッ)Ｌ™ . イサモ 29th is this friday and Lord knows I can't wait. イサモ cramps have stopped but now its back pains. Lower back pains at that. Gettin in and out of bed is a hassle, but I can onli imagine what it'll b like when we get bigger. Cousin Chioma didn't know about ひ but she told me I'm gettin fat and put it 2getha that I'm pregnant. Ty Ty won't even come 2me, so she thinks ur a girl. I've been hearing that a lot so may b you will be Miss Amiya J'ana. I've tried refraining from talkng 2ur father bcuz we always piss each other off so we speak only when neccessary. I'm not gunna lie I do miss イサモ hell outta him and wished he was here with me but his absence isn't gunna make me love ひ n e less. Because mommi is already so much in love with u. Yesterday in church it finally hit me that ima b sum1'z mother. I teared . I love you my little love bug. 1 day I hope ur dad will realize I'm carryng our love child and that you were sent here 4a reason. Talk 2u lata my little peanut

2/19/08 Day 31

.·•☆GO◯d☆ MoRNiNG☆•·. My angel. I'm on イサモ train trooping it 2skool. I went to the bathroom less times last night, that was good. I had some cinnamon toast crunch cereal for breakfast, I kno ima b hungry by イサモ time I get to skool..LOL yesterday a friend asked if I eva sat  and thot "ima b someones mother" and I told her I didn't. Its jus not that real 2 me yet. I mean it is bkuz I kno ur inside of me living and breathing but イサモ thot of being some1z mother hasn't crossed my mind yet. I kant w8 4 イサモ 29th jus 10 more days I'm so EXCITED. Ima get 2 hear ya heart beating and hopefully ill get 2c what ひ look like. I think that's when this will become real 2 me. I keep saying I'm not going 2stress ur father but its so hard when I want him 2 b here. He says he's trying and that he's gunna come around and that things r gunna change but its all talk. All it does is sound good. He hasn't done a thing. イサモ massage he offered 2 give me he renigged on in saying I told him I didn't want it. I saved イサモ convo n never sed that but i didn't argue it. I'm not gunna force him 2 do n e thing he doesn't wanna do. I jus hope when he holds ひ in his arms and realizes he's a holding God's gift 2the world, a beautiful combination of him and I, that he'll realized its not a game nor about us. Its all about you my love. All about you. We'll I'm on my way 2 skool and on イサモ verge of tears so I think ill end it here 4 now. I love you Zion/Amiya. As of how I'm feeling this morning I feel good. But we'll see how long that last. Ill be back lata sweetness...
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2/16/08 Day 28

Hola mi amor. Mommyz getting good at this...I didn't 4get...lolz 2day was an ok day. I started off feeling sick like I had 2 throw  but I wasn't eating. I had sum cinnamon toast crunch and 2 slices of chicken pizza and was STILL starving. I ate some rice n spaghetti meat sauce n that held 4a little while then my cousins took me 2Cathay Pacific. I'm in bed now stuffed. ·•●レ◯レ●•·. I'm about 2hit tha bed but I jus had 2share my day with you. You had me  so early this morning. Plez try 2get some rest in there my sweetness. Mommy loves you. I spoke wif ur father 2day and b4 we kud piss each other off I thanked him 4checkin in n I kept it moving. Sometimes I jus wished he understood but he never will and I've accepted that. ·•☆★GD N┃∂H T★☆•·. My loveliness. Mommy loves you dearly.

2/15/08 Day 27

Hey sweety. 2day I'm not feeling 2good. I woke  wif a headache. Well I think that's kuz I was  so early. I had cereal this morning but that did nothing 4me and I didn't have a chance 2grab n e thing else so I was hungry n lite headed 4a while. Aunty Ceica got me a warm sub from subway and I felt so much better. My stomach was crampin a little but I didn't drink water 2day 2 so that mayb b a factor. On イサモ way home I was craving 4a chicken pizza. I kalled home 4my parents 2order it but of course they were broke. I'm broke 2 and I wanted 2call ya dad 4the money but I decided aganinst it. My mom ended  paying for it. We walked and got it n I barely wanted it n e more but I forced my self 2 2slices. I'm puttin music on her Mp3 now and then off 2bed. Thank God イサモ weekend is here b.c I'm exhausted. I'm hope everything is ok in there my little angel. Mommy loves you. ·•☆★G00DN┃∂H T★☆•·. Sweety.

2/13/08 Day 25

.·•☆GO◯d☆ MoRNiNG☆•·. Sunshine. Mommy is pissed right now so I figured I should come talk 2u 2kalm me . Look at that I kno I kan already depend on ひ 2make me feel better. It snowed yesterday. Driving home from work in ur grandparents car with no working windsheild wipers its was snowing and I made it home just fine. This morning ur grandmother wants 2tweek about how I'm not on her insurance blah blah blah. I've been driving for イサモ past 3yrz being on her insurance or not IN イサモ SNOW w/o having an accident but its whateva. That just pissed me off. Eitha way so far I feel fine. I woke  and had a bowl of cereal and jus bought an egg n cheese mcgriddle kuz I kno mah fat behind will be hungry soon. I've been really good wif tha not feeling sick. I mean we've bewen really good with that. Lately I've been catching イサモ "sickness" at night but that's better 4me. This morning I woke  2pee and ur dad had sent me a aim msg. It was sweet. It basically said how he's getting ready to be a dad. He stopped smoking and he's happy. He,at times, can't believe its real and when he realizes it is he's proud. That made my heart ツ when I read that. He says there will be changes happening soon and that 1day it'll all get better. We'll see about that. I'm still kinda madd...but ima just breathe. Ill be back lata sweety. I love you.

2/12/08 Day 24

Sorry for not writing sweety. This week has just been a hassle. I've been drained. But I'm ok. I've been feeling fine jus extremely tired. I stayed in bed ALL saturday. Looks like ur gunna b a African baby jus like ya mama kuz Lord knows I've been feinin 4african food. My heartburn has gotten worse. Everything I eat and drink gives me a heartburn. Ya aunty Tora says that means ur going 2have a lot of hair. That's nice n all but geez...Ｌ(ッ)Ｌ™
Ya dad n I spoke 2day. I told him how I felt 2day and he felt bad for "doing" this 2me. He says he's not sorry 4giving you 2me(that made me ツ) but he's sorry 4tha pain n tha fact thats there nothing really he kan do. He sound like he's getting excited. He loves tha names I have picled out 4u so that's great. I don't mean 2 kut イサモ letter short but my heard is pounding I need 2get 2 sleep. I love ひ more n more each day my day. Thank God 4u. Gnight mah little peanut

1/18/08 Day 1:
24hrz ago I found out I was no longer tha only 1 living inside of me. I cried bkuz Lord knows me and ur daddy aren't ready 4u. Or let alone financially stable. I don't even kno ひ but I love you already. My body is changing bkuz of ひ and イサモ pain I'm enduring is horrific but I don't mind. I want so badly 2give ひ a chance at life. I'm not too sure where ur daddy stands at this point but I know I want you. I know it'll be hard but life and love is worth tha sacrifice. I've alwayz dreamt of イサモ day me and ur daddy wud find out we're pregnant. We both wud cry but they'd b tears of joy. Instead I cried but I felt this was something he'd regret. I don't regret you my dear. Mommy loves you regardless. N if I do end  causing you 2not ever kno what イサモ world has 2offer I apologize now in advance. Mommy and daddy are not on イサモ level I'd like 4us 2b 2bring a child in2 this world. I'd alwayz imagined us living 2getha happily eva after...not 2say that kant happen, I jus don't wanna feel like I'm rushin him 2do n e thing he doesn't want 2do. Baby, I would never be able 2live with myself if deciding to abort ひ is tha wrung thing. A baby is a gift of God. Ur my special gift and I want you around. Only time will tell my sweetness. Just kno that mommyz routing 4u n I love you.

THIS IS WHAT I LOOK LIKE SO FAR

Your 1st trimester: December 14, 2007 to March 13, 2008. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: March 14, 2008 to June 26, 2008. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: June 27, 2008 to September 19, 2008. (28 - 40 weeks)

Approximate Date of Conception: December 17, 2007

First Pregnancy Symptoms: January 17, 2008

Doctors Official Blood Pregnancy Test: January 18, 2008

Due Date: September 19, 2008

First Prenatal Appointment: January 24, 2008(my birthday)

First Heard Heartbeat: February 29, 2008 [11 weeks]

First Ultrasound: March 31,2008 [15 weeks/ She's a girl]

I crave: Nothing really. My appetite ran away

How'd it happen: It was the day after his birthday....can we say what a birthday present...LOL

My pregnancy challenge: So far so good. PRAISE GOD!