I am goin to tell you a little about myself and then the rest is going to be for my updates so here we go........

First, my name is Sarita. I am 20 years old. My birthday is Nov. 22, 1987. I am married to a wonderful man named John. He is 21 years old. His birthday is May 12, 1987. I love to read, write, and crochet. My hubby loves to play video games, wrestle for a small fed here in town, and being a pain in my butt. lol. We have been TTC for almost 3 years now. I also love animals and kids. I have 2 female dogs. One is all white with some tan on her back. Her name is Cuddles and she is not quite a year old yet. The other is a chihuahua. Her name is Pasha and she is 7 weeks old. If you have any questions please feel free and ask me and I will answer. If you just need to vent to someone or talk to someone I am on and off here all day and I will be happy to talk and/or listen. I have yahoo messenger I am not on much because none of my friends are on that much but if you would like to chat there feel free to add me at sexymami078769@yahoo.com . If you would like to just send me an e-mail please e-mail me at saritaluvsdrgore@yahoo.com . If you would like to add me on myspace please feel free to do so at www.myspace.com/drgoresgirl . Please add in the request block that you are from I-am-pregnant so I know. Well lots of sticky baby dust to those of us TTC, and Congrats to all Mommies and Daddies and Mommies and Daddies to be. Thank you for stoppin by my page and updates will come soon.

Update: May 29th, 2008

Well I am really starting to get mad because everyone is like go to the doc go to the ER. Why don't people clean the crap off their eyes or clean the crap outta their ears. I misplaced the money to see the doc so therefore I have to wait once again until I can get paid. I know this is my health I am dealing with but I am to the point I don't give a crap I know I will never get pregnant so who freakin' cares. I can not go to the ER because they are not goin' to do anything about it. I have done tried and all they did was a darn piss test and it came back BFN so whats the point of goin' through that again just to get a gosh darn BFN. I am sick of gettin' BFNs. I just wanted people there for me that understands what I am goin' threw and that I can talk to without havin' to hear oh just relax, go to the doc, go to the ER, oh it will happen when it is time, It's in gods hands. If it was in gods hands then why is he lettin' people that do drugs and drink and that don't want their babies to have babies. It is a bunch of bullshit. I believe in god and everything but gosh darn this crap is makin me mad. What did I ever do to make me mad? Am I not aloud to have a baby because I am fat? Because I smoke? Because I cuss? Because I stay at home to stay away from all the drama? Because I don't eat healthy? Because I don't drink water that much? Because I want one so bad? WTF? I just don't understand and I am sick and tired of all this. I don't care if I make friends on here. I just wanted a place to come and talk to people that understand. I just wanted a place I could vent. GRRRRRR

More for today I would like to say that I did not mean to sound so horrible I was just venting. I did not care if anyone read it or not. It was not meant for anything at all other then just away for me to get some things out and off my chest ya know what I mean? For those of you that took it personal and said sorry please do not say sorry there is no need for it. I am the one that should be sorry. Like I said i was just venting. Also I would like to add that I really do apperciate having all of you ladies around to talk with when I do need to talk or just to be there. So for that Thanks a bunch. Now, for those of you that want to send rude comments please do not send me rude comments there is away for me to have help on raising my child like WIC and Public Aide. There are alsoother ways that I will have help. So yes I thought about it several times if this is the right time to bring up a child. Doesn't everyone struggle a little bit all the time? I know it is hard and confusing. But I have thought about it over and over please trust me on that. The reason why I can not do anything or go anywhere to get help for my health and to see a doc is because there is nothing like that here where I can just go and see what's goin on and if there is I know nothing bout a place I could go trust me on that I have searched and searched. No i have not stopped searching. Most of the places around here you basically have to have insurance or be pregnant or have a serious health problem to get insurance. The only way I can get insurance without all that is goin through my husbands job but that does cost some each check and right now we can not afford that. Please know I do know what I am talkin about and have thought everything over. Please don't take this as me being bitchy I am just tryin to help you understand better. Anywho Thanks for stoppin by and lots of sticky baby dust your way and to everyone else.

Moving on to the real update.....I did have another spot this morning as most of you already know. I did put on a diaper (pad) and since I have had some more spottin' still not much though and it is still a brownish red like before. My periods every month run similar to this just normally it is a little more and it runs everyday for 3 to 4 days. I know something is not right. I do plan on goin to see the doc soon trust me I want to know whats goin on with my body just as bad as everyone else. Well thanks for stoppin by.

May's TTC Journal has been moved to my blog please read if you would like.

June 22 2008 to June 30 2008 has also been moved to blog please read it there if you would like.

Each month I will write my updates here but when the 16th of the each month arrives I will move the 1st through the 15th to my blogs then I will move the 16th through the end of the month to my blogs at the end of the blog. For example: on july 16th journal entrys JUly 1st through the 15th will be in a blog and then at the end of july the 16th through then will be moved into a blog. I am doing it this way to save some space on here. Thanks everyone

July 1, 2008

Hello! I am so freakin' bored. I went to wal-mart with my mom at like 2 a.m. and bought these art things that you make your own jewerly. Well I have made a necklace and a bracelet so far. I think they are pretty cool plus it gives me something to do. I also bought a BIG bag of dum dums. OMG do I love dum dums and when I get the erge to have one I gotta have a lot of them. Well my AF still has not arrived as of yet and really no signs. I am CD 35 today. The only kind of tingle I get is when I am standing or laying a certain way I might feel a cramp or two but they come and go. I hope that she does not take about 80 days to show up this month like she did my last cycle. That was the longest cycle I have ever had. Once we can figure out what is going on with my body and I get the ok from my doc I want to try clomid but then I don't know. I am so scared to see a doc. I am scared that they will tell me that I can never have kids. I would die. Well I think it is time for me to get some shut eye as it is 7 a.m. here and I am now dead tired. Well later ladies.

July 2, 2008

CD 36 and still no sign.

July 3, 2008

CD 37 and about 3 times already this morning I had that feeling like I started but nope nothing there. I had a scare of my lifetime this morning already to. Our electricity decided to go out for no reason. i heard a big pop and bam everything went out in the whole trailor park.

July 4, 2008

CD 38 and OMG I have freakin' clue what the heck is goin' on. My right boob is very sore. Ummm it is hard to explain but right where the skin is connected to my chest umm it is like right there under the skin omg it was so painful it actually made me cry what the heck was that all about. It actually still hurts now and i can barely move my right arm because it hurts there.

July 5, 2008

Well thought I would update a bit. I am on CD 39. No signs as of yet. The pain in my boob lasted for about 4 hrs yesterday and OMG i hope i never have that pain again cause it was sooooo painful. Well I got home at 2 am this morning after goin to the drive in theatre with my mom, step dad, and brother. (hubby had to work) But we went and got there about 7:30 p.m. because we wanted to make sure we got a good parking spot and we was meeting some friends there. Well we sit around talking and having a good time. It was nice and cool so very enjoyable. Well the fireworks went off around 9 p.m. and OMG they were very pretty and I have never seen anything so cool and the show lasted about an hour which anywhere else you go around here they last maybe 15 mins well they had another firework show just down the road and that one lasted 2 hrs and u could see both of them at the same time and it was amazing. They made several different designs with the fireworks like the smiley face, the rose, the weeping willow and several other designs. Some of them was so loud and so blinding flash after flash. Some were even so big that u had to look straight up with ur head tilted all the way back just to get the whole thing in view it covered the whole size of the parking lot and some. It was wonderful we are going again next year I can not wait lol. Then after that we stayed for the 2 movies and it was my first time at a drive in movie theatre and it was so cool. They played Kung Fu Panda that movie was really cute and the best. Better then what I thought and then they played Indianna Jones and to be honest I never really watched any of them because I always thought I would never be interested well lets just say I need to catch up that movie was awesome. Well that was my day yesterday and can not wait to do it again next year. I just wish my hubby did not have to work this year it would have been nice to share that with him but we are goin to make sure he gets off next year wink wink

July 6, 2008

AF is here!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

July 7, 2008

I am happy to say that my AF has arrived and she is heavier then last month but not as heavy as I would like. I know I am weird but i am just happy to say that i am finally having something that i can consider a period lol. I started yesterday so I am on CD 2 today and OMG I hate cramps they are so painful lol. Well hubby and I are goin to BD everyday right after AF disappears well we might go every other night to give his swimmers a break but remember we are on a break right now but we will see what happens wish us luck lol well baby dust to everyone.

July 8, 2008

Hey ladies! How are you all doing? I am great. Well it is CD 3. I am still goin woohoo. i am so happy. i actually am having a period. lol well i finally heard from my brother bobby and the reason we did not get the car is because he got into a fight with him and his brother does not want me to have his car but i am waitin on some papers to sign to become the power of attroney on his bank account because his mother who is in charge of it right now wont sign money over to help us with bills which is what he wants and now they are not speaking so he is signing it over to me so i can pay bills and get a better place to live and see a doctor. my brother is wonderful i wish i knew him a long time ago though but oh well. well just wanted to update a bit so i will update when i know more

July 9, 2008

CD 4 and she is still here but it is all good

July 10, 2008

CD 5 and she is still here but it is cool. It has honestly been a very long time since my AF has lasted this long. Hopefully she comes a little sooner next cycle but hey at least she came about 40 days sooner this cycle then last cycle. Now she just needs to come about a week and a few days sooner next cycle. I want her to get normal and come at least the same time every month and lst this long every month with more bleeding or at least this amount and the amount this cycle is still not as much as should be for a period but hey not complaining well later baby dust.

July 11, 2008

Hey guess what CD 6 and my AF is gone. lol That was a good cycle now I just hope that if i dont get pregnant this month that my cycle next month is normal like this one was.

July 12, 2008

Hey CD 7 and glad to be free of diapers lol I call pads diapers cause well I have to wear pads and they feel like diapers I can not wear tampons because I am allergic to them but hey whatever it is my problem but i am glad to be free of them lol my hubby is being silly like always he found some games online that he really likes and so he has been spending most of his day playing them and guess what it is about to storm again for the what 3rd day in a roll but anywho I am goin to get off here

July 13, 2008

CD 8 and oh do I hate keeping track of my cycle but oh well who cares lol I hope that this cycle is not that long this time around I would love for it to be the normal days u know what i mean well I dont know what to say oh yea i went on a 2 mile walk yesterday with my hubby and omg that walk about killed me i was maybe a few feet from the doors of CVS where we was goin and i had the worst cramps ever they hurt even worse then the period cramps and i almost fell over because i was in so much pain when we got to CVS i had to sit down on the bench and rest for a min before goin into the store because i could not walk any futher i hve never had cramps that bad when walking but like i said i thought i was dieing lol but we did our little bit of shopping and then we called the cab to bring us home because i was not goin to be able to make it home but it was a nice walk there lol well baby dust everyone

July 17, 2008

I am on CD 12 wooohoooo why is time goin by so slow. please go by faster this. I was suppose to get a letter and the papers for bobbys bank account this week well here it is thursday and still nothin he said they were sent out a week ago today so i dont know whats goin on right now i wont get another call from him until about next week sometime unless he is allowed to call this week sometime but i highly doubt it i think he gets 2 calls a week and he has already used them this week grrrrr i can not wait to get the letter from him to see what the hell is goin on maybe i should wite him and let him know that we have not received it yet it is driving me crazy i know i said i would move the updates around the 15th of each month but i am goin to go ahead and leave them here until the end of each month then move them. I am so tired and I have no idea why but I have been crampin like there is no tomorrow ever since 2 days after i stopped my period and that was almost 6 days ago well about 4 days ago just about lol well baby dust to all of u

July 20, 2008

I am on CD 15 and it just seems it is goin by so slowwww lol. Well i heard from Bobby today and starting tomorrow he wont be able to call for 2 weeks because he got into trouble and got his phone privledges pulled go figure lol but we should have the names on the bank account switched on Aug. 1st I can not wait lol i have had some serious cramps but it has been goin on since my period stopped and i am also spottin what is up with that? well i will be goin to see the doc after Aug 1st sometime. But i am not goin to set it until then so i know if my brother come through i also found out that my brother has cancer so that kinda worries me a bit. he has luekima (sp?) he is in stage 3 of 7 right now i am not sure how bad that is but i know it is bad he seems healthy though to me. i love my brother i just wish i had gotten to know him when we were younger i wish i knew him when we were younger. well onto the rest of this month take care everyone