Hi everyone iam now 5weeks and iam sooooooo happy i made this far cuz about 2 mth go i had a m/c when i was 5weeks and some dayz. I hope everything go will this time around so can yall please pray for me and i will do the same:) good luck 2 all of u beautiful ppl!

8/13/07 This pass weekend i was thinking about getting a abortion because the father of my child been acting really stuiped toward me but today i went to the doctors and i hand a ultrasound and seen my baby heart beat and had a change of heart and mind. when i got into my car i started to cry and i apologize to my baby because to think i was goin to end my own child life that not mine choice to end anybody life that is god choice. its just going to be the jerks lost not mine.

8/26/07 Hi mommies i'm try my hardest to stay strong for me and my baby, its get to me everyday cuz i thank about how that jerk just walked out on me and he wanted this more then me. i guess he realize that he had to grow up for real now and he don't now how to be a man yea he call him self a man but all is a lil boy who is afraid to man up. some dayz i wish i had stop deal with him after i had my m/c back in may of this yr. damn it hurt but i know i will get threw this cuz if i could grow up with out my parent who pasted way when i was the ages 7 and 11 . i know 4 a fact i could handle begin a single mother. I have 2 wonderful angles who is watching ova me and my baby my parents. mommy and daddy i miss yall so much xoxo:)

10/22/07 Hey Ladies my pg was updated but about 2 or 3weeks ago everything i had updated just disappeared . i can't really remember everything i wrote but i'm i'm just goin to give summary of what i can remember:) my 1st trimester test combo test came negative and i had to see a gentic counselor cuz i have beta thalaseemia .....Beta thalassemia is an inherited blood disorder that reduces the production of hemoglobin. Hemoglobin is the molecule in red blood cells that carries oxygen to cells throughout the body but the good thing is that i'm ok and so is my love:) About 2 weeks ago i had to do one more gentic test called Fragile x syndrom test cause my mommy older sis has the Fragile x syndrom so the gentic counslesor sent me to get tested 4 that and i'm waiting on the test results and i hope and been prayin to go that the test come back negative.

Fragile X is inherited. Carrier men pass the premutation to all their daughters but none of their sons. Each child of a carrier woman has a 50% chance of inheriting the gene defect. The Fragile X premutation can be passed silently down through generations in a family before a child is affected by the syndrome.

Fragile X syndrome is the most common inherited cause of mental impairment and the most common known cause of autism. Fragile X affects 1 in 4000 males and 1 in 6000 females of all races and ethnic groups (source Centers for Disease Control). About 1 in 259 women carry fragile X and could pass it to their children. About 1 in 800 men carry fragile X; their daughters will also be carriers.

Large-scale population studies of fragile X still need to be done, but it is clear that this is one of the most common genetic diseases in humans. Most people with fragile X are not yet correctly diagnose.

Soon as i get the results i well post it up hear and pray for me and my love that everything come back good:) i have faith that everything is going 2 be ok:)

ON NOV 8TH I GET TO FINE OUT THE SEX OF MY LOVE AND I CAN'T WAIT 2 SEE WHAT I'M HAVING I HOPE AND I PRAY TO GOD EVERY NIGHT THAT MY LOVE BE VERY COOPERATIVE:)

11-11-07 SHARING A PRECIOUSE MOMENT WITH YA:)!

This evening while i'm @ work setting @ my desk i felt Zekhi moving and then he started to kick me about 3 time... its such a wonderful feeling.... I love Zekhi soooooooooo much & can't wait to met him:) this is my 2nd time feeling Zekhi move , the 1st time was about month go when DA JERK called me with some bs and he pissed me off but when i felt Zekhi i felt much better:) i just wanted to share this precious monent with u guyz. The meaning of Zekhi- innocent, one who is pure....... its a aramaic - hebrew name and they spell it Zakai ...... I pick the perfect name 4 my king:) 12-13-07 Hey ladies !! I took my glucose test yesterday and i hope everything come back good.. well i didn't want to take it because everybody i know told me its soooooooo nasty but it was good to me ! maybe i was just hungry..lol.. it tasted like flat orange soda and we all kno we had flat soda b4...

12-20-07 Hello ladies well i can't complain much but i been having some serious HEART BURN 4 the past 2dayz know..Its bad when water and smells give u HEART BURN..... I say i can't complain because this is the only kind of sickness if u want to call it that .... that i had i was bless not have any morning sickness or any other prego sickness....... I HOPE THE OLD SAYING IS TURE IF U HAVE ALOT OF HEART BURN WHY U ARE PREGO UR BABY WELL COME OUT WITH A HEAD FULL OF HAIR! Well we would see and i had heart burn thought the whole 6mths but it been so bad 4 the past 2 dayz.!

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1-1-08 HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL THE MOMMIES, MOMMIES 2 BE AND 2 ALL THE TTC...... Well ladies i spent new eve clock out of work @ 12am (smile) Then i went home and prayed and went to sleep what a life ..... I only have 2 more month to go very excited:) If u read my pg b4 u would know that I was having BD problem well he is maning up and I'm happy that he is but i'm confuse as well cause the way he was acting in the begin, it hard for me to let that go but i have 2 cause i know Zekhi needs his daddy in his life. oh yea Zekhi is getting more and more active as the days go by and i'm loving it and i never knew i could love someone so much the way i Love my unborn son Zekhi .

Update on my heartburn its not that bad any more thank god for that :)!

1/3/08 Today i went to my doctor appt. and I only gained 3 pound yay!..... My too last appt i gained 20pounds so my doctor wasn't happy with me but this time he was and told me my next appt that is 1/31/08.. i should have only gained another 2pounds so i hope everyhting go well.....Glucose test came back good but my iron is low so i'm taking iron pills along with my prenatal vitamins ....... KHI is doing great i seen his heart beat, his foot and he was just of kicking me and the doc and nusre was surprise how big his man hood was my doc was like i never seen that omg its big i was a lil embress but i just laugh it off and they was still making comment about it ...

1-28-08....... January 28th 1995 was one of the worst dayz in any lil gurl can go though i lost my mommy and yes i was only 11year old @ the time and back in dec of 90 lost my daddy.... May25th 2007 i had a m/c..all of these lost was so hard on me ppl i have no ideal its so hard as a child to loss both parents so young, i use to think god didn't love me and my sisters cuz he took both of our parents away from us so young but i see now that he did it for a reason... i wonder if they where here with us today would me and my sister be as strong as we are and can handle everything that come @ us...? but i thank him for my nana who took all 3 of us in and finish raising us :) may 2007 i thought god did love me again cuz i loss my 1st pregnancy but about month later i'm pregnant again with my lil man zekhi so i see he did it for a reason and i thank him every nite 4 blessing me again and so soon:)

1/31/08.... well today i had my dr appt. and it sucked cuz i had the woman dr and she was begin a bitch and i had question to ask her and she was act like she didn't want to answer them but i only got to ask her 2 and then she was out ...i was like the fucking bitch make me sick and oh yea last nite i used the bathroom and when i whiped there was blood on the tissue so u no i went a lil nuts called the on call dr and he was like how much blood and the color so i told i whiped 3time and the blood was not dark or light it looked normal and the 4th time there was nothing so he told to keep checkin every hr and if i see any more and feel zehki stop move go to the hospital but i did all of that and nothing was there thank god:) so today i told the bitch dr and she checked me and all was good but then is pissed me off asking if i but a tampon on i was like NO wat do i look like by doin that ..... i couldn't see my zekhi cuz i was not the room with u/s machine i was hurt but i did hear his heart beat and its was good and i gained 5 pound that not good so i have to really watch what i eat.

2/13/08.... Update on me and khi .... we both are doing good but now i'm haveing a hard time walkin..it hurt so bad @ times i just want to cry.... i be walking like i just learn how to walk.... i was goin try to work @ least 2 week b4 my due but not anymore 2/29/08 will be my last day of both of my jobs... Baby Shower is sometime after March 7th that all that my best & sis well tell me so i could get all pretty..lol

2/17/08..... Will yesterday was the day i went to get my 3d/4d u/s done even tho it was supose to be done one 2/16/08 but its wasn't cause the place i went to called me soon as i was getting ready to leave and told me there power went out so can i came on saturday 2/16/08 and they well give me 10% off and i said yes even tho i was pissed off cuz friday i was so ready to see my lil man but the wait was stil worth it and i still can't wait to have him and my lil man looks just like me and i wonder when i have him would he still look like me. oh yea he was sleeping in all of his pics and i told the teach soon as i live he goin to wake up cuz 4pm is the time he up the most and he sure did woke up as soon as i got back into my car!

2/26/08 Today @ work we was having a staff meeting and my boss and my co-works gave me a baby shower but it was suppose to be a surprise but it wasn't cuz my boss keep on calling me @ home ask me what kind of cake do i like and then she said i mine will tell u we not having a staff meeting its a baby shower 4 u and i said thank u so much!:) i found that 2 be very nice of them cuz they didn't have to do that cuz they all coming to the big shower that my bests are given me... i guess they wanted to do something from all of them............... will we recived a $ 100.00 gift card to baby r us, 2 outfits and boppy bare naked pillow with the sweet pea slipcover ..... i'm so gratful 4 have ppl like them in my life:)

3/10/08 Yesterday 3/9/08 was my baby shower it was very nice :) Khi recvied alot of gifts from my family , friends , his dad and there family:) I am really greatful for everything! Will today i started my weekly visit to the DR. and i found out today iam 2cm and khi is between 7 to 7 1/2 pounds so far. My weight went back up:( My doc was like u gained another 10pounds what have u been doing and i said eating i been very hurgy lately...lol..wat do she think iam suppose to do?

3/12/08 Ok @ last doc appt i told my Doc i don't fell him as oftern like i did b4 and she told me to eat or drink something and then lay on my left side and see if i feel anything i did that anymore but the last time i felt KHI move was 3/11/08 that morning around 10am and no more so i called my doc and she told me to go right to the hospital so that what i did .... they keep me cuz i was in labor and i went from 2cm to 3cm so they kept me ova nite but let me go this morning cuz there was no changes:( i was hoping to met my lil man and His doing great!