I am 28...finally pregnant. I am like most girls, I have wanted to be a mom as long as I can remember ! I have babysat since I think 12 yrs old and just love children. Have spent many yrs with my cousins children, just waiting for my turn :)

My husband and I are so excited....can hardly believe we became pregnant so soon....I just went off the pill in May. We thought it would take a few months since I had been on the pill for 10 years, but,.,.,within 1 month we are expecting ! I count my blessings everyday that we will have a happy and healthy baby.

I have had my share of turmoil in the past few years....November 20, 2004 I lost my mother to cancer. It was very unexpected, she passed within 2 weeks of knowing she was sick. My then boyfriend ( now husband) stood by me through all the emotions I was feeling- I am sure I wasnt the best person to be around during that time....but somehow he put up with me and loved me more then anyone can....A year later, we became engaged and got married May 13, 2006. WIth all the ups and downs I always have my mother on my mind and in my heart- I know she will be so happy and proud when we bring out little one into this world !

1st trimester: May 20, 2007 to August 18, 2007.

July 4: I am very tired.....go to bed around 8:30 every night. Doesnt leave much time with my husband after work, but I just cant help it ! Thankgod he is understanding. At work I am constantly munching on food ( yogurt, grapes, crackers) every few hrs and going to pee ALOT !! This is normal I think ....No other symptoms of being pregnant- which I am sure will come sooner rather then later...Not much morning sickness at all- *crossing fingers I didnt jinx myself*. Occationally I need a few saltines to battle a little stomach upset but that usually works. I am very anxious to go to the doctor, but I have only a nurse educator appt next week, and have to wait til Aug 16th for the OB appt. Not sure if this is routine care, or just my clinic does....I have heard stories of hating your doc..I havent met mine yet- a referal from my pcp doctor, so I hope she is nice, and patient with me. i am sure we wil have a lot of questions this being our first baby. I wil make sure I update after next wednesdays appt- maybe I can talk them into moving my OB appt up a little :)

July 14: I am still fatigued a lot of the time. I would love to go to sleep at 8:30 every night, but household duties keep me up a little later. With just my husband, self and puppies there is already alot to do- can only imagine what will change with a new baby !! But we are so excited/anxious- wanting to be prepared as much as possible. I switched to taking my prenatal vitamin at night after dinner and that seemed to help with the nausea. I also noticed my breasts are hurting more- wonder if they will be huge one morning when I wake up ? I went to the nurse practitioner meeting on Wednesday. Was very informative- gave alot of info about do's and dont's, most of which i dont rememeber, but have a nice book to remind me stage by stage of the pregnancy. I didnt mention to the nurse about getting an earlier appt w/ OBgyn cuz I was thinking, maybe I can wait...but I do think I want to go in sooner to at least hear the hearbeat. I want to make sure my baby's heart is beating healthily...even tho I took 2 at home test and one at the clinic- and they all said positive- I just want to make sure.......wonder if everyone is like me with their first baby :)

Ryan and I went to dinner last night- he is doing well at work which helps the stress level. Is always nice when dont have to worry about the pay checks coming in. Right now the lower the anxiety about other things, the better ! At dinner we talked of course about our baby. He keeps calling her Ava- that is prob our #1 choice for a girls name...I think he may be trying to jinx it tho cuz i know he wants a boy :) We still are on the fence about finding out if a boy or girl...but I am sure we will cuz 8 more mths is a long time to wait !! Off the the pool, so nice out today- lower 80's. Will have more to write soon I am sure .

August 3, 2007--

Well, its another week, anxious to hear our baby's hearbeat. I am not good at waiting at all ! Everytime i see someone they are like " congrats", "how exciting" and I just smile and say yeah it is...but I dont really feel pregnant. Is that normal? I have sore breasts sometimes, very very tired, and was pretty constipated last mth for 2 straight weeks....but is that what it feels like to be preg or just feelings anyone could have ? I think I will feel SO much better once I go to the OB next thurs for our first appt. I keep reading about everyone having problems and I think I am just getting paranoid....never happens with preg women right :) I have no spotting, cramping or bleeding, so I should be ok?? Ahhh, just anxious.

Ryan and I talked this weekend- defiantely going to not find out if a boy or girl. We decided that there are so few surprises in this lifetime, that we just have to wait til the baby is born . How exciting to hear.."its a ........!! " But...this is also hard for me cuz I am the worst at waiting for surprises. Got to hold stong. Well, should go to bed, its 8:30 pm, my bedtime. Will write after doc appt and update on what we hear and / see....take care everyone.

August 18: So.....we finally got to go to our first OB appt and everything went well!! We met our baby doctor for the first time and she was so nice ! We were able to hear the baby's heartbeat and it was a health 160 bpm. Was amazing to hear...like a very fast choo choo train....I have had some issues determining when my last period was cuz the one in May was very abnormal and my pcp doc explained it away cuz i had changed birth control pill brands....but I didnt get an actal period just clots of blood. So anyhow, during my exam, the doctor said my uterus was bigger then it should be for 3 mths, and now I have my first U/S scan next thursday !! They usually do them at 18 weeks, but I wil get to go in early :) We are undecided about the testing that can be done, not sure if I want the quad test because there can be false negatives and that would make me worry possibly for no reason for rest of our pregnancy. For the first time last night my hubby said he could tell I was pregnant...guess it was about time ! That is all for now. Suppose I may have more to say after our next appt ....

October 13, 2007

I went to the doctor ( actually got to see my OB - she is always delivering babies when i go !) . We had our 20 w u/s and things went well. Baby is 11 oz and heartrate is 150. We are not finding out the sex, so keeping everyone in suspense :) What a big surprise we will have in Feb when our baby is born! Alot of our friends and families dont understand why we want to not find out- but its really not up to them we have decided. During the appt the doc didnt say anything really..just asked if i have any questions and that said the reports looked good from the u/s. I am assumming that she would have said something if there was a problem. We did not get any prenatal test like downs or spinal bifida, but I am just praying for a healthy baby !

We have some names picked out...for a girl her name will be Ava. Middle name will be Elaine after my mother...For a boy, that has been more difficult for some reason. The name my husband really likes is Connor. Others in the running are Lucas, Logan, and Drew. The middle name most likely will William.

so probably our 2 choices are Ava Elaine and Connor William. They arent too common, but also not anything like a celebrity would pick out !!!

January 21, 2008

So, it has been awhile since I have written....life gets busy sometimes. I am still doing well. Dr appt last week went well- ob said baby is about 4 lbs now, which is right on track for a healthy baby. The baby is head down, which is just what it is supposed to be. I wish I could have another u/s but since there is no problem w/ the baby, insurance wont pay for it and my doc doesnt think its necessary! I guess I shouldnt be upset since all is well. Now, if I could get some SLEEP, that would be wonderful ! I cant even remember when I had a good nights sleep. Dr said that its the baby's way to prepare me for when the time comes ;) . Next appt is Jan 31st, and at that time I get to have another pap smear- which means fun times- jk. But at that appt they will do a strep B test and test for blood sugar in my urine. Hopefully at that time the doc will say that I am dialated--if the baby came a few weeks early, that would be wonderful. I am just so anxious for our little one- have been having dreams of the delivery- not the the horrific pain, but of the baby being born, my hubby cutting the cord and saying "look honey, its a ........" !!!

Will write more later--maybe will have some GOOD news after appt in a week or so. take care.

Feb 17, 2008

So, needless to say I am VERY disappointed!!!! Feeling a little depressed and like nothing is going right. Last wednesday @ my dr. appt the ob said she would be surprised if I had to use the next appt, and she even predicted I would have my baby by v-day, however, I did not, and have not had my baby yet :( It is now SUnday and no contractions, at least none that "are stong enough". On Friday was having regular contractions and cramping, called l/d and they said to come in- so my hubby and i left work early and drove to the hosp, to be sent home an hr later. I have been walking and rocking in chair ALOT, trying to get this baby to push on my cervix and come on out !!!! I am so uncomfortable and just so ready to have this baby. Enough complaining...I guess.