Hello

We were expecting number 3! We have two beautiful boys and were very happy to have another miracle on the way. Right at 8 weeks I had my first OB appt. I had a u/s also. Everthing was fine and my husband and I left smiling from ear to ear holding our baby's 1st picture. The following day I started to bleed. I called the MD right away and I ended up seeing him 3x's in 5 days. He said the bleeding would either stop or get worse. He really did not want to say either way because he has had patients who had stopped bleeding and others who miscarried. After my 3rd pelvic exam and 3rd u/s he said it was a threatened miscarriage since my cervix was still closed but I continued to bleed. On Friday, the baby had a strong heartbeat of 178 bpm and I began to get cramps and they continued to get worse throughout the day. I had a feeling all day that I was losing our baby. It finally happened that evening and it was more physically and emotionally painful than I imagined. This was my first. It is hard because you don't think it will ever happen to you, especially if you have already had two healthy pregnancies. I also have been healthy my entire life and have never been in the hospital other than to give birth. Of course I am still greiving and also my husband and two little boys. We hold strong faith in our family and I believed that has helped me carry on with each day. I know God has a plan for everyone and everything. Apparently this baby was no longer in our plan or God was protecting us by letting the baby go because something may not have been right. Everything happens for a reason even if we never know the reason or ever understand. I believe that when the time is right we will once agin be able to hold another blessing from God in our arms again someday. Changing my page is hard but I know I may be helping someone else by telling my story. God bless all of those expecting and hope to be in the future. Feel free to comment or ask questions, I will be in the TTC section for now.