My name is Dianna and I have 2 children, Daniel is 17 and Lauren is 16. I met John 5 years ago. He swept me off my feet. Every minute I spend with him, I fall deeper and deeper in love. We enjoy the same things and have fun just being together. John and I have 2 boxers, Duke is a 5 year old fawn male and Karma is a 4 year old brindle female. They are the apple of John's eye. He would do anything for either of them and has even saved Karma's life. John will be such an amazing father. I loved seeing the twinkle in his eye when I was pregnant. I couldn't wait to see that sparkle again. On July 8th when I told him that "we did it" he said "NO WAY!!! He grabbed me and hugged me. We are so excited but keeping it cool for now.

My family lives far away but my wonderful mother and grandmother, sister and brother are always supportive in what ever we do. We are blessed to have such incredible people in our lives. Our lives are full of excitement every minute of the day. Our days revolve around family. John has an absolutely incredible family (Now my family!!) and I have the best Mother-in-law ever. John has two awesome sisters and their husbands are two of the greatest guys you could ever hope to meet. Everyone in our family has such different personalities but we all just seem to meld. John's father and mother built a little cottage "Up North" that has become a haven for all who stay there. It keeps the family close. Spending time "Up North" is an important thing here in Michigan. No matter what cities we are all from, family members of all ages drive hours to reach "UP NORTH" for family bonding, fun and relaxation. I know; I'm rambling on but I feel so much love that it all just spills out when I think about how lucky I am.

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John and I began to prepare to have a child after we were married September 14th 2007. I began taking vitamins to prepare myself for the following year. When we found out that I was pregnant a few months sooner than expected, we were so excited! The pregnancy was not meant to be and the loss February 5th 2008 hurt badly but we got through it. This will be John's first child and it has been 16 years since my last one.

I am a bit older and things are quite different this time around. After the D&C, I am now a little nervous about being 36. I wasn't concerned before but now it's a whole new ball game. I'm at the age when doctors consider me to be "high risk". I know many women that have had perfect pregnancies throughout their 40's so I am going to stay positive. I know it will happen eventually! This website is great! It allows me to record day by day, how I'm feeling so that I can remember it always! I am going to keep my entries below so that I can compare later.....

Jan-4-08 I'm 6 WEEKS!!!! Little baby Gabbana is making things really difficult for me right now even though it's early. I never had any sort of sickness with my first two children. Today the nausea is really bad and I still have pain in my lower left side. I remember having that pain with my first one though. I hope the baby is growing and healthy. It is driving me crazy waiting for my appointment on the 18th.

Jan-7-08 I called the doctor today because I still feel cramping. She said not to worry, it's very normal to feel like that in your first trimester because your uterus is growing. She put my mind at ease. She said if the pain in my lower side becomes worse or if I start to bleed then she wants to see me right away. Nausea is much better over the past two days.

Jan-17-08 I have been feeling great this week! I'm so excited!!! Still sore and cramping but the excitment is crazy. Tomorrow is the day of the ultrasound. I can't wait to post our baby's picture!!!

Jan-18-08 my son turned 17 years old today and we just came from our anxiously awaited ultrasound. We saw our little baby's heartbeat!!! It was so exciting. They couldn't give us an age yet but we go back in 2 weeks for another ultrasound to find out for sure. I'm a little bummed because I don't have a picture to post today but I'm very happy to know everything is growing fine and I just have to wait a bit longer. Just like daddy, I know it will be worth the wait!!!!

Feb-1-08 Today began as the most amazing day of my life. At 12:38 this morning I witnessed my best friend give birth to a 9 lb 1oz beautiful baby boy named Keiffer Jaxon Novak. She did so great giving birth, no drugs just pure love pushed her through. It was truly beautiful and I was so lucky to be there.

Later today around 10am I had my second ultrasound. It was very painful to her the words "This is not a viable pregnancy; we need to schedule a D&C". Our baby had no more little heartbeat. I will never forget the lost look in my husbands eyes. In that very moment I saw how much it hurt him and it made it that much harder to explain to him that sometimes this happens. Never having gone through this before, I didn't know how heartbreaking this would be and I didn't realize how much this effects the dad as well. My husband and I are devastated but we do know that this happens to so many women each day. My heart goes out to anyone going through or having gone through this. My husband and I will try again as soon as we can. Best of wishes to all of you.

Feb-05-08 Just had the D&C. Everyone was so wonderful at the hospital. They made an awful day bearable. The wheeled me in to a small prep room. I was to get dressed in nothing but a gown and cap and then get on a gurney. The nurse then gave me an IV and allowed my husband to come in and sit with me. It was a very sad moment for both of us but we knew that it had to be done. Soon they gave me medication and everything began to seem really distant. I was out of it but still awake as they rolled me to the operating room. They placed me on another table with a bright light above my head and put my feet in stirups. The doctor then came to me and told me that everything would be just fine and that she was going to take care of everything. The next thing I remember was waking up as they were wheeling me to recovery. I was totally awake and I did not have to stay in the gurney for a waiting period. They helped me up and I sat in a chair. They gave me a drink and a snack. They let me get dressed and then my husband came in and hugged me. He said I was only gone for about a 1/2 hour. John drove me home and we cried. We knew it had to be done but the whole experience was quite exhausting. I have very little spotting and no cramping at all. The doctor wants to see me before we try again.

Feb-22-08 Just got back from the doctor. She says we are all set to try again. We are very excited!

March-16-08 My AF finally came after 40 days!!! woohoo, let the fun begin!

March-19-08 As my hubby says "It's on like Donkey Kong". Hopefully things will happen soon. Time will tell. We are going to enjoy trying!!!

April-14-08 That nasty AF came today. Try Try Again!!!

May-16-08 My AF again!! :oP

June-10-08 CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!! Does everyone get this frustrated???? That stupid AF came again. I'm feeling very stressed and it shows. My face is broken out, I've gained weight and I'm having a hard time staying positive. I'm in a wedding in a few days and I hope I don't scare the bride!!!

June-15-08 The wedding was gorgeous. It was a perfect day, everyone did a great job and I tried not to stress about myself and focused on everything else instead. Dreams Do Come True!! The bride and groom were so happy. It made my day.

June-18-08 Back to trying soon. I'm no longer tracking temerature or watching possible ovulation days. The stress is to much for me to deal with so I need to chill!!!! I hope eveyone else is having more luck! The doctor told me to buy the ovulation sticks at the pharmacy. I will give that a try.

June-25-08 My stess seems to be lessening these days. I have decided that it will happen when it happens and I'm not worrying myself sick anymore. My best friend's little one is now 4 months old. What an angel! It's doesn't make me upset at all to see him. I am very happy for my friends that have become pregnant or are trying to get pregnant. I am hoping that one day soon myself and a few others will all be pregnant together. Send me baby dust eveyone! I could use a few truck loads!!! When I used the test strips I found that my LH surge was 5 days sooner than all of my charts told me to start trying! Pretty big gap there!!! Hubby and I are listening to the strips this time and having fun with it!!

July-08-08 I just came back from a trip up north. I have been feeling a bit tired, I have to pee more than usual and for some reason my bra feels way to tight, I can hardly stand to have it on and I have not gained any weight. Each month of TTC I have had pregnancy symptoms just before my period. It must be my mind messing with me but I was supposed to start my AF today and it didn't come. On a whim I took a pregnancy test. Immediatly got a BFP!!! Holy crap!!!! I can't even believe it! My hubby and I are soooooooo excited but trying to keep our feet on the ground. We see the doctor August 1st if all goes well. Woohoo, I am still in shock!!! Woohoooooo!!! I'm praying that everything is growing ok in there.

July-20-08 My birthday is in 2 days! My husband is having the family over today for a cookout to celebrate. I'm nervous because we aren't going to tell them I am pregnant until we see the doctor. If they ask me point blank though I can't lie. I had been feeling really nauseous about a week ago and it would last most of the day. I started taking my multi vitamin at night before bed. I have no more nausia. My boobs have grown a size and my nipples hurt. I get dizzy spells often. I hope everything is ok in there. Whenever I have been pregnant in the past, I always start rubbing my belly rather early. This time I noticed that I am rubbing my belly in two seperate spots at the same time. That is a bit strange!

July-23-08 My birthday was great! Another year older! I love my birthday no matter how old I get. My life didn't start until 30 when I met John, so each year past 30 is a blessing!!!! I'm still feeling quite dizzy and the nausia is back! ewwww, I think my boobs have grown out of this new bra already too. I have IBS and after the D&C in February, I have been having bloating and distention. I look fine when I wake up but as the day goes on I get bigger and bigger. By night time, I look 9 months pregnant!! I hate it! The doctor said it is just another form of IBS. Oh Great!!!! Well my belly looked huge last night and I didn't want to go out but John really wanted to take me to dinner for my birthday. He told me "honey your pregnant, don't worry about your belly" OMG I told him, I may be pregnant but NOT 9 MONTHS!!! I told him that I would go but if anyone asked, we were going to lie and tell them I was 9 months lol. We went to a great Italian place, everyone in the restaurant sang Happy Birthday. We had a blast and I was glad we went. When I got out of the resturant, I swear I looked about 15 months pregnant! It's back down again today. Crazy!!!!!!

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