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4/14/2008

Went to the doc today and had a scan, and there looking back at me was a perfect little BOY!!!!!!! Im so escited I also found out Im a bit further along than I had originally thought, 17 weeks and 3 days my new due date is 9/19/2008, three days after my birthday. Im begining to feel "flutters" loving it!

3/09/2008

Well, on tuesday I am in week 12, something about that week that brings such peace to me. this is all feeling so warm and familiar now, it helps that the nausea is gone and the fatigue is fading...infact i was able to walk for five miles today, while pushing chloes stroller! I have a total preggers belly now, and i love it, it is tiny but i have always liked my bump! I have a really awful headache right now so im going to head on to bed.

2/25/2008

So wow its been over a month since i updated! Well Im ten weeks 2morrow, and the morning sicknessis going so much better, just a hint here and there, the fatigue, however, is holding firm. Thats really ok with me tho, i dont mind resting-i rather enjoy it. Most everyonr is now aware of my pregnancy which is good because im begining to show, i am still able to wear my pre maternity jeans but by the end of the day im pretty unncomfortable. My waistline has pulled a dissapearing act and my gut flops over the top so i find that maternity shirts mask this a bit but still swallow me up. well that s it for now.

1/23/2008

Russell was home all day today it was pretty nice really. We told my father in law, he was so happy, it was nice. Found out that if i keep my stomach full I can ward off any nausea, for now anyway. No real news or concerns. Zach, russells soon to be married, recently astranged, 20 year old sun came over tonight, fences were mended, and hurt feelings banished, so im sure thats a load off for Russell. We wontgt be telling him about this new baby until afetr is wedding in february. Well thats all for now.

1/22/2008

Today started off amazingly when Chloe slept for an additional 1.5 hours this morning, Oh I was so refreshed with the extra sleep. My good mood spoiled however, when Chloe opted not to nap at all today! I met a couple of girlfriends and their young newborns for lunch today at a nice restraunt, and while their babies cooed and slept my 15 month old screamed, spit, cried and whined. I was so embarrassed! I knew she was just sleepy and that swating her (or giving her a "pow pow" thats what we call it) would only set her spinning into a downward spiral and cause her to throw a real temper tantrum. One of my friends even commented, I would take her to the bathroom, can you believe that, I cant wait till her baby is a willful 15 month old! My skin is still blah I feel as if I have gained 10 pounds already, I cant seem to stop eating(not cool!) and it is very cold for Texas, the temperature dropped 31 degrees in just a few hours today, supposed to freeze & sleet for the remainder of the week, so walking is out of the question for now. I wanted to get grocery shopping out of the way today (because of the nasty weather) which was also unpleasant with a cranky baby, she was upset until she was handed the reciept whn we checked out...figures right,lol.

1/21/2008

Soooo tired today! Wow, felt like that snuck right up on me. My skin is broken out, Im constipated, bloated and so hungry, its becoming very real...I am pregnant. got alot of work done around the house today, really freakin' at the thought of doing all of this with two kids, I already only have time to do the majority of the hard core housework while Chloe is napping, what if the baby is up when she is down AHHHHHHH! I know Im not the first person to prospect two young children, someone tell me how it ends up woking out.

1/20/2008

Today was ok. russell and I more or less made up, didnt even get dressed, or leave the house. My sense of smell is unreal! Its like super hero strong, I can smell Chloe's diaper genie from across the room, and no one else can, it weird and kinda cool!

1/19/2008

Bad day. Had some cramping this morning, nothing too severe, some faint nausea too, but agai nothing to write home about. Russell and I fought all day. I told my 18 year old step daughter and mother in law about the new baby. Mixed emotions from Lauren (my step daughter) and my mother in law was very pleased. Not smoking cigarettes is totally begining to take its toll, tough suff this quitting. Russell is completely unsupportive, unappreciative, unhelpful, pretty much everything that I was terrified that he would be, just like my first pregnancy, nothing has changed, this contributed to my fear of pregnancy in a substantial way. But what do you do, your trapped. Hes a good provider but a terrible partner, it took this pregnancy to remind me how hard he is to get along with. I cant wait for him to leave town for work again. Taking care of chloe all by myself isnt too too bad when hes gone, but is excruciating with him home. Yes im hormonal, yes I am suffering from nicotine withdraw, but all the more reason for some compassion or kindness. Ho hum, maybe tommorrow will be a brighter day.

1/18/2008

Today Im feeeling even better about things, starting to get excited. Im eager to tell all of my family and friends, but realise its still very early and may be in my best interest to wait. Went to my friend Rachels house yesterday afternoon and picked up all of her maternity clothes, which ironically, included some of my original maternity clothes. looking at these clothes was really emotional, I remember buying them, growing into them, wearing them to the hospital to deliver My sweet Chloe, and so suddenly they are back in my life, lined up in my closet waiting for my belly to grow-my new baby to grow, I was overcome and shed my first tears of joy for my newest miracle. Its amazing to me that the clothes have survived so many pregnancies Mine, rebeccas, Harmonys, rachels, and now back to me. A word to the wise ladies- donate ur clothes to ur pregnant friends, u never know when they will come back around to you. got a little nausea this morning, hooray, doesnt look like I will dodge the bullet on the morning sickness, it wasnt too bad though, who knows maybe it was just gas.

1/17/2008

Just found out yesterday that I'm pregnant with baby number 2! My daughter is almost 15 months, so needless to say I have serious concerns about having another baby so soon. My husband was so excited yesterday to hear the news and I feel so bad, I was all tears and fears and doubts. He took me out to dinner to celebrate, I even cried in the restraunt! This morning Im feeling a little better and a little less guilty about taking the limelight off of my older baby and forcing her to share with our new edition. I found out I was pregnant very soon, infact my period wasn't due until today, but I just knew it! My hopes now are that its a baby boy, so my little girl can be our only baby girl, and because this will be my last child and I love to see what our son would look like.

Also a little bummed I just lost all of my weight from my previous pregnancy and got my figure back, so farewellto that. I know the excitement will come and the fears and doubts will melt away, I have only told my best friend so thats kinda a source of anxiety for me to, what will our families say, I have a feeling they will worry for my daughter too, she's everyones special sweetheart.