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Pregnancy Survey

Mommy Name:Hanna
Age:22
Hair:Light Brown
Eyes:Brown
First Child:Yes
Daddy Name:David
Age:30
Hair:Light Brown
Eyes:Brown
First Child Yes
Finding Out
How did you find out:Urine test came out positive
Who was with you:Husband
How did you feel:Happy , Shocked
Who was the first you told:Husband
How did the dad find out:He heard my scream
How did he react:Cried like a baby
Grandparents How did your parents react:Mom laughed hysterically
How did his parents react:They were suprised but laughed and congratulated us as well
Do they check up:Yes
Pregnancy Due Date:August 20,2008
How many babies:1
Girl or Boy:Dont know but most likely a girl
Heartbeat:156
Movement:ALOT
BirthWhere are you having your baby:Hospital
Natural or Medicated:Medicated
C-Section:If required
Will you cry when you first hold the baby:When the time comes
Scared about the labor:YES!!!!!!!!
Random Questions
What is the name of the baby:Zuljanah, Shadha ( female ) --> Munther ( male )
Who are the godparents:None
Is the dad around:YES ALWAYS
Does your friends support you: Yes

Does it take patience or does it take inadequate timing when it comes to being married. I do not recall ever feeling like this. Sometimes i feel like he loves to be hated. What one doesnt know is that with this attitude and reponse to what i tell him is going to backlash into something one cannot handle. It's hard feeling this way, it hurts beyond ones imagination. Maybe I`m over reacting , or I am being dramatic. But whenever i talk to people surrounding me i feel like they are mocking me, no one seems to want me around. I have to be nice to everyone to fit in? He's the only person I have , and the only person I may possibly need, and it is not an obsession. It may be a lack of social connection that I have built for myself. It's the only way to live really , especially in this community. He probably doesnt know it now but he will in the near future. I may sound crazy , but sometimes my insights may seem possible. I`m tired of being the rebel , i wasnt ever a rebel anyways. I have tried in every way to be the good person in this family but it doesnt seem like anything can help my rebelious status. Breathing is so hard to do at a time like this, I hate being pregnant and having a heart beat in myself. I`m so afraid of losing him, as he is the only person in this world that may listen to me without jumping in face. Even though he probably doesnt care about what I say or how i say it or the consequences . I need to get the load of pressure I have , off my back. I want to talk to him and feel like he is listening like he used to, when we first got married. When i told him i was sad he would make me feel happy , now i cry myself to sleep because all he cares about is other things. Maybe he does care about me or maybe he feels something inside of him towards me, but its unlikely he will ever show it to me unless i am dead and in a coffin. His family doesnt even ask about me, and I ask about them because I love them even though they may hate me. It hurts so much to be hated by your childrens uncles and aunts. I have never really had a sister, I have had a best friend. I have stopped speaking to her because i feel like the only person that is worthy of my time is my husband. I have never hated anyone , as many think I have, and have never felt hate towards a human being because one can only "hate" or "love" one to an extent then either love or hate fits in the remaining gap. I do not want to leave this relationship and I cannot say I have never thought of it, but it's marriage.