well i can hardly believe it, but i am pregnant!

AGAIN.. ALREADY... OH MY GOSH!....

i just took a test a week ago and sure enough, my baby boy isnt even 1 yet... i wasnt even planning on more, but i have to be happy, children are so wonderful i am just in such shooooooock!

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Update 5/09/08

well i go to my first doctors appointment today, i have no idea how far i am .. and i am just praying everything is okay with the baby. that we see it and hear a heartbeat... i am soooo sick with fear. i have no idea why.. wish me and my little one luck!

5/20/08

Everything went wonderful at my doc appointment a couple weeks ago. the babys little heart was beating away... everything looked perfect. i was sooo relieved...heart rate was 174 ... i have a feeling i am having another girl.. but of course i just want it to be healthy! i cant believe its almost week 11 already. i am sure tired of being tired!!!!!!

6/10/08

well 3 more days till my second doc appointment. my nerves have the best of me. for some reason i am just expecting bad news, i know its probably always going to be this way for me after the loss of my 3rd child, it just never gets easier and i have spent the last few days crying alot for him, missing him and the time we didnt get together... i love you Carter Maxwell.... always and forever. i cant wait to see you again one day.. Always mommas boy....

6/17/08

well my biggest fear came true. i have lost another baby.. my little girl Rubee Rose... please keep her and my son Carter in your prayers.. they are now in heaven and we are so blessed to have gotten to spend the time with her we did.. my tears are full right now and my understanding of this is none... i believe god has a plan i just wish i understood why it involved my babys. i dont know that i can bear to try pregnancy again.. the words no heartbeat, is enough to kill a mother. my doctor had to lay me down i almost passed out... i am so happy for all the expecting mother and pray for your safe journey and your healthy happy babys. i feel so blessed to have my 3 wonderful children here with me and i am so thankful to have 2 beautiful angels in heaven watching over us... they will always protect their brothers and sister and for that i am truely blessed. till the day i see their faces and get to hug and kiss my babys in heaven. MOMMY LOVES YOU CARTER MAXWELL & RUBEE ROSE....

Baby Marcel is HERE!!!! he weighted 5 pounds 9 ounces and we are both doing great. i will try to get more pics on here as soon as i can! miss you all and please send pics ..... my email is

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Me and my bestfriend in the world Carol met on here. Our boys were due 2 weeks a part and when it came down to it, we ended up having them only 1 day apart. May 10th Marcel was born and me and Carol have stayed in touch ever since. The boys even get their pictures taken together and visit each other... You truely can meet great people on here. Now i have found out i am pregnant again! WOW, only Carol isnt along for the ride with me this time!!!

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