I'm Chasity, I'm pregnant with my first. I'm having a little girl. I am with the father and he's been wonderful through it all. I'm scared out of my mind and as excited as a person can get!

03-14-08:

We went to the Doctors today and had the bio physical profile. It was AMAZING!! Our little girl is so beautiful! We couldn't believe how well you could see the details in her little face. It was just a normal 2D u/s. Very overwhelming....... I could feel the tears forming and I got that lump in the back of my throat when I saw her. They estimated her weight at 6lbs. 6oz. That was a relief. Her head is 32 cm and her tummy measure almost 34cm. LOL. What a little chubber. At least I know that the reason I look like I'm so big and squaring off is because my torso is so short. (I'm only 5 feet tall). I thought I was going to get off easy and get to go in once a week now but I'm now going in every Tuesday for the NST and every Friday for an NST and u/s to check the baby's weight. I had my second HIV test today.......so I'm all done testing and my step test came back negative too.

03-10-08:

So, I'm feeling a bit frustrated lately. I've already had my baby shower and we still need stuff......... big important stuff! Like the crib and the dresser/changer. NOt to meantion the little odds and ends. Adam's mom is supposed to buy the crib...... his dad is supposed to get a car seat for his car......nobody offered to get the changing table or a dresser so we need to do that. Not that we have anywhere to put the stuff but it'd be nice to have. Since November we've been living at Adam's mom's house. Since I haven't been able to work there was no way we could afford the bills and our car payments and everything else. I want so much to be able to paint and prepare a nursery. Granted we are moving in May but May seems so far away. Since Friday All I've thought about is the possibility of a c-section if my daughter is big. I don't know why i'm taking stock in a Dr who told me to exercise the last time he saw me and I ended up in L&D with bleeding from it. I'm already afraid of labor, this being my first child. I want very badly to have a natural birth. It'd really freak me out if I had to have a c-section. Especially since I'm on the heavy side to begin with and this same Dr told me that there are more complications post surgery for heavier women....... like infections in your fat cells. The guy scares the shit out of me every time I see him. I really wish my Dr would have been there or I could have seen my midwife instead. Now, I get to go in tomorrow afternoon and ask about everything all over again and I think I have my appointment with my old midwife whom I have a very severe distaste for. UGH! I'm hoping this is all over soon. My emotions and my mouth are in full swing today!.........

2-26-08:

I went to the Drs today and they checked my cervical length for the last time. My little girls head is pressed right up against my cervix. My cervix looked good at 3.4cm. I `m still crossing my fingers that she doesn `t decide to come before 36 weeks.