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hrdr2breathe3
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Well, here is page number 3 for me.. I ran out of space is the other 2 pages.. filled 'em all up :) If you would like to see my other two pages here's the links:
1. http://i-am-pregnant.com/vip/hrdr2breathe
2. http://i-am-pregnant.com/vip/hrdr2breathe2
and this one of course is:
3. http://i-am-pregnant.com/vip/hrdr2breathe3

See then trend?

I need to make a new background for this page and get everything updated (pictures and whatnot) so bear with me, and rest assured, it will be done. Meanwhile, I'm gonna continue where I left off:

WEEK 30

~8/18
Well, the doctor didn't have all of my test results back from my blood work, but said she thinks my 3 hour glucose test went OK. She didn't have my bile acid levels back though. She did say, however, that she wanted to do weekly biophysical profiles... aka: ultra sounds. So that's kinda cool. I'm still waiting on a good picture of Kyree. This last time she was head down, face against my hip, with hands and feet crossed up in front of her face. That is some serious commitment to being stubborn right there! We discussed my induction too. I'm thinking at 35 1/2 weeks- 36 weeks, I'll get an amniocentisus to check for lung maturity... quickly followed by my induction. I'm happy because my itching is getting to me. My hands feel like they are on fire right now from scratching them. This morning- after me going to bed at 3am, my son woke up at 6am for a cup of milk and a quick diaper change... then it took me 2 hours to go back to sleep because of the itching. I got a whole 5 hours total.. and last night was a good night! I have a prescription for Ambien, but my insurance company won't pay for it because they say it isn't safe for pregnancy- even though my OB/GYN prescribed it to me... and it's ok to take percocet? ugh.. whatever. My mom had said something about going to dinner for my birthday (this was 5 days ago).. then my family couldn't do anything, and my mom couldn't afford it anyway. So then today she is suggesting doing something (keep in mind, I don't have the money to do stuff, but I figure that since it's my birthday maybe I don't have to pay?) Well, she doesn't know what my family is doing, and wants me to call and find out.. even though it's supposedly for me? Riiight.. well then she says she still doesn't have money... so then why did she bring it up in the first place? So she suggests everyone coming to my house and us ordering pizza or KFC... great. *rolls eyes* It aggrivates me because the main attraction of it all to me was getting out of the house for some other reason than seeing the doctor or going to the grocery store. I swear that like, NEVER happens. All well.. Anyway, I think I'd like to get started on my pictures and background. TTFN :))

~8/21
Well, according to my ultrasound on Friday, the baby is 4 LBS, 12 OZ now. Granted, ultrasound estimates can be way off, but still! That's big! Although one of the measurements they take to come to that conclusion is the head... so that very well could just be coming from Dadddy's big head.

Forgot to add a few other things about what I learned Friday... The one pound i gained in this pregnancy is gone.. I'm back down that pound. That makes a 13ish pound loss so far. Couldn't tell that by my belly though! The doctor said she wanted to do a bio-physical profile every week. I thought that meant blood work.. which sucks. Turns out, she meant an ultrasound. That's fine with me.. if i gotta go to the doctor every Friday anyway, might as well get to see my kid, right? Besides, I'm still waiting on a good picture. This last time the baby was head down, her face to my back, buried in my hip, hands and feet crossed over her face.. that is some serious dedication to avoid getting her picture taken lol.

Fortunetly, the last 2 doctors I've seen both know what Cholestasis is, and realize the risks. They hadn't gotten back any of my blood work yet, but she said from what it looked like (from some unofficial results?), I only failed 1 of 4 of the times they took my blood.. meaning chances are I'm not diabetic. Sweet. Although, to me, they have taken 5 blood draws, and I've failed 2... that isn't the most comforting thing in the world. She hadn't gotten back anything about my bile acid level.. i just called my doc and they said they would call me back with the results in a few, so I'll probably add that part later. I'm still itchy.. in fact, night before last I literally got an hour of sleep. Last night in the shower I had to wash my stomach and legs with my hands because they are just too scratched up and raw for my puff thing.. it burned. Although, I managed to get some fairly good sleep last night.. about 6 total hours i think.. not too shabby. I was mad cuz i couldn't find my liver medication.. found it in the spice cupboard yesterday.. friggin pregnancy stupids. I hadn't taken it much, because I didn't want it to lower my bile levels... I need to be able to show those are elevated for PROOF of the Cholestasis... which is dumb since that is not a definate way of diagnosing it.. there is no definate way.. but whatever. I'm to the point now where i don't care if they see elevated results or not.. especially since they took my blood while I was fasting... duh, it's fat in food that apparently causes stuff to act up! Nothing is gonna show if there's nothing in there to trigger it right? Anyway, this last doc.. um.. Dr. Kathari (typing it so i remember it later) basically said "you're the one who has had it before, you would know what it feels like"... ohohoh.. get this-

we brought Gage with us to the doctor on Friday.. he was being a little cranky but it wasn't too bad, since they were actually running on time and we weren't there too long.. anyway, I do the typical pee-in-a-cup and weight check, then go in to the room and sit on the bed... then the nurse comes in to take my blood pressure... well, she stops to kinda bend down. She's talking to Gage- who is standing still for the first time during this visit. He stares at her blankly.. a few seconds of silence go by (as she is still bent down, smiling at him- maybe waiting for him to say something?) and then he farts fairly loud and long for such a little dude. Oh man.. it's still pretty funny to me now- even just reliving it. good stuff.

Speaking of Gage, ugh. That poor kid. He is acting just fine, mind you, but he's not. Yesterday Jerry was at work all day, which I thought would really mess with gage, but he was fine all day. Playing and napping, playing some more. Then when he got up from his nap and discovered jerry was home, first he didn't so anything.. then he gave him a hug. Still, I dunno he was acting strange for the rest of the night. And he didn't eat much yesterday.. wanted more milk than anything. seems to be the case so far today too. I took his armpit temperature yesterday when he felt warm and it was 100 degrees. i gave him some tylenol and put him down for a nap.. he was alright for awhile, but i had to give him more before bed because he got warm again. Same with this morning. I think I only have enough tylenol for one more dose.. gonna have to get more today. The crappy part is that jerry doesn't have a day off until Friday.. oh and yesterday when i was drying him off after his bath (Gage, that is) I noticed one of his ears was really sensative.. seemed to hurt when touched.. plus he's been pulling at both of em on and off for a few days... so I dunno... guess we'll see... it's just weird that he doesn't seem to feel bad at all.

I didn't even turn the computer on yesterday... crazy stuff! I'm such a computer junky! I just didn't feel like it. Today is different. i made the baby a blanket over the last couple days, and that kept me distracted from the itching.. but I finished it yesterday:

yeah.. sooooooo sick of itching! BTW.. that blanket was hard to take a picture of because gage just HAD to keep stepping on it! Oh, and it isn't all lopsided.. that's just the angle, mixed with not properly spreading it out.. anyway...

here's my latest ultrasound pics.. still haven't gotten a good one, but whatever.

picture of face:

picture of head and extremities decoded:

same picture of head and extremities if you know how to look at an ultra sound pic:

They are crappy cuz I took a picture of the pictures...

So yeah.. I've been sitting here for about an hour... still no call from my doctor's office.. lazy ass nurse!

All well.. on the plus side, I'll be being induced right around 36 weeks (as long as the amnio goes well).. Yay! Just 5 1/2 Weeks left!

***UPDATE***
i got my results.. normal is (on average) 0-12. Mine are at 81. This confirms I'm not crazy and the Cholestasis is back.. thus, gaurenteeing my early induction! Yay!

~8/21
I wasn't even going to post a new update today because not much is going on. It's been an average day, and I've been in an average mood. That is until I..
BABY MOMMA DRAMA ALERT*
I have 4 things I go on everyday.. myspace, cafemom.com, here, and yahoo to check my e-mail. Well, on cafemom.com I saw a post about a website that got my attention. I checked it out and, turns out, it's an awesome site! What should I do? I asked myself.. I decided then, to share the site as many moms and moms-to-be as I could.. so What do i do? I post about it here, in this website in the message boards. Initially i was just going to post in my week, but I figured I'd post it in other weeks as well, just so as many moms as possible saw this. This is what I posted:
I just had to share. I found this on another mom site I'm on and I think it's really neat :) www.kizoodle.com basically it's like an ebay for moms.. or an online garage sale.. except no money is ever used. It all goes by credits.. not ones you buy.. like, if you post an outfit for 3 credits, then you can use those 3 credits to buy a teddy bear.. etc. Guess you would just have to check it out for yourselves.. I just couldn't help myself, I can't wait to get rid of all my sons old clothes and get new ones for my soon-to-be-here daughter! Oh, btw, you get 5 credits for signing up, and another 2 if you use this promo code: YD81MT and no, I don't get anything for getting anyone to sign up! i just like it that much :)
I figured that was innocent enough. Not a big deal right? Since I was just trying to help other moms. Well then I get this message on my VIP page:
hrdr2breathe3: please check out the following link: http://kizoodle.com/Article.aspx?id=2 Kizoodle DOES give you something for referrals!!! You need to to your homework before telling everyone something you are not sure of!!
I won't say who it was from, as I do not wish to cause anymore drama than already exists.. but if you really wanna, look at my comments.. it's in there. Anyway.. Then i realize, it's not just on my VIP page.. she also posted that in week 30 (my week).. oh no no.. not just week 30... every other week I posted in! At first I thought "oh maybe she just wasn't sure what week I am" well no.. see, because you can look to the right on the top of everybody's VIP page and see what week they are in.. seems to me she wanted to make me look bad. Of course, I had to have a response (i wasn't going down like that!):
I'm sure you weren't trying to be rude, although you came off as such. My point was that I wasn't sharing for the sake of getting something in return, as I never bothered to do any 'homework' about how to get something out of sharing the site. I shared because I like the site and think it's a neat idea. Maybe the mom who shared it with me got some credit.. good for her.. I just shared the promo code i was given... wasn't trying to swindle anyone.. i never claimed it wasn't possible to get something in return, only that I wasn't getting anything, and was willing to share anyway. Btw, you don't need to send something to me here on the message boards, and on my VIP page.. One or the other would have been sufficient, thanks.
And.. I had to do this on every weeks message board, just for the sake of others knowing I wasn't just some spammer. Heck, maybe she even thought I was.. but honestly, if i was here to spam or advertise, would I be on my 3rd VIP page right now, because I have filled up 2 others? Do I come on here and advertise? NO. I wasn't advertising.. i was sharing something I thought was neat.. I stood to have no personal gain.. THAT would be advertising- which is clearly stated is not allowed. Fine with me, i don't need people spamming me. Anyway, I just thought I'd share how one person's stupidity could be another persons entertainment, hope you enjoyed:) I feel better now.

~8/24
So at the doctor today I got (another) ultrasound. I was measuring 2 1/5 weeks passed my due date- which has been the case for most of my pregnancy. They didn't want to change my due date because they say you have to be measuring 3 weeks bigger.. how lame is that? Anyway, because it's been so consistant though, and because 2 1/2 weeks makes a big difference these days, The lady a saw today (a nurse practioner- but not the stupid one I saw before) said that she thinks the best course of action is to change my due date (bump it up by about 2 weeks), then get steriods to help mature the baby's lungs, then get an amnio, then go for the induction.. However, because she isn't an MD, she cannot change my due date.. so I have to go see an official MD to get this done. So here's the plan all broken down, nice and neat like: This coming Tuesday, (Aug. 28th) I have (yet another) ultrasound, immedietly followed by an appointment with an official MD... some guy whose name I don't recall- never seen him before.. He will (most likely/ hopefully) concure with the Woman I saw today, and declare I am 33 weeks as of that day (so i will go from 31 weeks, 3 days, to 33 weeks) And will get the Steroids ASAP after my appointment (since, according to the woman, they can give- at the latest- at 33 weeks.. I always thought it was 34 weeks? anyways..). Then, probably about 35 weeks, I'll get an amnio. If everything is fine from there (which it should be) I will probably be induced a couple days after. Keep in mind, this is all just the way it's panning out in my head, and I'm going by what the chick today said. But one thing I can say is that I'll know what's officially going to happen on Tuesday. Jerry already called to take part of the day off and everything.. Tuesday can't come quickly enough! Also, The chick is calling me in a prescription for Ambien, and hopefully getting the Vistaril sorted out.. both medications that would make my world a whole lot less miserable! On the down side, we don't have much baby stuff. I have a decent amount of clothes, except they are various sizes.. and I'll probably need premie clothes (I did with Gage, and I have a feeling this one will be a little smaller than him). I'm supposed to have a baby shower but nobody can do it on the same day.. and I don't know a lot of people who would/could come anyways. It's frustrating... I was freaking out about getting everything stocked up and ready in time last night.. and today I find out the baby will probably be here even sooner? I dunno what to do! Not like we can afford to just go out and buy everything just like that... I guess, at least, I have a carseat and swing and boppy, and pump, and bed, and almost all the big stuff already. I'm just worried about diapers and clothes... could be worse though... I'm still happy to know I don't have to be pregnant for much longer, and I'll get to see miss Kyree soon :))

WEEK 31

~8/25
I still say Tuesday can't come quickly enough..oy! My grandma called yesterday (and talked for 3 1/2 hours- good grief!) she said she is gonna try and get everyone's butt into gear and pull something together (a makeshift baby shower for me). And everyone listens to grandma! lol.. My mom is coming over today to get her hair permed (the woman doing it lives by me and it was convenient for her to come here or something *shrug* I'm not sure why they are doing it here really). But I'm happy because my mom is bringing me things I need from her house.. my glider ricking chair, my breast pump, my insurance card, AND my van is parked at her house and she is taking pictures of it for me to put online to sell it.. that'll get me some extra money :)) Hopefully that goes well, too, because otherwise I'll have to sell my (thus far UNUSED) wedding dress.. and I'd hate to have to sell it without wearing it.. mostly because I'd have to sell it at about 1/3 of the price (I gotta kinda ripped off). Anyway, I have some ultrasound pics from yesterday :)

3D PIC OF HER FACE

REGULAR ULTRASOUND OF HER FACE

~8/28
So on Friday the doctor i saw said that she thought i should get steroids for the baby's lungs, and that my due date should be bumped up.. but she could due that stuff because she was just a nurse practitioner and not an actual MD. Makes me sad because me and her were on the same page. So basically, she scheduled me for an "emergency" appointment with an actual doctor, so that they could get me all set up for that stuff.. I was nervous because I thought the doctor i was seeing today was someone new.. some dude I hadn't seen before. Well, turns out I have seen this doctor before. And it was a woman- an african chick to be exact. The last time I saw her she said that she knew the Cholestasis would probably occur in this pregnancy, but basically that it was too early (about 18 weeks i think I was at the time) to start itching. Well, I knew I wasn't crazy, and believe me, i am not the only person by a long shot who started having problems that early. It annoyed me but i moved on. Well, basically today she said moving my due date and giving me steroids isn't necessary... that I just have a big baby.. yeah right.. just like i was told gage would be over 9 pounds.. riight.. he was barely over 6 1/2. I'm not diabetic, I'm not genetically predispositioned to be fat/have a fat baby, i haven't gained any weight during this whole pregnancy, and a baby can only get as big as it's environment.. which my small stature prevents a totally large baby- no matter how big jerry's head may be! Anyway, needless to say I'm pretty convinced the steroids and due date move is a good idea.. we went round and round for awhile.. it basically got to the point where I was like, ok then, don't move my due date, I don't care, just induce me at 34 weeks (that way if they did move my due date, I'd be at about 36 weeks- exactly when I'd prefer to be delivered- nothing passed that.. after that it's too risky. I figure if they don't move my due date and deliver me at 34 weeks (what I'd consider 36 weeks) and I REALLY DID turn out to be 34 weeks.. well to me 34 weeks is safer then not moving my due date and delivering at 36 weeks (what I'd consider 38).. moral of the story- I'd rather have a 34 week baby than a 38 week baby. So anyhow, we went round and round.. finally it was decided I'd see a parenatologist (a specialist). Fine. now I have to wait for them to call me to set up an appointment.. they better call tomorrow because She even said i she see one ASAP.. and if they do move my due date, I don't have much time left to get the steroids if the specialist agrees. Also, I have yet another doctor's appointment and ultrasound on Friday. generally I'd just cancel it, but I get to see one of the doctors I really like, I'd like to get a second opinion from her. The lame thing is that my ultrasound and appointment are like, 3 hours apart.. I could have had them back to back, except I refuse to see the stupid Nurse practitioner who told me to take Benadryl. So, really, I'm no better off or better informed than I was before this appointment. I'm so frustrated.

WEEK 32

~9/3
So.. a lot of people were apparently worried about me this weekend because I hadn't been online... that's kind of sad when you really think about it but all well.. My mom called me on Friday, asking if we wanted to go to California. We weren't really sure what we were getting ourselves into, but decided to go. after taking FOREVER, we stopped for almost 50 bucks worth of junk food and for me to pee (for the millionth time) and we were finally on our way. The trip up was fairly uneventful. When we did get there and saw where we were staying (it was the place of a friend of a friend sorta) I was thoroughly grossed out. It was an apartment that appeared to be straight outta the ghetto. It was a one bedroom- a tiny one at that. We're supposed to stay the night there, right? well.. the bedroom was occupied.. so the living room area had to accomidate my mom, myself, my sister, my bother, Jerry, and Gage.. Oh.. now add the fact that there is a heat wave going on in this area in California, and there is no a/c. Oh, and the apartment belongs to an almost 50-yr-old bachelor.. I had to put toilet paper on the toilet seat it was nasty... we got in at about 2:30am... and TRIED to sleep. It was just TOO DAMN HOT. Plus I had forgotten to take my meds before I left so I was itchy too. I thought this was going to be an aweful weekend all together.. BUT.. thankfully, Saturday went rather well:) When we got up in the morning after having breakfast and everyone taking their dear sweet time.. we made it down to the beach. Neither Gage nor Jerry had ever been. Overall, Gage didn't care for it much. The water scared him or maybe was just too cold, and it took him forever to even be brave enough to touch the sand. He spent most of the time just chillen on a towel... along with my mom. Jerry and I, on the other hand spent most of our time body surfing and playing in the waves. Minus the salt water corroding our throats and eyes, we had so much fun. I couldn't believe I found somebody who enjoyed the waves as much as me.. most other people just wimp out and stay near the shore.. not us. It was even almost romantic. We were all lovey-dovey.. probably made people sick.. it was awesome lol. We both are paying the price though- with our killer sunburns. Other than some drama with an annoying woman and dealing with the heat, that day turned out good all in all.. we ended up going home the next day.. It was really nice to sleep in my own bed last night, instead of a hot crowded room on a couch. My uncle invited us to come stay with him (thanks Jon:) but it didn't work out that way.. although I'm sure, since we had so much fun at the beach, we'll probably make it out to visit my uncle and take another trip to the beach soon.. maybe not TOO SOON.. but it'll be a nice vacation after i have the kiddo.. Anyway, there are pics from the trip in my photo album.. feel free to check em out :)
On a different note, I went to my Friday doctor's appointment. We went in for my ultrasound, and then had like 3 hours to kill until my actual appointment. After driving around trying to find a phantom chinese buffet, we decided to go to a pizza and wings place.. for some, well, pizza and wings. The food was pretty good actually.. and, for some reason, it seemed like a good idea to give Gage Mountain Dew. Oh but don't worry, he chased it with some Cherry Pepsi! lol. Keep in mind, he rarely gets any sort of junk food, so it wasn't a big deal to let him binge a little.. well. he was HOPPED UP! My little junky.. totally nuts! It was hillarious.. maybe ya just had to be there.. anyways.. So then we went in for my appointment. It was as it usually is, they weighed me and led me to the room, took my blood pressure, told me the doctor would be in shortly.. Well, obviously whomever was in that room before me got an exam because the stirrups were out. I was like, "Umm... yeah.. no.. I won't be needing these" and pushed them in (put them away). Well, after the doctor came in, she decided I needed what's called an FFN. I don't remember what it stands for but it's a test to see if I'm at risk of going into labor in the next apprx. 2 weeks... this FFN thing? Well, it requires an exam *shudder* She laughed at me and told me I jynxed myself by saying i wouldn't need the stirrups.. For those of you who don't know, when a doctor does a vagina exam, they always has a nurse in the room- I'm sure this is for good purpose, so no funny business goes on, but the chick who came in was complaining about something.. well, her and the doc were both kinda talking crap cuz they were annoyed by something.. then they realized they were basically talking like they were the only ones in the room, so they proceeded to explain to Jerry what they were complaining about.. Gage was running around the room, and here I am on my back, naked from the waist down, with a metal duck bill looking thing all up in my cookies and a light so bright my spleen was probably showing, and there are 3 people talking amongst themselves at the business end of the table.. What a fun time. She also decided to exam me because of some ultrasound findings that didn't add up- and, thankfully, my cervix is still closed. I really like this doctor, she understands the severity of my condition, and is very thorough, and she also has a good sense of humor.. which is why, for a few seconds, I thought she was joking when she told me no sex until further notice. *DIES* She said no sex until my results from the FFN come back at least, because I'm now considered high-risk. Yay... They should be back tomorrow- we almost made it the whole weekend.. our bad. :P So now I'm scheduled for another ultrasound on Wednesday, then I see the specialist Thursday, and I'm thinking I'll probably end up seeing the doc again on Friday.. I can't wait until this doctor stuff is over! At least it isn't too far in the future.. Other than that.. well, i think I'm mostly caught up on this blog now.. We are just relaxing today.. Jerry is gonna grill some bratwurst, I'll probably clean up some stuff.. we are just enjoying our off day before the week begins again.. happy day everyone.. happy day.

FIRST WEEK OF LIFE!
(copied from my myspace)

Alright, here's the deal. I've very tired and have more on my mind than updating everyone else so I'll give you the quick version.

Yes, I had the baby.
She looks a lot like Jerry (nothing like me), but we both agree, she actually kind of looks like his brother (who I might add lives in a different state and I only met once last year.. just to clarify).
She has lightish brown hair (a decent amount of it) although there is tape on her head and I suspect when it's removed a lot of her hair will go with it (I'll explain in a min).
From what I've seen, her eyes are newborn blue.. meaning I don't know what color they really are.. Gage's were completely black when he was born, so all I can really assume is that they will be lighter than his.
She has dimples.
She was 6 pounds, 13.5 ounces at birth, and 19 Inches.
She was bor Tuesday, October 2nd (on Jerry's grandma's birthday) at 8:10am.
I haven't got to spend a lot of time with her, so I can't say whether or not she is a 'good baby' or if she eats a lot or anything like that.. all I can tell you is that she's a trooper.. oh, and we were told by nurses that she has a bad temper (go figure).

Basically, I had my amnio, it was good, I got induced... blahblahblah... My labor was about 14 hours... I only ended up pushing for about 5 minutes, but the last half hour of labor was painful.. where as My epidural had been keeping me happy before that (it wore off I guess?) Anyway, she came out ok.. Her apgar scores were 8 and 8 if that means anything to anyone.. We both got to hold her, she didn't want to breastfeed, and Jerry ended up feeding her a bottle. She was in the room for an hour or two.. most of that time she spent in the warmer- then a nurse said she was gonna take her to check her oxygen levels because she was grunting and flaring her nostrils.. cut to 4 hours later when my baby is still missing and nobody has said anything... I found out (after sending Jerry down to the nursery) they had her under an oxygen hood because she was breathing funny.. they thought there was just a little extra fluid and it needed to clear out.. well anyway, that was yesterday... a lot oxygen, some antibiotics, and some x-rays later (not to mention the iv in the top of her head!) she got airvac-ed (via helicopter) to another hospital for some slightly more intrusive care. I don't really feel like going in to details and really, don't know what else to say.
Jerry and I are home now, calling to check on her every few hours and are gonna visit her tomorrow.. I'll update again whenever I find out something more significant.
I (well we both are) sick of people looking at us with pitty.
I HATE when the nurses giving her prognosis start with the phrase "Well, we don't think she's going to die..." how reassuring, right? *rolls eyes*
As of right now, she is doing ok.. hopefully will continue to improve tonight...
I can't think of anything else...
Thanks to those who stopped by, btw :)
I posted pics in her album... not the greatest but at least we've got some...
Oh, and we went with Kyree Amelia.

and a few pics.. (more on my myspace)

~10/8
Just a quick update for those who actually read this :)) lil miss Kyree is doing much better. I thought she was getting to go home today, but it looks like she is staying 1 more night at the hospital. Was a little disappointing but what's 1 more day when it's already been a week, right? No more IVs, no more oxygen, no more jaundice.. We go to see her every day and it's nice to see her free from most wires (she just has the heart rate monitor and breathing monitor and oxygen monitor.. just 3 lil sticky tabs on her chest.. no biggie) she even finally is in a normal bed and has clothes on! As for me, I went to the doctor the day after being discharged.. They gave me percocet and some antibiotics of a UTI.. not fun right after giving birth.. the sharp pain from it was aweful but now my back hurts.. I think I now have a kidney infection.. but whatever.. I'm still happy! Although I want my kids home! Thanks to all those who have sent your best wishes!

~10/13
Quick update.. Baby got home on the 9th.. so happy to have both my kids home. They seem to have adjusted to each other well:) I'm still having issues with back pain, but at least the UTI is better.. Last night i got drunk.. I thought I'd just have a beer to help me sleep.. but then i had 6.. my bad. I slept great though! Jerry drank with me, and we ended up spending most of the night on the back porch, talking about how the last year has been crazy, and how much we love each other and the kids.. mushy, eh? Then we realized it was after midnight.. therefor it was the 13th.. which meant it was our anniversary.. he realized before me! It was nice to forget about everything and just have some us time (although keep in mind we didn't ignore the kids or anything, and didn't get TOO drunk -we were still able to take care of em). Anyway, again, thanks to everyone for the comments.. much appreciated!

~11/9/07
Kyree is a little over a month old. she can hold her head up very well, and is half way to rolling over! They get so big so fast! Gage points to her and says 'baby' and runs to her crib when she cries but other than that, barely acknowleges she is here. She sleeps for about 3 hours at a time and eats about 3-3 1/2 ounces per feeding. She is still pretty tiny though.. can still wear preemie clothes, and is still swimming in newborn clothes.. even though she is almost 8 pounds now. In some ways it's actually been easier this time around because I knew what to expect. Jerry usually feeds her at least once a day, and has taken equal parts in cooking.. as for cleaning, neither of us have done much lol. Don't get me wrong, our house isn't WRECKED, but give it a few more days and that may be a different story lol. We have messed up a sleep schedule so badly. At one point me were going to bed when the sun came up. We went to bed at like, 1ish last night, then when I started to fall asleep at 3ish, she wanted to be fed. She was quite discontent for awhile (dunno why) and it took me an hour or so to feed and change and burp her.. then i layed down at 4, started to doze sometime after 4:30.. only for her to wake up at 5 acting like she was hungry... I was threatening to punt her across the room and was on the verge of tears (it happens). One thing I can definitely say for Jerry, is he gets up before me and I get a couple extra hours usually. He gets up for Gage and feeds him breakfast. The baby stays in the room with me, that way I can drag my butt out of bed at a decent time (for her next feeding I usually manage to get up and dressed and leave the bedroom.. otherwise I'd just stay in there all day.) I plan to write a whole labor and delivery story at some point, but for now, here's the jyst: Went in for my amnio in the morning on Oct. 1st.. after 3 pokes they finally got fluid.. went to lunch.. finally found out at 6ish her lung test was positive.. went to the hospital... got cervical gel.. dialted to 2-3. then 4. Walked lots of laps around the hospital, had some taco bell, walked more laps, Amanda showed up bearing lots of gifts (actually taco bell was after she showed), still at 4cm, walked more laps.. got checked, got checked, got checked... finally 4 1/2, got an epidural, got some much needed sleep, got woken up by doc saying they were gonna break my water.. got my water broken, epidural started wearing off, got the anethstisiologist (sp?) come back in to give me a big dose of numb stuff.. didn't have time for it to kick in.. had pains, back hurt but too numb to shift positions, dialated to 10 very quickly, cried and begged doc to give me drugs.. still to numb to shift out of the position causing me a lot of pain, had the baby. whew. they took her for a bath, I fell asleep.. 4 hours later I woke up she still wasn't back.. had to send jerry to the nursery.. grandma visited.. baby was in the special care nursery, jesse showed (oh btw nick also showed before I delivered) with dani.. snuck off for a cigarette. checked out the next day when baby was airvacked to another hospital, went over there, visited every day for a week- when she finally came home- where she has been ever since. man, can you imagine if I had typed out all the details? Some other day.. any way, both kids are doing well. That's about it for now.. may try and update more later. :) TTFN! (ps- bunch of new pics- of the baby, gage, jerry, and me- I dyed my hair black:)

11/28
~Well, let's see. Kyree is being more independent.. she is interested it doing things by herself.. I'm not really sure how to explain it, but she likes to stand and bounce (while being held up of course) and look around.. she is very smiley. She is also sleeping for long periods of time.. sometimes through the night. Gage loves to give her hugs and pet her. He also walks over to her bed and points and says 'baby'. He has been somewhat of a monster lately. Nothing too horrible, just lots of tantrums and SCREAMING.. piercing screams. Could be worse I guess.

Jerry and I plan to get married before the end of the year (in the next 5 weeks). I'd like to get married on December 31st.. so we'll see how that works out.

I was watching either TLC or the Discovery Health channel the other day who weighed 455. She (without surgery) got down to 145. That's less than I weigh... if her fat ass can do it, why can't I? I'm not asking for much. I just want to be able to shop in the juniors section (like a 13) ideally I'd like to be a size 7 but I'd accept a 13. I'm gonna be very brave here... Right now I'm basically a size 16. I say basically because it depends on where I shop. I hate that I am right in between. I can go to Torrid or Lane Bryant and it's hard to find a 16 either place because 14/16 is their smallest size. Well, guess what? when I do find a 16 at either of those places, it's too BIG. but if I take my big ass down to Rue 21 or (insert trendy clothing store for skinny people here) the highest size I can find is either a 14 or a 17 depending on their sizing.. and.. surprise surprise.. they are both too SMALL. I can't win. Now, again, if that fat ass woman can start off at 455 and end up smaller than me, I sure as hell can lose enough to wear a 13 right? My problem is that I'm not sure where to start. BTW.. this is not an invitation to fill me with butt loads of dieting advice.. I don't mind tips but if you are fat and trying to tell me of a sure fire way to lose weight, you better damn well follow that by a damn good reason for not using your own advice AKA why YOUR ass is still fat.
Anyway..
I've decided I'm going to start shopping in the section of the grocery store that I haven't much explored.. the HEALTHY section.. be it health freak health food, or simply something organic, I'm gonna try and eat better foods. As far as a diet is concerned, I think I may try a low calorie diet.. although I'm still on the fence about it. This is my new years resolution, btw.. so this will start on January 1st. I'm not one to even half ass bother to attempt to stick to new year's resolutions, so this is a new thing for me. and to show you I'm serious, I'll say this:
After I had Kyree I was 184 pounds. Let's just say I've put on a few since. Not a lot, mind you, but enough to bug me. I'm gonna go ahead and point the blame for that on my eating habits lately. Lots of soda.. and baking. I've made lemon bars twice, oatmeal cookies, and monkey brains (kinda like sticky buns)... I have a toblerone (chocolate bar) (although not one of the huge ones) in my pantry... Chocolate cereal, quesadillas, casseroles, flautas and queso, ugh. And now I'm hungry. It's alright though, I have a month left to enjoy myself.. and after that it's BACKFAT BETTY'S BOOTCAMP for me! Nothing to extravigant, just a healthier meal plan, and more excercise. If I can't do something as simple as that, then i deserve to be fat.
Other than that..?
I dyed my hair black, but most of you know that already.
I'm managing to take care of 2 kids and cleaning my house at least every other day.. I'm proud.
jerry and i are good as usual.. although those 6 weeks were a killer! That's all I can sit still for, for now.. TTFN! (ps- a few new pics up)

~12/14
Well, Kyree is 2 1/2 months old now. She is a typical baby.. eat sleep, smile, poop, eat sleep.. Not much to add, except that I got an IUD.. that sucked btw. But I'm bad about taking pills so hopefully it is worth the pain. Gage is starting to talk more. Me and a few of my friend are donig the discovery health channel body challenge.. hopefully when it's over I can show off pics of a new slimmer me! That's all for now.. oh yeah and I may be getting married in 2 weeks lol.

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