HEY LADIES I DECIDED TO DELETE MY STORY FROM MY PAGE BECAUSE I WAS GETTING A LOT OF COMPLIMENTS I FELT I WAS UNWORTHY OF. MY HARD EXTERIOR AND MY PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE, FAMILY, RELATIONSHIPS, ETC. WAS BROUGHT ON BY A LIFETIME AND PAIN AND ABUSE. I NEVER REALLY FELT LOVED UNTIL I MET JARRETT AND IT WAS A KNEW THING TO ME. YOU ALL KNOW WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH WITH THE LIES AND THE CHEATING AND DENYING MY SON FOR HIS OWN PERSONAL GAIN. YOU ONLY HEAR THE BAD BUT HE HAS BROUGHT A LOT OF JOY TO MY LIFE AND I WOULDN'T TRADE IT FOR THE WORLD. HE GAVE ME THE GREATEST GIFT ANYONE COULD EVER GIVE A PERSON. HE TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE. HOWEVER THE ROAD TO HELL IS PAVED WITH GOOD INTENTIONS. IM SURE HE NEVER INTENDED TO HURT ME BUT HE ALSO NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD FIND OUT THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HE WAS REALLY DOING. I KNOW IM YOUNG AND IM PREGNANT WITH ANOTHER MIDDLETON AND IT UPSET ME AT FIRST BUT AS TIME WENT ON I REALIZED THAT GOD KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING AND I MUST BE A DAMN GOOD MOTHER IF HE'S BLESSED ME WITH ANOTHER LIFE SO SOON. SO LADIES I SAY THIS TO YOU I HAVE PROBLEMS JUST LIKE YOU DO AND I CRIED FOR A LONG TIME ABOUT WHAT I WANTED... WELL WHAT I THOUGHT I WANTED MORE THAN ANYTHING AND THAT WAS TO BE WITH MY BABY'S FATHER. BUT THATS NOT WHATS MOST IMPORTANT. WHAT IS THOUGH IS THE RESPECT THAT YOU MUST ALWAYS HAVE FOR YOURSELF AND THE STRENGTH TO GO ON AND BE THE BEST MOTHER AND WOMAN YOU CAN BE. I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER. I'VE BEEN WHERE A LOT OF YOU ARE TODAY ESPECIALLY US YOUNG MOTHERS WE HAVE TO GROW UP FAST AND LEARN LIFE LESSONS AS TEENAGERS. I LOVE AND THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS AND WISDOM AND REMEMBER THAT ITS OK TO WANT HIM BACK BUT ITS NEVER OK TO SACRIFICE YOUR DIGNITY AND SELF RESPECT TO GET HIM BACK. TRUST ME I KNOW BECAUSE DEEP DOWN I WANT JARRETT BACK BUT THE JARRETT THAT I WANT IS NOTHING MORE THAN A DISTANT MEMORY. THIS IS LIFE AND I HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR MY KIDS.

HUGS AND KISSES

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