HEY LADIES... MY NAMEIS CHARLII IM 18 AND I JUST HAD MY FIRST SON JARRETT JR. ON APRIL 1ST BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION. MY LIL MAN IS A SOLDIER HE WAS 2 MONTHS AND 28 DAYS PREMATURE AND WEIGHED LESS THAN 2 POUNDS. IT WAS THE SCARIEST TIME IN MY LIFE. BUT 5 WEEKS LATER HE'S DOING VERY WELL AND WEIGHS IN AT 3 POUNDS.YAY!!!!!!! I CANT WAIT TO FINALLY BRING HIM HOME. ME AND MY SONS FATHER ARE NOT SEEING EYE TO EYE AND ARE NO LONGER TOGETHER BASED ON HIS LIES AND HIS SECRET MYSPACE LIFE. IN FACT WE DONT SPEAK AT ALL. I CAN DO BAD ALL BY MYSELF I DONT NEED SOMEBODY WHO'S NOT HELPING ME IN A POSITIVE MANNER. SO I CUT HIS ASS LOOSE. BUT I CANT HELP BUT LOVE HIM. I WISH I COULD BECAUSE I HATE HOW HIS DISHONESTY HAS ULTIMATELY F***** MY SON. MY MOTHER RAISED A STRONG WOMAN AND IF I LET HIM GET AWAY WITH THE SMALL STUFF THEN HE'S GOING TO KEEP TESTING ME AND I'LL END UP IN A HOLE TO DEEP TO CLIMB OUT OF. BOTTOMLINE HIS LOVE WASN'T UNCONDITIONAL AND HE HAD NO RESPECT FOR ME AS THE MOTHER OF HIS ONLY CHILD OR AS A PERSON SO I HAD TO LET HIM GO. IT HURT LIKE HELL TO DO BUT IT WAS THE BEST THINGFOR ME AND MY SON BECAUSE IF IT HAD'VE HAPPENED WHEN MY SON WAS OLDER I DONT THINK I WOULD HAVE THE STRENGTH TO DO IT. YOU CANT MISS WHAT YOU NEVER HAD AND MY SON HAS NEVER HAD A FATHER BUT HE WILL ALWAYS HAVE A MOTHER WHO LOVES HIM AND WOULD ANYTHING TO KEEP HIM SAFE AND HAPPY.

June 12, 2008

HEY LADIES... QUICK UPDATE

ME AND BABYDADDY ARE GETTING BETTER NOW WE'RE NOT GETTING BACK TOGETHER BECAUSE ONCE A CHEATER ALWAYS A CHEATER. BUT I MUST ADMIT HE HAS COME ALONG WAY BECAUSE HE REACHED OUT TO ME AND CONFESSED ALL OF WHAT I ALREADY KNEW AND SOMETHINGS THAT I DIDNT. HE IS FINALLY GROWING UP. AND I HATE TO ADMIT IT BUT HE IS A WONDERFUL FATHER TO MY SON. I KNOW HE REALLY LOVES HIM AND WANTS WHATS BEST FOR HIM. BUT HE STILL COULD BE DOING MORE AND SPENDING MORE TIME WIT HIM. BUT HEY BABY STEPS RIGHT LOL.... ANYWAY I'M DATING AND I FEEL A WHOLE LOT BETTER I CAN FINALLY STAND ON MY OWN TWO FEET AND TAKE CARE OF MY SON. I HAVE TO COMPLAINTS AND I REALLY BELIEVE THAT WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER. IN A WAY IM KINDA GLAD THAT HE LIED AND CHEATED AND DID EVERYTHING POSSIBLE TO TRY TO BREAK ME BECAUSE IM A BETTER WOMAN AND I LEARNED A VALUABLE LESSON AT A YOUNG AGE. THE ONLY MAN WHO CAN CHANGE HOW I FEEL ABOUT ME AND LIFE IS JESUS. SEE LADIES PRAYER WORKS FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE FOR A LONG TIME THERE WAS NO LIGHT AT THE END OF MY TUNNEL. BUT I FINALLY REACHED IT AND I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. AND FOR ALL OF YOU LADIES WHO ARE HAVING THE SAME PROBLEM TRUST ME ITS ONLT TEMPORARY FOCUS ON GOD AND YOUR CHILDREN BECAUSE IN THE END THEIR ALL THAT MATTERS. JJ IS DOING GREAT HE'S BEEN HOME FOR ABOUT 3 WEEKS AND WEIGHS IN AT 5 LBS 2 OZ. MY BABY GETTIN BIG. HE WAS ONLY 3 LBS 11 OZ WHEN HE CAME HOME LESS THAN 3 WEEKS AGO. WELL IM GOING BACK TO MY LIL MAN. THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGING WORDS. DONT BE A STRANGER.

XOXO

CHARLII & JARRETT JR.

JUNE 27TH

OH MY F****** GOD. I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN. LADIES I HAVE A CONFESSION YOU ALL KNOW THE SITUATION BETWEEN ME AND BD. WELL I HAD ONE EMOTIONAL MOMENT I MEAN TOTAL BREAK DOWN AND HE WAS THE ONLY ONE HERE TO COMFORT ME. WELL MY DUMB ASS GOT CAUGHT UP IN THE MOMENT AND WE DID THE GROWN UP. I DIDNT TRIP WHEN THE RUBBER BROKE BECAUSE I HAD GOTTEN AN IUD ABOUT A WEEK BEFORE. LADIES I WENT TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY BECAUSE I WASN'T FEELING TOO WELL AND THOUGHT IT WAS A HORMONAL IMBALANCE DUE TO ME RECENTLY GIVING BIRTH AND THEN GETTING THE IUD. SHE EXAMINED MY ABDOMEN AND THEN ROLLED IN THE MACHINE I WS PANICKING IM THINKING SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG. THEN I SAW IT THE YOLK SAC AND THE LITTLE FLUTTER. THATS RIGHT A HEARTBEAT. I DAMN NEAR FAINTED I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. I WAS HOPING AND PRAYING THAT IT WAS ALL ADREAM BUT WHEN I GOT HOME I REALIZED THE SAD TRUTH I CHARLII AYESHA DENISE BODDIE AM GOING TO BE A MOTHER AGAIN IN JUST 8 SHORT MONTHS. I FEEL SO STUPID. MORE SO THAN THAT I AM EMBARASSED THIS SHIT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN. BUT I LOOK AT ALL CHILDREN AS BLESSING AND THE LORD KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING SO IM NOT EVEN GON QUESTION IT. I'LL JUST HAVE TWO CHILDREN UNDER 1 . LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH. PRAY FOR ME LADIES. CUZ ANOTHER MIDDLETON IS ON THE WAY.